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Bakugou Katsuki - wedding ring - sadness or anger- choking đ
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Rating: 18+ Warnings: Smut, choking, implied infidelity, a bit of angst, intentionally vague.Â
It had all been going so well.Â
Catching that prick of a villain towards the end of his shift; getting news that heâs on track to move up a few ranks in the next quarterly popularity polls; receiving a phone call from his mom, and not having her breathing down his neck over some stupid shit she wants him to do.Â
Life was moving forward. Life was moving on. He was starting to forget.Â
Then thereâd been a knock at his door, disturbing him from a blessed sleep he hadnât been able to sink into for weeks now.Â
Finding you there. Here. On his doorstep. Mascara leaking down wet cheeks. A hastily packed bag at your feet and the words falling from trembling lips;
âI did it.â
It couldnât have gone better.Â
It was like old times. Colliding into one another like you hadnât been gone for months; no word or sighting. A blank space in the shape of you that not even a faceless soul could fill. No late night phone calls that last until dawn, or early morning greetings that start with a smirk and a kiss.Â
You came and left like a hurricane. Turning his world upside down. Having him craving the next meeting.Â
Now it looks like youâre back.Â
Be it for good. A week. A day. A night. An hour.Â
Heâll take what he can get. Feed into the lie that may or may not be a reality.Â
Until he saw it, and the floodgates opened.Â
Having you under him. The dent in the mattress recognising your figure and moulding back into a familiar shape. The pillow beneath your head absorbing the scent of your shampoo and perfume, claiming it back into your possession. Satiating him for the nights without you. The slats of the headboard remember the way you gripped them, hung on, nails scratching and palms itching, leaning behind groves that he could trace and hold, reliving your last moments before you had to dress and step back into the world you had without him.Â
Your back is soft against his chest, fitting perfectly into the crevasses, spine curved, hips raised between his thighs, rocking gently, meeting him like waves ebbing and flowing over a cool, moonlit beach.Â
Youâre anything but; you burn like the sun, skin kissed by fire, spreading your warmth and melting the cage heâs so diligently erected around himself since youâd last been here.Â
Just like this. With him.Â
The bars are buckling, warping, setting him free, only to be locked in a different kind of prison.Â
Itâs when he turns his head, just slightly away from the angle of your jaw to catch a breath, and the gold glint catches the light like an imploding star, does the heat turn icy. Those lapping waves are no longer welcoming and inviting, but tumultuous as they crash, ripped by outcroppings of rocks and debris, pushing, preventing, blocking, reminding him of the ties you have outside of him.Â
Youâve always held him at a distance, and heâd appreciated it. Helped steel himself, keeping his head above water so as not to drown and become consumed by your pull.Â
Didnât stop the fall though. Let himself be weak for one moment and let you crawl inside his chest to nest. Plague his dreams, while you sleep soundly.Â
He wants you to feel the choking want of longing and the need to inflict pain on the source. Throttle it with disgust and fury until it consumes itself and dies.Â
Let him be. Let him live.Â
The hand that had been cradling your breast slips from the flesh, to come up and around, fingers clawing as they settle and dig, tendons contracting around a vibrating throat. Moans stalled as you feel the change within him. Â
âTake it off,â Katsuki bites through gritted teeth.Â
You're so still he thinks you die a little death. Not the euphoric kind. This is the type that is dread, all consuming, has the hair on the back of your neck prickling.Â
He can feel them. Soft yet sharp, drenched in sweat, a dusky aroma thickening and seeping into his open pores as they fight to rise up beneath his clawed hand, squeezing against a pulse thatâs stopped its beating.Â
The whites of your eyes have never been brighter, and the deep pits of your pupils never bigger. Your profile hurts to look at, which is why heâd taken you like he had, mounted you like a jungle cat, pressed your face into the sheets, fooled himself into thinking that he can pretend youâre someone else should you walk out once again.Â
Never have to gaze upon the split affection you have warring within them whenever you have doubts.Â
Katsuki doesnât like to share. But for you he had. Let this charade commence until you finally gave in to the winning side.
You win some, you lose some. He just didnât think heâd have been left in limbo for so long. Alone without a word or look, no indication whether your time together had an effect, tipping the scales in his favour. It has always been balanced. Equal. And it aggravated him that heâd found his match to a person with no image.Â
If youâre truthful this time, if youâve done as youâve said, thereâll be no hesitation, it will be as involuntary as blinking. As effortless as a heartbeat.Â
Your breath bursts, the inhale ragged.Â
His fingers tighten around a string, slick and coarse. Lax and taut, until thereâs nowhere else for it to go.Â
And your hips donât stop, canting an undulating rhythm that almost knocks his resolve back into the gutter. He keeps still though, doesnât give an inch, even if his will slowly depletes and the urge to grind back becomes a battle he might just let himself lose.Â
Your eyes rolling upward as you look at him from the corner of your eye, his nose pressing into your cheek, jaw clenching to keep the need at bay.Â
Heâs not playing this time, he means it as his forehead digs into your temple, hand closing marginally when you tilt your head back and he feels slack, your eyelashes fluttering along with a gasp.Â
Trapping your left wrist against the mattress, he struggles for a moment, prying open your fisted fingers and finding the offending item.Â
Youâre enjoying this, he finds. Watching as you eye his every movement; bask in the precarious position he has you in. Letting him have the upper hand when really you know youâve had him where you want him from the very beginning. Drawing him in and pushing him away as frequently as the wind blows. Â
He sees it. The pleasure you get when you witness the ugliness of his jealousy rearing its head, fighting a perceived threat thatâs no longer there.Â
But it will always be here, taunting him until itâs gone for good.Â
âTake. It. Off.â
You moan in reply, a whimper for a reprieve.Â
Despite the heat radiating between you both, the band is cold, a last reminder of the wedge that keeps - kept - you apart.Â
It doesnât give so easily, like itâs holding on and maintaining that distance he is - was - never allowed to cross. Reminding him of who was here first.Â
As it passes the first knuckle, you buck, and Katsuki answers with a thrust, pinning you until you canât retaliate, except for a frustrated, wheezing moan, and a squeeze of your walls around his cock, a salty tear captured by his lips, sliding beneath his tongue as he bares his teeth with a rumbling growl.Â
Effortlessly, it glides past the second, and he has it.Â
It isnât yours anymore.Â
And it wonât be ever again. Soon it will be a distant memory Katsuki will erase along with the name that went along with it.Â
The metal melts in his palm as he clasps the ring, twisting and distorting into a congealed mass, his eyes burning brightly along with the rage heâs been keeping under loose wraps. Glowing orange like a setting sun, or the dawning of a new morning.Â
You whimper, strangled and desperate, until Katsuki moves again.Â
Thrust. Thrust. Roll. Gold-coated palm singeing the flesh of your lower back, and sizzling the sweat pooled in the dip of your spine when he presses down to arch you further, pulling back your head by the grip he still has around your throat so you can watch him, raising up and gaining an angle that lets him get deeper, reach a place no one has - and never will - reach again.Â
Except for him.Â
You're his now.Â
And that finger wonât stay bare for long.Â
CASUAL CASUALTIES (10.6k)
pairing. k. bakugou x reader
synopsis. what was meant to be an innocent trip down to the bridge becomes a national sensation when you get outed as #15 pro-hero dynamight's soulmate on live tv. inconvenient, yes, very much soâbut it's not like you have to do something about it. but then the bakugou katsuki himself seeks you out, and you find yourself getting into a whole lot of trouble.
c.w. minors dni. fem!reader, pro-hero!katsuki, aged-up, post-timeskip/ch 431, soulmate!au, lots of cursing, reader is ill, depictions of mental illness (mentions of depressive themes and suicidality), mentions of death, nsfw/mature themes, minor manga spoilers
a/n. here it is, y'all! while i know the word count and tags are quite daunting, i really hope you give this fic a chance because i'm extremely proud of this one, which i haven't felt about my writing in a while. if you do end up reading it, thank you and i sincerely hope you enjoy it <3
to be fair, you were justâŠweighing your options.
taking a short trip down to shizuokaâs famous ayumi bridge wasnât part of your itinerary for the day, not that youâve been having exceptionally busy itineraries for who knows how long. it was a spur-of-the-moment decision that you periodically second-guessed on the way there, the vivid picture of your unmade but comfortable bed weighing heavily in your mind.
still, and despite yourself, you couldnât deny the need for fresh air, nor the relief that filled your renewed albeit fatigued lungs as you finally arrived at your destination.
from where you are now standing with your arms folded on top of the relatively short railings, you look past the barricade and down onto the cloudy river below you.
it was an innocent gestureâone borne out of curiosity minus most of the morbidityâbut it apparently wasnât innocent enough, because one moment you were studying the ripples in the distant water, and the next, youâre violently yanked from behind.
you let out an unintentional âoofâ as you stumble backward, your body helplessly tugged alongside the blouse that you vaguely register as the thing thatâs being pulled back. you probably stagger a few feet away from the edge of the bridge, before unceremoniously falling on your butt.
and as if out of nowhere, pro-hero dynamight emerges right in front of you.
âare you crazy?â he spits out, frenzied. âdo you have a fucking death wish?â
you blink. âiââ
he throws his arms up in what you think is defeat, cutting you off, although heâs looking more pissed than resigned. âfucking menaces,â he mumbles loudly under his breath.
a surge of indignation instantly shoots through you, and you open your mouth to spit something back at him, but you donât get the chance to, because he holds out his hand.
robbed of all words, and quite frankly, barely registering whatâs happening, the best you can do is blink at him. again.
his eyebrows furrow, irritation surely bubbling in his veins. his hand stays put, though. âwhat are you waiting for? get up.â
you hesitate, eyes drifting from his face and down to his hand. unlike his gloved left, his right is bare, and riddled with a plethora of scars. you didnât know about that, at least from his pictures on tv and social media, unlike the one on his face that is constantly broadcasted for everyone else to see.
you donât dwell on it further, though, deciding then and there that you want to go home right the fuck now.
you quickly take his hand and help him by pulling yourself up. once youâre upright, youâre just as quick to let go, opting to brush off the dirt stuck to your clothes.
âthanks,â you start, forcing yourself to meet his piercing gaze thatâs indubitably boring holes into your face. ââŠi guess.â
âyou guess?â he spews, incredulous, before shaking his head. ânever fucking mind.â
âdynamight!â
startled, you whip to look at the source of the voice, and your eyes comically widen when they land on a group of people who look suspiciously like the media. and right behind them are a few police cars dotted with several police officers.
you turn to face bakugou, about to clarify with him if he knows what theyâre doing here, but heâs already staring at you, an inexplicable expression etched on his face.
âwhat?â you canât help but ask.
he sighs, cocking his head toward the closely approaching herd. âget ready.â
âdynamight!â the woman decked out in a blazer and pencil skirt exclaims, completely oblivious to the concept of personal space as she thrusts her microphone into bakugouâs face. you feel yourself shrink from where you stand slightly to his right, unsure as to whether or not youâre being filmed right now.
you hope you arenât.
âtwo negotiations in a row,â she breathes out, disbelieving. âhow did you do it?â
negotiations?
âwhat kind of stupid question is that?â he barks out. âi simply was in the right place at the right time with the first one.â
âoh, youâre too humble!â she quips, signaling the cameraman to steady his shot of the pro-heroâs face. âwe came as soon as we could when we heard about what was going down here.â
âyeah, and you couldâve caused the situation to escalate even further than it already did,â he retorts without missing a beat. the reporterâs face falls. bakugou takes that as a sign to go on.
âyouâre lucky i arrived and intervened when i did. and how did none of you dipshits think to call the fucking police?â
âiââ
âyouâre all too preoccupied with getting your next scoop that you lost your fucking grip on reality and failed to help,â the pro-hero chastises.
he pauses for a second, and youâre about to think heâs finally done with his spiel for the womanâs sake when he glances at you, looking like heâs got something more to say.
and as you find out in the next, excruciating seconds, he definitely has.
the man shoots his arm up, his thumb sticking out, pointing conveniently at you.
âcase in point,â he states. âwe couldâve had a casualty.â
you gawk at him.
a what?
âiâm sorry,â you start, turning to face the ash-blonde, acutely aware of the inquisitive eyes peering at you, âi think youâre misunderstanding. i wasnât going to jumââ
âoh my god.â
miffed, you turn again to look at the woman, but now her countenance has gone all pale, looking like she just saw a poltergeist. seemingly speechless, she doesnât try to get a word out, but what she does is point at bakugouâs wrist.
the man beside you shifts on his feet, uncomfortable. âthe fuck are youââ
whatever bite the pro-hero was about to unleash on the reporter gets stuck in his throat when he flips his hand and freezes.
and when you see the familiar-looking timer written on his wrist that reads 00:02:57, you stiffen.
it canât be.
still, youâve got to make sure.
and so with bated breath, you slowly lift your right hand, turning it with the palm facing up.
and sure enough, your timerâthe one thatâs been at zero your entire lifeâreads just a few seconds after bakugouâs.
he thinks heâs fucking spiderman.
you mentally roll your eyes as you replay the clip of bakugou that went viral a few days ago.
you were able to put two and two together on the way home from the bridge, your conjecture proven correct when you got home and checked your social media accounts, which were crawling with articles and posts about the jumper who the #15th pro-hero dynamight was able to talk down.
he was a middle-aged man who apparently lost custody of his only son in light of his divorce, and couldnât find a way out of the agony apart from death.
you couldnât get a good view of his face, since the shots were all focused on bakugou taking his glove off to reach out to the guy, but you figure thatâs a good thing. the manâs already fucking suicidalâthe last thing he needs is for his privacy to be breached.
you can only laugh at the irony as you parse through your notifications, because lo and beholdâtheyâve already found you out.
because of course! what story sells better than a notorious heroâs successful negotiation with a jumper?
a notorious heroâs successful negotiation with a jumper who also happens to be his fucking soulmate.
nevermind the fact that you werenât actually planning to jump that day.
âexcuse me?â
you look up from your phone to find a teenage girl peering at you timidly from across the counter.
you tuck the device in your pocket and put on your most cordial smile. âhi! how can i help you?â
she puts what seems to be a fantasy duology on top of the surface between the two of you, before shooting you a shy smile back. âjust these two, please.â
you peek at the titles and immediately light up. âgreat choice! my friend loves these.â
she lets out a delighted sound as you ring up her purchase, and you make small talk as you take her card and pack her books in a brown paper bag.
âhave fun reading!â you say as she accepts the package from you, mouthing a quick thanks.
you watch the girl exit the bookstore with a grin you didnât know you had on your face, which you only catch wind of when you shift your attention back to the next person in line.
because one sight of them has it wiped off your mouth in an instant.
even if theyâre decked out in the most unhelpful disguise of a baseball cap, hoodie, and face mask.
still, two can play at this game. and quite frankly, youâre up for roleplaying rather than having a confrontation anyway, with this ridiculous get-up he has on.
and so with the most friendly tone you can muster, you ask: âhow can i help you?â
even behind his whole guise, you can see the darkening of his gaze when you put forth the question. âare you serious?â
you tilt your head to the side in fake innocence. âwhat do you mean, sir? youâre at the counter at a bookstoreâŠâ
apparently, thatâs enough to rile up the great explosion murder god dynamight, because he angrily tugs his mask down before bobbing his head as if saying âseriouslyâ?
you pretend youâre just figuring it out, going the extra mile by letting your mouth form the shape of a small âoâ, but you can tell heâs not buying it. he glares at you, and youâre smart enough to know itâs a warning, so you cut it out despite yourself.
