Sometimes The Writer Agenda Is Writing About Your Deepest, Most Animalistic Kinks And Attributing It

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Someone I knew- an acquaintance, died today. I was indifferent to his existence, we all are to most people we casually encounter but it's hard to be entirely indifferent to their death too. You feel for the the possibility of life they could've had, you feel for the sorrow of those who knew them, you feel anxieties and hopelessness of those who were left behind with a hole in their daily lives because of that death. You feel the utter despair even if just for a second. I am not surprised that I did too, even if just for a few minutes as the realness of the moment hit me at once and overwhelmed my mind. I cried, a little but I did and I had no control over it. It's the origin of that burst of grief from within- the heartbreak for the family of that cold dead body being mourned now, the heartbreak of the good and bad that person was being everyday of their life but will be no more, the heartbreak for the cries and heartache that isn't even mine.

Here's to the relief of death still being merely an acquaintance to me.

Moon knight episode 4 [AHHHHHHHH!!!]

Oh, this scene right here! Marc being a protective husband and being jealous as fuck and threatened by his own alter about his wife.

"Are you in love with my wife?!"

And then the beautiful intimidating threat.

"I'll throw us off a cliff!!!"

And then despite the clear threat baby Steven goes and kisses Layla after telling her that Marc does care for her and isn't the grandest of assholes. This sweet bastard. Then of course, Marc exhibits his skill of how to be a TWAT.👇

By making Steven punch himself while he was still sporting a goofy as hell smile over his kiss with Layla. 👀This shit was the funniest part to me in this episode.🤣

Here, how Steven comforts Layla about her father and how she beams again at Steven for making her feel better.

Layla and Steven had amazing interactions throught the episode. The part where Steven went nerdy mode and explaining the Eye of Horus and relevancy of other senses to gods and all and Layla looked slyly at Steven, impressed of course. Almost like she found a nerdy best friend, awwww! And the part where Steven was ranting and then realised how quiet Layla was being and straight up went like....👇

Although I did feel very bad in this scene for Marc when Layla confronted him. I mean when the whole story came to light of how he almost died saving her father and he'd have died if khonshu hadn't chosen him to be his avatar.

Ofcourse, the tomb priest zombie.

"What the bloody hell's a Heka?"

Well, Steven. You killed one.

I cracked up at his anxiety, politely of course. He KILLED a fucking Egyptian mummy or shit and he's never done shit like this before. He's both horrified and amazed at hell at his actions and his luck. Probably thinking, "How the hell I even did that?!", meanwhile chanting, "I squished it. I squished it."

This scene was bloody funny. At first they both literally encounter a fucking hippo dressed as a Pharaoh? And then it speaks in the most fucking unexpected voice- of a female?! And these two are suddenly screaming because they definitely DID NOT EXPECT THIS and so it's SOMEHOW SEEMING MORE SCARY. Oscar Issac has mastered the screaming scenes LOL. And also the difference in both of their hand movements while they scream? Steven has a defensive pose like "Fuck, don't come at me?!". Meanwhile Marc is like, "Bitch what?!!"

And the part where they find a third coffin? But ignore it? Baby Jake?!!

And also the concept they used that Alexander the great was the last Avatar of Ammit. And how they turned the concept of his lost tomb to an awesome part of the episode.

Everything was bloody awesome!

Hello world

Steven: Why do we have bruises all over our face? We weren't on any mission, were we?

Marc: No?

Jake: *trying his best to appear nonchalant

¿I went to the beach, hermanos?

Steven and Marc: *surprised but pleased at this turn in conversation

Jake: *speaking with a gentle smile.

A little blonde kid tried to push me in the sand. He thought it was funny.

*the smile turns manical

I threw him into the sea.

Steven and Marc: *sighing heavily but not surprised.

Marc: but what has that to do with the brusies.

Jake: *scowling now

That poco blonde shit had a big family.

*After a little pause

Jake: can we go to the beach again?

Steven and Marc: FOR FUCK'S SAKE!

1st November 2022

Hi, I know I haven’t been here in ages! But I wanted to come back and tell you guys I finally picked up Annie Ernaux. I have devoured this and am now desperate to read Simple Passion immediately. I talk a bit about it in my first newsletter that I will discuss more later. In the mean time - how is everyone? Who else loves Annie Ernaux?

In 1995 Elif Batuman started her first year at Harvard; she was in love with fiction and determined to become a writer. The child of immigrants from Turkey, she had a first name that was unfamiliar in New Jersey, where she grew up, and which had to be constantly spelled out and explained. She has said since that its four letters suggest a fitting joke about writerly aspiration: if the initial desire in a novel is to capture all of life, what is actually produced is just another set of words, a file.

Weekend things.....

My new bodywash is fucking horny y'all 😭😭

Will you stay?

When life says a big FUCK YOU to my face and I become the devil in disguise commiting homocide of million of smiles that may come knocking on your door!

When I become a bigger DICK than LUCIFER himself and start painting a canvas with the the poison of hatred for something I myself am unaware of?Will you still look at me like I am the world to you?Will you still say,"You are my soul broken or not.....I still am yours."?

—————life.....

sorry for the inactivity! i flew home after my exams ended and i've been busy spending time with my family and cats. i'm excited to catch up with some friends (and start my very first internship) soon!!