Why do we fear stars?
They might seem all beautiful, glimmering dots
That light up the night sky but
Are they what they show they are?
Are they brightening up the dark sky or
Are they just reminding us of the past
Showcasing the passing and experiences of the millions of years ago.
They just remind us that we don’t lose our spark even after we combust.
(My first og post ... never put out my content or poems ever on internet .. so hopefully you guys like it ... [super secret - i used to be a wattpad writer] : > )
(hopefully i am gonna write and post over here .... )
Xavier had really done it now.
You were used to him disappearing for hours, for days, sometimes even for weeks, all with no contact. This time, he’d been gone a whole month. And you vowed, if he wasn’t already dead, you’d kill him. Or worse. You’d simply disappear yourself. See how he liked it.
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Xavier couldn’t find you.
At first, he thought you’d simply wandered off again. You had a tendency to be distracted by every street performer you heard, every afternoon market you passed by, every shop display you laid eyes on; any time there was anything that had life, that had shine, you were there, paying your time and attention to it. And he took great pride in being the only person who could find you, each and every time. Maybe you’d posted a picture of your coffee and he’d caught a glimpse of a partial store sign in the background. Maybe you’d mention that you were stuck in abnormally high traffic and he remembered a parade nearby. But either way, rain or shine, he’d find you, like it was always fate’s intention to have you back in his arms.
But not today.
Today, it’d been three hours, forty-six minutes, and seventeen seconds, and he still could not find you. He was getting desperate. He’d been gone for an entire month and had done nothing but imagine the glow in your eyes or the curve of your smile when you finally welcomed him home. He never imagined that maybe one day he’d come home and you wouldn’t be there.
He hoped he was just imagining things when he got a notice that your last transaction was a large withdrawal of cash; he prayed that there was still time for you to stumble through the doors, grinning sheepishly, as you admitted you’d caved and bought a farm, or something of the sort. But the clock ticked away, the sun set and rose and then set again, and you still weren’t home.
He lay on your bed, trying to will you into existence beside him, as he clung to the lingering scent of shampoo in your sheets. He stared up at the ceiling, letting his thoughts consume him, not bothering to get up even to humor his growling stomach.
Why had he stayed away so long? He couldn’t seem to remember now. There was always something for him to tend to, something that couldn’t wait, something that only he could do, but now, as he lay in your empty apartment, missing your warmth, missing your light, he wondered what it was that could’ve been so important that he couldn’t spare the time to check in and reassure you that he was okay. To reassure him that you were okay. And now he had no idea if you were even alive.
You wouldn’t answer his calls, you wouldn’t answer his texts. He wasn’t even sure you had your phone on you, because he couldn’t track your movements. What were you doing? Where were you going? What were you thinking? Were you mad at him? Of course you were mad at him. You always hated how he had a tendency to take on the world by himself, how he took risks no one else would take and carried burdens no one else would shoulder.
Wherever you were, however far you’d gone, he hoped that you were okay and that you still had room in your heart to forgive him. You were always forgiving him. Forgiving him for taking the last dumpling, forgiving him for oversleeping and missing your breakfast date, forgiving him for hiding his wounds from you. Of course, you gave your forgiveness in exchange for pinky promises of better behavior and bribery, but you’d always forgive him at the end of the day nonetheless. He wondered if you’d still forgive him now. Or if your forgiveness had an expiration date and he was just one month too late.
When a week passed and you still hadn’t contacted him, he started to lose his mind. He was used to being alone, from going on missions alone, to traveling the soundless, boundless expanse of deep space alone, with his thoughts as his only constant companion. But you were always at the end of that path. You were always where he was trying to go, who he was trying to save. And now he was completely without you. And he had no idea what to do with himself. He swore to himself that if he ever saw you again, he would never leave your side. He would plant himself beside you, breathe when you breathed, walk when you walked, and be no farther from you than your own shadow; it was decided. Now, if only you’d show up.
