i am afraid of loss
i used to think i was afraid of dying but in actuality i am afraid of death and loss. i am afraid the idea of no longer existing whether it’s me or my family, i want no one to die but we also can’t live forever, the future scares me and i have no answers but i still can’t help but dwell in it, the idea of no longer being alive… i’m scared, please help
And with every word you spoke
you made me feel as though
I was the best thing to ever happen to you
yet I still laid here at night
wondering when you’d leave
because all good things leave
and you were one amazing thing
I knew I couldn’t bare to lose...
MSI
<Bittersweet Nothings>
You asked,
What is the scariest part?
I answer;
the scariest part is not the feeling of loneliness
or the darkness that fills you
despite the looming pain
of emptiness
The scariest part
is the realization
that you have lost yourself
completely
sinking in as you lay awake
At 2am
because you lost the ability to sleep
and you can’t even cry
because you don’t even care.
A.D.H
If every word I said could bring you back,
and allow me to hear your voice once more
I’d talk endlessly
about everything under the sun.
- about the loss of a loved one
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― Andrei Tarkovsky, from Sculpting in Time
I loved you, I always will,
and that’s the problem
because the sad reality is
that I’ll love you way more
than I will ever love myself..
MSI
<If Only>