âthe questionâs still the same, by the way,â you offer when he doesnât say anything. âhow can i help you?â
his eyebrows furrow. âare you always this fucking nonchalant?â
no, you answer in your head, but he doesnât need to know that itâs less nonchalance and more apathy. you shrug, âit's either that or panic about the whole situation.â
this time, his eyebrows shoot up. âso youâre not frazzled? like, at all?â
you stop yourself from rolling your eyes just in time. âof course, i am. kind ofâat least. the last thing i need is to be scrutinized by the public.â
âthat oneâs on you, showing up at the same bridge as that jumper.â
you bristle. âi told you, i wasnât going to jump!â
only belatedly do you realize that you just said that last bit quite loudly, and you hurriedly scan the room to see a few curious faces have glanced your way. you bow slightly in apology, before turning back to regard the pro-hero.
he huffs. âletâs say you werenât. it doesnât matter, because we still made contact and now the news is out.â
âso? i donât see how we have to do anything about it.â
âbelieve me, i agree.â
you laugh. âwow, who knew the dynamight doesnât want a soulmate, let alone meet and be tethered to one?â
âlaugh all you want, dumbass,â comes bakugouâs reply. âbut what iâm about to say is not a laughing matter.â
âdo pray tell.â
âfuckingââ he starts, before taking a deep breath in an attempt to calm himself. once heâs expelled that air, he fixes his gaze on you. you subconsciously straighten up.
âi need you to put up appearances with me.â
you squint at him. âhuh?â
he presses his lips in a tight line. âiâm dropping in the rankings, and iâll drop even further if i donâtââ
âi donât see how any of this is my business.â
ââif i donât do anything palatable about the situation,â he presses on. âitâs costing me and my agency, as much as i fucking hate to admit it.â
you only stare at him, letting the gears in your head turn in light of the newfound information. and when you donât say anything, bakugou finishes.
âitâll only be for a while.â
pft.
a while?
you hesitate. of course, you would. thereâs absolutely no reason for you to get involved with the pro-hero, especially not now nor in the near, foreseeable future. in fact, you donât even want to think about how he found out this is where you worked part-time. and you know thereâs more where that came from.
you shake your head, âiâm sorry, but thereâs no way i canââ
âiâll pay you.â
you whip to look at him, shocked. âwhat?â
âyou need the money, right?â he asks, and you hate how heâs right. âpr is offering an amount.â
you gulp, hating even more how youâre actually considering this. âhow much are we talking about?â
he tells you. you barely catch your jaw from dropping to the floor.
with that amount, youâll have the luxury of quitting this minimum wage job that youâve barely been able to keep doing and then some. youâll be set on your monthly expenses for a couple of months, and maybe even have enough to splurge on the few things that youâve been wanting to get for yourself but havenât had the means to.
and all that just by pretending for one to two months, tops?
your name and face are already common knowledge, anyway. there shouldnât even be a debate.
you stick your right hand out, the one with the ticking timer on your wrist, for him to shake. he extends his, and the sight of the matching numbers sends an unidentifiable sensation down your spine. you try to ignore it.
and just like that, you shake on it, and the deal is on.
besides, youâve got nothing to lose, anyway.
you push the glass door open, mindful of not adding any more handprints on the already marked surface. the wind chimes you didnât know were hanging above it from the inside resonate as you enter, and you find yourself suddenly grateful that you at least managed to put on a bit of makeup for today. a few people seated near the entrance glance to look at you, which is probably a good thing for once.
right before bakugou left the bookstore a few days ago, he suggested you exchange numbers, which you agreed to gingerly. you expected radio silence for at least a week and hoped for forever, but a text eventually came later that night, asking for your availability so he could schedule a meet-up in public.
you told him you couldnât meet until today, probably giving off the impression that you were busy with something, when in reality you were just tired and needed the time to process what was about to happen.
which brings you to now, standing at the doorway of a hip café in the heart of musutafu, scanning the faces for vermillion daggers he has for eyes.
it takes you a second, what with the afternoon crowd slowly encroaching on the establishment and filling up the tables, but you eventually locate him, with the help of the scarred hand he raises to get your attention.
âhey,â you greet when you reach his spot near the back, and he nods at you in acknowledgment. taking a seat across from him, you make it a point to study your position. âare you sure you want to sit here?â
he raises an eyebrow, which you can now see clearly without the shadow of the cap from before. âwhat, this table not up to your standard?â
exasperation shoots through you, as it always does, but you shake it off. instead, you toss him a tight-lipped smile. âno, itâs just that people might not see us back here. which, you know, kind of defeats the purpose?â
he doesnât say anything for a beat, gaze fixated on you, before he breaks eye contact and shakes his head. âdonât worry,â he offers. âcalculated move. weâre still gonna be spotted, trust me.â
you nodâŠslowly. you guess that makes sense. if you seat yourselves smack dab at the center, it may come off as the both of you seeking attention, consequently undermining the authenticity of your whole charade. a real high-profile couple would want to keep it low-key.
you snort at what you just called the two of you.
âwhat?â bakugou asks, defensiveness bleeding into his tone. you look up at him, and you take a second to study his appearance. he ditched the cap and hoodie, only sporting a black shirt and what you think are loose joggers and sneakers.
and with his infamously unruly hair trimmed?
well. you hate to admit it, but he actually looksâŠnice.
you smile at him, genuinely this time. ânothing.â
he narrows his eyes at you, like he thinks youâre lying out of your ass, but he lets it go. luckily enough, and as if on cue, the waiter arrives to give you the menu and complementary water, and bakugou orders iced tea while you request your go-to drink. you thank the guy before he dashes off to tend to other customers.
âso,â you start when silence falls upon the two of you. âhow exactly are we going to do this?â
he picks up his glass. âdo what?â
âyou know, pretend?â you gesture vaguely with your hands. âdo we have to do pda or something?â
you didnât plan to cause it, but regardless, bakugou chokes on the ice-cold water he was just in the middle of drinking. you reach out toâwhat, rub his back?âbut he holds his hand up to stop you as he coughs his lungs out. you sit back down, and you watch him as he gathers his bearings, wiping the tears that pooled at the corners of his eyes.
âsorry,â you supply, âgreat job, though. you just announced our presence to everybody.â
at that, bakugou snorts, and you canât help the chuckle that bubbles out of you. he shakes his head, âdumbass.â
âbut no,â he continues, back to being serious, âwell, at least for now. as far as pr is concerned, we just have to be seen together until the whole thing dies out and the volatility of my ranking dissipates.â
âokay. that clicks, i guess.â
âyouâre still up for it, then?â
now itâs your turn to narrow your eyes at him. âwe shook on it, didnât we? iâm a woman of my word, bakugou.â
âwellââ
âand for the last time, i wasnât going to jump.â
that makes him bark out a laugh so loud that it startles you. grinning, he waves you off. âyeah, yeah. donât need to get all worked up, princess.â
blazing right past that cursed nicknameâyouâd first go through hell and high water before you let yourself be flustered in front of this manâyou shoot him an expectant look. âwell?â
âwell, what?â
âare we just gonna sit here and stare at each other for two, three hours? weâll have to do something, smartass.â
if bakugou is anywhere near bothered by your nickname for him, he doesnât let it show. instead, he takes the bait. âwhaddya have in mind?â
âwe can play a conversation game. the one that has prompts?â you fish out your phone from your bag, and you quickly thumb through your apps until you find the one. you click on the button that says âplayâ and place the gadget at the center of the table.
âthere,â you point. âi ask a question and you answer. then we switch and so on and so forth.â
he examines the screen. âsounds lame.â
you scoff. âlamer than sitting and waiting?â
he doesnât answer for a few seconds, until he finally sighs and nods at you, shifting in his seat as if bracing himself for whatâs to come.
âi can go first,â you volunteer, straining to look at the words on display. you cringe when you read them. âdo you think i was popular in high school?â
âseriously?â he snickers, and you shrug.
he doesnât even take a moment to think about it. âwell, you work in a bookstore, so no.â
âfair enough. your turn,â you swipe on the screen and turn it 180 degrees so he can see it.
you laugh when his face contorts as he finishes scanning the question. his eyes dart up to glare at you. âwho came up with this stupid ass game?â
âjust read the question, bakugou.â
he splutters for a beat, ultimately relenting, seething the words through his teeth. âwhen it comes to relationships, do you think iâm looking for something casual?â
youâre pretty sure you know what the answer is, but you still squint at the man to mess with him.
âare you fucking with me?â he grits out, bug-eyed. âdoes it fucking look like iâm capable of being casual about anything at all?â
you canât help itâyou throw your head back and laugh.
âstop laughing at me, dumbass.â
you press your lips together in an attempt to quell your mirth, but you burst out laughing again when you catch a glimpse of his reddening face.
âheyââ
âsorry, sorryâit was justâyour faceââ
âi get it, now quit it.â
eventually, but not immediately, you do. to your relief, bakugou doesnât forfeit like a sore loser after that round, instead choosing to press on and find an equally incriminating question for you. you bounce off of each other, mainly talking about your respective pasts, like your education, families, and upbringing, although staying considerate enough not to overstep and pry on confidential information.
there were quite a few questions directed towards the presentâwhat youâre currently doing, any nearing plans, current eventsâand you were okay enough to answer them with minimal detail. the future-oriented ones, though, you barely manage to skirt around and not respond to. you noticed bakugou looking at you a little too closely during those instances, but you feigned indifference.
thatâs all you could do, really.
even then, and without you noticing, the hours pass by, and by the time you actually look past the prompts and up to your phoneâs clock, itâs already 5:05 pm, a good four hours past your agreed-upon meeting time.
when you glance back up at bakugou, his face reads the sameâmild shock at the fact that you were too engrossed in your conversation to notice the sky getting dark and the streetlights illuminating the walkways beyond the coffee shopâs glass walls turning on one by one.
âsorry,â you say as you swiftly take your phone and lock the screen. âi didnât mean to keep you.â
âno,â he counters, pocketing his own. âi didnât notice, either.â
you smile at him as you put on your bag. âstill think itâs lame?â
âyes,â he promptly replies, a smirk now decorating his sharp features. âbut i had fun, or whatever the fuck.â
and for the nth time that afternoon, you laugh.
he texts you first that night, to your surprise.
(8:38 pm) bakugou katsuki: thanks. for coming out today.
from where you were sprawled lazily on your mattress, hair still wet from that shower you almost didnât take, you thumb out a response.
(8:39 pm) you: no problem, boss đ«Ą
you press send before you can overthink things. instead, you let the warm feeling of someone elseâs gratitude bloom in your chest and bask in it. that doesnât get to happen for too long, though, because another message arrives.
(8:40 pm) bakugou katsuki: donât call me that. by the way, did you see the news?
you feel your brows crease.
(8:40 pm) you: what news?
ping.
(8:40 pm) bakugou katsuki: bakugou katsuki sent you a link
you immediately click on the string of words, and youâre redirected to an article. it takes a while to loadâthe internet is sometimes spotty at your modest condominium unitâbut when it does, your jaw drops.
because right at the center of which is an image of you and bakugou at the café.
âholy shit.â
before anything else, you zoom in on your face, because priorities, right? you stare at the bunch of pixels for a good few minutes, before ultimately deciding thereâs nothing you can do about it anyway. besides, itâs not like this was the first glimpse the public has had of your appearance. despite yourself, you check bakugouâs, and of course, the man looks like he just came straight out of a magazine shoot.
you then read the title, which mustâve been written in haste in an attempt to get ahead of a random netizen going viral. soulmates spotted: pro-hero dynamight seen with the girl from the bridge.
well.
at least theyâre not calling you a jumper.
still.
(8:44 pm) you: seriously? girl from the bridge?
another ping.
(8:44 pm) bakugou katsuki: still at the fucking headline? hurry to the end, dumbass.
you roll your eyes, mainly because you canâperks of living alone and all. skimming through the sentences, you mouth the words to yourselfâa rehash about who you are, the contact from a few days ago, eyewitnesses and accounts from todayâuntil you land on the thing you think bakugouâs been trying to highlight.
in light of recent events, bakugou katsuki, who recently dropped several spots due to unfavorable encounters with citizens, has risen in the charts to #13.
you beam.
you and bakugou hang out a couple more times over the course of the next few weeks.
your get-togethers mainly depend on his scheduleâwhich you gawked at how hectic it was when he first described it to youâeven more now that youâre officially unemployed. your contractual obligation at the bookstore ended just in time as your first paycheck from the dynamight agency arrived, and you took the impeccable timing as the universeâs way of telling you to quit so you could instead spend your time freely on hobbies that you havenât had the energy for.
on the days that you do meet, though, you end up dedicating a huge chunk of your waking hours to the endeavor. itâs like that meme of a google calendar, with the get ready for meeting, meeting, and recover from meeting blocks taking up the entire 9 to 5.
this was definitely the case for your fourth rendezvous, which you spent at a park near the bridge where you first met. he didnât give you any details, so you walked into it blindly with a full face of makeup, hair done, and a tote bag full of finger food and some beverages in tow. needless to say, you were surprised when you arrived to the bakugou katsuki on a plaid orange picnic blanket, with what looked like handmade sandwiches displayed for hungry onlookers to see.
âdonât start,â he preempts when he sees you eyeing the snacks as you sit down.
you blink at him innocently, a smile tugging at your lips. âi wasnât going to.â
he frowns. âquit grinning, would you? i just thought itâd be nice to get some fresh air.â
nodding solemnly, you bring out your share of rations. âsure.â
you brace yourself for any snide remark about your pitiful foodâat least, as compared to his handcrafted onesâbut they donât come. instead, what you get is a side eye, before: âwhyâd you look like youâre going to an event, or some shit?â
you whip to face him. âhuh?â
he gestures to your face.
âoh, this? i just donât want to look ugly in the photos, is all.â
âugly?â he spews, as if the word in itself was as hideous as it meant.
âyeah,â you retort defensively, placing the cans of juice on the ground before shifting to look at him. ânot that you have to worry about that.â
a pause.
âwhatâs that supposed to meaââ
âdo you have anything you want to do?â you cut him off, changing the topic.
âiâuhââ bakugou stammers, caught off guard. âwe can just talk, or something.â
you light up at that, and he scoffs when he sees. âsame game?â
âwhy the hell not.â
he texts you again after the picnic, right as you step out of the train and onto the platform of your stop. you smile when you catch a glimpse of it.
