quiet reblog
✨ Things I'm insecure about because of my disabilities ✨
Being unreliable
Having a messy room
Abdominal bloating
Not being 100% on top of my hygiene
Having to excuse myself to the washroom more often
Using my mobility aids
Random bruising
My chicken (weak) legs
Having to explain myself to strangers
Taking the accessible seating on the bus/train
Tripping over myself
My brain fog (I used to have a fantastic memory, I feel like I come off as stupid now)
Being super sweaty
Not being "good representation"
Leaving functions early
Sitting on the floor in public
And so much more. This is a reminder that you're not alone in feeling gross or undesirable, it's also okay to feel that way.
Sometimes you need to feel the feelings before you deal with them.
Can someone explain to me why a big franchise such as Winx Club can't offer a proper mobile game? All of the existing ones are abandoned.
Like, guys, make a MMORPG where we can create our own fairy, witch or specialist, create our gang and go on classes and adventures. But a real game, with spells, fights & cie.
Terrarium Life collection~
I painted these way back during the pandemic (hence the hoard of toilet paper and Switch that I wish I had, but they were all sold out) No pandemic now but the chimney smoke from all the neighbors have made the air unbreathable and I'm stuck inside again 😭 cuddling my dog, drinking tea
tending to my fish tank and my plants
Has anyone said this yet
fellow LSN disabled people, this is coming from a place of much compassion and love. i hear you when you say you’re jealous of MSN/HSN people’s support. how you wish you could have such support. mental health is complicated and it’s hard to see through emotions and trauma.
but i really need you to understand that our higher support needs disabled friends aren’t inherently privileged for having said support. while it may be that if you had that same support your QOL would improve, they most likely need the support you’re jealous of to literally survive.
the point i really want to make here is there is a difference between support for QOL and support to SURVIVE. people die without these supports. that is not a privileged position to be in.
you’re allowed to be upset and angry that you don’t have the life you want and deserve, but please focus those feelings on society and governments. because they are the ones that created a world in which it is so hard for us to exist.
we need to be friends to each other, not throwing around misdirected anger and blame. please take time to listen to MSN/HSN disabled people and learn about their experiences, there are so many people out there begging to be heard.
being unattractive or physically different/disabled DOES NOT equal being morally bad/evil. there is an atrocious amount of ableism that occurs when someone doesn’t look “normal.” and i am so fucking sick of it.
in media it is (almost) always the villains who are different/disabled. and media is a massive part of how people form their world views.
i want to mention arcane for example, because people seem to be confused about what good representation is. people praise the hell out of that show, and for good reason it has great things about it, but people told me it had good disabled representation. so i watched it. and while parts of the disabled representation is good.. almost all physically different/disabled characters are portrayed as bad/evil/villains at some point in their story (or all of it.) and then by the end of the show most of them are dead.
abled people i need you to understand that is not good representation. please look out for these tropes it happens ALL the time.
good representation includes different/disabled characters who are heroes and morally “good” too.
if you make all your villains physically different and none of them are heroes i hate you. i am so sick of this.
Disabled and chronically ill people are allowed to enjoy things and do things they like (if they’re able) while still being sick and disabled. Yes, even if they aren’t employed. Hope this helps.
oh fuck yes.
kind of deeply obsessed with the idea of everyone thinking helia is kind of a dick. like not riven-levels of asshole but most people find him off-putting and hard to get along with by virtue of him being such an intense person. and he’s the kind of person who does things to the beat of his own drum. he’s very one track minded in that way and it makes it hard for others to collaborate with him and find him agreeable on a surface-level capacity. even still people find him likable but in a more distant, unattainable way. but anyone who spends time with him one-on-one and has a conversation with him realizes that he’s actually super non-judgmental and easy to talk to. and he really does like connecting with people, he just doesn’t go out of his way to spend his time on things that don’t catch his attention. and he’s honestly just super sweet.
in contrast, flora is affable and beloved and on average treats people so kindly and sweetly. so everyone’s impression of flora is that she’s a gentle and sweet person who rarely has a bad thing to say about anyone. and while this is partially true, she oftentimes has her private reservations about people that she only truly feels comfortable voicing with her close friends (ie the winx) but won't ever hide from anyone if directly confronted. her natural sociability makes it so that she's very easy to get along with and collaborate with, but people often underestimate her sharp judgment of character and tend to reduce her to her gentleness when she's much more strong-willed than she comes across.
& when helia and flora get together, it's the coupling of two people who are more understated on the surface but actually quite intense to their core. they match each other's freaks <3
one of the worst parts for me about chronic illness is not having answers.
im a very logical and analytical person i love things to make sense i love patterns and reasons.
i have answers for pats of my health, and im so grateful for that, but the parts that i dont have answers for haunt me.
i think about it all the time. what if its not real and thats why theres no answer? what if im not explaining my symptoms right and thats why i havent had the right test that would give me the right answer.
i know logically that its a waste of time to think about, but i cant help it, i obsess over it. not understanding the world is one thing, but not understanding my own body? my own life? thats what gets me.