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My goal right now is to permashift to my main waiting room first, so then I can shift to whatever dr I want without worrying about anything!! My wr is basically a replacement for this reality but also some kind of hub, so whenever I feel like taking a break from my drs I can just return to it and relax. Some of my drs can be quite intense and this is one of the many reasons why I'm planning to not come back to this reality. I can't get traumatised in any of my drs and wrs, but I can't script that in this exact reality, so bye bye I guess!!

summary of contents:

my dr self • about the world • my house • miscellaneous

last update: january 25th 2025

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my dr self

My name is Yuriko and I'm 20 years old!! You see the little person I put at the start of this post? That's me!! I made that with a picrew- unfortunately I don't remember which one- and then I edited it a bit. My skin is on the pale side, my hair is white and my eyes are a dark grey colour. I'm around 6'0'' and…yeah- I don't have much to say to be honest!! Oh- and I've got a beauty mark on the left side of my face!! I literally have godlike powers, so I can do whatever I want whenever I want!! I literally have no limits!! I also do not age in this dr and I'm immortal!!

about the world

My house is literally in the middle of the woods!! There are no dangerous animals- well, there are but they aren't dangerous…if that makes sense- if I find a bear it won't attack me, it doesn't matter how hungry it is or whatever, the animals in my wr are chill like that. In my wr I'm literally the only person on earth!! There are no cities or anything like that, only my cute house in the middle of a forest!! I have godlike powers, I can literally do whatever I want, so I'm going to be perfectly fine on my own. I can spawn all the food I want, my house is indestructible and immune to deterioration, I can also change it however and whenever I want!! There are different biomes too of course, the forest isn't infinite!!

my house

My house looks like a cute, little cottage from outside, but once you step in there's an infinite amount of space!! I can change the rooms in my house however and whenever I want!! I can also add and remove rooms however and whenever I please, but there are certain rooms that can be changed but not removed:

- my bedroom: this is where I'll be when I shift for the first time!! I have a really cozy bed and various trinkets about the things I love!!

- living room: this is where I can chill whenever I don't feel like staying in my room- or whenever I want to play videogames or watch a show/film!! There are all sorts of consoles and there's a shelf from which I can pull out any game I want!! Similarly to this, on my tv I can find any show/film I want too!! Here I can also rewatch everything I experienced in my drs!!

- kitchen: this is where I get my food from…obviously- I have a fridge from which I can pull out any food, doesn't matter if they're ingredients or full meals!! But something tells me I'll really enjoy cooking!!

- bathroom: this is where I can finally have a relaxing bath that isn't going to be stopped by the water getting cold!! I can already see myself in the bath planning my next script-

- shifting room: this is where the magic happens!! Here I keep my scripts!! I also use this place to lock in and perfect my scripts before shifting there!! From here I can also access another room, which cannot be removed like the others in this list, and it's a simulation room. I can enter this room to start a realistic simulation of my drs so I can test them out!! I'll mainly use it to test specific things. For example, I didn't script that my bnha drs are going to have the same 'graphics' as this reality, so I can use the simulation room to see how it'd be once I actually get there!! (I know it feels completely normal in my drs, but I'd be too curious to wait until I actually shift there-)

- guest room: this is where the silly little guys can stay!!…wait- silly little guys? Didn't I just say I was the only person in my wr?? Well yes, BUT…what if I told you that I can and will spawn people from my drs so we can hang out at my wr house? I don't know, it just seems like a lot of fun!!

miscellaneous

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I'm tired as fuck and I feel like I just spawned here,

These are some goofy ass options, dayum💀

Challenging you all!

Put your music library on shuffle, then list the first five songs that come up in a poll to let people vote for which one they like the most!

Then tag Tumblr friends to keep the game going!

This is kind of a rant about what the hell I'm scripting in my main bnha reality (and also a little rant about how much I love the people in my dr- but it's not the 'hehe I love them so much' kind of post, it's more like 'I'd literally die for them', so be careful I guess-). Also a little update about the post in which I talked about me and the lov becoming immortal because fuck death.

Also you know the drill: making this post helped me better organise my thoughts and all that!

So in my main bnha reality I'm literally Shigaraki, so my script MUST have safety things for trauma and things like that...BUT...

