I Found It And I Have Deactivated All The Cards Bruh

I'm closing the session, tomorrow is the last exam....

my telegram channel, if you are interested in the process of creating works, then everything is there, and there is also a bunch of everything that I do not put here: https://t.me/Nuemmannn

feeling unwanted changes u a lot

Oooh taking off nikto's mask thoooo

when you saw nikto's face for the first time, it was on a balmy night. you were deployed to a small section of the middle east, hunting down one of zakhaev's groups. but it'd been so, so long, and even a man such as himself, one burdened by the need for revenge, can only wait for so long.

so, you set up camp for the night.

you traded cigarettes with one another. he had the cheap, crude kind-- the sort that you smoke only to take the edge off. (really, you only liked them because his chapped lips touched each one before he passed them onto you.)

you still remember the look in his eyes. he was magnetic, this character that disturbed you but drew you in with every little quip and brooding look. there was-- is-- something about him that you just can't shake.

the night set in, and after smoking for quite a while, you both got into the tent. it was small. if a strong wind came through, it would've knock it down with the two of you in it. but you weren't nervous, not with nikto around.

he always wore a face-covering, often a mix of fabrics and tactile material. you knew of the campfire tales from your rookie days of what he endured, of how zakhaev tortured him, each story more exaggerated than the last. you don't really know what happened, you just know it was bad enough for him to always hide behind a mask.

like a fool, you asked him about it. and he answered by turning around, presenting the clasp to you, daring you to release him from the measly pieces keeping the mask together.

you did. your fingers hesitated before undoing the clasp, but you did it. he did not flinch-- he wasn't bluffing or trying to prove a point. he just let you do it, and you weren't sure of why. maybe it was because you were alone, or that he liked that your mouth touched his cigarettes, or maybe he just wanted to give you something to write home about.

was he beautiful, or ugly? was he "atrocious" and "blighted by scars?" maybe. maybe not. this character that people formed, that he played into, was not all it was made out to be. he looked just as tired as everybody else, just as sullen. you saw him as andre that night, not just nikto, the man who kills and terrorizes.

maybe i am governed by euro-centric concepts......

bro maybe nikto's meds don't work because they are russian prescription, ritalin isn't even legal in russia

he was beaten and bruised. the vision still haunts me. he was so vulnerable and pliant.

i also had visions of og makarov last night

and i think i will include my sketches for the year ahead, my sketches are very stupid

i am not done with the digital new year card but i will draw and post some bad art

thank you for the tag, dear enigmaue! your mood board is so pretty :3

no pressure tags :3

@simp4konig @fishsinsareacknowledged @141ce @koeni9in and anyone who wants to do this!

Hi my friends! I am both interested about my moots and need a fun distraction in my life right now. That means a tag game>:3 MWAHHAHAH those who get tagged are invited to answer there questions below ⬇️ I’ll start!

Go to Pinterest and Search:

1. Color of your phone case + aesthetic

2. Fave animal + aesthetic

3. Name + core

4. Favorite movie + aesthetic

5. Name of favorite song + aesthetic

6. Your birth month + core

Tags!: @gunnrblze @lemonqii @bellspun @spicelold @milkteaarttime @imagoddamnonionmason

i have to lock in right now or i will be so cooked

i need to get through this week

Я ведь не одна считаю, что Володя похож на облезлого котика?😅

I'm not the only one who thinks that Volodya looks like a mangy cat, am I?