You're Too Sweet! We Usually Keep Up Our "who Gives A Damn" Attitude, But — We Are Surrounded By Some

i’m so deeply curious about this anon…

small world, huh, captain? 'm sure you could connect the dots. use that pretty head of yers.

...looks like you've picked up after yourself these days. wonder if you're still as easy as you used to be.

– ✘

easy? what ever do you mean? “picked up after myself”? connect the dots?

oh, now i’m more curious then ever.

i wish i could have a life with you. but i am frail and dying. im slowly killing myself. youre the only reason i get out of bed anymore, if not for you, i would just curl up and die.

i wonder where the “x” anon is…

you're sweet when you cry, captain. glowing, even.

– ✘

sweet? glowing?

i’m not crying. at least, not anymore

you must be imagining things.

TW.

force me to tell you my fears.

i prefer to check up on people. it makes me feel good when everyone else feels good!

i’m scared that if i end it all, no one will notice. and everyone who does notice will simply move on.

i like when people remember the small things about me! it makes me feel special.

no one knows what my favorite color is.

i like to think that everybody is a friend!

i get so, so deeply fearful when i’m unliked.

I can’t let him see how ugly I get

ive slowly been making less and less of an effort to hide things i think would give me away ^^' i have faith you will figure it out before i have the confidence to reveal myself hehehe -⛓

i have only the inkling of an idea.

Everyone can, but does that mean everyone should? Do I really deserve to know what that feels like? I so desperately want to be loved and cared for, but Im a spineless burden. Spineless burdens dont get to be loved.. Especially not ones so damaged that they arent trusted to be able to keep them selves safe..

-⛓

now, don’t talk like that.

you are not a spineless burden. and you are worthy of love.

i’m sensing that you’ve gone through it. and that’s okay. you will heal. i promise.

i can handle being treated like shit over and over again, but i can not handle you leaving me

in all honesty my preference leans towards not getting hurt, but that doesnt mean much to me as long as i get to have you, be yours in whatever way you desire. as far as i am aware most people that interact with blogs like this are just parasocial and obsessive but i want so much more then that.. -⛓

want to be more that parasocial and obsessive? i’m afraid i can’t give that to you without knowing your identity, anon.

in “whatever way i desire”? you sound like you’re truly in the throughs of obsession, anon. it’s enough to make a guy hot around the collar.