I've been feeling like absolute shit lately and that's because I feel like an horrible fucking human being specifically for scripting these safety rules. Because what do you mean that I go through horrible shit and feel fine while my friends, who also go through horrible shit, will live with it for the rest of their lives? (+ I scripted that we become immortal, so even worse).

Who do I think I am? I'm not above them, so why would I script that I get to not experience trauma and they do?

"Just script that they also don't get traumatised" alright, what are we fighting for then? If our experiences don't affect us then why are we trying this hard to change society and create a better world? For fun? No. Absolutely not.

"You don't need to be incredibly scarred to want change" true, but would we fucking sacrifice ourselves for it? No, because there's a chance of us having a 'if it doesn't affect us that much then it isn't really our problem' kind of mentality- but even if we didn't (because I can just script that doesn't happen), as I already said, I doubt we'd be willing to die for it.

"Then don't shift there" I don't wanna fucking hear it, I have my reasons to shift there.

The thing that I want you to understand is the fact that I love the people in my dr and I would do anything- ANYTHING for them. And if that means going though hell and back and risk my life then I'm gonna fucking do it. If being equal to them means scripting out some safety rules then I'm gonna fucking do it.

I feel like this is the only way for me to feel at peace because OH MY GOD- THIS HAS BEEN EATING ME ALIVE FOR A LONG TIME- I didn't want to do it, but it's the only thing that feels...'right'- I feel like it's fair to my friends and also anyone that goes through horrible shit in my dr too. Because I'm not more important than anyone, we're all in this together god damnit.

At first I thought of scripting that yes, I feel completely fine but I still act like 'canon Shigaraki' would, but I feel like such a big liar- I don't want to lie to my friends, especially about something serious like this. It'd feel like I'm making fun of them or something.

Also, reminder that where I shift and what I script doesn't affect you in any way, so I don't want to hear anything like "are you stupid or something?" or anything similar. I know that I'm stupid and that it's going to be horrible, but for me it's worth it + I'm not coming back to the cr, so if I regret this decision I can always shift to a reality in which what I experienced doesn't effect me in the slightest, so I'll be alright. Hell, I could even script I don't remember it at all if I want to!

So what am I scripting now?

Keep in mind that I'm never going to come back here. Once I shift I'm going to spend 90% of my time in my main bnha reality and the rest 10% will be spent in other realities including waiting rooms. In all of my realities (drs and wrs) I scripted that not only I can't 'bring back trauma' but my mind is 'made of steel', so even if I go through horrible shit I won't develop anything like PTSD/C-PTSD or other similar conditions. So basically I can't get traumatised.

But there is one exception and that is my main bnha reality. Obviously I didn't just erase all of my safety rules regarding trauma, but almost.

So what am I doing?

I'm still scripting this, so I apologise if it's messy.

Basically when I first shift to my dr it'll be the 4th of April 2124. For a week I'll be completely fine. After that week, in a span of about two weeks my mind will gradually 'go back to what it's supposed to be like', so the trauma will be there.

"That's not how it works" 80% of the population in my main reality has superpowers, I don't want to hear it.

The reason why I scripted this is because it'll basically help me decide if I want to stick with it or if it'd be better to go to a waiting room and modify my script.

I scripted that I forget my script while I'm in my dr and I remember it whenever I'm in a different reality. But just to be sure, I scripted that I'll never forget that I shifted and I can shift whenever I want (and every attempt is successful + I remember my other realities, especially waiting rooms, but I'll forget the 'plot' of the ones that are kind of similar to this one, just to be sure); I always remember what I scripted for safety and for the lifa app; I'll never confuse memories; I remember that I'll never die, I know that everything is going to end well no matter how fucked up the situation is and I know that what I scripted about trauma and similar things is for a good reason, it's 100% worth it in the end and I'll never regret it (+ I know that it's temporary- continue reading to understand.)

I'd also like to add that if I went through the same things that my dr self went and will go through in the cr I wouldn't last a second. But my dr self is WAY stronger, both physically and mentally. My dr self deals with these kinds of things WAY better than my cr self. So there's also that.

"But what about you guys becoming immortal?" I scripted that the immortality quirk not only grants...well, immortality- but it also puts the target in a better condition to live forever. So basically we become immortal and we say bye bye to our trauma.