(6:05 pm) bakugou katsuki: at #9 now. thanks.
as you walk up the stairs and onto the streets, you find yourself wondering why this whole ruse has been working like a charm, and the answer is quick to arrive.
humans love narratives, after all.
and what better way to forward the age-old, comforting, and redeeming tale of soulmates than through the prickly, explosive pro-hero they know so well?
you donât hear from each other after that. youâd be lying if you said it didnât make you nervous just the tiniest bitâhe was right, after all. you needed the money, especially after having quit your job. but you tell yourself itâs only been a couple of days, to trust that heâll text when itâs time to make another public appearance, and that heâs way above ghosting you like youâre easily dispensible, regardless of whether or not you do feel that you are.
so, in an attempt to stop obsessing over this thing youâve got going on with bakugou, you drag your ass out of bed and head to the nearest mall to run a few errands. you realize when you get to the supermarket that you forgot to catalog the things you actually needed to buy, cursing yourself when you do. still, you try your best to get on with it, relying instead on your hazy memory of what needs replenishing.
a good thirty minutes later, and with your groceryâfilled tote bags hanging from your shoulders, you trek towards the pharmacy and fall in line. as always, thereâs a long queue, but you eventually reach your turn, promptly buying your necessary meds and hightailing it out of there.
you consider booking a taxi instead of commuting home when you eventually feel the strain of the weight on your shoulders, but decide against it. the temperature is pretty decent anyway, you think to yourself as you walk and relish in the cloudy yet slightly windy weather. you study the buildings that you pass by, partly to distract yourself from how your bags are getting heavier and heavier by the minute, when your eyes land on a particular complex and you stop.
itâs either youâre going crazy, or youâve been passing by the dynamight agency a million times and you never noticed.
you stand there for what feels like an eternity, peering at the floor-to-ceiling glass windows and letting the internal tug-of-war play out inside your head, until you ultimately let the curiosity win. slowly and with caution, you take a few steps towards the entrance. you honest-to-god werenât planning on stepping foot inside the establishment, but apparently, the equally glass doors are automatic.
you falter for a moment, eyes wide as saucers like a deer caught in the headlights as the âgatesâ slide open for you, before making the split-second decision to enter. it was either that or look stupid in front of everyone in the lobby whoâs now staring at you, anyway.
luckily, you donât get to stand thereâawkward as shitâfor a second longer because one of the receptionists hurries over to where youâre positioned.
the lady beams at you. âgood afternoonââ
âhi,â you supply, âi was justââ
ây/n, right?â
crap. âuh, yes.â
her grin widens. âyouâre just in time! bakugou-san just clocked out.â
âoh, i wasnâtââ
ây/n?â
the two of you whip to look at the back of the large room, and sure enough, the owner of the increasingly familiar gruff voice is looking right at you, just as shocked at you being here as you are.
you can only watch himâin all his regularly clothed, duffel bag-carrying gloryâas he briskly walks towards where you are.
a waft of his heady perfume hits you just as he arrives at your side. âwhat are you doing here?â
what the fuck are you supposed to say? âi, uhââ
âshe mustâve come to visit you, sir,â the receptionist pipes up chirpily.
at that, bakugou regards her with a lookâone that says, do you mind? and you guess he must use that a lot around here, because she snaps her mouth closed in an instant, and bows before retreating to her spot behind the counter.
you keep your eyes trained on the woman as she scurries, wishing the ground would swallow you up before youâre forced to look at the pro-hero. but then he says your name again, and your head creaks to face him as if itâs got a mind of its own, its automaticity akin to that of vines winding to get the smallest peek at the sun.
âwell?â he demands, brow raised in waiting.
âi was just going home and noticed your building was on the way,â you answer truthfully, a tad bit embarrassed. you shouldnât have stopped and let your curiosity get the better of you.
he studies you for a second longer before his gaze drops to the things youâre carrying. âyou were walking home? with those?â
âyeahâŠâ you respond, voice small. âdonât worry, theyâre not that heavy,â you lie.
and before he can call you out on your deceit, you throw the question back at him. âhow âbout you?â
the second it tumbles off your lips, you knew it was fucking stupid.
ââŠi work here?â
there it is. in a last-ditch effort to save face, you let out a laugh, although it comes out a bit stilted. he narrows his eyes at you, but if you didnât know any better, youâd think the man was amused.
âlet me drive you home,â he offers out of the blue, you almost choke.
âwhat? no, iâm okay.â
âyour shoulders are about to give out,â he says pointedly. âdonât be fucking stubborn.â
âseriously, iâm alright,â you insist, and he sighs. you turn it right back at him, âdonât you have somewhere to be? youâre actually leaving early for once.â
and strangely enough, he is. from the few weeks of knowing knowing him, youâve learned that the man puts in overtime almost every single day, which has been one of the reasons why your hangouts were always scheduled on the weekends.
ââm visiting my parents,â comes his curt reply.
you beam at him. itâs funny how picturing this hulking brute of a man as his parentsâ son makes you feel warm. âthatâs so nice of you.â
ââs nothing,â he dismisses, before: âtheyâve been asking about you, you know.â
âme?â you repeat lamely. âwhat about me?â
he shrugs. âjust basic information about you, how weâre doing, and all that crapâŠâ
and when you donât say anything, he just goes straight for it. âthey want you to visit.â
you gape at him.
âbut donât be pressured, and shit,â he backtracks. âi know thatâs a tall order.â
huh.
ââŠiâll think about it,â you eventually offer with a nod. and you willâlater. when youâve got your wits about you. but for now, you hastily go through your bags and pick out the thing.
âhere,â you say, just as you thrust the small bouquet of orange tulips toward him. âgive these to your mom. or dad. or both, really.â
his eyes dart between you and the flowers and then back at you again. great, you think to yourself. youâve successfully rendered the man speechless.
âtake it,â you assert after a moment. âtheyâre better off in you guysâ hands, anyway.â
he examines them for another while, before he finally takes them off your hands.
âthanks.â
you only smile at him. to your pleasant surprise, he flashes a small one back.
(9:06 pm) bakugou katsuki: iâd tell you to check the news but i know itâll take you a century. iâm at 6th now.
the drowsiness that was just clouding your brain wards off like smoke thatâs being fanned away. you sit up on your couch, rubbing your eyes with one hand while you type out a response with the other.
(9:07 pm) you: ha. and congrats!!! thatâs great to hear đ„ł
you barely get to adjust your buttâs position when a notification pops in.
(9:07 pm) bakugou katsuki: thanks. and my parents loved it, just so you know. the old hag especially.
you smile. another message.
(9:08 pm) bakugou katsuki: she wants you to come over for dinner this weekend.
your face falls. shit. you didnât see this coming.
(9:09 pm) you: so soon?
your default ringtone resounds across your one-bedroom unit.
(9:09 pm) bakugou katsuki: sheâs in a rush. say no if you donât want to.
you pause, suddenly acutely aware of the guilt thatâs stewing in the pit of your stomach. is deceiving his parents necessary, when all you need is to put on an act for the general public? still, bakugou did say his mother was in a rush. maybe he just got sick of her insistent nagging.
you take a sharp inhale.
(9:12 pm) you: iâm down đ«Ą
and just because thereâs nothing more fun than pulling at his leg:
(9:12 pm) you: âŠgranted iâll get paid for it đ
ping.
(9:13 pm) bakugou katsuki: you and your greedy ass. fine.
âand so thatâs how i got masaru here to say yes to a date!â
you laugh as mitsuki loops an arm around the shoulder of the brunette sitting beside her, who only chuckles to himself, a faint pink sitting high on his cheeks. you chance a glance at bakugou, and sure enough, heâs rolling his eyes at his motherâs finishing line.
âwhat?â he quips defensively when you toss him a pointed look. âiâve heard this story a million times.â
âand youâre gonna hear it again, tsuki,â mitsuki replies unapologetically.
bakugou only groans as you smile at the couple from across the table. âi think that was an excellent story, mitsuki-san.â
âthank you, y/n. but enough about us!â she wiggles her eyebrows suggestively, and you feel your stomach drop. âhow âbout you two, huh? whatâs the deal?â
âthe deal is youâre being nosy as fuck,â comes bakugouâs snappy retort.
âcome on, katsuki,â masaru implores, a playful lilt in his tone. âweâd love to hear about how things are going between the two of you.â
âis the press being all up in your ass?â mitsuki demands, âbecause i can tell them to fuck off if you need me to.â
âsure, if you want to fucking embarrass me.â
âyou know what, iâd actually love to do that.â
âfucking hagââ
you worriedly watch the two ash blondes as they go at each otherâs throats, before you look at masaru for help. he only shoots you a meek albeit unalarmed expression, which is enough to tell you this isnât an uncommon occurrence in the bakugou household. thankfully, though, they calm down after a beat, opting to glare daggers at each other instead.
âto answer your question, mitsuki-san,â you take the gamble and interject, and everybody whips to look at you, âtheyâre being quite harmless. you know, minus all the circulating information about my life.â
at that, mitsukiâs joyful countenance morphs into one of sorriness. âiâm afraid thatâs part of having a soulmate with a high profile, dear. it doesnât help that you were being filmed when you both found out.â
âyeah, well, thereâs not much we can do about it,â you offer with a genuine smile.
âis that why youâre just leaning into it?â asks masaru. âhanging out in public and all?â
âuhââ
âobviously,â bakugou cuts you off. you turn to look at him, stunned, before shifting back to face the couple.
âuh, yes,â you continue, âwe figured there wasnât any point in hiding anymore.â
that seems to perk mitsuki up. âhide what, tsuki?â
and when neither of you says anything: âare you trying to tell us something?â
you sneak a glance at bakugou, only to find him already looking at you. you stare at each other for what feels like a minute short of forever, before he breaks eye contact and cooly says the next thing.
says the next thing while simultaneously pulling the rug from under your feet.
âweâre dating,â he declares, and you sit there, witnessing his parentsâ eyes bug out in surprise, hoping yours arenât betraying the very same emotion youâre feeling right now.
âreally?â
âoh my god! since when?â
bakugou huffs, practically exuding annoyance. âyes, and just recently. end of discussion.â
masaru laughs in delight while mitsuki pouts, although you can tell sheâs fighting off a grin.
âand here we thought you were gonna die alone, tsuki,â masaru jokes.
âshitty fuckingââ
âno, but seriously,â interrupts mitsuki, âi was getting nervous, katsuki. what with my diagnosis, i thought iâd never get to see you be happy with someone.â
you pause, looking at the man beside you. âdiagnosis?â
âoh! he didnât tell you?â mitsuki queries, tone laced with worry. âi donât mean to be a party pooper, but i just got diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer a few months ago.â
shit. âiâm so sorry, mitsuki-sanââ
the woman waves you off, a beautiful smile adorning her familiar features. âdonât be, dear. the doctor says the outlook is good as long as i strictly adhere to treatment.â
despite that, you canât help but frown. âhow are you feeling these days?â
âiâm good!â she supplies cheerfully. âmasaru and i have been spending more quality time together, and katsukiâs been visiting more often. and of course, you being here is an added bonus.â
you toss the woman a grateful look, which she returns generously. mitsuki talks some more about it before shifting the conversation back to less depressing territories, like what bakugou was like growing up and her and masaruâs plans for retirement. eventually, minutes turned into a few hours, and came the time to go home. you profusely thank the couple as you begin to head outside, while bakugou steps out to his porsche to get the engine started.
âiâll be hoping for your speedy recovery, mitsuki-san,â you say as you step out onto their front porch.
âthanks, dear. and iâll be hoping that things go well between you and katsuki, okay?â
you force a smile on your face and the words out of your mouth. âi hope so, too.â
the air is tense between you and bakugou as you step out of his car at your complexâs parking lot, then through the doors at the guarded entrance, and even during the elevator ride up to your floor.
neither of you says a word the entire time, sharing only a few nods and glances with you leading the way. you were fully expecting him to just drive off the second you got out of his pristine vehicle, but he ended up exiting with you and following your trail like a shadow.
thankfully, not many people are still around to see you in the lobby or on your floor, even if itâs still 9-ish on a saturday. you both were all for being spotted together, but maybe being seen at either of your residences will cause more trouble than help. you are about to say this to break the ice when you arrive at the end of the hallway and in front of your unit, but bakugou beats you to it.
âiâm sorry i didnât tell you.â
you freeze, blinking at him. âdidnât tell me what?â
he sighs, and suddenly the lines that you were convinced werenât on his face a second ago are now evidentâalong with the exhaustion thatâs carved right into it. âthat my mom has cancer.â
you frown. âthereâs nothing to apologize for, bakugou. youâre not obligated to tell me.â
âstill,â he insists, seemingly growing more tired by the moment. âit blindsided you, hearing it from her. i shouldâve just told you earlier.â
âmaybe,â you admit, âbut i understand your apprehension.â
he grumbles, but doesnât reply. you decide to just go for it.
âcan i ask you something?â
he looks up from where he was staring at the off-white tiled floor, expectant. âwhat?â
âis she part of the reason?â you begin, treading carefully. âwhy you wanted to put up appearances?â
he stares at you for a beat, perhaps a beat too long because you find yourself slowly regretting bringing up the query in the first place. you are about to backtrack and apologize for asking when, to your surprise, he nods.
ever so slightly that itâs almost imperceptible, but enough of a motion for you to see it.
âi just wanted to seem like iâm putting myself out there,â he mutters, âjust in case something happens.â
you nod, ignoring the way your heart is stinging at his sincerity just now.
âsheâs always been on my ass about finding someone, but then things happened and you showed up, and i figured why not just hit two birds with one stone, or some shit.â
a pause.
âpersonally i wouldnât want to be the stone hitting not just one but two poor birds, but i get it.â
that mustâve caught him off guard, because bakugou snorts. you grin at him when he snickers and calls you stupid under his breath, the atmosphere taking a vastly lighter turn.
now, you didnât notice it beforeâmuch like how you didnât notice his agencyâs building being part of your regular route to the mallâbut bakugou has a dimple. a tiny one. and similar to his nod from a short while ago, itâs a subtle little thing, but itâs thereâespecially now that heâs smiling.
and right next to his dimple are his lips.
which are looking ungodly moisturized compared to your undoubtedly chapped ones.
wait.
your eyes shoot up from his lips to his eyes, a tidal wave of equal parts shame and humiliation ready to crash over your entire, pathetic body. but just as it is about to metaphorically collide with your frame, it freezesâjust as you do.
because you catch himâand no matter how much he might try to deny it, you saw it with your own two eyes.
he was staring at your lips.
but apparently denying it isnât part of his agenda for the night, because he does the exact fucking opposite.
he dives in and presses his lips onto yours.
and you were rightâthey are sinfully soft, even if you havenât seen him apply lip balm in the handful of instances you hung out.
and as far as you can remember, this is the last coherent thought that crosses your mind, because the next few minutes go by like a blur. you vaguely recall him pulling away and looking straight at you, as if waiting for a reaction, before leaning right back in when you pull him closer by his shirt. what you donât remember is who opens the door or how you manage to use your keys without breaking the momentum, but you magically do, just as magically as how fast clothes are shed on the way to your bed.
you recall him eagerly towering over you as your back hit the soft sheets of your mattress, as well as the honest admission of his inexperience yet willingness to learn against your neck. you remember guiding him, telling him how to touch you and the right places to do soâwhere to rub and lick and thrust not just his fingers to drive you over the edge.
and he doesâdrive you over the edge. over and over and over that you lost count. and you equally returned the favor, shocked at your own desperation and unusual determination to make him feel good. you recall his being vocalâwhich you loved, if the incessant wetness between your thighs that lasted the entire night was any indication. you donât remember when you finished for the last timeâwhen you both crashed out from sheer exhaustion.
but it eventually happenedâotherwise, you wouldnât be laying here, naked under the covers, with a sleeping bakugou illuminated by the sunlight peeking through your black-out curtains.
this wasnât part of the plan.
the whole pretending to be amicable soulmates plan, sure. but perhaps more importantly, your short-term plan that consists ofâŠwell, today and tomorrow.
the last thing you need is to actually be tethered to a person this late in the game.
still, and despite the palpable regret that sits heavy on your chestâthe one thatâs very bare at the moment albeit concealed under your freshly-washed blanketâyouâd be lying if you said you didnât want it. besides, you donât have anything else to blame for your behavior last night other than your own free will.
but why do you still feel so empty?