Frustrated by his own helplessness, he plopped down onto your couch, nestling himself among your many plushies. He looked at them for a moment, remembering the moment he’d won them all for you. You’d thrown your arms around his neck, beaming brightly, before declaring to everyone in the arcade that “Xavier’s the absolute BEST!” He smiled as he remembered the way he’d carried you in his arms like the bride he’d always intended for you to be, with the plushies sitting all snug on your stomach. Now he lay beside them, feeling a sense of loss.
“I’m an idiot, aren’t I?” He asked a nearby teddy bear.
He took the bear’s lack of response as a sign to continue. “I see now why she hates when I leave without her. This…this is terrible.”
The bear gazed on in what Xavier could only assume was sympathy.
Xavier sighed. “Do you think she hates me now?”
The bear remained silent.
Xavier slumped.
Then his phone beeped and nearly shattered the sound barrier. He’d been moping in silence all week and now that silence had finally been broken. He scrambled for his phone in an instant, almost dropping it in the process.
His screen only displayed one word: No.
He blinked at it. “No? What does that mean? No…you aren’t coming home? No, what?” He murmured to himself as he pondered the mysterious text.
Another beep. No, I don’t hate you.
His eyes widened. He looked down at the bear.
“You know something, don’t you?”
Silence.
Trying to hide his smile, Xavier then flopped back against the cushions, using his arm as a shield over his face before proclaiming, “It’s a shame that I have no way of communicating with Y/N. I was just thinking I’d make her favorite meal for dinner.”
No response.
Maybe she knew that despite his best intentions, whether it was her favorite or not, whether it was her kitchen or his, all his cooked meals had the same end result. Maybe it wasn’t enticing enough for her.
“I suppose I could just eat these plushies for dinner. There’s no one around to stop me if I just decided to chop them up into pieces and boil them into a stew.” He teased.
His phone beeped. You’re resorting to threats now?
He grinned at the bear, his eyes now finding the nanny camera that had been oh-so-carefully transplanted onto one of its buttons. “So, you coming home now?”
Are you sorry?
His eyes softened. “I am. Very sorry.”
You won’t do it again?
He scratched the back of his head sheepishly. “Well… I’ll do my best next-”
Xav. You won’t do it again. Or the next time I’m gone, it’ll be for much longer than a week.
He gave a resigned sigh before smiling again. “Alright, I won’t do it again. I won’t leave unless I talk with you first and I’ll take you with if I can.” He held his breath as he awaited your response.
The seconds felt like eons and the eons just reminded him of the space between the two of you. He wished he was holding you instead of clinging to your plushies for even a hint of your scent. He didn’t know what he’d do if you didn’t come home soon. If you didn’t answer him. If you didn’t forgive him.
Fine, good enough. But stay out of my kitchen; you set it on fire last time. I’ll make dinner.
He let out a breath of relief.
You were coming home at long last.
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✨ Xavier |❄️Zayne |🎨Rafayel |🐦⬛Sylus |🍎Caleb
Dad!Xavier falls asleep all the time on the play mats during tummy time. You have a lot of pictures of the two of them snoozing together, Xavier’s hand on the baby’s back to keep them safe.
Dad!Xavier can and will eat the baby’s food out of curiosity. I mean, it’s right there and he wants to know what the baby is eating. They like this weird peas and carrots mixture so it has to taste good, right? You’ve also definitely caught him stealing the baby’s unfinished cheerios.
Dad!Xavier likes to take the baby outside and sit with them under the stars. He loves the way the stars reflect in their eyes. He'll teach them about them when the baby is older.
Dad!Xavier always manages to put the baby down for bed easier than you do. You don’t know how he does it but they could be crying up a storm in your arms and the second he takes them, they’re out like a light. It always makes him smile.
Dad!Xavier spends hours in the rocking chair. He likes to hold the baby against his chest and just rock for hours. You’ve found them asleep like that.
Dad!Xavier likes to lay on the ground with the baby and just listen to them babble. He adds an encouraging word here or there but he just loves the sound of their voice. The baby loves the sound of his voice too, especially for bedtime stories.
Dad!Xavier sometimes gets a little jealous of the baby. He knows it’s silly but the baby has all your attention and he misses you sometimes. He mitigates this by stealing your attention while the baby is asleep.