This doesn't mean that we forget what happened, but those memories won't affect us the same way they did before. Maybe they're a little uncomfortable to think about, maybe they make us feel sad, angry and sometimes scared, but they definitely don't have the same effect as before. They'll be easier to deal with, to not think about, etc.

Once I decided to script this I also contemplated what I scripted for physical pain- I'LL STILL HAVE A REALLY HIGH PAIN TOLERANCE, DON'T WORRY- but if you look at canon Shigaraki... that's basically it- got shot at least 4 times in a span of two milliseconds? grunted and didn't shead a tear. Redestro destroying his hand? Made a face, grunted, didn't shead a tear. The surgery to get All For One's quirk? Screamed at the top of his lungs, still didn't shead a tear. The war? Didn't shead a single tear.

With this I don't mean that he doesn't feel pain, he definitely does, but he deals with it REALLY well. His pain tolerance is incredible. It only makes sense for me to script that (+ after the surgery my pain tolerance will skyrocket thanks to whatever quirk is stored inside All For One.)

Obviously the same thing I scripted for trauma applies here: I know I didn't script it for nothing and it's worth it in the end.

In other words I'm a crazy bitch.

Am I the only one that doesn't really use affirmations on the regular?

One thing about me is that I don't want to do things unless I have fun with them. Luckily this doesn't apply to studying lmao (at least most of the time-), but it does to shifting.

Saying the same things over and over and over again is too repetitive and boring for me, so I just...don't really do it-

There are times in which I do use affirmations, but most of the time I try to focus on other things for the sake of not getting bored and dropping whatever I'm doing to shift.

If there's anything I've learned about shifting is that we shift constantly. I don't need to affirm to get up and go to the kitchen to get a snack, I just do it. So why would I need to do it to shift?

There's also the fact that when I keep repeating something in my head for a long time I kinda forget what I'm saying- or even how to say it unless I stop for a minute (you know that feeling when you say a word multiple times and suddenly it doesn't sound like a real word? Yeah, that). And most of the time my mind just ends up thinking about something completely unrelated and I completely abandon my method.

Instead of affirming that I'm in my dr I try to 'feel it'. Basically I think about being in my dr without using words- if that makes sense. I'm not sure how to explain it to be honest.

And obviously, since I've never seen anyone in the shifting community not mentioning affirmations, my smooth little brain HAD to start overthinking- but he better shut up, because I'm tired of his shit💀

And actually I just remembered that not everyone has 'a narrator' in their head when they think. And since literally anyone can shift then why wouldn't I be able to do it without affirming the way most people do? Also, there are people who have shifted on accident/without meaning to- AND ALSO, there are people who have shifted without knowing what shifting was- HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO NOT MAKE IT WHEN THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO HAVE SHIFTED WITHOUT KNOWING WHAT SHIFTING WAS??? I don't think they went to bed while affirming of being in their dr SINCE THEY DIDN'T KNOW WHAT SHIFTING WAS- AND YET THEY DID IT!!

So yeah, I'm going to shift now, goodnight!!

"Make a height comparison chart for your dr people" they said…

"It'll be fun" they said…

Sometimes I forget that this bitch is so tall-

Also bonus Kurogiri because I love my big brother!!

Note: Kurogiri's height is based on the top of his physical head, not the highest his mist gets when not manipulating it- because yes, I thought about how he looks like without the mist in my dr!!

(also the heights probably aren't 100% accurate, but it's a more or less-)

BRIDBEHEBDBD THIS SEEMS FUN- IF ANYONE CARES PLEASE SEND ASKS!!

[I'll answer for my main bnha reality because it's the reality I have the most information of!]

EXCUSE THE MESS ✶ ASK GAME

౨ৎ excuse the mess is a shifting ask game inspired by frank ocean's channel orange with a focus on your relationships in your desired realities. ﹙ reblog for asks & send emojis to ask ﹚

cw! a few of these questions are less "fun" and more phycological. i completely understand if that's not your cup of tea. take care of yourselves <3

𐔌 . 💫 ⋮ 'BOUT YOU ֹ ₊ ꒱ what do you reminisce on late at night? is it a person you had to leave behind? someone who left you? why are you still reminded of that past? are you upset with the memories? do you regret them?