âyou okay?â
ripped out of your stupor, you whip to look to your left, and you donât know who else you were expecting, but your eyes still widen in surprise when you see a naked bakugou, slightly propped up by his two elbows that strain under his hefty weight. unable to sustain his gaze, you keep your line of vision trained on this one vein that runs along the length of his arm as you merely nod in response.
unsurprisingly, he doesnât take that for an answer.
âiâm not asking again,â he warns, and your eyes shoot up to meet his in disbelief.
the words are out before you can rein them in. âare you always this mouthy even in the morning?â
âiâm not a morning person,â he simply spits back, as if thatâs enough of an explanation in itself.
you furrow your brows at him, having half a mind to lock in on this staredown until the fluid in your eyes dries out and you finally, finally die (or go blind, whichever comes first), but then just as quickly as it possessed you with his challenge, the fight within you dies out, leaving your body limp with numbness and fatigue. you break eye contact when it happens, shaking your head in resignation.
you settle with: âitâs nothing,â and blindly hope he leaves it at that.
ââs not nothing if itâs clearly bothering you,â he retorts to your chagrin.
âi donât want to be embarrassingly vulnerable if itâll make you uncomfortable.â
at that, he scoffs. âwe fucked. multiple times last night. it canât get any more vulnerable than that.â
you flush at his brazenness. âyeah, well, thatâs the thing. weâŠyou know,â you lower your voice for the next bit, âhad sex, and now the lines are getting blurry and itâs all confusing.â
and when he doesnât say anything for a moment, you tie your spiel with a mangled bow. âi told you it was gonna be embarrassing for me.â
that seems to rub him off the wrong way, because his nose flares in irritation. âwhyâre you talking like iâm some cold ass fuckboy? i told you, didnât i? thereâs nothing fucking casual about me.â
âi didnât mean it likeââ
âlet me talk first,â he commands, and you shut up.
he sighs when you do, letting his head droop between his shoulders. âi donât regret it, but if you do, then iâm sorry. i shouldnât have made a move.â
you sit up from where you were lying down, the motion causing him to look up and at you as you shake your head, âdonât apologize, bakugou. itâs justâŠâ
you trail off, weighing on what you can and cannot say.
âitâs just what?â he prods.
you let out a long exhale. âitâs just things are a bitâŠcomplicated, to say the least.â
that makes the pro-hero frown, but he doesnât get to push you to expound on it because a booming voice erupts throughout the room, entirely juxtaposing the earlier quiet. you startle, then ease up when you realize itâs all mightâs, and that itâs merely a ringtone. bakugou scrambles out of bed to fetch his phone, and you manage to look away just in time to avoid catching a glimpse of his massive dick.
which, after last night, is really just for courtesy purposes at this point.
thankfully, you donât have to stare at the ceiling for too long because he retrieves it in record time, before hurriedly crawling back and flinging the covers on top of his lower half.
he eyes you as he brings the device up to his ear and speaks into it. âwhat is it, nerd?â
you strain to listen in on the voice at the other end, but you barely manage to pick up on a few words. you resort to observing bakugouâs facial expressions instead.
âcut to the chase,â he spews, and you find yourself feeling bad for the other person. âiâm busy right now.â
you watch as bakugou listens to the ânerdâsâ reply, stiffening when the pro-hero curses under his breath.
âitâs next weekend? whyâd you have to book it this early, then?â
was he planning to meet this person somewhere?
âshit. fine, iâll ask her.â
you donât even get to wonder who her is before bakugou swiftly brings his other hand up to cover the microphone, regarding you straight-up.
âshitty deku and round cheeks want to hang out next weekend,â he explains, slightly hesitant, before: âyou up for that?â
you make a quick survey of bakugouâs face. can you even say no, at this point? technically, you can, but an inkling deep inside you points at your needing a distraction, because otherwiseâŠ
otherwiseâŠ
no, nowâs not the time for that.
instead, you nod, forcing a smile on your lips. âiâll go.â
bakugou stares at you for a beat, gaze borderline scrutinizing it makes you uneasy. but then he nods, and you find yourself taking a sharp breath as he goes back to his phone call.
âweâre in.â
âonce again, serving time will be 15 to 20 minutes, and iâm haruhi, your server for this evening.â
you collectively thank the waitress as she beams at the four of you while serving your glasses of water, before turning around to return to the kitchen.
âthis restaurantâs really hard to get into, you know,â shares midoriya when the girl is out of earshot, catching your attention. âbut i heard their katsudon is really, really good, so i worked hard to get us a reservation.â
âworked hard, my ass,â sneers bakugou without missing a beat. âyou pulled some strings. i recognize the owner, heâs the father of one of your top students.â
âkacchanââ
âdonât tease him, bakugou,â the brunette interjects, an adorable pout etched on her pretty face. âi was with him, he was on the phone for thirty minutes with the receptionist begging for a slot.â
âand you two are begging to be teased,â comes bakugouâs snarky quip. âquit it with the whole defending him, would ya?â
you fail to stop the smile that invades your lips as the new couple blush at bakugouâs remark, an unmistakable tinge of pink flooding both of their cheeks.
âif itâs okay to ask,â you start, tamping down the shyness that looms in when the two across you regard you pleasantly, âhow long have you been dating?â
âuh, about three months, right, izuku?â uraraka replies quietly, the pink from earlier now blossoming into a more apparent red as she looks at the man.
ây-yes, three months,â confirms the greenhead.
from where heâs seated to your left, bakugou snorts. âitâs been a long time coming, if you ask me.â
âyou make it sound so simple, bakugou,â counters uraraka, before shifting to face you. âit really wasnât easy to get to this point, y/n. iâm not sure if bakugouâs told you, but we went through a lot in ua and even after that, which made entertaining anything beyond hero work impossible. plus,â she adds timidly, âthereâs this whole soulmate situation on top of everything.â
curious, you ask. âwhat soulmate situation?â
and, as if theyâve gone through these motions countless times before, both midoriya and uraraka lift up their right wrists and thrust them forward for you to see. you lean forward to get a better view.
you look at midoriyaâs first. his looks just like yours before you met bakugou a little over a month agoâopaque and conveniently set at zero. you then glance at urarakaâs, but to your surprise, hers looks different. a huge number is written on her fleshâŠ
but itâs static and greyed out.
you look up at the woman, confused, and sheâs quick to explain. âmy soulmate died a few years ago.â
she shrugs, âand izukuâsâŠwell, heâs never heard of them.â
ânot that we wouldnât be with each other if they were both around,â clarifies midoriya, who says it so quickly he almost stumbles over his words. âitâs just that because of these circumstances, our relationship is a bitâŠunconventional.â
âi understand,â you promptly reply with the most gracious expression you can muster. uraraka shoots you a grateful look, while midoriya bashfully scratches at his head.
you sense bakugouâs gaze on you through your periphery, but you ignore it.
you wouldnât be able to hold it, anyway.
âitâs romantic, isnât it?â
you round the corner, careful not to brush against bakugou when he does the same to your left. a sigh of relief threatens to wrack over the entirety of your frame when youâre met with the sight of the familiar-looking street, brightly illuminated by an array of streetlights dotting the entire length of it.
âwhat,â he says more than asks, effortlessly keeping up with your pace with his long strides.
you take a fleeting glance at him, before shifting your attention back to the pavement in front of you. âmidoriya and uraraka, and how they chose each other.â
âi guessâŠâ he responds, voice uncharacteristically quiet. âbut iâve always seen it from lightyears away.â
you pause, although youâre quick to step back into your rhythmic walking. âreally?â
âtheyâve always had each otherâs backs even before ua,â he explains. âitâs creepy how similar they are to each other, too. itâd be weird if they didnât end up together.â
he says it so seriously you canât help but laugh. you catch him looking at you, smirking. âyouâve got an interesting way with words, bakugou.â
âsue me.â
you, in fact, donât sue him, but you do unleash a cutting wisecrack in his direction, which he counters with his, and this goes on and on without pause that you donât even notice youâve already arrived at the front of your condominium unit until he points it out.
and as the weighty realization of this dawns on you, so do the memories of what happened when you were last here together. you rush to suppress them, and pick up the conversation from where you left off.
âi donât know about you,â you quip, tossing him a grin, âbut i take comfort in the fact that people can find someone beyond their designated soulmates.â
to your dismay, albeit somewhat unsurprisingly, bakugou doesnât return itâthe grin nor the sentiment, apparentlyâbecause he only stares at you weirdly, like you just said somethingâŠoff.
great, you think to yourself. now youâve ruined it.
might as well ruin it even further at this point, right?
finally, and to your brainâs relief, you let the damned grin fall off your face, let your shoulders sag from the strenuous effort to seem tall and confident for the last few hours, and you heave a heavy, heavy sigh. you sense bakugou stiffen at your palpable change in demeanor, but you pay it no mind.
âlook,â you start, willing yourself to look up to meet his eyes, which you instantly regret because now theyâre laced with obvious concern. still, you press on and gulp. âi didnât want to do this, but i guess i have no choice now, do i?â
âwhat are youââ
âi know things are weird right now, and i just had to go ahead and start catching feelings like a lunatic, but iââ
you trail off, uncertain, before deciding fuck it. âthis canât go on, bakugou.â
the second you let the words out, you can only watch with anticipatory dread as a million emotions dance across his features. you stand there as he opens his mouth, before closing them, and then opening them again, although nothing comes out.
what seems like an eternity passes before he finally gets something out.
ââŠwhy?â
you press your lips into a thin line. âitâs because iâm sick.â
there.
but then he says something that completely throws you off balance.
âi know.â
you feel your eyes widen in surprise as he diverts his gaze. âwhat? how?â
âiââ he starts, reluctant, before: âi noticed.â
instantly, you flame in embarrassment. you thought you had this whole masking thing pinned the fuck down. and all this time you hadnât?
you mustâve looked distraught at his admission, because he swiftly tries to soothe you. âdonât hide,â he says, and only then do you realize youâre shrinking in yourself like you do when you want to disappear. he frowns, âthe last thing you need to be is fucking ashamed.â
at that, and despite yourself, you snort. you donât have the heart to tell him you canât remember the last time you felt shame over your condition from how long itâs just been thereâan unwavering part of your life. still, you force a reply. âthanks.â
and before he can say anything uselessly placating thatâll only chip away at the very little you have left, you beat him to it. âi should head inside.â
âbutââ
âgood night, bakugou.â
and just like that, you spin on your heel, open the door with your keys, and close it shut in his face.
the conversation from earlier wouldnât leave his head.
even as he tosses and turns on top of his king-sized mattress, and even as the clock ticks past the usual, strict bedtime heâs set for himself as early as high school, he finds himself wide awake, his steady heartbeat the only thing thatâs breaking the monotonous quiet of his lonely bedroom.
so much happened in the course of the few minutes in front of your place, that while he prides himself in his acuity and general sharpness, he admits even he couldnât have responded the way he should have despite desperately wanting to.
which fucking reminds him.
he didnât get to say he likes you back.
he was so wrapped up in you implicitly trashing your soulmate connection, as well as you calling it quits that he barely registered your hasty confession. not when you immediately followed it up with an acknowledgment of whatâs been causing you pain.
and as he stares at the dimly lit ceiling of his room, bakugou arrives at a pivotal realizationâhis feelings should be the least of your worries.
but that doesnât mean you didnât deserve to know.
so with a renewed sense of determination, the pro-hero promptly sits up and reaches for the phone thatâs perched idly on his nightstand. 10:07 pm, it reads. you should still be awake by now.
he types out a message.
(10:08 pm) me: you awake? can i call you?
he presses the send button before he can back out of it.
what feels like five minutes pass without a single chime emanating from his phone, at which point he finally allows himself to let the anxiety creep up his neck. he stares at your caller id, debating whether or not youâd get mad if he just went ahead and called you.
eventually, and after five more minutes, bakugou decides heâd rather face your wrath than deal with his own regret.
so he calls you. once, no answer. second attempt, sent straight to voicemail. third, fourth, and fifth, and thatâs when a ghastly chill envelopes him.
it couldnât be.
still, with bated breath and immense dread pooling in his stomach, he slowly lifts his right wrist to check.
only to find that the timer has stopped.
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Summary: You and Katsuki Bakugou have been a little more than friends for forever, with everyone around you trying to push you together by any means necessary. You two however are relatively comfortable in this in-between space despite every force trying to make you a couple. Are you truly still each other's match when these circumstances change?
Pairings: Bakugou x Reader, Bakugou x OC
CW: arranged marriage, angst, friends to lovers, situationship, mutual pining, established relationships, blackmail
A/N: Crossposted on AO3! There are a number of OCs in this fic and a couple of subplots!
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
REMEMBER ME IN SUMMER â SATORU GOJO
pairing â one night stand!satoru gojo x fem!reader
summary â six months ago, you left satoru gojo's apartment before sunrise, thinking you'd never see him again. now, trapped in a beach house for a weekend with mutual friends, you're forced to face the man who doesn't seem to remember that nightâor does he? between shared walls, heated touches, and games of pretend, you're starting to think maybe one night wasn't enough after all. but in a house full of friends, some things are better left in the past⊠right?
word count â 9.5 k
genre/tags â beach house AU, summer romance, one night stand to lovers, mutual pining, fluff, tension, awkward reunions, friends gathering, miscommunication, beach vibes, satoru is a little menace in this one
warnings â 18+ ONLY. contains explicit sexual content, alcohol consumption, all characters aged up (mid 20s), language
author's note â hi everyone ! this fic came out of nowhere, and i literally wrote it in three days, but i really love the idea and the summer vibes in this one, even tho i wrote it while it was literally snowing outside, but somewhere on earth it's summer rn, so why not post it lol. hope you enjoy this mess of a summer romance story as much as i enjoyed writing it ! <3 (credit/art)
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The last person you expected to see in Okinawa was Satoru Gojo.
Yet there he was, lounging on the deck of the beach house like he belonged there, white hair catching the sunlight as he laughed at something someone had said. Your heart tumbled over itself as memories of that night six months ago flooded back unbidden.
"You okay?" Maki nudged you with her elbow. "You look like you've seen a ghost."
More like the ghost of past bad decisions. "I'm fine," you managed, gripping your weekend bag tighter. "Wasn't expecting so many people."
The beach house was supposed to be a simple weekend getaway with close friends. But somewhere between planning and execution, it had turned into a "friends of friends" situation to fill the eight-bedroom house Okkotsu's family had offered.
"Yeah, Yuta's cousin's boyfriend invited some people to fill the space," Maki explained, completely unaware of your internal crisis. "That's Satoru over there, by the way. He's actually pretty fun once you get past the wholeâ" She gestured vaguely at all of him.
You wanted to laugh. Or cry. Maybe both. Because you were already very familiar with how "fun" Satoru Gojo could be.