Dad!Xavier is NOT a good cook. You still cook for the most part but he steps up by cleaning more. It’s not perfect since a child tends to cause a whirlwind of mess but you both try and that’s all you can really ask for from each other when you’re raising a baby.
vampire: My darling, my eternal flame, my heart's joy taken human form... you simply must drink water your blood tastes like shit.
— synopsis: you go to akso hospital to get your child their vaccine.
zayne was always the one to handle these things, but now that he's gone—
you don't know what to do.
— note/s: n/a
cross-posted on ao3! ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡
i.
“mommy, are we gonna see daddy?”
you freeze with your hand on the car door, your child’s small voice cutting clean through the dull hum of the engine. there’s a soft rustling sound as they shift in their car seat, wide eyes peering at you expectantly from the rearview mirror.
you swallow. “no, baby.” you keep your voice steady, soft. careful. “we’re just going to the hospital to get your shots.”
their face scrunches up. “but daddy always gives me my shots.”
your chest tightens, a sharp pressure beneath your ribs. “i know.”
you don’t tell them why it’s different this time. you don’t tell them why daddy isn’t coming home.
you climb into the driver’s seat and close the door. the seatbelt clicks into place, and you adjust the mirror. you breathe. in and out. your wedding ring catches the light as you grip the steering wheel. zayne’s ring sits cool and heavy against your collarbone, hanging from the delicate chain around your neck. you reach up and press it between your fingers.
“mommy?”
you glance back at them. “yeah?”
“daddy’s gonna be proud of me for being brave, right?”
you smile. it’s thin. it wobbles at the edges. “yeah, baby. he’s always proud of you.”
ii.
the hospital smells like disinfectant and stale coffee. you adjust your child on your hip as you stand at the reception desk, the too-bright fluorescent lights making you feel exposed.
the receptionist glances up. “can i help you?”
“um.” you hesitate. “my child has a vaccine appointment?”
the receptionist taps at the keyboard. “name?”
you give it. the receptionist hums and scans the screen.
“do you have the vaccination record?”
you open your mouth. close it. “uh… no. sorry.”
“that’s okay.” she types a few more things. “we can look it up. when was the last time your child got their MMR booster?”
your mind blanks. “uh… i don’t know.”
the receptionist raises an eyebrow.
“my husband usually handled that stuff,” you add quickly.
the receptionist looks up at you then, a flicker of recognition sparking behind her eyes. her gaze drops to your ring and then to the chain around your neck. her face softens. “dr. zayne?”
your throat tightens. “yeah.”
a pause. “i’m… sorry for your loss.”
you nod stiffly. “thanks.”
she glances toward the back. “do you want to sit down? i’ll have someone come get you soon.”
“yeah. okay.”
you settle into one of the plastic chairs in the waiting area, your child curling against your side. they tug at your sleeve. “mommy?”
“yeah?”
“do you think daddy would be proud of me if i don’t cry?”
you press your lips together and kiss the top of their head. “he’d be proud of you no matter what.”
iii.
the nurse who calls you in knows you, too. you see the flash of recognition in her eyes when she reads the file.
“you’re dr. zayne’s wife?”
“yeah.”
“i’m sorry for your loss.”
you manage a thin smile. “thanks.”
she looks at your child. “alright, sweetheart. ready for your shot?”
their hand curls around your sleeve. “is daddy gonna do it?”
the nurse’s expression falters.
you stroke their hair. “no, honey. daddy’s not here right now. but this nice nurse is going to take care of you.”
their lip wobbles. “but… what if it hurts?”
“it might,” you say softly. “but you’re brave, remember?”
their eyes shine. “like daddy?”
“just like daddy.”
the nurse smiles kindly. “alright, big kid. let’s get this over with.”
your child squeezes their eyes shut as the needle goes in, their hand clutching yours. they don’t cry.
when it’s over, they beam up at you. “i was brave!”
you stroke their cheek. “so brave.”
“daddy’s gonna be proud of me!”
the nurse’s gaze flickers toward you. you know what she’s thinking, but you don’t say anything.