𐔌 . 🩳 ⋮ SWEET LIFE ֹ ₊ ꒱ what are the sweetest parts of your relationship with your s/o? all the not sugar-free, tooth-aching sweetness you two share. is your dynamic as simple as grumpiness vs sweetness or is it something more complex?

𐔌 . 🥂 ⋮ SUPER RICH KIDS ֹ ₊ ꒱ is there something in your desired realty that we would think is fantastical or unheard-of but is completely normal there? do you splurge thousands of dollars a day like you're in gossip girl? or fly around on a broomstick?

𐔌 . 🍃 ⋮ PILOT JONES ֹ ₊ ꒱ who is your bad influence? the one person you can count on to be involved with something insane and drag you along with them? have they always been "bad"? why won't you let them go?

𐔌 . ✈️ ⋮ LOST IN THE HEAT ֹ ₊ ꒱ was there a point where you were "lost" in your desired reality? a point where you knew you weren't going the way you want but couldn't recognize the way back? could be physical or emotional.

𐔌 . 🎹 ⋮ BAD RELIGION ֹ ₊ ꒱ what or who do you turn to when you need a safe space? do you turn on your favorite album and sit alone in your bedroom? do you have a friend you know will always be comforting ear? perhaps you take solo walks around your neighborhood?

𐔌 . 🍊 ⋮ FORREST GUMP ֹ ₊ ꒱ who runs your mind? the person you're always thinking about? when you make a joke that doesn't quite land, who do you know would've loved it?

﹙ ordered by track list ﹚ ꕀ would you laugh if i told you one of my least favorite colors is orange...

ALRIGHT, MON-CHAN IS HERE!!! :)

Here's the princess!!

Figuring out how to make my microphone work for the emulator was hell, but I managed to turn it on, teach her her name and how to sit and immediately gave her food and water. Here she is in all her glory!! I didn't get any screenshots of her on the first day and I found out that closing and reopening the game makes the game think a whole day has passed, even if that's not the case. On the first day I ordered a different room style, I closed the game and immediately reopened it (to see something with the microphone) and suddenly the date changed and the room was done. So...yeah- here's Mon-chan!!

Also if you're wondering how I could immediately afford to purchase a room style...I used cheats to have infinite money- I want to spoil her rotten, ok?😭🙏🏻

And here she is on a walk!! On this walk we met a dog named Angel. They didn't become friends, but Mon-chan seems interested in them, so hopefully we'll meet them again!! On another walk she found a red checkered bow. I'm not the biggest fan of bows, but it's cute nonetheless!!

She really likes her tennis ball- me and her used to play with a tennis ball a lot in my dr, so I really enjoyed playing with it together!!

AND LOOK AT HOW SILLY SHE LOOKS HERE!! JSHSBSHBBSUSBS I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!

I've had a DS emulator on my phone for a while and I haven't used it much recently. Today I opened it and remembered I downloaded Nintendogs, I still haven't adopted my first dog.

And you can bet your ass I'm adopting a corgi and calling her Mon-chan.

MON-CHAN MIGHT NOT BE WITH ME IN MY MAIN BNHA REALITY, BUT MY BEAUTIFUL PRINCESS WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN!!!!

(I'm definitely not scripting I also play Nintendogs in my dr and have a corgi named Mon-chan after my childhood pet)

I didn't think I would have to say this but I am obviously against transphobia, terfs do not interact. I can't believe that there's a terf shifting community. If you are a terf, transphobic, homophobic or have any bigoted ideology for that matter do not interact with me.

I've never done something like this- hold on, my playlist isn't ready for this-

Also I'm not tagging anyone because on this site I've only talked to literally one person, so I'm not going to tag random people LMAO-

Year Zero - GHOST

Uncanny - GHOST (not the same GHOST)

Rises the moon - Liana Flores

I Bet On Losing Dogs - Mitski

Killers With The Cross - Powerwolf

ODD FUTURE - UVERworld

This looks wacky as fuck- my favourite songs don't start with any of these letters😭🙏🏻

Username Song Title Game

Choose a song title for each letter of your username and tag the same number of people

Thank you for tagging me @desert-fern! 💖

Fair warning: half of my picks are from the 90s because that was my formative era. I like stuff I can sing to or play the guitar to, so there’s a lot of rock and pop…

