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As the train rumbles along the tracks, you sit curled up in your seat, engrossed in the book Tara had lent you. The romance novel started off innocently enough, with witty banter and a slow-burning connection between the leads. But now, as the train was getting closer to the station near your apartment building you found yourself blushing furiously at the explicit scene unfolding on the page.
Tara forgot to mention that one particularly steamy chapter was tucked away amidst the otherwise tame love story. You squirm slightly in your seat, feeling a warmth pool low in your belly as you read the detailed descriptions of the couple's passionate encounter.
You quickly flip the page, trying to cool the sudden flush of heat that crept up your neck as you read on. The words on the page were so graphic, so vulgar compared to the usual romance you enjoyed. But there was something undeniably thrilling about the raw passion described in such vivid detail.
The male lead gripping the female lead hips, pounding into her with deep, powerful thrusts that left her breathless and aching for more. His groans filling the room as he chased his release, determined to fill her to the brim with his seed.
You feel your heart race as you read on, the scene playing out like a dirty movie in your mind. You know you should look away, but you can't. Can't stop reading about the way he uses her body for his pleasure, fucking her raw and hard until he finds his explosive finish.
It was filthy, it was wrong, but a part of you almost wanted to experience it for yourself. To be wanted, needed, craved with such desperate hunger. You squirm in your seat again, thighs clenching together as you feel the telltale ache begining to build between them.
You put the book down and close your eyes taking a deep breath.
"You are a pretty fast reader Y/N, I wasn't able to read the whole page"
You nearly leap out of your skin at the sound of the deep, all-too-familiar voice murmuring so close to your ear. Your heart hammers against your ribs as you turn your head to see Xavier, in your flustered state, you hadn't even registered Xavier's presence beside your seat. Now here he was, looming over you with a knowing smirk playing on his lips.
"I... I was just..." You stutter, feeling the heat in your cheeks deepen at being caught red-handed. The book is face down on your lap, the incriminating page still open beneath your fingertips. You quickly flip it shut, as if that could somehow hide the dirty thoughts still swirling in your head.
"I didn't hear you come in, I thought you were working late today" you say lamely, hoping to change the subject. You take in his appearance, from his disheveled silver hair to the way his dress shirt clings to his broad shoulders. Part of you wonders if he always looked this good after a long day, or if the sight was amplified by the naughty images still seared into your mind.
The train stops, the announcement overhead crackling to life with the familiar stop near your apartment building. Around you, passengers begin to gather their belongings, the sound of chatter and shuffling feet fill the air. You gather your things, shoving the book deep into your bag. You could feel the heat of Xavier's gaze on you as you fumble with the zipper, your cheeks still flushed a telling shade of pink.
"You know..." Xavier murmurs, reaching out to brush a stray lock of hair behind your ear. His fingertips linger, grazing the sensitive skin of your jawline making you shiver. "I don't think I've ever seen you read a book quite so...intensely before."
Your eyes widen at his bold words, a fresh wave of embarrassment crashing over you. Did he really know what you'd been reading?
Xavier straightens up, offering his hand to help you out of your seat. As you place your palm in his, he gives it a gentle squeeze, his thumb rubbing circles over your knuckles. "Come on, let's head home"
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As you step into your apartment, you let out a sigh of relief, feeling the tension in your shoulders begin to ease. Xavier follows close behind, shutting the door and setting down his bag before shrugging off his jacket and tossing it carelessly over the back of a chair.
You busied yourself in the kitchen, pulling out ingredients for dinner and trying to act as natural as possible. You can feel Xavier's eyes on you as you chop vegetables, the sizzle of the pan and the scent of garlic and herbs filling the small apartment.
So, how was your day?" Xavier asks, loosening his tie as he leans against the counter, watching you work. "Anything interesting happen at the office?"
You shrug, focusing on the task at hand. "Not really. Just the usual paperwork and meetings. Nothing out of the ordinary." You glance up at him, taking in the way his shirt sleeves are rolled up to his elbows, the muscles of his forearms flexing slightly as he crosses his arms over his chest.
"What about you?" You ask, hoping to steer the conversation away from your own agitated state.
Xavier's lips quirk into a small smirk. "It was a long day, but worth it in the end." He steps closer to you, reaching around to grab a carrot stick from the cutting board. "Why? Did you miss me today?"
You roll your eyes, but can't help the small smile tugging at the corners of your mouth. "Don't get cocky," you say, batting his hand away playfully. "I just know how much you love your job, that's all."
You turn back to the stove, stirring the contents of the pan with more vigor than necessary. As you do, you can't shake the memory of the book from your mind, the way the male lead had taken the female so roughly, so passionately... Your stomach flips at the thought, a sudden wave of heat spreading all over your body.
Lost in your naughty thoughts, you don't realize that Xavier moved closer until he was right behind you, his chest pressed to your back, his breath hot against the side of your neck.
"What's on your mind, Y/N?"
You tense at the sudden closeness, the heat of his body seeping through the thin fabric of your shirt. You grip the spoon tighter, using the task of stirring the sauce as an excuse to put some distance between you.
"I'm just tired," you lie, hoping your voice sounded more convincing than you feel. "It's been a long day, that's all."
But even as you say it, you know that your racing thoughts have nothing to do with fatigue. The ache between your legs, the flush on your cheeks, the way your heart hammers in your chest at his proximity, it was all thanks to that damn book and the dirty images it had seared into your mind.
You can feel Xavier's eyes on you, studying your profile intently. He is quiet for a moment, his gaze lingering on the delicate curve of your cheek, the way your lower lip caught between your teeth.
Slowly, he reaches around you to grab the wooden spoon, his arm brushing against yours as he does. Your breath hitched in your throat at the contact, your body betraying your true state of mind. You know he can feel the heat radiating off your skin, the way your pulse jumps beneath his touch.
I didn't forget y/n" he whispers "how could I possibly forget the way your cheeks flushed so prettily while you read, the way you squirmed in your seat as if you couldn't wait for me to bend you over it?"
You gasp as the spoon clatters into the pan, the sudden noise jarring you from your daze. Before you can react, Xavier's hands are on your waist, spinning you around to face him. His grip is firm, unyielding, as he pulls you against his chest.
"I think we both know you're not tired," he teases "Not really." His hand slides up your spine, fingers splaying across the back of your neck, tilting your head back to expose the column of your throat. "I think you're wound up tighter than a bowstring, and I think I know exactly why."
"Did you like reading about that? About being fucked raw? About her being filled with his seed until it leaked out of her? Is that what you want from me?"
You cant help but whimper at his words, a fresh flood of arousal crashing over you. You can feel the evidence of his own desire pressing insistently against you, and it makes you ache to feel him inside you, stretching you, claiming you as his own.
"I...I don't know..." you say, even as your body screams yes, please, more. You can feel yourself getting lost in the haze of lust, drowning in the scent and feel and taste of him.
But some small part of you still clings to sanity, still remembers the way he'd caught you reading such a vulgar thing. The shame of it burns hot and bright, even as your body craves his touch like a drug.
"Xavier, we shouldn't..." you protest weakly.
Xavier shuts you up with a kiss, his lips claiming yours in a bruising, demanding press. His tongue delving deep to stroke along yours, swallowing any further protests you might have. You can only cling to him, fingers scrabbling at the fabric of his shirt as he kisses you until you are breathless and dizzy, until the world spins and narrows down to the feel of his lips on yours.
When he finally pulls back, you are panting, your chest heaving against his. Xavier's eyes are dark, nearly black with desire as he drinks in the sight of your flushed cheeks and swollen lips.
"Shouldn't what?" he challenges, smirk playing at the corners of his mouth. "Shouldn't I want to fuck you until you can't walk straight? He punctuated his words with a roll of his hips, grinding his hard cock against your core. You cry out at the sudden burst of sensation, your head falling back as you arch into him. "Shouldn't I want to make all those filthy fantasies a reality? To bend you over every surface in this apartment and take you until you're sobbing my name?
You let out a soft yelp as you feel Xavier lift you easily, his strong arms supporting your backside as he sets you down on the cool marble countertop. The sudden height difference puts you at eye level, and you find yourself staring into Xavier's intense gaze as he steps between your splayed thighs.
