TO BE LOVED IS TO TURN AROUND

"Marianne: He chooses the memory of her. That's why he turns. He doesn't make the lover's choice, but the poet's. // Héloïse: She spoke a last farewell that scarcely reached his ears and fell back into the abyss. Perhaps she was the one who said, 'Turn around.'"

Two manga panels taken from Gege Akutami's "Jujutsu Kaisen."
The first one shows two men standing in a busy subway station. Suguru (left) is a young man wearing a gold-colored kāṣāya over black yukata robes. He has long black hair tied into a half-bun. He smiles brightly and waves as he calls, "Yo! Satoru!"
Satoru (right) is a young man wearing a black jacket. There is a bloodstain on his right cheek beneath his eye. He has short, white hair and has a startled expression.
The second panel is smaller and only shows Satoru. The angle is much closer. He looks backwards with wide eyes as he says, "Huh?"

"I'd be the voice that urged Orpheus / When her body was found (Hey, yeah) / I'd be the choiceless hope in grief / That drove him underground (Hey, yeah) / I'd be the dreadful need in the devotee / That made him turn around (Hey, yeah) / And I'd be the immediate forgiveness in Eurydice / Imagine being loved by me"

Portrait de la jeune fille en feu Portrait of a Lady on Fire (2019) dir. Céline Sciamma // 呪術廻戦 Jujutsu Kaisen (2018-) cr. Gege Akutami // Hozier Talk

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