“yeah, baby.” your voice shakes. “he’s so proud.”
iv.
you walk back through the hospital corridors, your child skipping at your side. your wedding ring feels heavier than usual on your finger. zayne’s ring presses cold against your chest.
the hallways are familiar. too familiar. you pass by rooms zayne used to work in, faces zayne used to know. they all look at you with soft eyes and hushed voices. you hate it.
your child’s hand tugs at yours. “can we get ice cream now?”
you smile faintly. “yeah. we can do that.”
they light up. “can i get chocolate?”
“of course.”
“and can we tell daddy that i was brave?”
you don’t answer right away. your hand closes around the ring at your neck.
“he already knows,” you say quietly.
you walk through the automatic doors, stepping into the sharp brightness of the afternoon sun.
I have the feeling that Xavier, Caleb and Sylus would be so into a chubby!mc/reader. I just KNOW it. Nothing's gonna change my mind about it 🤺🤺🤺
Xavier would be on the top of the list like, take a look at this dude, my boy needs some softness in his life. He's the type to be all over you all the time (not only in a sexual way), always hugging you or having an arm around or just touching you, he just adores how soft you are. When you guys have those rare days off, he spent most of the time with you, he absolutely adores when you let him lay his head on your lap as you play with his hair.
Caleb is a tease, he still respects most of your boundaries and knows there are things that is better not to mention, but that doesn't stop him from messing with his little and pretty pipsqueak. Caleb is touchy, both innocent and not so innocent ways. He likes to have a hand resting on your thighs and give a gentle squeeze, he likes the sensation of your soft skin beneath his touch. Whenever you're starting to get on his nerves or you start zoning out he tends to give a small pinch on you tummy (that bastard) because he knows that would get you back to the earth almost immediately. During winter, Caleb hands always find their way to rest between your thighs under the excuse of being too cold and that you are his perfect "warmer".
Oh, and he likes to leave marks... a lot of marks.
Sylus ....oh my beautiful Sylus. My mean would be so head over heels...
Sylus has seen a lot of beautiful things in his lifetime(s), jewelry, dresses, ornaments, man and woman by equal yet in his eyes, none of them were even close to you. For him you are the very personification of what a goddess should look like. He adores everything related to you, chubby cheeks, thick thighs, tummy rolls, you name it, he adores every inch of you and nothing would ever change that. He's a body worshiper by nature, you might think he wouldn't do such a thing with that personality and looks, but you're the only one who gets to see that side of him, to have him completely on his knees as he kiss his way up your body to your lips, whispering sweet words with every touch of his lips against your skin. Sylus adores to show you off, let everyone know he has the most beautiful and perfect person by his side, and they can only watch from afar. Since he knows that stores don't sell exactly "cute" clothes for chubby/plus size people, he takes matters into his own hands contacting one, if not, the best designer he could find to make all the pretty clothes you show him, in your size and even personalized if you want to. Oh and if the person refuses or ever tries to disrespect you....well, we all know what is going to happen to that poor unfortunate soul.
(i definitely don't have a favorite and I'm definitely not delusional)
“Break up with her.”
You froze. The voice came from behind the office door—firm, cold, and far too close to your worst fear.
You had come to pick Jinwoo up. You were tired after a dungeon run and just wanted to go home, curl into his arms, and let the day melt away. But as your hand reached for the doorknob, you heard the words that made your blood run cold.
“She’s not fit to stand beside you, Sung Jinwoo. She’s not enough.”
Your heart thudded painfully in your chest. You stood there, motionless, the voices inside the Korean Hunters Association office cutting through you like a blade. You knew they were talking about you. They never liked you to begin with. You were a strong A-rank hunter, the second most powerful female hunter in Korea—but you weren’t Cha Hae-In. And worse… they knew your secret.
You stepped away, footsteps silent as you retreated.
Later that night, Jinwoo lay behind you, his arm draped over your waist, his warmth pressing against your back. His lips ghosted over your shoulder in lazy, affectionate kisses.
“You’ve been quiet,” he murmured into your skin. “What’s going on in that pretty head of yours, baby?”
You sighed, holding his hand where it rested on your stomach.
“It’s not important. Focus on what matters right now.”
“You are what matters to me,” he whispered, burying himself further into the crook of your neck. “If something’s wrong, talk to me.”