Six months ago, you'd met him at a bar in Tokyo. He'd been charming and gorgeous, all easy smiles and playful banter. One drink had turned into several, flirting had turned into kissing, and kissing had turned into...
Well.
You'd slipped out of his apartment before dawn, leaving nothing but a lipstick stain on his collar and a dip in his pillow. It had seemed like the right thing to do at the time. You weren't looking for anything serious, and someone like him definitely wasn't the settling down type.
Now, watching him chat lively with your friends like the universe's cruelest joke, you wondered if you should have at least left your number.
"Girl," Maki waved her hand in front of your face. "You sure you're okay?"
Before you could answer, Satoru looked up. His eyes met yours across the deck, and for a moment, your heart stopped.Â
But there was no recognition in those sea blue eyes. No hint that he remembered the way you'd gasped his name in the dark, the way his hands had traced every inch of your skin, the way he'd whispered "stay" against your shoulder just before you'd fallen asleep.
He just smiled politely, the same smile heâs probably giving everyone else too, and went back to his conversation.
Right. Of course he didn't remember. You were probably just one in a long line of one-night stands for someone like him. The thought shouldn't hurt as much as it did.
"Come on," Maki said, tugging you towards the house. "Let's get settled in before the others arrive.â
Up close, the beach house was even more impressive. A sprawling three-story mansion of white stone and floor-to-ceiling windows that caught the afternoon light like rippling water, a wraparound veranda with a cozy sitting area led to a private path down to the beach, lined with swaying palms and colourful flowers.
Inside, the house opened into a huge room with soaring ceilings and an open floor plan that made the space feel endless. Ocean views followed you everywhere through the massive windows, and the whole place smelled of salt and lemon.
"The bedrooms are upstairs," Maki said as she led you up a floating staircase. "Most of them are on the second floor, but there are two master bedrooms on the third."
The universe, it seemed, had a twisted sense of humor. Not only did you have to spend the weekend pretending you didnât know how Satoru's brows draw together when he'd cum, but your room ended up right next to hisâthe two largest bedrooms on the top floor, sharing a wall and a connecting balcony. Of course.
Your room was bigger than your entire apartment in Tokyo, with a king-size bed draped in soft white linens. One wall was entirely glass, offering an unobstructed view of the ocean, while the other walls were decorated with pictures and minimalist art.
"My god, the viewâs amazing!" Maki gushed and threw open the balcony doors. The sound of waves immediately filled the room, along with fresh, salty ocean air. "You can see the whole beach from here."Â
But you were too busy staring at the wall next to you, where a door that must lead to Satoru's room was hidden behind a cupboard. You could hear muffled movement from his room, the sound of his laugh drifting through the wall that suddenly felt far too thin and your mind helpfully supplied memories of other sounds he could make, and you wondered if it was too late to fake some sudden illness and go home.
"Yeah," you said, dropping onto the edge of the bed. "Amazing."
Maki flopped down beside you, bouncing slightly on the plush mattress. "I know I've been here like five times already with Yuta, but it never gets old." She rolled onto her stomach and rested her chin on her hands. "Usually it's just us and his family, maybe a few cousins. This is the first time we're doing a friend group thing."
You tried to focus on her words instead of the sound of suitcases being wheeled into the room next door. "How long have you and Yuta been coming here?"
"Since we started dating three years ago. His family does this whole summer tradition thing." She smiled. "First time I came, I was so nervous I barely left the room. Now it feels like a second home." She sat up, crossing her legs. âAnd since his parents said we could use it this weekend, we thought why not invite friends.â
Through the wall, you could hear male voices chatting and laughing, followed by the sound of a door sliding open. Probably the balcony doors. Your shared balcony. Where he could walk past your windows at any time.
âYouâre okay with this, right? Yutaâs friends are actually really fun once you get to know them. Especially Satoru, even tho he can be a pain in the ass.â Your stupid heart tumbled over itself once more at his name. "And single, if you're interested. I couldâ"
"No!" The word came out louder than intended, and you heard the conversation next door pause briefly. Lowering your voice, you added, "I mean, no thanks. Not really looking for anything right now."
Maki gave you a strange look. "You sure you're okay? You've been weird since we got here."
"Just tired from the drive," you lied and stood up. "Maybe I'll take a quick shower before everyone else arrives."
"Okay..." She didn't sound convinced but got up anyway. "I should go find Yuta anyway, make sure he's not letting Satoru destroy any of Yuta's mum's favourite vases."
You waited until she left before falling with your face first onto the bed with a groan. Perfect. Not only did you have to spend the weekend next door to your one night stand who might or might not remember you, but now your best friend was trying to set you up with him.
Through the wall, you heard Satoru laugh at something, the sound familiar enough to make your chest ache.Â
It was going to be a very long weekend.
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You'd barely finished unpacking when Yuji burst into your room without knocking. "Hey! We're setting up a net for beach volleyball. You in?"
"Ah, I don't reallyâ"
"Everyone's playing!" He was already on his way back to the door. "Even Megumi, and you know how he is about fun."
Before you could form a proper excuse, Maki appeared behind him. "Come on, it'll be fun, the sun is out and itâs better than hiding up here all afternoon."
And that's how you found yourself trudging down to the beach, trying to convince yourself this was fine. Totally fine. Just a fun game of volleyball with friends. Nothing to worry about.
But then the boys started stripping off their shirts. It was like watching some ridiculous scene out of Top Gun as they all shed their shirt in the afternoon heat. But it was Satoru who made your brain go silent completely.Â
He pulled his shirt off, and suddenly you were having vivid flashbacks to exactly how that toned chest felt under your hands. The sun caught his hair like a halo, and when he stretched his arms over his head, the muscles in his back shifted in ways that should not make your knees so weak, but here you were, rooted to the spot, your pulse racing as if it had a mind of its own.
"You're staring," Maki whispered next to you.
"I'm not," you said, even though you definitely were. How could you not? It was like someone had taken every beach volleyball scene from every summer movie ever and combined them into one ridiculous moment.
Teams were forming, and with an uneven number, you volunteered to sit this round out. Not that you were particularly eager to participate in the first place. You were perfectly happy watching from the safety of your beach towel, where the risk of accidentally brushing against Satoru's unnecessarily perfect body was thankfully minimized.
The game started, and it quickly became clear that everyone was taking it way too seriously, as Satoru and Yuji seemed to be in some sort of competition to see who could spike the ball more impressively.Â
"Show off," you muttered to yourself as Satoru delivered a rather dramatic jump serve, the ball landing dangerously close to your foot. But he must have heard you, because he caught your eye with a wink that made your stomach flutter. "Like what you see?"
"I've seen better," you said before you could stop yourself.
His eyebrows shot up and a slow smile spread across his face. "Have you now?"
Oh god. Were you flirting? This was definitely flirting. You needed to stop staring at the way sweat was making his skin glisten and focus on... literally anything else.
"Pay attention!" Nobara yelled, and Satoru barely managed to dodge the ball she'd spiked directly at his head.
The game continued, growing more competitive with each round. You had to admit, it was entertaining watching your friends become more and more dramatic with each point. One of Yutaâs cousins and Yuji had some sort of rivalry going on, while Maki and Nobara were trash-talking each other.
But it was Satoru who kept drawing your attention. The way he moved was almost unfair and you found yourself following the drops of sweat as they made their way down his neck, remembering how that skin had tasted under your tongue.
"Incoming!"
You looked up just in time to see the volleyball heading straight for your face. Before you could react, Satoru dove in front of you and caught the ball just inches from your nose. The movement sent him sprawling across your legs, his face entirely too close to yours.
You blinked at him for a few moments, then whispered, "Thank you.â But the words came out too soft, almost like they had that night in Tokyo when he'd helped you into a taxi and then convinced you not to take it and instead come home with him.
Time seemed to slow, the crashing waves and voices of the others fading into white noise as Satoru's eyes met yours. For a moment, something flickered in those blue depthsâa flash of recognition, perhaps even remembrance.Â
His breath caught, barely noticeable, and his hand on your leg tightened ever so slightly. You watched his eyes, saw the exact moment his gaze dropped to your lips, and suddenly you were back in that Tokyo bar, both of you caught in that same magnetic pull.
"You're welcome," he said, his voice so low that only you could hear it. There was something in his tone, a hint of question, like he was trying to place a hazy dream. His thumb brushed against your skin, possibly by accident, possibly not, sending shivers up your spine.
The moment stretched, taut as a bowstring, thick with shared memoriesâmemories you weren't even sure he had. Then someone yelled "Dinner!" from the direction of the house, and the spell broke.
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The sun was setting by the time everyone had showered and gathered around the huge dining table on the deck. Fairy lights twinkled overhead and the sound of the waves could be heard in the background as the chaos of fifteen people trying to organize a meal unfolded.
You'd taken extra care getting ready, telling yourself it was just because of the salt and sand, not because of the way Satoru had looked at you on the beach. You'd chosen a light summer dress that happened to be the exact shade of blue as his eyesâpure coincidence, of courseâand had let your hair dry naturally in the sea breeze.
Yuta ended up ordering way too much from the local seafood restaurant, you concluded as you surveyed the spread of food on the table.Â
You ended up squeezed between Maki and Megumi, which should have been a relief. Instead, you found yourself very aware of Satoru sitting directly across from you, his hair still slightly damp from his shower, wearing a loose white linen shirt that he should really button up and stop teasing the entire table with glimpses of his toned chest.
"Pass the crab?" he asked, and when you handed him the plate, your fingers brushed. The contact sent a shiver through you, and you could have sworn you saw his breath catch. But then he was turning to laugh at something Yuji said, and you were left wondering if you'd imagined the whole thing.
"âand then he just fell face first right into the sand!" Yuji was saying, gesturing wildly with his chopsticks. "You should have seen it!"
"We were all there, literally two hours ago," Megumi deadpanned.
"The game was rigged anyway," Nobara said, reaching for another plate of grilled shrimp. "You can't put Mr. Perfect over here on a team and expect it to be fair." She jerked her thumb in Satoru's direction.
"What can you do?" Satoru said, his eyebrows knitted together, but a grin played on his lips. "I just happen to be naturally gifted." And then his eyes caught yours once more across the table.Â
Heat crept up the back of your neck as you remembered how he'd felt when he'd sprawled across your legs, his skin sun warm and slightly sandy. How his touch had lingered just a fraction too long to be casual.Â
Something had changed in his expression, so subtle that anyone else might have missed it. But you'd spent hours that night memorizing his faces. His smirk when he had you right on the edge, his soft smile when you were trembling beneath him, the way his eyes darkened just before heâ
Maki snorted. "Yeah, sure." And you looked over at her, breaking the eye contact before you could do something stupid like climb across the table and find out if he tasted as good as you remembered.
When the dinner was over, Nobara suggested to play drinking games, truth or dare to be specific, to which "What are we, fifteen?" Megumi commented but Maki already chimed in with "Never have I ever" and so it was decided.
Your stomach dropped. The last thing you needed was a drinking game where people confessed their secrets. Especially with the way Satoru kept looking at you, like he was one memory away from connecting dots you really didn't want connected.
"I think I'll pass," you said, pushing your plate away. "The sun really did take it out of me."
You gathered your plates and the sound of the others setting up their drinking game followed you into the kitchenâYuji's voice carrying over everyone else's as he argued about rules, Nobara shouting something about "no questions about exes," and Megumi's long drawn out sighs.
A salty ocean breeze swept into the kitchen through the open wall of windows overlooking the water as you rinsed your plate. "You know," a voice came from behind you, making you jump, "I was starting to think you hate me."
Your heart skipped a beat. You didn't need to turn around to know it was Satoruâwould recognize that voice anywhere, had spent months trying to forget how it sounded when it was rough after heâd cum. But you turned anyway, finding him leaning against the doorframe and the kitchen suddenly felt so much smaller.Â
"What?" The word came out embarrassingly breathless.
"Let me rephrase, for someone who doesn't hate me, you're doing an impressive job of avoiding me."
"I'm not avoiding you.â You turned back to the sink. "I'm doing dishes."
"Sure. The dishes." His voice got closer, and you could feel the heat of him just behind you. "Though I have to wonder why someone would work so hard to avoid someone they've never met before."
Your hands stilled under the running water. "I don't know what you're talking about."
"You've barely looked at me all day." He was close enough now that you could smell his perfume that had lingered on your clothes for days after that night. "Want to tell me what I did to deserve the cold shoulder? Because usually, I at least remember if I've pissed someone off."
Your heart pounded so loudly you were sure he could hear it, but at the same time the irony of his words made you want to laugh. "You haven't done anything," you said, which was technically true. He hadn't done anything wrong. Except maybe be too good in bed and then forget about it entirely.
"No?" His voice dropped lower, and you could feel his breath on your neck. "Then whyâ" He cut himself off. "Wait. Have we met before?"
You spun around, hands dripping water onto the floor. The motion brought you chest to chest with him, trapped between his body and the counter. "No," you said, too quickly, way too quickly. "Definitely not."
"You sure about that? Because you seem familiarâ"
"Must just have one of those faces."
He moved closer still, one hand braced on the counter beside your hip, effectively caging you in. "Is that so? Because Iâm sure Iâd remember a pretty one like yours." You felt your breath catch in your throat, every nerve in your body screaming. He was going to kiss you, wasn't he? You should probably do something. Like move. Or breathe.
But then he simply stepped back, his smile widening. "Sorry. Must have mistaken you for someone else,â he said and the loss of his warmth felt like whiplash, leaving you cold despite the summer heat that still lingered in the air. You watched him retreat towards the door, casual as anything, like he hadn't just turned your world sideways.
Through the open door, laughter spilled in from the deck, breaking the spell that had held you captive. Satoru paused in the doorway for a moment, silhouetted against the warm light from outside, before disappearing back into the noise of your friends.
You stayed at the sink, trying to convince yourself that the heat in your cheeks was just from the summer air and ignoring the way your heart refused to settle in your chest. What had just happened? You had no idea. But one thing was painfully certain.
This weekend was going to be a long one.
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Next morning, you decided to get up early and have your coffee on the beach before anyone else was awake. Sleep had been hard to come by anyway, with too many thoughts of certain one night stands keeping your mind racing.Â
Dawn was just beginning to break over the horizon, painting the sky in orange and gold watercolours and the ocean stretched out before you, quiet and calm, each small wave catching the early light like diamonds.
You'd wrapped yourself in an oversized cardigan against the morning chill, bare feet buried in sand that was still cool from the night before. And of course, because the universe hated you, that's when Satoru appeared.
"Couldn't sleep?" he asked, settling into the sand beside you without invitation.
You clutched your coffee mug tighter. "Something like that."
"Yeah, me neither." He stretched his long legs out in front of him, and you definitely didn't notice how his shorts rode up slightly, definitely weren't thinking about how those thighs had felt under your hands. "Keep having these weird dreams."
"Oh?"
"Mmm." As he turned to look at you, the rising sun painted his profile gold, catching his eyelashes. There was something different about him in this light â softer somehow, more like the man who'd asked you to stay than the one who'd cornered you in the kitchen last night. "About a girl in a black dress. Red lipstick. The most amazing laugh I've ever heard."
Your heart stopped.