He grips your hips, his fingers digging into the soft flesh as he tugs you closer to the edge of the counter. His hands slide up your sides, pushing your shirt up and over your head and tossing it carelessly to the floor. You sit before him in your lacy bra, your chest heaving and your nipples straining against the delicate material. Xavier's gaze drops to your chest, his eyes hungry and appreciative as he drinks in the sight of you.
"You're so fucking beautiful," he murmurs, reaching out to cup the soft swells in his palms. His thumbs brush over your nipples, teasing the sensitive peaks until they pebble even further. You gasp, arching into his touch as jolts of pleasure shoot through you.
"That's it, baby, don't fight it. Let yourself feel good."
One of his hands slides around to unhook your bra, freeing your breasts. Your cheeks flush hotly as you sit bare before him, but the way Xavier looks at you makes you feel powerful, desirable, wanted in a way you'd never been wanted before.
He leans down to capture one nipple in his mouth, suckling and flicking the sensitive bud with his tongue, your fingers tangle in his silver hair. You can feel the heat building between your legs, the ache growing more insistent with each pass of his tongue over your flesh.
"Xavier," you gasp, tugging at his hair. "Please..."
His teeth close around your nipple, biting down just hard enough to make you cry out. The sharp sting of pain melded with the pleasure coursing through you send a bolt of electricity straight to your core. He soothes the ache with his tongue, swirling around the sensitive peak before releasing it with a pop.
Looking up at you through hooded eyes, Xavier's gaze is intense, almost feral in its hunger. "Is this what you want?" he asks "Do you want me to fuck you raw, right here on this kitchen counter? Want me to spread your legs wide and plunge into your tight little cunt until you scream?"
You stare into Xavier's darkened gaze. "Yes," you breathe, the word tumbling from your lips before you can stop it. "Gods, yes Xavier, please..."
Spurred on by your desperate plea, Xavier, wasting no time unzips his fly, freeing his hard aching cock from the confines of his pants, his shirt follows soon after. You lift your hips, shimmying out of your skirt and kicking off your panties in record time, you bare yourself completely to his hungry gaze.
Before you can take your next breath, Xavier grabs your thighs, gripping them tightly as he pushes your legs wider, opening you fully to him. Then, with one powerful thrust, he buries himself deep inside you, filling and stretching you in one swift, hard stroke.
You scream, head falling back as he stretches you impossibly wide, filling you so deeply you swear you can feel him in your throat. He doesnt give you time to adjust, just starts pounding into you with deep, brutal strokes .
"Yes, fuck!" Xavier moans, one hand gripping the edge of the counter while the other digs into the soft flesh of your hip, holding you in place as he fucks you.
You can only cling to him, fingernails scoring down his back as you meet each of his thrusts with the roll of your own hips. Its fast and hard, just like in the book, just like you both crave. Xavier's cock drags deliciously against your walls with each thrust, stoking the pleasure building low in your belly.Â
"Harder," you gasp, wrapping your legs around his waist. "Fuck me harder, Xavier!Â
You feel his control snap and with a surge of strength, he lifts you off the counter, only to slam you back down, impaling you fully on his throbbing cock.
You scream, the sudden force of his thrust making you see stars. He starts to move then, really move, fucking into you with deep, powerful thrusts that make your breasts bounce with each impact. The new angle allows him to hit that spot deep inside you, sending shockwaves of pleasure radiating through your body.
"Yes, fuck, just like that!" You cry out, fingers digging into the hard muscles of his back.
"Play with your clit, bunny. I want to feel you squeeze my cock" At his command, you reach down between your thighs, finding your aching clit swollen and throbbing. You circle the sensitive bundle of nerves, rubbing tight, quick circles. The combination of his deep, powerful thrusts and your fingers on your clit push you rapidly towards a massive peak.
"Please, please..." You beg, too far gone to be embarrassed by your desperate pleas. "I want to feel you come inside me, Xavier."
With a scream of his name you come undone, your body convulsing as your orgasm crashes over you, cunt clenching around Xavier's cock, squeezing him as wave after wave of pleasure washes through you.
Xavier lets out a groan, his fingers digging into the soft flesh of your hips even harder as he slams into you one, two, three more times before burying himself to the hilt. With a last, shuddering moan, he comes deep inside you, his hot seed spurting against your cervix as he fills you up just like you begged him to.
He holds your trembling body close as he carries you to your bedroom, your legs wrapped tightly around his waist. He can feel your mixed pleasure dripping down his thighs.
Laying you down gently on the bed, he follows you down, hovering over you as he slowly pulls out of your tender cunt. You whimper at the loss, feeling empty and aching already. But before you can voice your protest, Xavier reaches down, gathering your combined essence on his fingers. He brings them to your entrance, pushing the sticky, pearlescent liquid back inside you.
"There, now you'll keep my cum nice and deep inside you," he smiles "I want you to feel me there for the rest of the night.
Thank you for my request that has written. It was hot as heck!
Anyway, I am currently in a difficult moment so I wish you can write a comforting fluff of Xavier after she faced difficult moments (or moments that don't go as well and as planned from trying to buy tickets in advance online even she is quick that the seats are completely full to dealing such drama with friends or anything that upsets her)
Hope you have a wonderful day. I wish we can talk more often sometime. đ
hello!!! im so glad you enjoyed your request, and im so sorry that you're feeling upset and i really hope my next writing can help you!!!! youre lucky im feeling rly active today LMFAO so lets get to work!!!
SUMMARY: after a day filled with disappointment and emotional strain, you come home defeated. xavier senses the heaviness and offers quiet, unwavering comfortâno questions, just love. in his arms, you finds solace, he reminds you that even when everything else goes wrong, he will always stay.
CW: this piece includes themes of emotional distress, disappointment, and interpersonal conflict (e.g. friend drama, feeling overwhelmed). while the story is ultimately comforting and supportive, it touches on moments of emotional vulnerability and frustration. reader discretion is advised for those sensitive to these topics!!!
WC: 1.1K!
NOTES: for any xavier fans who are just feeling a bit down in the dumps rn . . . reqs are open if anyone want something similar with another character!! (doesnt have to be l&ds)!
The rain had started hours ago. Not a dramatic, cinematic downpourâjust that steady kind of drizzle that made everything feel heavier. The kind of rain that matched the weight of a day gone completely wrong.
It had started with something so simple. Xavier had been excited all weekâhell, maybe even longer. There was this event, something you both had been talking about forever. Something that shouldâve been easy. Just a few clicks, some fast fingers, and the tickets would be yours. But when the page finally loadedâseconds after the timer hit zeroâit was already over. Sold out. Not even a single seat left. The screen mocked you with its red lettering while your heart dropped.
And that had only been the beginning.
After that, it was like the universe decided to pile it on. A conversation with a friend had turned unexpectedly sourâpassive-aggressive words, little jabs that cut too deep, and the kind of tone that made it clear something had been festering for a while. You tried to be patient, tried to talk through it, but somehow it twisted and escalated, and suddenly you were left with that horrible, hollow feeling. The one that came from wondering if youâd just lost someone who once felt safe.
By the time you made it back home, the silence felt like too much. Too loud. Too sharp. You dropped your bag by the door, didnât bother to pick it up, and all you could do was sit on the edge of the couch, staring blankly at nothing, overwhelmed.
Thatâs when Xavier came in.
He didnât barge in with noise or questions. He just stepped in quietly, gently closing the door behind him like he already knewâwithout you saying a wordâthat today hadnât been kind.
He saw you, and his face softened instantly. âHey,â he said, voice low and warm, as if even his tone was trying not to disturb the fragile threads holding you together. âDidnât even get a hello text. That bad, huh?â
You didnât even answer. You just nodded once, your lips twitching as if you might try to smile but couldnât quite make it happen.
Xavier walked over and crouched down in front of you, one knee on the carpet, the other arm resting lightly on your knee. âYou donât have to say anything if you donât want to,â he murmured, his fingers curling softly around your hand, grounding you. âIâm here. Thatâs all you need to know right now.â
Your throat tightened, and you blinked fast, trying to fight the sting in your eyes. But Xavier noticed. He always noticed.
Without waiting for permission, he moved up onto the couch, tucking himself beside you, pulling you gentlyâcarefullyâinto his arms. It wasnât one of those dramatic movie hugs. It was quiet. Steady. He cradled you like he was built for it. One hand at the back of your head, the other curled around your shoulders, and his voice soft and close to your ear.