You turned slightly, just enough to meet his eyes. “Have you met Hunter Cha Hae-In?”
He blinked, brushing your hair behind your ear with the gentlest touch.
“I’ve seen her. Once or twice. Why?”
“She’s beautiful. Strong. The directors talk about her a lot.” Your voice was quieter now. “I heard they’re looking for someone to pair her with.”
“I’ve heard the rumors too.”
His expression stiffened. You nodded, then turned your back to him again, pretending to fall asleep. He could feel your distress, but you weren’t ready to say it yet. You weren’t ready to let him go either.
You stared at the wall in silence, wishing time would stop—wishing this moment could stay a little longer before everything shattered.
“Hunter Sung, this is an important discussion. Please try to see reason—”
“I’m done listening.”
Jinwoo stood from the conference table, his voice laced with suppressed fury. His shadow flickered unnaturally beneath his feet.
“This is the third time this week you’ve told me to leave her. What makes you think my answer will change?”
“Because it’s not about love, Hunter Sung. It’s about responsibility. You have power no one else can even fathom. You need someone by your side who matches that. Someone who can create the next generation of protectors.”
Jinwoo’s aura exploded in the room. The lights flickered as shadows stretched unnaturally across the walls. Everyone went silent.
“Don’t speak to me about responsibilities when you’re the ones trying to manipulate my life like it’s a political chess game.”
He turned, grabbing the doorknob.
“I said no. And I mean it.”
That evening, he came home late. You were waiting for him at the door.
He didn’t speak at first. He just pulled you into his arms and kissed you—desperate, almost like he was trying to remind himself that you were still here, still his.
“I’m sorry I’m late… Did you eat anything yet?”
“No. I waited for you.”
His embrace felt like home—safe, familiar, everything you ever wanted. And that made it hurt even more… because while he held on like nothing was changing, you already knew everything was about to end.
The next day, you were called in.
A private meeting. One of the directors. You had a feeling you knew what it was about—but you still went.
You met at a discreet coffee shop, far from headquarters.
“Please, take a seat.”
You sat, heart hammering.
“What I’m about to say is in the best interest of everyone. Please understand this is bigger than you—or even Hunter Sung.”
You said nothing, your silence permission enough.
“Hunter Sung has a duty. He’s more than a person now—he’s a symbol. He needs someone equal to him. Someone who can support the next era of hunters. That person is not you.”
You stared blankly ahead, fists clenched beneath the table.
“You are infertile. You cannot bear a child. That already makes you incompatible. Hunter Cha is not only an S-rank—she’s a woman who can give him an heir. Someone who will inherit his strength. You… cannot.”
It felt like someone had taken a knife to your lungs.
“Break up with him. This week. That’s not a request. It’s an expectation. The safety of the world depends on it.”
And just like that, he stood and left you there—gutted.
‘We need to talk. I need you to come home right now.’ You texted him, heart pounding with the weight of what you were about to say.
You sat on the couch, arms wrapped around yourself, eyes locked on the packed suitcase by the door. You had already decided.
Jinwoo arrived, dropping his keys on the counter. He saw the bag. Then he saw your face.
“Baby… what’s wrong? You’re not okay, are you?”
He rushed to you, kneeling in front of the couch, cupping your face.
You didn’t kiss him back.
“I’ve heard everything, Jinwoo.”
His shoulders stiffened. His expression shifted from confusion to dread.
“No. Don’t say it.”
“Please…” you whispered. “Understand that this is for the best.”
“No.” He stood, pacing. “If you’re asking me to break up, I won’t. I love you, Y/N. I’ve fought everything to be with you. I won’t stop now.”
“I can’t give you what they want, Jinwoo.” Your voice cracked. “I can’t give you a future. I can’t give you a child.”
“We’ll adopt.” He was desperate now. “We’ll find a way. It doesn’t matter—”
“It does.” You stood, holding his hands. “They want a legacy. Someone who’ll inherit your strength. That can’t be me.”
“Then let them want! I only want you…” His voice broke, raw and ragged. “I don’t care about legacies. I care about you.”