"Funny thing is," he continued casually, "I can never quite see her face in the dreams. But I remember how she tasted. How she felt pinned beneath me. How she clenching around my fingers. How she said my name when sheâ"
"Stop," you whispered.
"Why?" His voice was softer now. "Because you don't want to talk about that night? Or because you thought I wouldn't remember?"
You stared at the ocean, unable to meet his gaze. "You didn't seem to yesterday."
"Donât be stupid. I recognized you the moment you walked into the beach house."
Your coffee nearly slipped from your hands. "What?"
"Did you really think I wouldn't remember the girl who stole my favourite shirt on her way out the door?"
Heat flooded your cheeks, you totally forgotten about the shirt. "Then yesterday, in the kitchenâ"
"I wanted to see how long you'd keep pretending." He smiled, the bastard had the audacity to smile at you when he revealed that he was playing you the whole time. "You're cute when you're nervous, you know that?â
"You're mocking me."
"Mocking you?" His eyebrows rose. Then he leaned closer to you, but you still refused to look at him. "I spent six months trying to find the girl with the kind of laugh that makes you feel drunk just hearing it, who left before I could ask for her numberâ"Â
"It was just one night," you interrupted.
"Was it? Because I distinctly remember asking you to stay."
"I couldn't."
"Couldn't? Or wouldn't?"
You finally met his gaze fully, and immediately wished you hadn't. Because he was looking at you the same way he had that night. He was enjoying this, wasn't he? Playing with you, teasing you, making you feel like a flustered schoolgirl.Â
"Does it matter?" you asked.
"You're really a bit slow, aren't you?"
You wanted to protest, to tell him exactly what you thought of his arrogant everything, but then Maki's voice carried across the beach, "Breakfast! Come and get it before Yuji eats everything!"
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The breakfast table was just as chaotic as the dinner the night before. Fifteen people crammed around the table had that effect, especially with Yuji already piling his plate high with pancakes while Nobara complained about him taking too many.Â
You'd barely settled into an empty chair when Satoru slid into the seat next to you, as if he hadn't just admitted that he'd been playing jokes on you the whole day before.Â
"Can you pass me the syrup?" he asked innocently, but there was nothing innocent about the way his thigh pressed against yours under the table.Â
You handed him the bottle without looking at him, trying to focus on pouring your coffee without spilling it everywhere. Which was made all the more difficult when his hand found your knee under the table.
"So what's everyone's plans for today?" Maki asked, passing around a plate of fresh fruit.
You tried to concentrate on the conversation, you really did. But Satoru's hand was inching higher up your thigh, and your brain was shorted out. You kicked him under the table, aiming for his shin.
He didn't even flinch, just smiled wider and continued whatever conversation he was having with Megumi about later activities, all while his fingers danced along the hem of your shorts. You felt a sudden surge of heat, definitely not from the summer sun.
"You okay?" Nobara asked suddenly. "You look a bit flushed."
"Fine!" Your voice came out higher than intended as Satoru's fingers skimmed just slightly under the edge of your shorts. "Just... hot."
"It is pretty warm this morning," Satoru agreed, his tone perfectly pleasant even as his thumb pressed into that sensitive spot on your inner thigh that he somehow remembered. The bastard. You kicked him again, harder this time.
"Did someone just kick the table?" Maki looked around suspiciously.
"Must have been the wind," you said stupidly.
You grabbed his wrist under the table, intending to push his hand away, but he just interlaced his fingers with yours and kept them there on your thigh. It was like he was asserting dominance, staking his claim, and you were suddenly trapped.
"Hey, are you sure you're okay?" Yuji asked through a mouthful of pancakes. "You're acting weird."
"Totally fine," you managed. "Just didn't sleep well."
"Hmm, me neither," Satoru chimed in, his voice all false innocence. "Must be all these weird dreams I keep having." You dug your nails into his hand in warning, but he just squeezed your hand in response, his grip tightening.
"Dreams?" Nobara asked.
"Oh, you know," Satoru began thoughtfully, "the kind that keep you up all night, thinking about... things that got away."
You were going to murder him. Slowly. Possibly with the butter knife you were currently gripping way too tight.
"That's... weirdly poetic for you," Maki said, raising an eyebrow.
"You wouldn't want to know,â he replied, and you felt his fingers inch just slightly higher once more, making you jump and bang your knee on the table.
"Jesus, what is wrong with you two this morning?" Nobara asked, looking between you and Satoru.
Under the table, you finally managed to grab his hand in yours and hold it still. But that backfired when he started playing with your fingers instead, his thumb brushing across your knuckles in a way that made you gasp. You definitely wanted to kill him. Right after you figured out how to breathe normally again.
"So, beach day? I wanna go snorkelling," Yuji said, thankfully drawing attention away from whatever was going on under the table, and everyone agreed. JJust then, Satoru freed his hand from yours and placed it back on your knee before trailing it up your thigh.Â
Okay, nope this had to end now.
"I need more coffee," you announced abruptly, standing up so fast your chair scraped against the deck.
"I'll help," Satoru offered, already rising.
"No!" The word came out too sharp, making everyone look at you strangely. "I mean, I'm good. Thanks."
You practically fled into the kitchen, your skin still tingling where he'd touched you. Through the window, you could see him chatting with the others, looking completely unaffected while you were here trying to remember how to make your heart beat normally.
When is this weekend going to end?
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"You sure you're okay?" Maki asked, swimming up beside you. "You've been weird all morning. Is the sun too much?"
"I'm fine," you said for what felt like the hundredth time today. "Iâm not used to be around so many people."
The water was crystal clear, stretching out in various shades of blue that seemed to go on forever. Everyone had eagerly jumped into snorkeling, with Yuji and Nobara already in a heated competition about who could spot the most fish.
You adjusted your mask for the tenth time, trying to focus on anything except how good Satoru looked in just swim shorts. He was a few meters away, the sunlight catching the droplets of water that clung to his ridiculously toned shoulders.
My God. You needed distance. You needed space to breathe, to think, to do anything other than stare at him.
"If you say so." Maki didn't look convinced. "But tell me if somethingâs bothering you, okay?"
If only she knew. "Sure."
"Guys, come look at this!" Yuji called from where he was floating near some corals. "Rainbow fish!"Â
Everyone swam over to where he was pointing, and you had to admit, the sight was beautiful. Countless colourful fish swam through the coral, creating a vibrant palette under the water.
You followed the fish as a sudden pressure against your calf made you flinch. Satoru. He had brushed against your leg. It could have been an accident, a mere consequence of the crowded water, but somehow, it felt like anything but. You knew better. Nothing about Satoru was ever accidental.
You drifted slightly away from the group, desperately needing to put some distance between yourself and Satoru. The vibrant corals blurred into streaks of colour as you swam further from the group, the shouts of Yuji and Nobara fading.
The water a bit away from them was deeper, a darker shade of blue. As you peered down, you noticed the sandy ground was dotted with small stones, and a different kind of life seemed to thrive here. Sea anemones swayed gently in the current, and schools of silver fish, smaller than the ones near the reef, darted in and out of the anemones.
You floated on your back for a moment, gazing up at the sky, a vast expanse of pale blue flecked with fluffy white clouds as the sun warmed your face. It was so peaceful, and you were happy for the small pause amidst the chaos of the house.
"Beautiful, isn't it?"
You startled at Satoru's voice right behind you, nearly inhaling water through your snorkel. He'd somehow managed to swim up without you noticing, and now he was close enough that his arm brushed yours in the water.
"What are you doing?" you hissed, pulling your snorkel out.
"I know a better spot.â He nodded towards a more secluded area around the curve of the beach. "If you're interested."
You glanced back at the others, but they were all absorbed in whatever Yuji had found. "I don't thinkâ"
"Come on," he said, already swimming away. "Don't you trust me?"
"Not even a little bit." But found yourself following him anyway.
He led you around a small outcropping of rocks, the current tugging gently at your fins, to a quieter part of the reef. His hand on your arm gently guided you through the water. The water here was somehow even clearer, as if a veil had been lifted, revealing a breathtaking underwater scenery with colourful coral formations that created a labyrinth of archways and caverns with small fish swimming in between.
"How did youâ"
"I came here earlier this morning," he said, treading water close to you. "While you were pretending to ignore me after breakfast."
"I wasn'tâ" You cut yourself off as he dove under the surface, the sunlight playing across his back as he swam deeper.
You followed him down, your breath taken away by the sight. This part of the reef was like something out of a documentary. Swarms of tropical fish swirled around you in ribbons of colour, and the coral itself seemed to shine in the filtered sunlight.
When you surfaced, Satoru was watching you with an annoyingly knowing smile. "Worth following me?"
"It's alright," you said, trying to sound unimpressed even though you were anything but.
He laughed. "You're still trying to play hard to get?"
"I'm not playing anything."
"No?" He swam closer, close enough that you could see droplets of water clinging to his eyelashes. "Then why did you follow me here?"
"To see the fish.â
"The fish." His voice was amused. "Sure. That's why you've been watching me all morning?"
"I have notâ"
"You know," he cut you off, moving even closer, his body brushing against yours in the water. "You're pretty when you get all flustered. Just like that night in Tokyo. Same flush you had when I made you cum three times.â
Ha? Had he been keeping count or what? You frantically tried to replay that night in your head â there was the first time against his apartment door, then on the kitchen counter, and... oh god, he was right. The bastard had been counting. The smirk on his face told you he knew exactly what you were thinking about.
You splashed water at him. "We are not talking about Tokyo."
He wiped water from his face, grinning. "No? Should we talk about this morning instead? About how you nearly jumped out of your skin when I touched yourâ"
You dunked him mid-sentence.
He came up spluttering, pushing wet hair from his eyes. "Okay, I probably deserved that."
"You definitely deserved that."
But he laughed, and despite yourself, you found yourself laughing too. There was something infectious about him, something that made it hard to keep your walls up, dissolving your defenses with unnerving ease, like mist beneath the morning sun.
"We should head back," you said finally. "Before they come looking for us."
"Probably," he agreed, but made no move to leave. Instead, he floated closer, until his chest pressed against yours. "Or we could stay here a bit longer. I could remind you of all the other ways I can make you wet."
Heat flooded your body. "Satoru..."
"Yes?" His hands found your waist under the water, pulling you flush against him. One thigh slipped between yours, and you had to bite back a gasp at the friction. "You know, I still remember exactly how you sound when you're trying not to moan my name."
"We can't." But your body betrayed you, arching into his touch as his fingers skimmed along your ribs, dangerously close to your breast.
"Can't?" His lips ghosted over your lips, his thumb tracing circles on your hip under the water in a way that made you think of how those fingers had felt inside you. "Or are you afraid you won't be able to keep quiet this time?"
Before you could answer, Nobara's voice carried across the water. "Where did you guys go?"
You pushed away from him quickly, already swimming back towards the group. "Coming!"
"This isn't over," he called after you, and you could hear the smile in his voice.
"It never started!" you shot back, but you were smiling too.
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Satoru spent the rest of the afternoon driving you absolutely insane.
After snorkeling, he'd positioned his beach towel suspiciously close to yours, spending an unnecessary amount of time applying sunscreen to his chest and arms. His movements were deliberately slow, borderline pornographic, fingers sliding over muscle in a way that had you remembering exactly how those muscles had felt flexing under your tongue.Â
You knew without a doubt he was putting on a show for youâevery movement a reminder of how those arms had looked braced above you as he'd fucked you against his apartment door, how they'd felt pinning your wrists to his sheets.
During lunch, he'd somehow ended up next to you again, his bare thigh pressed hot against yours under the table like this morning had taught him nothing. Except this time, his hand didn't just rest on your knee. It spent the entire meal tracing patterns up your thigh, fingertips dancing dangerous close to where you'd been aching for him.
Your breath caught every time his hand "accidentally" slipped under the hem of your shorts, remembering how those fingers had curled inside you, how they'd made you beg.
The afternoon beach volleyball rematch was even worse. He kept finding excuses to touch youâsteadying you with a hand on your waist when you stumbled in the sand (the same way he'd gripped your hips while taking you from behind), reaching around you to grab the ball (his breath hot on your neck like when he'd whispered how good you felt around him), his chest pressing against your back, closer than needed (making you remember how it felt to be pressed between him and that apartment door).
But dinner? Dinner was pure torture.
He'd shown up freshly showered, hair still damp and tousled in that way that made your fingers itch to grab it (like you had when he was between your thighs), wearing a dark blue linen shirt that he hadn't bothered to button properly once more and spent the entire meal finding new ways to make you squirm.
He'd catch your eye across the table and slowly lick sauce off his thumb, making you remember exactly how that tongue had felt when he'd spread you open. When passing dishes, his fingers would brush against yours unnecessarily long, making you shiver. At one point, he'd stretched his arms above his head, his shirt riding up to reveal his lower abs that had you gripping your fork so hard your knuckles turned white.
He knew exactly what he was doing, tooâyou could tell by the smug look on his face throughout the whole dinner.Â
Thankfully, no one else seemed to notice anything amiss. They were all too busy with their own conversations, completely oblivious to the way he was systematically dismantling your sanity with nothing more than glances and touches.
Every time you thought you'd gotten yourself under control, he'd do something else â run his fingers through his hair the same way he had when you'd been on your knees in front of him, or bite his lip in a way that had you crossing your legs under the table. By dessert, you were a mess of sexual frustration and murderous impulses.Â
He was enjoying this, the bastard. Testing your control, seeing how far he could push before you broke. And the most infuriating part?Â
It was working.Â
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After dinner, everyone wandered into the living room in various states of food induced laziness. You'd barely managed to claim a corner of the big couch when Nobara disappeared into the kitchen, returning with an armful of wine bottles and a certain look in her eye that spelled trouble.
"No one move," she announced, setting the bottles on the coffee table. "I have an idea."
"Your ideas usually end with someone crying," Megumi commented from his spot on the floor.
"Or arrested," Maki added helpfully.
"Or both," you muttered, trying to ignore how Satoru had somehow appeared in the armchair closest to your corner of the couch. He'd rolled up his sleeves during dinner, forearms on full display, and you were having a hard time not staring at his fingers. Fingers that you knew from experience felt so good in your mouth to keep you fromâ
"Never have I ever!" Nobara's voice cut through your dangerous train of thought. A collective groan rose from the group.
"Not again," Megumi said, already trying to get up.
"Sit your ass down," Nobara commanded, pushing him back down. "We're bonding."
"We bonded plenty last night," you Yuta tried, but Nobara was having none of it and before you knew it, everyone agreed.
"Okay, I'll start easy," Yuji said, clearly excited despite his earlier protests. "Never have I ever cheated on a test."
Several people drank, including Satoruâand you, okay letâs be real.Â
The questions started innocent enough. Never have I ever broken a bone. Never have I ever been arrested. Never have I ever dyed my hair. But as the wine flowed, the questions got progressively more suggestive.
"Never have I ever kissed someone of the same gender," Maki said, and half the circle drank. "Never have I ever faked it," was Nobara's contribution, and several people groaned but drank.
You were starting to feel a bit hazy, the wine making everything feel warm and soft around the edges. Which was dangerous, because Satoru kept looking at you like he was remembering exactly how you'd sounded that night when you definitely hadn't been faking anything.
"Never have I ever," one of Yutaâs cousins announced then, "had sex with someone in this room." For a moment, no one moved. Then Yuta and Maki drank, of course. And then Satoru raised his own glass slowly and took a long sip.