âToday can go to hell,â he said lightly, like he was trying to make you smile, even just a little. âHonestly, Iâll write a very strongly-worded letter to the universe. Something passive-aggressive and full of glitter so it never forgets.â
You let out a breathâsomething between a laugh and a sobâand he held you a little closer.
âI know how much you wanted those tickets,â he went on. âAnd it sucks. It really, really sucks. You were fast, you did everything right, and stillâit didnât happen. Thatâs not your fault. You didnât mess up.â
You shifted slightly, resting your forehead against his shoulder, the scent of himâsomething warm and familiar, like lavender and the cotton of old t-shirtsâhelping slow your racing thoughts.
âAnd then your friends,â Xavier whispered, as if speaking it too loud would make the pain sharper. âGod, Iâm sorry. Thatâs the worst part, isnât it? The people you think will always be soft with you, and suddenly theyâre sharp and distant. That kind of hurt gets deep.â
You nodded wordlessly, and he pressed a loving kiss into your hair.
âBut I want you to hear me right now, okay?â His voice was calm, steady. The kind of voice you could fall asleep to. âThis one day doesnât define anything about you. Not how capable you are, not how loved you are, not how strong. Itâs just⊠a bad day. A really bad one. And youâre still here. Youâre still breathing. Thatâs brave, you know.â
You didnât answer, but your body relaxed a little, your weight leaning into his more freely. He felt it and smiled gently, rubbing small, lazy circles into your back.
âWeâll find something else,â he promised. âAnother event. A better one. One with even more ridiculous merch tables and overpriced snacks. And you wonât have to fight the internet for it, because weâll camp out, or Iâll build a bot, or Iâll buy from a sketchy guy named Greg on the street corner. Whatever it takes.â
You gave the softest laugh, and he tilted his head to look at you. âThereâs that sound I love,â he whispered. âGod, I missed that sound today.â
Xavier pulled the blanket from the back of the couch and wrapped it around the both of you in one smooth motion, his arm still around you like it belonged thereâand it did. He shifted so you were lying down together now, legs tangled, your head on her chest, listening to the steady beat of his heart.
âYou donât have to pretend youâre okay around me,â he said. âYou donât have to be anything but real. Cry if you want. Be quiet. Rant about everything that went wrong. Or just lie here. Iâve got you either way.â
And so you stayed like that. Not talking. Not moving much. Just breathing, slowly syncing your breath with his, feeling the warmth of his hold chase away the lingering cold of the day. His fingers played lazily with yours, and his thumb stroked the back of your hand in the kind of rhythm that told you he could stay like this forever.
Eventually, your heart started to ease. The weight in your chest didnât vanish, but it didnât feel so unbearable anymore. Because you werenât holding it alone. Because Xavier was thereâsolid, warm, unshakably kindâand somehow, that made everything just a little bit better.
Even if the world had been unfair today.
Even if people had let you down.
Even if the tickets were gone and the drama stung and nothing had gone to plan.
Xavier stayed. He stayed, and he loved you through it.
And for now, that was enough.
That was everything.
At first, I just wanted to make a silly eepy kitty Xavi drink milk, and before I knew it, I had already made all of this
Manifesting Lumiere...
Love and Deepspace Fanfic
When you broke a glass by accident, what would be his reaction? And when he sees you scared, what will he say to you as a response?
Genre: fluff, comfort/no hurt Pairing: Xavier x fem!reader (usage of Starlight as nickname) Words: 965 Warning: none!
Zayne's || Rafayel's || Sylus' || Caleb's
The loud shattering glass sound resounds in the small apartment.
After finishing a full week of additional work, killing Wanderer in places that were not their verdict, the long-awaited holiday has come. Xavier who loves his sleep has no problem finishing his workload, even faster than what Jenna told him. With his own work finished, he decided to help his partner, knowing fully that it was a high-level fight and not wanting his partner to be hurt.
At one point, Xavier was glad that he arrived on time, not letting his partner get any wounds. The only problem was the overtime and how they barely got any time to rest. Xavier could just sleep all day to get his energy charged, but knowing his partner, Xavier has decided to prepare something for the two of them so they can relax together.
Yet, when Xavier calls her over, she wants to help him prepare for their leisure time. With the food that he has ordered and the drinks that they bought before they got the mission, Xavier has to tell her that she didnât need to lift a finger. He was the host, he was the one who invited her to his house, and it was his responsibility to prepare everything. Her stubbornness left him to let her do anything she wanted in exchange for him to cuddle with her.
âStarlight?â Xavier called out, his voice laced with worry. It didnât take too long before his face popped up in the kitchen. He could see the way her shoulders shiver, face full of worry and fear. âStarlight, what happened? Are you alright?â
âIâm ⊠Iâm so sorry, Xavier. I ⊠I didnât know what happened to me, my hand suddenly became weak and I accidentally dropped your glass.â
Xavier notices the change, how her voice becomes shaky and smaller with each second. Her eyes never found his since he stood near her. Still trying to find what worries her so much, Xavier reaches out his hand towards her, trying to be the anchor for her and calm her down. He didnât like how she responded with just a glass being broken.
âStarlight, will you look at me?â With his guiding voice, calm and grounding, she slowly looked at Xavierâs blue eyes, trying to see if there was any anger inside his eyes. âAre you hurt? Did the shard of the glass get into you? Or did you step on it by accident?â
Xavier could see how she shook her head, hand still shaking a bit. It took a lot from him to keep calm, he didnât like the way she got cautious around himâover a broken glass. Is there something bothering her? Is there something that left her shaking like now? What was the real reason for her response? Was there someone who shouted or scared her when she clumsily broke a glass?
With a shake of her head, she said, âIâm okay ⊠but I need to clean this. I ⊠I will be the one responsible for it! I will also pay you, or I will buy you a new one âŠ!â
âStarlight, itâs okay.â Xavierâs voice became softer, clenching her heart more. Why is his response like this? âYou can just sit and rest, I told you I will be the one to prepare everything. Ah, Iâm not blaming you.â
âWhy are you ⊠so calm about this?â
âBecause you didnât need to overthink it.â Xavierâs hand finally reached her cheek, caressing it and grounding her even more.
His touch was gentle, telling her that she didnât need to think about anything, to be scared of anything, or for her to be wary about her surroundings. He wouldnât ever shout, nor blame her for breaking his glass. He could easily get another one, and he could replace it anytime. All Xavier wanted was for her to be safe.
âNow, letâs get you out of this mess first, okay?â Xavier offered a smile, asking for permission. When he got a nod as an answer, he didnât waste time before lifting her and bringing her to his couch, letting her rest there. âI will be back in a short while, so wait here.â
âIâm sorry, Xavier.â Her words cut deeper than he could have imagined. He could even feel how her finger held onto his hoodie. âIâm so sorry, Xavier. I didnât mean to act though and mess it up. I didnât ⊠I shouldnât have âŠ.â
âStarlight, Iâm not mad at you. Iâm not angry at you too for not listening to me. Whatâs more, Iâm worried about you. If youâre hurt or if you got the shard by accident. Youâre really sure that youâre okay, right? That alone is enough for me.â
Xavier squatted down in front of her, holding both of her hands before stroking the back of her palm with his thumbs. He could sense a cold feeling from her, showing how much she was scared about his reaction. Yet, the smile, the look Xavier gives, and the way he speaks to her, everything made her realize how important she is to him. As long as she is safe and unhurt.
âLet me take care of it, it wonât be too long and I will be back by your side in no time. Will you wait for me?â With a nod given by her, Xavier finally stood up, making sure he left traces of a kiss on her face. Her cheeks, her forehead, and the crown of her head. âNext time, you didnât need to be so scared, I wonât ever get mad at you. And it was only glass, we can buy a new one, also I prefer it to be a couple. For you and me, okay, Starlight?â
Can't stop thinking about how Sylus is implied to have been abandoned by his kin as a child. He was rejected and let down and hurt by every. single. person in his life bar one simply because he wasn't dragon enough for one group, and not human enough for the other. He was an outsider and an outcast from his earliest days. Only one person ever made him feel seen and cherished. And yet he was willing to let go of this sole person when that seemed to be what she wanted him to.