“But I care about you enough to let you go.”
His grip on your hands tightened like he was trying to keep you from slipping away.
“Please,” he said, his voice shaking. “Don’t do this. Don’t choose them over me.”
“It’s not about choosing. It’s about doing what’s right.”
He turned away, trembling, swallowing back tears. “You were the only thing in this world that made me feel human again.”
“And you were the only thing that made me feel loved.” Your voice cracked as you stepped closer.
“The world needs you, Jinwoo. I’m not the one you’re meant to be with.” You kissed his forehead one last time, a trembling, silent goodbye.
“Goodbye, Jinwoo.”
You opened the door, not daring to look back—because if you did, you knew you wouldn’t have the strength to walk away.
“Was my love not enough?” His voice cracked behind you, barely audible. “Wasn’t it enough for you?”
You paused at the threshold.
“It was more than enough. That’s why it hurts.”
And then the door closed.
And he collapsed to his knees.
You didn’t look back as the door clicked shut behind you. Outside, the air was colder than it should’ve been. Maybe because you left everything warm behind. Maybe because you left your heart on the floor next to him.
Inside, Jinwoo remained still, his knees digging into the floor, your scent lingering like a ghost. His fists trembled as he stared at the door, hoping—praying—you’d come back. But the silence answered him louder than any goodbye ever could.
He let out a broken laugh through the tears.
“You said it was for the world,” he whispered to no one. “But you were my world.”
uhh, dazai loses his ability for a day so he can pet the big cat <3
(⚠️ Warning: Slightly angsty and dramatic) 🔥 UPD: Guys, I hear you loud and clear about Xavier, and I'm already working on his full story. Let me know if you want more about the others (or any specific one).
You don’t even make it home.
One second—you’re stepping toward your door. The next—you're grabbed.
A sharp yelp leaves your lips, but it’s already too late.
One hand clamps down on your shoulder, the other hooks around your legs, and suddenly—you're airborne.
"Cargo secured."
A second voice. Muffled. Hollow.
You twist wildly.
Two figures in black masks, sharp beaked visors, curved horns on their hoods.
Luke and Kieran.
You thrash. “Put me down—”
"No can do, Miss," Kieran hums, flipping you upside down just slightly.
"Our Boss gave very strict orders," Luke murmurs.
Your stomach sinks. The car door swings open—
And you’re shoved inside.
Kieran and Luke plop down beside you, silent as shadows.
Then—
Luke sighs. Long and exaggerated.
"Such a shame," he muses. "She was so pretty."
Kieran hums. "So full of life."
Your eyes narrow. “What.”
They tilt their heads in unison. Luke’s fingers drum against the seat.
"He was so worried."
Kieran exhales. "On the first day, he simply waited."
Luke nods. "Second day, he sent people out. Checked hospitals. Crime scenes."
Kieran’s head tilts. "By day three… well, we all knew something had to bleed."
Your stomach drops.
Luke stretches, relaxed. "Four syndicates fell in one night. Just in case one of them had you."
Kieran sighs. "On the fourth day, he realized that wasn’t enough."
Luke hums. "So he started getting creative."
Your breath hitches. "Creative?"
Kieran taps his chin. "That warehouse in N109 Zone? The one that burned to the ground?"
Luke leans closer. "Day five. Still no sign of you. He collapsed an entire district."
Kieran shrugs. "Nothing personal. Just a message."
Luke tilts his head. "And then day six came."
A beat of silence.
Kieran chuckles. "You know, Miss… If you hadn’t shown up today, N109 Zone would’ve been repainted in blood by sundown."
Luke sighs dreamily. "It still might be."
Your blood turns to ice.
And then—Luke’s head tilts toward you.
"Now…?"
Kieran completes it, a beat later.
"Now he has you."
The car slows. Your chest tightens. And then—you realize where you are.
N109 Zone. His estate.
The car door swings open—
And you’re hauled out like luggage.
"Handle with care," Luke hums.
“I am handling with care," Kieran murmurs.
They carry you inside. Set you down with eerie gentleness. Smooth out your jacket. Brush imaginary dust off your shoulders.
Then—they step back. Bow, deep and slow.