"Who?" Nobara shrieked, looking around the circle. "Satoru just drank, so someone else here has toâ" Her gaze swept over everyone suspiciously.
"Someone's lying," Maki sang, already tipsy enough to find this hilarious. "Come on, fess up!"
You kept your face carefully neutral, even as you felt Satoru's eyes burning into you. You wouldn't give him the satisfaction. Not this time.
"Maybe it was before any of us knew each other," Yuji suggested, but Nobara shook her head.
"No way. Look at his face!" She pointed accusingly at Satoru. "He's got that look. You know, that 'I know something you don't know' look."
Satoru just smiled lazily from his armchair, swirling the wine in his glass. "Maybe I just like keeping you all guessing."
"You're a dumbass," Nobara said, but the group's attention was already shifting as Yuji launched into the next question, something about falling asleep at work.
You released a breath you hadn't realized you were holding, but made the mistake of glancing at Satoru and he gave you a look that sent a shiver of heat through you over his wine glass.Â
God, you were going to murder him. Slowly. Painfully. Preferably with the very wine glass he was currently smirking into.Â
Who did he think he was, just casually drinking like that, nearly exposing everything? He could have at least warned you, given you some sign he was about to blow up your secret. But no, he'd just taken that deliberate sip, probably getting hard on watching you squirm as you tried to keep your poker face.Â
That sick bastard.
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Sleep was impossible. You'd been tossing and turning for hours, replaying the day's events in your mindâfrom that moment in the ocean to his deliberate almost-reveal during the game. The walls of this fancy beach house seemed paper thin at night, every small sound amplified in the darkness.
That's how you heard his door open around 2 AM, followed by quiet footsteps heading downstairs.
You waited a few minutes, telling yourself you were just thirsty, that going downstairs for water had nothing to do with knowing he was maybe down there. The wooden steps creaked softly under your bare feet as you made your way down.
Silvery moonlight streamed through the massive windows, creating silver patterns on the marble countertops of the kitchen. Satoru stood at the island, drinking water from a glass, looking unfairly handsome in just sleep shorts and a wrinkled t-shirt.
"Couldn't sleep?" he whispered when he spotted you.
"What's your game, Satoru?" You kept your voice equally low, padding closer. "That thing earlier? During never have I ever?"
"Game? I'm not the one who was afraid of drinking".
"Because unlike you, I don't feel the need to announce our business to everyone."
He set his glass down, turning to face you fully. "Our business? So you admit there's something to announce?"
"That's notâ" You caught yourself before your voice could rise. "What are you trying to achieve here? With all theâ" you gestured vaguely, "touching and teasing and almost exposing everything?"
He stepped closer, and suddenly the kitchen felt way too small, even though it was like three times the size of your Tokyo apartment. "Maybe I just want everyone to know that night wasn't as casual for me as you seem to think it was."
You felt the weight of his words settle in the quiet kitchen, heavy with meaning you weren't prepared to unpack while moonlight caught his features in a way that made him look softer, almost vulnerable.
"What are you talking about? It was only one night."
"Was it?" He moved closer, until you had to tilt your head back to keep eye contact. "Because I remember asking you to stay. I remember waking up to an empty bed and spent the next six months thinking about why you left."
"I... you were just saying that in the moment. People say lots of things in the moment."
"Do they?" His hand came up to brush a strand of hair from your face. "Is that why you ran? Because you thought I didn't mean it?"
You swallowed hard, trying to ignore how your skin prickled where he'd touched you. "Satoru..."
"You know what I think?" His voice dropped even lower, barely a whisper in the quiet kitchen. "I think you're scared. Not of me, but of the fact that you wanted to stay too."
"That's notâ" But the words died in your throat as his thumb traced your jawline.
"Then why are you down here?" He was close enough now that you could feel the heat of his body against yours. "If it was just one night, just something casual, why did you follow me down here in the middle of the night?"
The counter pressed against your backâwhen had you started backing up?âand Satoru's arms came to rest on either side of you, caging you in. Position achingly familiar, reminding you of how this all started six months ago.
"I was thirsty," you said. You did not even believe yourself as you said it.
His laugh was barely a breath against your skin. "Liar."
And then his mouth was on yours, and god, you'd forgotten how good he was at this. His lips were soft but demanding, one hand sliding into your hair while the other gripped your hip, forcing you close against him. You gasped into the kiss, and he took the opportunity to deepen it, his tongue against yours in a way that made you forget your own name.
It was different from that first nightâless urgent, but somehow more intense. He kissed you like he was trying to prove a point, like he was laying claim to every moment you'd denied him these past six months. His teeth caught your lower lip, and you had to bite back a whimper, too aware of the sleeping house above.
"Still want to pretend this is nothing?" he whispered against your mouth, and you could feel his smile when your only response was to pull him back down for another kiss.
His hands slid down to grip your thighs, lifting you onto the counter. You wrapped your legs around his waist, drawing him closer as his mouth moved to your neck, kissing your throat just the way you like it, just the way he somehow remembered.
"Someone could come down," you breathed, even as your fingers tangled in his hair.
"Then I guess you'll have to be quiet." His teeth grazed your skin, making you shiver. "Think you can manage that? Because I distinctly remember you being quite vocal last time."
You tightened your grip on his hair in return, but that just made him groan softly against your throat. "You're stupid."
"Mm, that's not what you said in Tokyo." His hands slid higher under your shirt, thumbs brushing the underside of your breasts. "In fact, I remember you saying some very different thingsâ"
You cut him off with another kiss, partly to shut him up and partly because you needed his mouth on yours like you needed air. His fingers teased along your ribs, your back, your thighs, touching you everywhere except where you desperately wanted him to.
But then his fingers found the edge of your underwear, and you had to bite his shoulder to keep from moaning as he slid his fingers inside you, making you cum all over his fingers in secondsâjust like that night in Tokyo.
You were done, dizzy, breathless, clinging to him as he stripped your shorts and underwear down your legs. He pushed one leg up your chest as he lowered you back down onto the marble kitchen counter, your other leg still wrapped around his waist. His forehead pressed against yours as he thrust inside, hard, slow, perfect angleâjust like that night in Tokyo.
He tossed you around, manhandled you, fucked you against the fridge, threw you onto the couch and fucked you there too. He whispered your name, his voice husky against your ear, every letter a caress, even as he picked up pace, even as his hand closed around your throat, even as you bit into the pillow below to muffle your screams as he made you cum again. Multiple times. In various positions. Using his own cum as a lube for the next roundâjust like that night in Tokyo.
Afterwards you laid outside on the veranda in a big chair you both shared, gazing up at the stars scattered across the deep velvet sky, countless and impossibly bright. A second later his lips found yours and another second later you were on top of him, underwear pushed to the side and your head thrown back as he watched you chase your release on his dickâjust like that night in Tokyo.
And his hand found yours, intertwining your fingers as he ate you out on the stairs just before you wanted to go back to bed, but he wouldn't let you, making you cum again before he carried you off to the laundry room to fuck you one last time for sure good mesureâjust like that night in Tokyo.
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Morning came way too early, sunlight streaming through windows you'd forgotten to close. Every muscle in your body ached in the most pleasant way, reminding you of exactly how many surfaces you and Satoru had christened last night.Â
Yeah. You were definitely going to be feeling this for days. You winced slightly as you sat up â apparently kitchen counters weren't the most ergonomic choice for certain activities, or the stairs, or the laundry room, or... Okay, we get it.
When you finally made it downstairs, moving perhaps a bit more strangely than usual, Satoru was already at the breakfast table. Because of course he was, looking absolutely perfect and fullyfull rested in a fresh shirt, casually sipping his coffee like he hadn't spent half the night making you bite down on your fist to keep quiet.
"Well, someone looks rough," Nobara commented as you lowered yourself carefully into a chair. "Too much wine last night?"
You caught Satoru hiding a smirk behind his coffee cup. The bastard didn't even have the decency to look tired.
"Something like that," you muttered, reaching for the coffee pot and trying not to wince at the stretch. Your thighs burned in protest of the movement, and you could swear you saw Satoru's smile widening at your slight grimace.
"Must have been some wine," Nobara said, eyeing you suspiciously. "I don't remember you drinking that much during the game."
"Are you sure you're okay?" Yuji asked, looking concerned. "You're walking kind of funny."
"I'm fine, really," you managed. "Too much wine, thatâs all."
Maki, who sat next to you, leaned in closer. "Your 'too much wine' is showing," she whispered, pointing to your collarbone. Your hand flew to your neck, suddenly remembering all the attention Satoru had paid to that areaâespecially that moment on the stairs when you'd begged him to finish what he'd started before anyone heard them, while he sucked a very dark bruise right above your collarbone.
You quickly buttoned up your cotton shirt higher, but from Nobara's growing grin, it was too late. But thankfully, no one commented on it.
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The rest of Sunday passed in a lazy haze, with everyone moving a bit slower thanks to varying degrees of wine headaches. Most of the day was spent sprawled out on beach chairs, hiding behind sunglasses and drinking coconut water that Yuta swore would help with hangovers (but, in fact, did not).
You dozed on and off under an umbrella, trying not to think about how your body still ached in several places from the night before, and enjoyed your last day in Okinawa before you'd return to work on Monday.
When evening rolled around and it was time to pack up, the house became a chaos of suitcases and forgotten phone chargers once more. You were struggling with your bag next to your car, trying to figure out the best angle to lift it into the trunk without stressing your still sore muscles, when Satoru suddenly appeared and took it from your hands without a word.
"I can manage," you protested, but he was already lifting it into your trunk with an effortless ease that really shouldn't be as attractive as it was.
"I'm sure you can," he said, closing your trunk with a soft thud. "But maybe I just want an excuse to do this."Â
Before you could ask what 'this' was, he pressed a small folded piece of paper into your palm. You opened it to find a phone number written in his surprisingly neat handwriting.
"Since you didn't stay for it last time," he said softly.
"What makes you think I'll use it?"
"Because this time, you want to stay just as much as I want you to." He leaned closer, his voice dropping so only you could hear. "Besides, I believe we still have a few surfaces in my apartment left to explore."
You shoved his shoulder. "Stop."Â
He caught your hand before you could push him again. "Use it. Please?" His voice held a note of softness, an unexpected tenderness that made your heart ache with a strange longing. You nodded, tucking the paper safely into your back pocket.
"Still not announcing anything to everyone tho," you warned as Maki called out that they were ready to leave.
"Yet," he said with an eye roll. Then, before you could react, he pulled you in for one last kiss. It was slower, deeper this time, his hands cupping your face as he kissed you, as if he was afraid he might forget the feel of your lips.
"Someone could see us," you whispered against his lips, even as your fingers curled into his shirt.
"I don't care," he murmured, one hand sliding down to your waist to draw you closer. "Let them see." He kissed you again, shorter this time but no less intense. "Besides, they'll find out soon enough when I take you to this little ramen place in Shibuya I've been wanting to show you."
You pulled back slightly. "Oh? Someone's confident about getting a second date."
"Third, technically," he said. "If we're counting Tokyo. And that thing against the washing machine last night."
"Those don't count.â
"Then I guess I'll have to make the next one special. Maybe dinner first. Then I can show you my apartment. Properly this time, not just the entrance hall and kitchen counter."
"Is that your way of asking me out?"
"That's my way of saying I'm not letting you disappear for six months again." He pressed a quick kiss to the corner of your mouth. "Use my number this time, yeah?"
"Satoru!" Yuji's voice carried across the driveway. "Stop making out and help me with these bags!"
Satoru laughed against your lips, stealing one more kiss before reluctantly pulling away. "Think about it. The ramen place. My apartment. All the surfaces we haven't used yet."
"Go help Yuji," you said, pushing him away even as you smiled. "Before he comes over here."
"Call me," he said, walking backwards with that stupidly handsome smile. "Or I'll just have to show up at your office. Make a big scene. Maybe bring flowers. Really embarrass you in front of all your coworkers."
"You wouldn't dare."
"Try me!" He finally turned then to help with the bags, leaving you to shake your head, your lips still tingling from his kisses.
The drive home felt different somehow. Every now and then, your hand would drift to your pocket, fingers brushing over the folded paper with his number, making sure it was still there as the familiar roads back to Tokyo stretched ahead.
The beach house grew smaller in your rearview mirror until it disappeared completely, taking with it the memories of lazy afternoons under the summer sun and heated nights. But other things lingeredâthe ghost of his lips against yours, the warmth of his hands, the way he'd looked at you like you were something worth waiting for.
Maybe you'd call him tomorrow. Or maybe you'd wait a day or two, just to prove you could. But knowing you, you'd likely message him the moment you set foot in your apartment.
A smile tugged at your lips as you pulled onto the highway, the setting sun painting the sky in strokes of rose and lavender. Whatever happened next, one thing was for sure â this weekend had changed everything.
And maybe, just maybe, that wasn't such a bad thing.
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SUMMARY: When Tommyâs about to jump off the bridge after seeing Graceâs ghost, a young girl walking by convinces him to change his mind.
[ REQUEST ] by @mrscherryâ
AUTHORâS NOTE: First of all, I loved this request, because it reminds me of one of my favourite songs that I associate with Tommy and that is âLook On Down From the Bridgeâ by Mazzy Star and I even included a lyric from it here. Second of all⊠I made my own self cry while writing this. It just felt extremely personal đŁ I hope youâll like it đ
TRIGGER WARNING: suicide attempt
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last night, you had your very first sleepover with katsuki.
it was perfect. no snoring or sleep walking, no blanket hogging, and most importantlyâno pro hero work pulling him away in the morning. the only thing that wouldâve made it better, is some clarity.
youâre dating katsuki, but itâs not officialâheâs not your boyfriend. you wonder if maybe, heâs just not that into you, or perhaps, he just doesnât have the time. timeâsomething heâs never had enough of, that has to be it, right?
your very first date, it was a two parter, because he was needed elsewhere mid mapo tofu. a few other dates after that were also cut shortâmaybe he thinks you just donât know each other well enough yet? is it even possible for someone like him to think that way? whatever the reason, you need to know.
âmorning katsuki,â you murmur, shuffling into the kitchen as you pull your sleeves up over your fists. you have a clear goal in mindâbut heâs cooking, without a shirt, and suddenly your mission is ten times more difficult. is this what being a pro hero feels like?
âmorning,â he mumbles back, glancing up briefly as you lean against the counter.
âwhat am i to you?â shit, how did that slip out? you couldâve sworn you asked how he slept.
âa fuckinâ headache,â he replies, sliding two glasses out of the cupboard and onto the counter. he opens the fridge, grabbing the carton of apple juice, and the carton of orange juice.
date three, part oneâyou had a heated debate over which is better, apple or orange. katsuki told you he doesnât like to chew his damn beverages, and you told him that, believe it or not, they make orange juice without pulp. still, he went on about the bitterness, the acidity, and the horrid oj and toothpaste comboâyet here he is having both in his refrigeratorâhow odd.
âcâmon, iâm serious,â you urge, watching the liquids cascade into their respective cups.
âso âm i.â he nudges your glass towards you, bringing his own up to his lips and chugging it.