Let that sink in.
From childhood Sylus was discarded and unloved, and had more than likely not had a single truly happy day in his life until meeting MC. She was the first person he ever had that cared about him. The only one to love, accept, and want him unconditionally. MC represents everything good in his life. She is the person who taught him his worth and that he is not the monster he believed himself to be. The one who made him feel human for the first time in his life, who showed him what it is to love and be loved, who introduced him to the beauty of music and of life. The one who willingly shared half a soul with him to save his life, and who helped shape the person he is today.
MC is everything to Sylus. He spent the (most likely numerous) decades after coming back to life searching the cosmos for her. He built Onychinus and his empire with the intent of ruling it with her by his side. He dedicates himself to taking down the evil corporaation that harmed her as a child. So much of what he's done and still does is for her sake, and in hopes of building a happy life and future together. In a lot of ways, he lives for her. She is the living embodiment of his happiness.
And yet... he was and is willing to let her go if that is what she wants or what is best for her.
Because his love for her is pure. At his core, Sylus' heart is pure, in spite of everything that he has endured.
My heart bleeds when I think of all that he's been put through. But it is so healing to see him be loved, treasured, and happy now, his recent birthday event being a prime example of that. He is living the life he always deserved but was out of his reach for most of his life.
There is a place for Sylus in this warm, peaceful world đ©·
Tags! Love and Deepspace Xavier x Reader, Angst
It had become a lullaby of sorts for Xavier. The rhythmic clicking of the clock as its little hand ticked in circles. No matter how much he stared at that clock that was slightly off center on the wall across his bed, he couldnât tell you how much time has passed since heâs been confined to the uncomfortable mattress provided by the hospital.
While Xavier stared off into the distance through the window of his hospital room, watching the orange and red leaves of fall dance in the wind, a sudden crash of metal thins and utensils pulled him from his thoughts. With a curious gaze, Xavier turned his head towards the door. His soft eyes met your wary ones.
âUh-! Sorry,â You scrambled around to pick up the items that you just dropped, âI didnât mean to bother you.â
Xavier just stared at you, wide eyed and confused. Why were you here of all places? He wondered to himself before stretching a smile at you.
âItâs alright. I actually donât mind the company.â Xavierâs voice was like soft silk as he tilted his head and lightly chuckled. âYou⊠Donât look like a doctor or nurse.â
You smiled and shook your head as you stood up, carrying the metal thin in your arms, âIâm a volunteer,â You motioned to the name tag on your shirt. âI was bringing this back to the storage room and, you know, tripped.â A small laugh came from you in an awkward attempt to cool your burning cheeks of embarrassment.
âNo need to feel so embarrassed, Iâve had plenty of falls.â Xavier laughed along with you as you walked into the room. âIâm Xavier, and you areâŠâ
âY/n, itâs a pleasure to meet you!â That cheerful and carefree voice of yours made his heart ache. It was too much, but he forced the lump in his throat down.
That was the first meeting Xavier had with the you he knew now. Although you were different, so much of you were still the same. Like your smile and sparkling eyes that rivaled the stars. Ever since than you had started to pay him visits every now and then even long after your volunteer work was done. You two had a blossoming friendship.
âAnd then, there was this really tall mascot! It scared some of the kids away and I just couldnât help but laugh!â You chirped on about your weekend to Xavier as he listened intently to your words.
All your visits have been the same. You would come back and tell him stories about your vacations, hobbies, events, and even just the mundane things that he seemed particularly interested in. Although he was stuck in bed most of the time, you seemed to breathe life into the porcelain white walls of his hospital room.
Xavier laughed along with you, âDid you get any pictures with it?â He sighed out with that gentle smile of his.
âNope! I didnât get the chance, I was too busy trying to calm down my nephew.â You frowned and sighed with a shaking head. âIâm so bummed! I wouldâve love to show you it.â
âItâs fine. Hearing your stories is more than enough.â Xavier sincerely spoke out with a light hearted chuckle.
This was enough. Just being in the same room, talking about life, and having you by his side again. Even if his condition was getting worse, your being there made it bearable, until it became hard to ignore.
Xavier was getting thin. Sickly thin. He knew he didnât have long until his time would be up, but he had already anticipated this. He knew it was only a matter of time before his body started to succumb to being in a foreign world. In his attempt to spare you any grief, Xavier would deny your visits and sleep. Until you had enough.
âXavier, talk to me.â You had stormed into his room. âYouâve been denying my visits and even hide under the covers whenever you see me. Why? I thought we were friends.â The pain in your voice wasnât hard to ignore. You were upset.
Xavier continued to lay in his bed with the blanket pulled over his head. He didnât want you to see him like this. Not when he had gotten so weak and frail. But even though he didnât want you to, he couldnât help but pull the covers down and smile up at you.
âIâm getting worse.â Xavier spoke out with an unsettling smile as if he wasnât dying. âThey say I probably have a year left, butâŠâ He bit his tongue and looked out of the window to watch the gentle snowflakes float down. ââŠIâd say I wonât even get to see spring.â
âWhat?â You were in disbelief. You couldnât believe what he was saying and you couldnât believe your eyes matter of fact. It had only been a month. âHow are you so sure?â
âI just do.â Xavier looked back over at you and reached for your hand. âDonât look so sad. I like it much better when youâre smiling.â His slender thumb brushed your palm gently.
Confusion and pain was clear on your face as you shook your head and grabbed his hand. âIâll stay by your side, Xavier. Please donât push me away anymore⊠I canât stand it.â His eyes widened slightly as you brought his hands up to your warm cheeks.
And just like that, you two went back to the life you knew. You started to visit him more frequently and even started to take pictures of your outings so you could share them with him. While the weather was cold and frigid, you felt warm and safe being with him. Slowly, the snow covered streets and pavements melted as the weather warmed. And just as Xavier warned, he was getting weaker as the days went on. Spring was just around the corner.
âDo you like spring?â Xavier suddenly spoke out, his eyes locked on yours.
âI do. Itâs warm and cool. And there are more things you can do compared to winter.â You nodded and smiled over at him.
âI wish we could spend next spring with each other. I wouldâve loved it.â
âThey said you had a year left⊠Weâll see next spring together again.â
Xavierâs expression wavered for just a moment before he chuckled and nodded. âYes, we will.â
The weeks flew by and more snow melted as the creeping spring season approached. With a bouquet of fresh flowers in hand, you cheerfully made your way to Xavierâs room to celebrate the first day of spring. You were holding yourself back from rubbing it in his face how he would indeed make it till spring.
âXavier~!â You cheered as you walked into his room and begun to prep the flowers. âThese are the first flowers of the season. Mmm! They smell so nice!â
Xavier weakly looked up at you and smiled before reaching for your hand and holding it, yet he didnât say anything.
ââŠWhy are you so quiet? Come on, I told you youâd make it till spring. Look.â You pulled away and opened the window to let the warm air in. âItâs spring, Xavier. Spring.â You grinned happily to him.
âI knowâŠâ Xavier nodded slowly as he stared up at you with the wind brushing through your soft locks. ââŠBut it makes this harderâŠâ His usual meek expression hardened into a pained expression.
ââŠWeâll see next spring together too⊠so, itâs not too bad.â
ââŠI wish we could⊠I wish we could see everything together⊠not just springâŠâ
ââŠWhen you get better, letâs go see the world. Iâll take you to go see that mascot⊠Instead of bringing you flowers, we can just go see themâŠâ
His hands laced into yours, mustering up enough strength to give your hand a reassuring squeeze. Even if you two never said it, you could tell what we wanted to say. He loved you.
ââŠThank you for letting me see spring with you⊠Even if it was just one more timeâŠâ Xavier weakly smiled and brushed his thumb over your hand.
Xavier knew his words sounded strange to you, but he didnât care anymore. He never cared about anything other than you whenever you were by his side. As of right now, all he really did care about was getting you to smile despite the tears that welled in your beautiful eyes he loved so much.
âYou know⊠Your smile is much more lovely than any flowerâŠâ Xavier breathed out in a whisper, intending those words to only ever be heard by you.
Tears begun to fall as you sat on his bed and brought his hands up to your cheek with a sad smile. âYeah, I knowâŠâ You sniffled, trying to ignore how cold his hands had gotten.