Drop Dead Gorgeous [1997] – Republica Just a Girl [1995] – No Doubt A Thousand Years [2011] – Christina Perri Ready Now [2019] – Dodie Iris [1998] – Goo Goo Dolls November Rain [1992] – Guns N’ Roses Speechless [2009] – Lady Gaga - Creep [1992] – Radiohead You Could Make a Killing [1995] – Aimee Mann All Along the Watchtower [1968] – Jimi Hendrix Rumour Has It [2011] – Adele Empire State of Mind (Part II) Broken Down [2010] – Alicia Keys

Now for the usual totally unnecessary commentary on my choices:

We’ve got four British artists on there (well, I did grow up here), but it’s mostly stuff from across the pond. That said, ‘Empire State of Mind (Part II) Broken Down’ was never released in the US, but it was over here, and it was huge (hence it’s on my Spotify master playlist!).

There are songs from four soundtracks (Scream, Twilight, City of Angels and Cruel Intentions), proving that movies make my brain remember songs better.

Also, I’m currently rewatching Battlestar Galactica, so I had to include Hendrix 😎.

Hmm, who to tag... okay, 12 of my loveliest moots coming up:

@ak-vintage @bitchwitch1981 @burntheedges @cas-readsandwrites @fromthedeskoftheraven

@ishabull @joelalorian @magpiepills @mermaidgirl30 @saradika

@secretelephanttattoo @sixhours

TAG! Okay, it’s your turn 💖

FOR THE ASK GAME <3333

𐔌 . 🩳 ⋮ SWEET LIFE ֹ ₊ ꒱ what are the sweetest parts of your relationship with your s/o? all the not sugar-free, tooth-aching sweetness you two share. is your dynamic as simple as grumpiness vs sweetness or is it something more complex?

𐔌 . 🥂 ⋮ SUPER RICH KIDS ֹ ₊ ꒱ is there something in your desired realty that we would think is fantastical or unheard-of but is completely normal there? do you splurge thousands of dollars a day like you're in gossip girl? or fly around on a broomstick?

𐔌 . 🎹 ⋮ BAD RELIGION ֹ ₊ ꒱ what or who do you turn to when you need a safe space? do you turn on your favorite album and sit alone in your bedroom? do you have a friend you know will always be comforting ear? perhaps you take solo walks around your neighborhood?

IDENSHSBWBD THANK YOU!!! <3

I'm answering for my main bnha reality!! The questions come from this ask game!!

𐔌 . 🩳 ⋮ SWEET LIFE ֹ ₊ ꒱ what are the sweetest parts of your relationship with your s/o? all the not sugar-free, tooth-aching sweetness you two share. is your dynamic as simple as grumpiness vs sweetness or is it something more complex?

IDDBDHHSVSHS SPINNER!! THAT MAN IS THE DEFINITION OF PERFECTION!! "But perfection doesn't exist" HE ISN'T PERFECT, BUT HE'S PERFECT TO ME- if you get what I mean :)

Not gonna lie, I'm not 100% sure how to answer this, but fuck it we ball.

In our relationship, some of the most important things are mutual respect, equality, loyalty and love- oh, so much love. I'm obsessed with him in a healthy way and he's obsessed with me in a healthy way. Does that make sense? I don't know, but it does to me.

We love spending time together by doing whatever: chores, work- literally anything we can do in the same room we do in the same room.

And don't get me started on cuddles- It's literally the best part of my day- HE'S SO GENTLE WITH ME- AND THE WAY HE HOLDS ME?? I ASCEND TO HEAVEN EVERY TIME!! And speaking about holding, usually when I'm the one holding him he's basically a weighted blanket. I love that feeling when I'm relaxing, so having him on top of me is my favourite way to hold him- even though it doesn't really sound like holding- but he likes it, so we really don't care.

But one of the things we absolutely LOVE to do is just being nerds together. We share quite some interest and sometimes we spend entire days just talking about our favourite things. And when I say I love hearing this man yap about the things he likes, I mean I love hearing this man yap about the things he likes. Like yes!! Please tell me about the Sonic lore, I'll tell you about Earthbound afterwards!!

𐔌 . 🥂 ⋮ SUPER RICH KIDS ֹ ₊ ꒱ is there something in your desired realty that we would think is fantastical or unheard-of but is completely normal there? do you splurge thousands of dollars a day like you're in gossip girl? or fly around on a broomstick?