âbut, iâm in your apartment,â you pause, noticing the way his face contorts into a full on sentenceâone that reads yeah, no shit. âi slept in your bed with you, iâm wearing your shirt,â you continue, gesturing to the long sleeve currently swallowing you whole.
âyouâre talkinâ my damn ear off too,â he breathes, wiping an arm over his mouth.
by date five, it was obvious that katsukiâs actions spoke louder than his wordsâwhich is impressive considering just how loud his words are. puddles lined the streets that evening, courtesy of the afternoon downpour. it was busy, drivers lost in their own little worlds as they drove pastâand each and every time, katsuki would angle his body to the right just a bit. he cursed every last one of them who sped by, and he was absolutely miserable by the time you made it off the main roads but, at least you were dry.
ânevermind,â you say, sliding into a chair at the dining table. youâve decided that, whatever this isâitâs good enough for you.
but it was on date one part two that katsuki knew you were it for him. after running out on you just three nights prior, he was glad you even showed upâbut you went one step further. you sat there with that pretty smile on your face. no eye rolls, no guilt trips, and not a single snide remark or complaint. you even offered to pay for the mealâas if he would ever let you do such a thing, but he found it cute nonetheless. so, he owes you this.
âhey,â he barks, causing your head to snap up. the two plates he had set on the counter are full now, he must be done. âyouâre mine.â
the look on your face mustâve said it all, because heâs choking back a laugh as he carries your plates over. youâre his? why did he blurt it out so casually? are you missing something?
âoh câmon,â he huffs, plopping down in the seat next to you. he turns, trailing his eyes up and down your figure. âyou slept on my damn side of the bed, in my fuckinâ shirt.â
he gave you this shirtâright before he told you to go wait in bed while he tidied upâhow the hell were you supposed to know he has a specific side?
âdonât play dumb,â he pauses, scowl growing as he watches you reach for a piece of food with your bare hands. he grabs your wrist, ushering for you to let him roll your sleeves upâlike hell heâs gonna sit back and watch you get his shirt dirty.
he folds the fabric with precision, biting the inside of his cheek in an attempt to hide his smileâbut he just canât.
âyâalready know youâre mine.â
Might as well call this man a trampoline with the way i would be bouncing on it
Bakugouâs first love whoâs temper and passion matches, no, exceeds his, because you had to fight twice as hard to earn things he was given, had to fight twice as hard to get a seat at a table he was born to. His first love, whoâs outcast by hero society for carrying too much anger, for being too rough, too much.Â
For being Quirkless.
He never said it was love, but it was. He could feel it, knew you could too. Or at least, he hopes you could.Â
So after you disappear, thereâs not a single day that goes by where he doesnât think of you, well into adulthood. Little things like the flowers in the florist shop window that are the exact color of your old car, the way the city glows after a rainstorm.
He thinks it would be easier to forget you, to not have to carry the weight around with him all the time, and he hates himself for thinking it at all. Hates that he feels burdened by your memory instead of thankful he could tell someone exactly where every mole and birthmark sat on your skin, the different colors in your eyes.
Itâs that perfect memory that confirms his worst suspicion when history begins to repeat himself, a new group of villains unhappy with society rising from the ashes of the last.
Youâre clearly different, but he knows you. Knows the way you move, the tilt to your voice when youâre hiding that youâre wounded.
Itâs the first time that his heart is at war with his sense of duty, but he keeps quiet about his suspicion regardless, needing to confirm everything for himself before he spoke up.
Itâs a thin line heâs walking, but he assures himself he wonât cross it, no matter what.
And yet, when he finally catches you, unmasked and pinned beneath him, bloody teeth bared, he finds himself lifting enough for you to escape. He wants desperately to give chase, to catch you again, but he knows itâs not so he can bring you in.
Itâs that realization that wakes him up, makes him take extended leave so he can track you down. Except he doesnât have to.
You show up at his apartment one night, covered in shadows near the open window as he comes in, absently listening to Kiri worry about him over the phone. It takes everything in him not to hang up on his friend immediately when he sees you, freezing in place.
He should be angry, should be insulted that you, a wanted villain, had the audacity to show up in his home and silently watch him, but heâs not.
Part of him believes heâs finally lost it, chasing ghosts, so he calls out your name quietly, more of a breath than real words, but he can see the way your body reacts to it immediately, and all he can feel is relief crash around him.
Thereâs a heavy silence for a while, and then he takes a step forward. You stiffen, and in a blink, youâre gone, the only sign you were real to begin with a note telling him to stay away.
But he doesnât. And neither do you. He knows you follow him, can feel watchful eyes on him, even if he canât see you right away.
And then you show up in his apartment once more, clearly ready for a fight in the middle of his kitchen. Thereâs a glint of a knife in your hand, and heâs careful to move slowly as he sets down his groceries, hands splayed to show you heâs unarmed, as if he couldnât kill you with one flick of his wrist. He calls out your name again, softly, like heâs talking to a wounded animal, and you canât help the way your heart begs you to respond, even after so many years.
You shift, hesitate, and he straightens, takes a chance, and takes a step towards you. Your hand twitches, but you donât raise it, donât charge him. So he takes another. And then another. And then heâs within striking range, and your eyes are hard, angry in warning, but wide, like youâre lost.Â
So he steps closer. And you step back, knife falling from your hand and clattering to the floor. He presses forward until your back hits his kitchen island, and heâs leaning over you, knuckles white with the way they grip the marble.Â
You look panicked, fear brewing in your gaze when he raises a hand, eyes squeezing shut so you donât see the blow coming.Â
Instead, he brushes your hair away from your face, and your eyes fly open in surprise, the large pro drinking you in, his eyes flicking over your form.Â
âI thought you were dead,âÂ
His voice is softer than anything youâve ever heard, rolling over you and bringing back memories long since repressed. He cups your cheek, thumb sliding over your skin as if to make sure youâre real, and you hate how good it feels, how much youâve missed him, and then his gaze dips lower and he freezes.Â
Now thatâs heâs able to be close to you, breathe you in, he sees what heâs missed before, hidden under stealth suits and large hoodies. From beneath your top curl ragged scars, curving and licking up along your throat and across your shoulders, more abundant than unmarred skin.
Your breath hitches as his fingers leave your face to trace over the scars on your collarbone, his face filled with anguish. His searching takes him lower, to the collar of your shirt where he pulls away, shaky hands falling to the hem as he begins to lift it slowly.Â
Your hands circle his wrist in warning, and he spares you a glance, his pretty eyes filled with silent pleas, and you give in to him, as powerless to him as you were when you were stupid kids believing you were in love. Your fingers fall away from his skin slowly to let him continue, heart hammering as you let the man you came to kill undress you.Â
He hesitates, inhaling deeply, steeling himself for what he might see before he tugs the cotton upwards once more.Â
His stomach twists in knots as youâre revealed to him, arching scars covering most of your torso, some clearly old, but far too many new, deep, and he can only imagine what you went through to earn such markings across your skin.Â
He can hardly find those moles and beauty marks he used to be able to map perfectly, now replaced with thick and jagged lines. He looks tortured, struggling not to let it show, but you see it anyways.
You canât help the noise that bubbles from your throat when you lift your arms for him, a fresh wound beneath your left breast pulling painfully tight with the movement, and he clenches his jaw at the sound of your whimper, brows drawn low over his eyes.Â
When his palm lays flat against your stomach, measuring the expanse of your scars to his hand, the former reaching out far further, you squeeze your eyes shut and tilt your head back.Â
You never wanted him to see you like this, and in that very moment, you wished you were dead like heâd assumed, rather than a broken shell of who he used to love.Â
Heâs silent as his hands wander, their warmth seeping into your skin and settling on your hips, fingers splayed wide. He lets out a shaky huff and you finally peel open your eyes as he drops to his knees, his breath warm over your skin, moments before his mouth presses over your flaws.
He doesnât miss the way you inhale sharply, hazy eyes focused down at him kneeling at your feet, mouth ghosting across your body.Â
He traces a path upwards, his hands keeping you grounded as you arch against him, goosebumps rising in the wake of his ministrations. He deviates from his path only once, to press a feather soft kiss against your newest wound, and you hiss, fingers flying to tangle in his hair.Â
It shouldnât hurt so much, but his mouth feels like a brand, his nose brushing along the underside of your breast, lighting a fire within you that you had assumed died long ago. He murmurs out something you donât quite catch against your skin before he returns the drag of his mouth between your breasts, up until heâs pressing kisses against your jaw, his forehead bumping against your cheek as he shakes his head.Â
He exhales shakily again, and you tilt your head ever so slightly, needing to see him, needing to see the disgust, the pity in his eyes. You need him to give you a reason to push him away, a reason to hate him so neither of you start something you canât finish.Â
But all you see is a quiet fury buried in those crimson eyes, smothered by a emotion youâve only ever seen in those very eyes the last time youâd seen him. Youâre not ready to admit what it is yet, denial flooding you even as your mind supplies the word.Â
Love.Â
Itâs like all the air rushes from your lungs, and youâre sure in that very moment, if it wasnât for his firm grip, that youâd simply crumple under the weight of your realization.Â
He draws you back to him, nose bumping yours when one of his hands cups the back of your head, fingers burying themselves in your hair. He opens his mouth and immediately closes it again, breathing in sharply through his nose before he speaks again, eyes shutting.Â
âIâm sorry I wasnât there to protect you.âÂ
And just like that, you canât resist his pull anymore, closing the distance as the first tear rolls down your cheek.Â
DEMON PRINCE SHOUTO AU | MASTERLIST
tags/warnings: modern supernatural au, aged up characters, demons, bonding bites, fem pronoun + afab reader
PART I (1k)
Things seem to going well with the prince of hell you've accidentally taken home. Until a surprise visitor makes an appearance, and Shouto must take action to stake his claim on you.
PART II (1.5k)
You learn just what kind of ancient bond Shouto has invoked to protect you, and come to terms with what that means for your future.
PART III (coming soon)
You learn that a mating bond has its downsides (and its upsides). nsfw.
drabbles will be posted under the tag #third prince of hell au
Warnings: +18 MINORS DO NOT INTERACT! This series contains: HEAVY Noncon, smut, bullying, manhandling, penetration, binding, threatening, creampie, breeding kink degradation, humiliation, abuse, violence, anxiety, spoilers, trauma, bruises, choking, spit play, cussing, dirty talk, oral sex (m.receiving) cum swallowing, semi public, noncon selfie, mention of alcohol, manipulation
Summary: After joining the League of Villains, you started facing bullying from a certain arsonist. Little by little the harassment grew to the point of physical violence that culminated to you being his personal fucktoy.
A.N.: If thereâs any warnings missing, please let me know!Â
Disclaimer: Characters mentioned belong to Kohei Horikoshi
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Part 8
Part 9Â
TW: anger issues, abuse, angst
gn reader
Thinking about boyfriends with anger issuesâŠ
How itâs okay in the beginning because your relationship is still fresh, and youâre both trying your best to be perfect for each other. How itâs enough for you to tell him heâs being silly with a sweet kiss to his grumpy cheek when heâs acting grumpy and insisting on having some type of fight with you over something unimportant. Itâs enough to defuse him at that pointâyour unnerving smile and kind eyes, how youâre able to touch him even when he feels nuclear. The knots untangle within his head, and he calms down. He doesnât apologize, but he gets sheepish and plays dumb until heâs cracking you up with some dumb jokeâso you forgive him anyway.
The fights get worse over time, but so do the good times. Heâs so perfect when heâs good, you forget about the bad. And youâre still able to disengage, at least most of the time. You can leave or ignore and dismissâyou can even agree to be wrong sometimes, even when youâre not. It doesnât really matter. Those arguments are never about whoâs right anywayâitâs just about fighting to see who can outlast the other. You swear, sometimes it feels like youâre the accused on the stand in a courtroom, but the judge has vacated, and itâs just you against the lawyer hurling pointed question after question at you.
Oh, but then he brings flowers, makes you smile and laugh, does something romantic, and tells you sweet nothings that make you blush. It feels right when you move in together. You love him. And you know he loves you. He still doesnât ever apologize for his behaviorâat least not with wordsâbut he tries making up for it otherwise. After particularly nasty fights, when you go to sleep without him and without sharing another word, heâs on his best and brightest behavior the day afterâmakes you breakfast, drives you to work, offers to pick you up, suggests you do something fun later.
It's soothing that he knows heâs in the wrong. It makes it easier to forgive him. Makes you believe heâll change.
Only he doesnât.
The bathroom becomes your escape, a space you can retreat to when youâre on the brink. You donât want to cry in front of himâhe can get so mean sometimes, and the tears just egg him on like itâs some game heâs winning. It doesnât really dawn on you that youâre hiding from him. If you admit that to yourself, nothing would make sense anymore. If you admit that to yourself, you wouldnât be able to defend staying with him. And so you canât. You suppress it. Youâre not hiding from himâif he were to come knock on the door to let him in, youâd let him in. So youâre not hiding from him. No, youâre just in there for a quick breath of your own and to give him a little space.
But though you deny it, he feels you slipping awayâand it only serves to make him more combatant. Raised voices turn into roaringâyou fear the neighbors might complain. Nothing works anymore. If you walk away, he follows angrier than before. If you agree to disagree, heâll only use it against you. If you cry, he laughs.
The time you get as ugly as he gets and start fighting back with your own insults is when he puts his fist through the wall right next to you.
The house shakes for a moment, then stands still. All is silent. Neither of you moves. Youâre as stiff as a mannequin, and your eyes have never been widerâand yet you donât look at him. Your gaze is fixed at nothing in particular as if unable to look anywhere else. You have a hand against his chestâit shakes. He feels it, and itâs a gross feelingâworse than the pain in his hand.
And he knows. He knows heâs ruined it. He knows itâs the exact moment heâs lost you.
No, actually. He probably lost you a while backâŠ
He pulls his fist out of the drywallâthe thin plate follows him before he drags it out with force. Dust and fibers stick to his skin in blotches where the blood coats his hand, seeping from the splits on his knuckles. It stings, but it isnât the worst. No, his chest feels worse.
âIâm sorry,â he whispers hoarsely through the strain in his tightening throat. âIâm sorry.â He can never repeat it enough for it to be enough. Fuck, whatâs he done? What can he do? Thereâs a gaping hole in the wall he has you pressed up against, and itâs about to swallow him up.
âYouâre bleeding,â comes your voiceâas from the break of light in a stormy sky that reminds him itâs still day. âWe need to disinfect it.â
He doesnât dare protest, even as it confuses him how trivial you are about it. He just trails after you as you take him to the bathroom and clean him up. Holding his damaged hand in both of yours while you guide it under the tap, rinsing off the debris and blood, letting it all go down the drain. He didnât even know you had a first aid kit, but you seem well-versed for some reasonâhow you dab the cuts with alcohol-soaked cotton, then tape shut the deeper slits before wrapping it all in a strip of bandage.
You take him to the bedroom, but neither of you speaks. Heâs afraid to. And yet, both of you say goodnight while lying on opposite sides of the bed. He doesnât know what feeling it is that simmers within his chest, but it makes it the worst night of his life.
And still, he must have slept soundly.
Youâre gone in the morningâyouâre essential things with you.
Itâs strange, but he isnât even angry. No⊠You left a note for him, but he canât read itânot through the swelling of his eyes as they burn with salt and water and regrets that know no end.
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