Slowly, Xavierâs eyes closed for the last time with his hands on your cheeks that could feel the stretch of your smile. As he held your cheek limply, his smile never wavered as he drifted into an eternal sleep. For once the room that was always filled with your laughter silenced to the pitiful sound of your sobs and the deafening beep of the monitor.
Tears streamed down your cheeks with your hand tightly grasping Xavierâs as the once soothing spring breeze wafted through the opened window. The breeze now unnaturally cold as it danced through your hair.
Xavier was gone and he took the warmth of spring with him.
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(Not proofread!)
I wish you can write me a comforting Xavier fluff? I felt emotionally tired in the past few days of moments of things don't go well or as originally well planned. đ
Hii you!
As a devoted Caleb stan, I may or may not have briefly short-circuited when I got your request for Xav fluff. But Iâm also deeply honored you trust me with this mission. So here you go: 300ish words of Xav being sooooft. I tried to give you what your heart desiresâwith love, from a Caleb girl doing her best.
Hope you feel better soon,
Maps đ«¶đ»
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The apartment is quiet when you come in, your body heavy from the day. You donât say anythingâand you donât need to.
Xavierâs already on the couch, his book resting unread in his hand. The soft golden glow of his Evol begins to light the room, warm and gentle, like itâs reaching out to you. âThe lampâs too harsh,â he says simply. âThis is softer.â
You nod, too tired to speak, and sink down beside him. He shifts wordlessly, letting you curl into his side. His arm comes to rest behind you, not quite a hug, but close enough that you feel the intent.
His light wraps around you both, dim and steady. It doesnât buzz or flickerâit hums quietly, like it knows this is what you need.
The weight of the day starts to fade. You feel his hand gently brush your hair back, the touch warm and unhurried, as if heâs afraid to disturb you. Then it lingersâhis fingers moving slowly, drawing quiet circles against your back in a rhythm that calms your heart more than any words could.
âYou donât have to say anything,â he murmurs quietly. âJust rest. Iâm here.â
You breathe in the warmth of him, the soft scent of clean cotton and something faintly sunlit. His hoodie brushes against your cheek, worn and familiar, and you sink into it like a sigh.
âYouâre safe now,â he adds, his voice even softer than before. âYouâve done enough for today. You donât have to carry it alone.â
Then, you feel it.
A soft kiss pressed to your foreheadâslow and grounding. He lingers there, just long enough to make your chest ache.
âYou can fall apart with me, if you need to,â he says, barely above a whisper. âIâll hold the pieces.â
You drift.
And when you stir again, just for a moment, his head is leaning against yours. His Evol is still glowing softly, casting lazy golden patterns on the walls. His hand has never stopped movingâstill tracing those gentle circles against your back.
He never moved. He stayed.
And somehow, that says everything.
ââââââââââââââââââââââââââ
Even if Xavier is my main ...
Sylus's bbd event is so fudging beautiful and pleasing and
Like
Ahhhhhh
Its too good and i was literally staring at this for 5 mins because it was so beautiful and gawd
And whoever made this, hatsoff sir or maam
You can press on the decorations in the Sylus Bday event and you get little commentary!!
your husband had a very convenient advantage over you.
and that would be picking you upâ whenever and wherever.
falling asleep anywhere other than your bed was never an issue, not with him around. because rest assuredâ your very strong, very responsible and very devoted husband, has made it his mission to pick up his beloved wife and deliver her to safety and comfort.
you fell asleep on the couch while reading a book or watching a movie? no problem, he had already anticipated it. cue him carefully picking you up bridal style, grip firm but gentle, your head comfortably cradled against his chest. then, he'd start walking to your shared bedroom with slow stepsâ but not before staring at your sleeping face for a moment with a painfully tender gaze and pressing a featherlight kiss to your temple. everytime you woke up, you would find yourself neatly tucked in bed with him holding you close to him or simply gazing at you in quiet awe, like you were the very embodiment of beauty itself. (to him, you were, even if you disagreed.)
now, that's not the only place where his strength came to use. whenever you decide to act stubborn and bratty, you'd best be prepared for a pair of large, steady and warm hands to suddenly settle themselves on your waist, hoisting you up over his shoulders like a sack of potatoes. he'd go on about his day just like that as if he didn't have a living, breathing, adult-sized human creating a fuss over his shoulder. he'll only put you down when he feels like it. or maybe if you manage to bribe him with some affection⊠(spoiler; it always works.)
another time would be when you're feeling particularly lazy to get up from bed in the morning. you don't want to get up? that's fine too, he'll let you latch onto him like a koalaâ your arms lazily looped around his neck, legs around his waist, and his hand keeping you steady while he casually takes a sip of his coffee with the other. that's his life now. happy wife, happy life.
however, there was also a time when he had you questioning your entire existence. you were standing in front of a drawer, very much distracted by an item in your hands. it just so happened that your husband needed to get something from the said drawer. his solution? extraordinary. lift you off the ground by your waist, relocate you to the side, get his drawer business done and casually go on and about with his day. you only processed this a minute later and he had no idea why you kept on staring at him like he had personally rewritten the laws of the universe itself.
long story short, he loved picking you upâ even during times when it was unnecessary. why? because he simply could. and also because it was the perfect excuse to have you in his arms yet again.
⥠nanami kento, kamo choso, ryomen sukuna, gojo satoru, geto suguru, fushiguro toji (jjk), sylus, zayne, xavier, caleb (lads), wriothesley, alhaitham, neuvillette, diluc, itto, kaeya, childe, zhongli (genshin), rengoku kyojuro, uzui tengen, tomioka giyuu, himejima gyomei (kny), ukitake jushiro, kuchiki byakuya, kyoraku shunsui, kurosaki ichigo, ishida uryuu, abarai renji, hitsugaya toshiro, jugram haschwalth (bleach), your favorite.
(â ïž Warning: Slightly angsty and dramatic) đ„ UPD: Guys, I hear you loud and clear about Xavier, and I'm already working on his full story. Let me know if you want more about the others (or any specific one).
You donât even make it home.
One secondâyouâre stepping toward your door. The nextâyou're grabbed.
A sharp yelp leaves your lips, but itâs already too late.
One hand clamps down on your shoulder, the other hooks around your legs, and suddenlyâyou're airborne.
"Cargo secured."
A second voice. Muffled. Hollow.
You twist wildly.
Two figures in black masks, sharp beaked visors, curved horns on their hoods.
Luke and Kieran.
You thrash. âPut me downââ
"No can do, Miss," Kieran hums, flipping you upside down just slightly.
"Our Boss gave very strict orders," Luke murmurs.
Your stomach sinks. The car door swings openâ
And youâre shoved inside.
Kieran and Luke plop down beside you, silent as shadows.
Thenâ
Luke sighs. Long and exaggerated.
"Such a shame," he muses. "She was so pretty."
Kieran hums. "So full of life."
Your eyes narrow. âWhat.â
They tilt their heads in unison. Lukeâs fingers drum against the seat.
"He was so worried."
Kieran exhales. "On the first day, he simply waited."
Luke nods. "Second day, he sent people out. Checked hospitals. Crime scenes."
Kieranâs head tilts. "By day three⊠well, we all knew something had to bleed."
Your stomach drops.
Luke stretches, relaxed. "Four syndicates fell in one night. Just in case one of them had you."
Kieran sighs. "On the fourth day, he realized that wasnât enough."
Luke hums. "So he started getting creative."
Your breath hitches. "Creative?"
Kieran taps his chin. "That warehouse in N109 Zone? The one that burned to the ground?"
Luke leans closer. "Day five. Still no sign of you. He collapsed an entire district."
Kieran shrugs. "Nothing personal. Just a message."
Luke tilts his head. "And then day six came."
A beat of silence.
Kieran chuckles. "You know, Miss⊠If you hadnât shown up today, N109 Zone wouldâve been repainted in blood by sundown."
Luke sighs dreamily. "It still might be."
Your blood turns to ice.
And thenâLukeâs head tilts toward you.
"Now�"
Kieran completes it, a beat later.
"Now he has you."
The car slows. Your chest tightens. And thenâyou realize where you are.
N109 Zone. His estate.
The car door swings openâ
And youâre hauled out like luggage.