“Welcome home, Miss.”
And then—they’re gone.
You whirl after them. “HEY—”
A quiet sound.
Fabric rustling. A slow, deliberate exhale.
You freeze.
And then—you turn.
Sylus is standing across the room. Calm. Collected. Expression unreadable.
But his eyes. They burn.
You swallow.
“What the fuck was that?” you snap, motioning toward the door.
Silence.
He just… watches you.
Then—slowly, smoothly—
He shrugs off his jacket. Lets it fall onto the chair. His fingers move to his cuffs. Undoing them.
One. Then the other.
Rolling his sleeves up, inch by inch.
Your stomach twists.
“Sylus.”
He doesn’t answer. His hands move to his belt. He unbuckles it. Pulls it free.
And you—
You fucking run.
You BOLT.
Straight toward the door. It’s locked.
You curse.
Behind you—he clicks his tongue.
“Oh, Kitten,” he murmurs, voice low, almost amused.
You spin, darting behind the desk. He follows. Casually. Slowly.
“You disappear for six days,” he murmurs, voice smooth, mocking, deadly.
You sidestep. He matches you.
“You ignore my calls.”
You swerve left. He steps right.
“I tear this city apart looking for you.”
You dodge back. He adjusts effortlessly.
“And now,” he exhales, tilting his head, smirking lazily, “you’re running.”
You hurl a stapler at him. He catches it. Drops it. Sighs.
Then—his patience snaps.
A sharp pulse of red energy explodes outward. The desk flips. The chairs crash against the wall.
And suddenly—
You are out of places to run. Before you can move—
He has you.
A sharp yelp rips from your throat as he grabs you, spins, and drops into his chair—
Bringing you down over his lap.
Your breath catches. “Sylus—”
"Ah, ah, ah.”
His palm glides down your back. Teasing. Amused. Smug.
"You made a very poor choice, Kitten."
Your heart pounds. His fingers hook into your waistband. And in one sharp motion—
He pulls your pants down.
Your entire body jolts. “Wait—”
The first smack lands. Sharp. Stinging.
You jerk violently.
Then—the second.
Then—the third.
“Sylus—you absolute bastard!”
A low chuckle vibrates through his chest.
“Six days, Sweetie.”
Another smack.
“You think you get away with that?”
You snarl, thrashing. “You—I’ll kill you!”
"Oh?" His hand presses against your lower back, keeping you pinned.
Then—lower now, smooth as silk, dripping with mockery—
“You sure you can handle that right now?”
You growl.
And then—
You bite him. Hard. Right on the thigh.
His breath hitches. Then—a slow, dangerous laugh.
He grabs you. Turns you over, setting you between his legs, hands gripping your chin—forcing you to look at him.
And then—
You see it. The rage is gone.
And in its place—
Something raw. Something wrecked. Like he’s aged years in just six days.
His voice—when it comes—is low. Hoarse. Unsteady.
“…I thought Ever carved you up for spare parts.”
Your stomach drops.
"You really think," his fingers twitch against your skin, "I was just waiting?"
His eyes flick over your face, scanning, memorizing. And then—softer now, almost broken—
"If you hadn’t come back tomorrow, I would’ve wiped them off the face of the earth."
Your eyes sting. Your hands reach for him, trembling.
You slide forward, onto his lap.
His breath stutters.
And then—you kiss him. Hard. Desperate. Unyielding.
He shudders.
Then—his hands clench around your waist, crushing you to him. When he pulls back—forehead pressed against yours, breath uneven—
“…Next time you disappear,” he murmurs, lips brushing your cheek, voice shaking with something terrifyingly real, “I’m not looking for you.”
Your heart cracks. You shake your head. You cup his face. Hold him there.
“…You won’t have to.”
Silence.
Then—
His grip tightens. And just like that—
He is never letting you go again.
You already know where he is.
Zayne isn’t home. Of course, he isn’t.
So you do the only thing that makes sense—you head straight for Akso Hospital.
By the time you step through the pristine glass doors, you’re already talking.
“I know how this looks, but I can explain—”
And then—you see him.
