My New Roommate Said That Her Last Roommate Had An Eating Disorder And Then Talked To Me About Her Clean

my new roommate said that her last roommate had an eating disorder and then talked to me about her clean eating and weight loss goals and how she buys clothes that are a little snug to motivate her to lose more

and like honestly? i have anorexia but this is why i constantly talk about the dangers of the “health and fitness” industry and diet culture bc we have essentially normalized certain symptoms of disordered eating but it’s ok if it’s under the guise of health i guess???

like how is calling it “clean” eating NOT a way to moralize food

how is intermittent fasting NOT the same thing as skipping meals

how come when i buy clothes that don’t fit, it’s something i have to tell my therapist about because it means i am putting pressure on myself to fit into them, but if a “normal” person does it then it’s just motivation for them?

where is the fucking line???

and more importantly when are we going to start acknowledging that the entire world is pro-ana but that’s too harsh of a description so we slap some health buzzwords on it to make it palatable

when are we going to take responsibility for encouraging disordered behavior instead of labeling those of us with EDs as the crazy/imbalanced ones

your fucking Whole30 or keto or whatever “clean” diet you’re on is just as restrictive as the diets we create for ourselves due to our disorders. but we are the crazy ones, right

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Man of the House

Some fathers are born miserable

I think

Or at least mine was

He had a rough childhood

He hardened his heart

Threw out his feelings- left unused

He stares at the world with dead eyes

Soon, he's gifted with children

You'd think kids would change him

But he remains a miserable man to this day

Dragging us through the muck of his pain

Allowing us to swallow his discomfort and agony

Instead of teaching us things

Like love and regulating feelings-the good, the bad, and the downright ugly

We learned how to be filled with rage and emptiness

How to yell until our voice bounces off the walls

Our faces red from our generational anger

We can't help but tether his suffering

To our bones

But as an "adult"

In her Wretched Twenties

Who sees him with fresh eyes

I will not be the keeper of my fathers' pain

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artclassics

3 years ago

Anna Kamienska, from a journal entry featured in “A Nest of Quiet: A Notebook,” (x)

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artclassics

2 years ago

when everyone stopped wearing lockets that was when it all went downhill. nobody even carries pictures of their beloveds cut into the shape of a heart anymore

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artclassics

4 years ago

I really think school needs to chill a little...

I honestly feel like death with all the work

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feelings school thoughts biology DED i just want to move to the french country side where i bake and paint and not worry about anything or anyone and be whoever i want to be assignments are killing me no more tests please

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artclassics

1 year ago

Always