"Handle with care," Luke hums.
âI am handling with care," Kieran murmurs.
They carry you inside. Set you down with eerie gentleness. Smooth out your jacket. Brush imaginary dust off your shoulders.
Thenâthey step back. Bow, deep and slow.
âWelcome home, Miss.â
And thenâtheyâre gone.
You whirl after them. âHEYââ
A quiet sound.
Fabric rustling. A slow, deliberate exhale.
You freeze.
And thenâyou turn.
Sylus is standing across the room. Calm. Collected. Expression unreadable.
But his eyes. They burn.
You swallow.
âWhat the fuck was that?â you snap, motioning toward the door.
Silence.
He just⊠watches you.
Thenâslowly, smoothlyâ
He shrugs off his jacket. Lets it fall onto the chair. His fingers move to his cuffs. Undoing them.
One. Then the other.
Rolling his sleeves up, inch by inch.
Your stomach twists.
âSylus.â
He doesnât answer. His hands move to his belt. He unbuckles it. Pulls it free.
And youâ
You fucking run.
You BOLT.
Straight toward the door. Itâs locked.
You curse.
Behind youâhe clicks his tongue.
âOh, Kitten,â he murmurs, voice low, almost amused.
You spin, darting behind the desk. He follows. Casually. Slowly.
âYou disappear for six days,â he murmurs, voice smooth, mocking, deadly.
You sidestep. He matches you.
âYou ignore my calls.â
You swerve left. He steps right.
âI tear this city apart looking for you.â
You dodge back. He adjusts effortlessly.
âAnd now,â he exhales, tilting his head, smirking lazily, âyouâre running.â
You hurl a stapler at him. He catches it. Drops it. Sighs.
Thenâhis patience snaps.
A sharp pulse of red energy explodes outward. The desk flips. The chairs crash against the wall.
And suddenlyâ
You are out of places to run. Before you can moveâ
He has you.
A sharp yelp rips from your throat as he grabs you, spins, and drops into his chairâ
Bringing you down over his lap.
Your breath catches. âSylusââ
"Ah, ah, ah.â
His palm glides down your back. Teasing. Amused. Smug.
"You made a very poor choice, Kitten."
Your heart pounds. His fingers hook into your waistband. And in one sharp motionâ
He pulls your pants down.
Your entire body jolts. âWaitââ
The first smack lands. Sharp. Stinging.
You jerk violently.
Thenâthe second.
Thenâthe third.
âSylusâyou absolute bastard!â
A low chuckle vibrates through his chest.
âSix days, Sweetie.â
Another smack.
âYou think you get away with that?â
You snarl, thrashing. âYouâIâll kill you!â
"Oh?" His hand presses against your lower back, keeping you pinned.
Thenâlower now, smooth as silk, dripping with mockeryâ
âYou sure you can handle that right now?â
You growl.
And thenâ
You bite him. Hard. Right on the thigh.
His breath hitches. Thenâa slow, dangerous laugh.
He grabs you. Turns you over, setting you between his legs, hands gripping your chinâforcing you to look at him.
And thenâ
You see it. The rage is gone.
And in its placeâ
Something raw. Something wrecked. Like heâs aged years in just six days.
His voiceâwhen it comesâis low. Hoarse. Unsteady.
ââŠI thought Ever carved you up for spare parts.â
Your stomach drops.
"You really think," his fingers twitch against your skin, "I was just waiting?"
His eyes flick over your face, scanning, memorizing. And thenâsofter now, almost brokenâ
"If you hadnât come back tomorrow, I wouldâve wiped them off the face of the earth."
Your eyes sting. Your hands reach for him, trembling.
You slide forward, onto his lap.
His breath stutters.
And thenâyou kiss him. Hard. Desperate. Unyielding.
He shudders.
Thenâhis hands clench around your waist, crushing you to him. When he pulls backâforehead pressed against yours, breath unevenâ
ââŠNext time you disappear,â he murmurs, lips brushing your cheek, voice shaking with something terrifyingly real, âIâm not looking for you.â
Your heart cracks. You shake your head. You cup his face. Hold him there.
ââŠYou wonât have to.â
Silence.
Thenâ
His grip tightens. And just like thatâ
He is never letting you go again.
You already know where he is.
Zayne isnât home. Of course, he isnât.
So you do the only thing that makes senseâyou head straight for Akso Hospital.
By the time you step through the pristine glass doors, youâre already talking.
âI know how this looks, but I can explainââ
And thenâyou see him.
Standing near the nursesâ station, uniform crisp, posture rigid, hands tucked into the pockets of his coat like heâs carved from ice.
For a secondâjust a secondâhis breath catches.
But thenâ
A switch flips. His entire presence shifts.
Cold. Professional. Untouchable.
His eyes meet yours. And he says nothing.
No relief. No anger. Nothing.
Just pure, hollow emptiness.
You swallow hard. Force yourself to continue.
âZayneââ
âYou need medical attention.â
His voice is calm. Impersonal. A doctor speaking to a patient. Not the man you know.
Your stomach twists.
He doesnât ask where youâve been. Doesnât ask why you disappeared. Insteadâhe starts listing symptoms.
âYouâre pale. Have you lost blood?â
You inhale sharply. âZayââ
âConcussion?â
âNoââ
âFever? Infection?â
His eyes flick to your scraped knuckles, the dried blood on your sleeve.
And you realizeâ
Heâs not angry. Heâs protecting himself. Heâs shutting down. Like he already convinced himself you werenât coming back. Like he already mourned you.
And something inside you breaks.
Your legs wobble.
You swayâ
And thenâ
You collapse.
The reaction is instantaneous.
A sharp inhale. A rush of movement. A sudden, firm grip catching you before you hit the ground.
Zayneâs arms lock around you. One around your back, one under your legs, holding you effortlessly. His breathing is uneven. His fingers tremble against your skin.
âHeyâ!â His voice is no longer detached. Itâs urgent. Terrified.
He tilts your face up, eyes scanning for injuries, pupils blown wide with panic.
"Youâ" His breath shudders. âShit, you'reââ
But you donât answer. Because you keep your eyes closed. Because you know exactly what youâre doing.
And for a moment, it works. For a moment, heâs yours again. For a moment, his walls are completely, irreparably shattered.
Thenâ
His steps slow. His breathing evens.
And suddenlyâ
He stops. And you feel it. That one single, damning second of realization.
Your eyes are closed, but you can hear it. The sharp, cold click in his mind as he figures it out.
His arms loosen. Too loose. Too fast.
And suddenlyâyou're falling.
You gasp sharply, hands instinctively grabbing at himâ
But he catches you at the last second, lowering you onto the cold, sterile floor of his office with just enough control to keep you from truly getting hurt.
But barely.
His jaw is tight. His nostrils flare. His hands press into his thighs like heâs physically holding himself back from losing control.
Thenâflat, quiet, lethalâ
âYou lied.â
Your stomach drops. You open your mouthâand then you feel it.
A sharp, aching throb in your knee. It hits all at onceâthe pain, the exhaustion, the weight of everything that happened.
Your throat tightens.
And thenâbefore you can stop itâ
Tears prick at your eyes.
Your voice comes out small, weak, broken.
âZayne⊠my leg hurts.â
Everything stops. The air in the room shifts.
And suddenlyâ
The rage is gone. His walls crumble.
His gaze snaps to your kneeâswollen, bruised, torn fabric revealing skin already darkening with a deep, painful contusion.
And just like thatâheâs on his knees. The doctor in him takes over.
His hands tremble as they press to your leg, fingertips ghosting over the bruised flesh like it physically pains him to touch.
He leans down. And presses a soft, lingering kiss to the bruised skin.
Your breath catches.
His forehead presses gently against your knee. And thenâa whisper, barely audible, like heâs afraid of his own voice.
ââŠI lost you.â
Your heart cracks wide open.
He inhales sharply, his fingers tightening against your leg, like heâs still trying to convince himself youâre real.
You slide off the chair. Sink onto the cold, sterile floor. Your hands come up, cup his face.
His breath stutters.
You press your forehead to his.
Hot. Unwavering. Eternal.
âOnly death could take me from you.â
His eyes squeeze shut. And when they open againâ
Thereâs nothing left but raw, agonizing devotion.