Well, this is a bnha reality, so the first thing that comes to mind is quirks. If we don't count those, because they're to be expected...it's difficult to think of something different actually.

If we take a look at the postwar, me and the lov will literally have infinite money (and despite this the economy won't be affected negatively), so I guess 'splurging thousands of dollars a day like you're in gossip girl' applies to my dr pretty well LMAO-

But other than that, still in the postwar, I'll have permission to go anywhere I want without needing to go through any kind of security. Not only will I need this to properly do my job (dealing with All For One's allies, which are scattered all around the world- although I'll keep others informed about my location), but also because...just because- so basically I'll be able to go anywhere, whenever and however I want. You know how we see All For One flying multiple times? Yeah, that'll basically be my main way of travelling. Does this make sense for this question? I don't know actually-

Oh yeah- and me and the lov (and maybe class 1a too, I'm still thinking about it) are literally going to be immortal...so yeah- it'll be strange at first, but then everyone is going to be super chill about it.

𐔌 . 🎹 ⋮ BAD RELIGION ֹ ₊ ꒱ what or who do you turn to when you need a safe space? do you turn on your favorite album and sit alone in your bedroom? do you have a friend you know will always be comforting ear? perhaps you take solo walks around your neighborhood?

It depends on what's bothering me and how upset I'm feeling at the moment. However, you also have to keep in mind that in this reality I'm Shigaraki, so I'm probably going to be feeling shitty most of the time over things that are completely out of my control (heroes, the system, etc.- and don't get me started on trauma), so the negative feelings are constant, I can only distract myself and hopefully make them feel less intense.

When it comes to who I can turn to, then I can always count on Kurogiri!! He's basically my big brother and I don't know where I'd be without him. We tell each other pretty much everything and he's always there for me. He knows he can count on me too, if he ever needs comfort and support, I just hope I do a decent job at least, I'm not that good with people.

And I just know that my dr self, in the present of my dr, would also turn to All For One if he was ever given the chance. It's upsetting to think about, not gonna lie.

When the league becomes a thing and we start bonding, I know I can count on all of them, really. But I'll probably stick with Kurogiri, especially because I've known him way longer than the others and he somehow always knows what to do to make me feel better. Also I don't want to bother the others too much. At least Kurogiri doesn't need an explanation on why certain things might upset me, he knows how I am. In the postwar I can count on Spinner for sure, he's going to be my boyfriend so...you know, it just makes sense.

When it comes to what I can turn to...well, there's a few things I do that usually make me feel a bit better.

So first of all: videogames. Keeping my mind occupied with something else and immersing myself in a different world (one reason why I prefer RPGs) usually does the trick. As much as I would like to call this a hobby, it's more of a form of escapism, in fact I tend to use videogame terminology in real life mostly to make myself feel in control of the situation- but yeah, also a hobby because I genuinely like videogames and I don't play them only when I feel upset.

Another thing I love to do is to go on long walks. Usually I go where there's lots of people. I guess you can say one of my hobbies is people watching. Walking helps me get some energy out (sometimes when I'm upset I find it difficult to stay still), I get to reflect on what upsets me so much and how I could deal with it and watching other people...I don't know, sometimes it makes me feel a little better. Maybe it's the illusion of being a normal member of society amongst other normal members of society that kinda makes me forget what's bothering me so much. Or maybe it's the pressure of trying not to get caught that makes me bottle everything up and 'act normal', which often results in me feeling and acting worse when I'm not in public anymore. Or it's an attempt to 'not waste time' and 'be productive', coming up with ideas and trying to find new ways to trick people into thinking I'm someone I'm not (basically observing normal citizens to understand how I could act if I'll ever find myself interacting with them- you know, to not get caught). But I don't know, I just do it anyway.

I also really enjoy music, but I tend to not listen to it when I'm particularly upset. Yeah, I get my emo, edgy and mysterious moments while listening to depressing music when I'm not feeling well, but not when I'm (close to) hyperventilating and trying my hardest to not make a mess out of my neck.

Speaking of my neck, worst case scenario I don't find a good way to deal with my emotions (which is a common occurrence), I close myself in my depression room and you see me get out of there with blood on my neck and under my fingernails. I'll just leave it at that.