Thenâ
His hands reach for you. And this time, he doesnât let go.
The door clicks shut behind you.
Something feels wrong. The air is too still. Too perfectly controlled.
And thenâyou see it.
The chair.
Placed dead center in the room.
The apartment is spotless. Too spotless. Like someone scrubbed it raw, wiped away every trace of warmth, every sign of life.
Your stomach tightens. And thenâa voice.
Cold. Measured. Absolute.
"Sit down."
You turn sharplyâ
And there he is.
Colonel Caleb. Not your Caleb.
Not the man who kisses your forehead every morning. Not the man who makes you breakfast even when heâs running on two hours of sleep.
No.
This is the soldier. The commander. The man who could level entire cities with a single order.
And you are his captive.
Your jaw tightens. âCaleb, what the hellââ
"Sit. Down."
Your spine stiffens. âNo.â
A flick of his fingers. The chair scrapes forward, slamming into the back of your knees.
You stumble, cursingâ
But before you can reactâa force clamps around you. G-forces shift. Gravity bends. The chair drags you back to the center of the room.
Thenâweight locks around your limbs. You canât stand. Canât move. Your pulse spikes.
His face is unreadable. His eyesâstormy, dark, endless.
Like he hasnât slept in six days.
A tablet activates in his hand.
Several floating screens appear around you, flickering with surveillance footage.
And thenâhis interrogation begins.
His voice is calm. Clinical. Devoid of warmth.
"In the hours before your disappearance, this man entered your building. Do you know him?"
You blink. âWhatâ?â
He gestures at the screen. A blurry security cam shot.
You squint. âThatâsâa fucking courier.â
"Interesting."
A swipe of his fingers. Another screen appears.
"You placed an order at a bookstore six days ago. Three books were delivered. For what purpose?"
You stare. â...For reading?â
His brows twitch.
"Curious. You spoke to the courier for over five minutes. What was discussed?"
Your hands clench into fists. âHow the hell would I know?â
A beat of silence.
Thenâsofter now, dangerous in its evennessâ
"You really expect me to believe you donât remember?"
Your blood boils. âAre you seriously doing this right now?â
He swipes again. More footage. More records. More evidence that means nothing.
And you snap.
"You are losing your fucking mind."
His jaw tightens.
And thenâ
The gravity releases.
You lurch forward, finally able to moveâ
But before you can get upâ
heâs already there.
A single step. One hand gripping the back of your chair, tilting it backâ
His face is inches from yours. His gaze burns.
"Are you fucking someone else?"
Your breath catches. Your pulse thunders in your ears.
And thenâ
You laugh.
Sharp. Bitter. Furious.
You gesture at yourselfâthe dirt, the bruises, the blood still crusted on your sleeve.
âLook at me, Caleb.â
He doesnât move.
âDoes this look like a woman having an affair?â
His fingers twitch against the chair. His voice drops to a whisper.
"Iâm on the edge of it."
Your chest tightens.
âI donât doubt that, you psychopath.â You shove against his arm, but he doesnât budge. âNow let me up so I can strangle you.â
His fingers loosen.
And thenâ
"Six days."
Your breath hitches. His hand moves. Curls around your jaw, firm but careful.
"Six days. Eight thousand six hundred forty minutes."
His thumb brushes over your cheekbone.
"I couldn't breathe without pain."
Your throat tightens. Your rage collapses into something else entirely.
âCalebââ
"I searched. I traced every lead. I turned this country inside out."
His voice wavers.
And thenâsofter, rawer, almost desperateâ
"If you hadnât come back, I would have burned everything to the ground."
Your chest aches.
ââŠI had a mission. It was classified.â
His jaw twitches.
"Then tell meâ" His voice turns sharp, edged with something almost pleading. "Tell me you werenât running."
You exhale shakily.
âYouâre so obsessed with losing me, Calebâmaybe thatâs why you always do.â
Silence.
Something in his face breaks. He straightens. Turns away.
Leaves.
The door slams.
And you collapse to your knees. Your hands come upâcover your faceâ
And finally, finally, the tears fall.
But thenâ
A soft creak. A shift in the air. Warmth.
Arms wrapping around you, pulling you into a crushing embrace.
You freeze.
His voice is hoarse, quiet, trembling with something raw.
"Youâre the only one who can destroy me without lifting a hand."
Your breath shudders. His grip tightens.
"One word from you," he murmurs, "and Iâm gone."
You shake your head.
âCalebâŠâ
His forehead presses against your shoulder.
"I tried. Every day. Every second. I tried not to hold on too tight." He exhales shakily. "But I canât."
Your heart clenches.
âCaleb, I always come back.â
He flinches.
You pull back just enough to cup his face. His eyes are stormy, desperate, flickering with pain.
"You have to trust me."
His lips part, but no sound comes out.
Thenâbarely above a whisperâ
"I can't lose you."
Your fingers tighten against his jaw.
"You wonât."
Silence.
Thenâ
He kisses you.
Itâs not gentle. Itâs desperate. Devouring. Starved.
His hands tangle in your hair, holding you to him like heâll die if you pull away.
A single tear escapes down his cheek. And you catch it with your lips.
ââŠIâm sorry,â you whisper. âCaleb, Iâm so sorry.â
His breath shudders. He shakes his head.Â
âNo.â His voice breaks. "You donât apologize to me."Â
Your brows furrow. âCalebââÂ
He swallows.Â
"If youâre better off without meâ"Â
Your hand flies up, slaps over his mouth. He freezes. Tears well in your eyes.Â
âDonât. Say. That.â His chest rises sharply. You lean in, press your forehead to his.Â
ââŠYou are my universe,â you whisper.Â
His hands shake against your back.Â
âNo matter what we do, no matter what happensââ You press your lips to his, slow, deep, endless. âI will always come back to you.âÂ
His breath shudders against your lips.
And thenâhis voice drops, quiet but unshakable.Â
"You will never disappear on me again without warning. Not now. Not ever."
The door clicks shut behind you.
You barely take a step inside before a voice cuts through the airâ
Calm. Measured. Unshakable.
"Ah." A quiet exhale. "Look who finally remembered they have a home."
You freeze.
Xavier is already there.
Sitting in the living room, one leg crossed over the other, a book balanced in his handâlike your sudden reappearance was nothing more than an interesting plot twist.
He doesnât look up immediately. He finishes the sentence heâs reading first.
Thenâcalmly, unhurriedlyâhe turns the page.
And finallyâhis gaze lifts to yours.
Cold. Slow. Too calculating.
"Six days."
Your stomach tightens. "Xavâ"
"Mm. No." He holds up a single finger.
The room falls silent. And somehow, thatâs worse.
You watch as he closes the book. Carefully. Precisely. Thenâwithout breaking eye contactâhe sets it aside.
And thenâa small smile.
Soft. Almost friendly.
Which means youâre in deep, deep trouble.
"You look tired," he murmurs, tilting his head. "Traveling, were you?"
You exhale. "Xavierâ"
"Oh, no. Let me guess." His fingers tap idly against the armrest. "You were simply busy."
A pause.
"Too busy, in fact, to answer a single message."
Your jaw tightens. "It wasnâtâ"
"Ah," he interrupts softly, as if realizing something.
His eyes flick over your torn sleeve, the faint bruises on your arms. Then, slowlyâhe smiles.
"Or," he murmurs, "did you lose your phone again?"
Your stomach drops. Because he knows.
You inhale sharply. "Xavâ"
He shakes his head.
"No, itâs alright. I understand." He leans forward slightly, resting his chin against his knuckles. "Iâm sure you had an excellent reason."
A beat of silence. Thenâmild amusement, carefully laced with steel:
"Would you like to tell me what it was?"
You hesitate.
Because you were on a mission. A classified one.
Because he wasnât supposed to know. Because you work together.
And yetâhe knew nothing.
You try anyway.
"I had aâ"
"A mission?" His brow lifts, a polite flicker of curiosity. "Fascinating."
His tone is smooth, unbothered. And thatâthat is when you know how angry he really is.
He gestures vaguely toward the stacks of reports on the table.
"Tell me, darling, which mission was it?"
You swallow hard. "I canâtâ"
"Mm. Right. Classified."
Another small nod. A slow, deliberate blink.
"As are all major operations within the Association."
His fingers drum lightly against the armrest.
"And yet, strangelyâ" He tilts his head. "Not a single record of your assignment exists."
You say nothing.
Xavier exhales through his noseâalmost disappointed.
"And here I thought," he murmurs, "we were supposed to trust each other."
You flinch.
His gaze softens. Not with kindness. But with something far worse.
Pity.
"You must have had your reasons, of course," he muses.
A small sigh, like heâs humoring a child.
"I imagine you thought it was necessary. Sensible, even."
His fingers lace together.
"Just as I found it necessary to send out a search party on day three."
Your breath catches.
"You what?"
He hums.
"By day four, I expanded my resources. You'd be surprised how quickly information spreads when you know where to look."
Your hands clench.
"Xavierâ"
"Day five, I began considering alternative outcomes. Some of them, admittedly, rather unpleasant."
A flicker of something colder in his expression.
"Ever been forced to sit in a room full of people trying to convince you that your partner is dead?"
Your stomach turns.
"Xavier, I wasnâtâ"
He clicks his tongue.
"Day six, I received word that you had finally resurfaced."
He leans back. Folds his arms. And thenâa soft chuckle, utterly humorless.
"Imagine my relief."
Silence.
You exhale sharply. "Xav, Iâ"
"Did you know," he interrupts, voice light, conversational, detached, "that people tend to avoid looking a grieving man in the eye?"
Your throat tightens.
"Not that I was grieving, of course." He taps a finger against his chin. "I donât make a habit of mourning people until I see a body."
He tilts his head slightly, studying you.
"But I imagine it must have been quite the inconvenience, being dead for six days."
Your chest tightens.
"You think I wanted toâ"
"Oh, I know," he murmurs. "You didnât want to disappear."
His voice lowers.
"But you still did."
And for the first timeâhe is no longer smirking. His blue eyes bore into yours, steady, sharp.
"You made a decision that left me in the dark."
A long, slow breath.
"And I need to know," he says softly, "if you would do it again."
Silence.
You donât have an answer. You donât think there is one.
He exhales.
Finally, he leans back. Gazes at you for a moment longer.
Then, calmlyâhe stands. Smooth. Effortless. Precise. And thenâhe walks past you.
Your heart slams against your ribs.
"Xavierâ"
He doesnât stop. You push to your feet.
"Xavier, youâre coming back, right?"
Finallyâhe pauses. Turns his head, just slightly.
And thenâ
"Ask me again in six days."
The door closes behind him. And this timeâyouâre the one left behind.
You are exhausted.
Every part of you aches. Your body demands sleep, warmth, peace.
Insteadâ
You come home to chaos.
Loud music. Laughter. The scent of wine, perfume, candle wax, and indulgence.
And thenâthe sight of him.
Rafayel.
Lounging near the pool, half-leaning against an ornate chair, a glass of red wine dangling lazily between his fingers.
His shirt is unbuttoned just enough to hint at toned muscle beneath, his sleeves rolled up, his perfectly tousled hair falling over his forehead in an effortlessly careless way.
And surrounding himâbeautiful women.
Drinking, laughing, leaning toward him like heâs some fallen deity of temptation and excess.
Your stomach twists. A tight, burning rage coils in your chest.
And thenâ
He sees you. His eyes widenâjust slightly. And thenâa slow, almost lazy smirk.
"Ah." He lifts his glass dramatically, tone dripping with sarcasm. "Look who's finally returned!"
You tense.
He rises to his feet, arms spread as if welcoming royalty.
"My muse. My inspiration."
His voice carries over the music, over the murmurs of people starting to notice the tension.
"The very heart of my art!"
A sweeping gesture.
And thenâ
He motions toward the canvas-lined walls.
Your breath catches. Because theyâre all of you. Dozens of paintings.
Butâruined.
Slashes through the canvas.
Paint smeared and splattered over your likeness like an artist in rage, in agony, in heartbreak.
The fury in you erupts. Your voice cuts through the music.
"What the actual fuck is this?!"
He gasps, mock scandalized.
"Oh, you donât like them? What a tragedy!"
He downs the rest of his wine in one smooth gulp, tossing the glass aside with a careless flick of his wrist.
Thenâhe grins.
Crooked. Reckless. Infuriating.
"And here I was, drowning in sorrow, channeling my unbearable suffering into art."
A sigh.
"But alas." He shrugs dramatically. "Seems the muse herself has returned."
You march toward him. He tilts his head.
"Careful, cutie. You seem upset."
"Youâre a fucking disaster."
He laughs.
"Youâre six days late to that realization."
You grab his wrist, yanking him toward the exit.
âWeâre talking. Now.â
His body moves, but his feet donât follow. Insteadâhe pulls against your grip.
His smile widens.
"Oh?" His voice drips with amusement. "Dragging me away already? Jealous, cutie?"
Your jaw clenches.
"This is pathetic."
Another laugh, lighter this time.
"Ah, but it was all I had!" He places a hand over his heart. Theatrical. Overdramatic. Perfectly insufferable.
You snap.
And shove him into the pool.
He barely has time to reactâwater crashes around him, drenching his white shirt, dragging him under.
And for a brief, glorious secondâsilence.
Untilâ
His hand grabs your wrist. You yelp, but itâs too late.
He pulls you down with him.
Cold water engulfs you, shocking your senses.
When you resurface, gasping, furious, heâs already brushing his hair back, blinking at you through wet lashes.
And suddenlyâ
The playfulness is gone. The crowd has vanished. Thomas made sure of it.
And nowâitâs just you and him.
And for the first time tonightâheâs quiet. His voice is lower, slower.
"You storm into my house. Onto my estate. Into my party. And then..."
He gestures lazily toward the water.
"You throw me in my own fucking pool?"
You pant, teeth gritted. âYourâhouse? Great! Iâll leave you in your fucking houseââ
You turn to climb outâ
And he grabs you again. A firm grip. Unshaking.
His eyesâdarker now. Sharper. Focused.
"Make another move, cutie." His voice is dangerously low.
"And weâll have problems."
You glare. "Let. Go."
He doesnât. Insteadâhe pulls you closer.
âYouâre not walking away from this.â
Your pulse spikes.
"Rafayelâ"
"Do it," he whispers. "Say it to my face."
Your breath catches.
"You want to leave?" His hand slides to your waist, pulling you closer, forcing you to feel the heat radiating from his soaked body.
"Then say it."
Your hands shake. You flick water into his face, desperate to break the tension.
He doesnât even blink. Insteadâhis eyes drop.
To your clothes.
Soaked. Clinging. Revealing everything.
His pupils darken. And thenâhis jaw tightens.
"You left me for six days," he murmurs.
Your breath stutters.
"I left for work, not you, you hysterical maniac."
He tilts his head.
"Thatâs the same thing. And your phone?"
"A Wanderer shattered it!"
He lets out a sharp, bitter laugh.
"Ah, yes. And I suppose you were also too busy fighting for your life to send me one. Single. Fucking. Message?"
You exhale sharply. "Raf, youâre insufferable. A party? Seriously?"
"How else am I supposed to handle soul-crushing heartbreak?"
His voice drops.
"Tell me, cutie." His fingers skim your waist, trailing fire in their wake. "How else was I supposed to drown my suffering?"
He leans in, breath hot against your lips.
And thenâ
He kisses you. Desperate. Possessive.
Your legs wrap around his waist, instinct taking over.
His grip tightens.
"You threw me in a pool," he whispers against your lips.
"You deserved it."
His fingers dig into your hips.
"You waltz in after six days and justâthrow me?"
"Maybe I should throw you again."
He grins against your skin.
"I should make you pay for that."
"Rafâ"
"Mm. Shh."
His hands travel lower, pressing you harder against him.
Your breathing turns shallow.
"Your paintings," you murmur.
"Iâll paint more."
"You hated me for six days."
"Endlessly." He kisses your throat, voice dropping further.
"You didnât want to see me again?"
He grins against your collarbone.
"Try leaving me again, cutie."
His grip tightens, unshakable.
His breath is hot against your ear.
"And I promiseâ"
His hips press forward, slow and deliberate, sending a sharp jolt of heat through you.
"You wonât be able to walk for a week."
loyal to my man ~Xavier .... Life is delulu at this point and other fixations
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