Standing near the nurses’ station, uniform crisp, posture rigid, hands tucked into the pockets of his coat like he’s carved from ice.
For a second—just a second—his breath catches.
But then—
A switch flips. His entire presence shifts.
Cold. Professional. Untouchable.
His eyes meet yours. And he says nothing.
No relief. No anger. Nothing.
Just pure, hollow emptiness.
You swallow hard. Force yourself to continue.
“Zayne—”
“You need medical attention.”
His voice is calm. Impersonal. A doctor speaking to a patient. Not the man you know.
Your stomach twists.
He doesn’t ask where you’ve been. Doesn’t ask why you disappeared. Instead—he starts listing symptoms.
“You’re pale. Have you lost blood?”
You inhale sharply. “Zay—”
“Concussion?”
“No—”
“Fever? Infection?”
His eyes flick to your scraped knuckles, the dried blood on your sleeve.
And you realize—
He’s not angry. He’s protecting himself. He’s shutting down. Like he already convinced himself you weren’t coming back. Like he already mourned you.
And something inside you breaks.
Your legs wobble.
You sway—
And then—
You collapse.
The reaction is instantaneous.
A sharp inhale. A rush of movement. A sudden, firm grip catching you before you hit the ground.
Zayne’s arms lock around you. One around your back, one under your legs, holding you effortlessly. His breathing is uneven. His fingers tremble against your skin.
“Hey—!” His voice is no longer detached. It’s urgent. Terrified.
He tilts your face up, eyes scanning for injuries, pupils blown wide with panic.
"You—" His breath shudders. “Shit, you're—”
But you don’t answer. Because you keep your eyes closed. Because you know exactly what you’re doing.
And for a moment, it works. For a moment, he’s yours again. For a moment, his walls are completely, irreparably shattered.
Then—
His steps slow. His breathing evens.
And suddenly—
He stops. And you feel it. That one single, damning second of realization.
Your eyes are closed, but you can hear it. The sharp, cold click in his mind as he figures it out.
His arms loosen. Too loose. Too fast.
And suddenly—you're falling.
You gasp sharply, hands instinctively grabbing at him—
But he catches you at the last second, lowering you onto the cold, sterile floor of his office with just enough control to keep you from truly getting hurt.
But barely.
His jaw is tight. His nostrils flare. His hands press into his thighs like he’s physically holding himself back from losing control.
Then—flat, quiet, lethal—
“You lied.”
Your stomach drops. You open your mouth—and then you feel it.
A sharp, aching throb in your knee. It hits all at once—the pain, the exhaustion, the weight of everything that happened.
Your throat tightens.
And then—before you can stop it—
Tears prick at your eyes.
Your voice comes out small, weak, broken.
“Zayne… my leg hurts.”
Everything stops. The air in the room shifts.
And suddenly—
The rage is gone. His walls crumble.
His gaze snaps to your knee—swollen, bruised, torn fabric revealing skin already darkening with a deep, painful contusion.
And just like that—he’s on his knees. The doctor in him takes over.
His hands tremble as they press to your leg, fingertips ghosting over the bruised flesh like it physically pains him to touch.
He leans down. And presses a soft, lingering kiss to the bruised skin.
Your breath catches.
His forehead presses gently against your knee. And then—a whisper, barely audible, like he’s afraid of his own voice.
“…I lost you.”
Your heart cracks wide open.
He inhales sharply, his fingers tightening against your leg, like he’s still trying to convince himself you’re real.
You slide off the chair. Sink onto the cold, sterile floor. Your hands come up, cup his face.
His breath stutters.
You press your forehead to his.
Hot. Unwavering. Eternal.
“Only death could take me from you.”
His eyes squeeze shut. And when they open again—
There’s nothing left but raw, agonizing devotion.
Then—
His hands reach for you. And this time, he doesn’t let go.
The door clicks shut behind you.
Something feels wrong. The air is too still. Too perfectly controlled.
And then—you see it.
The chair.
Placed dead center in the room.
The apartment is spotless. Too spotless. Like someone scrubbed it raw, wiped away every trace of warmth, every sign of life.
Your stomach tightens. And then—a voice.
Cold. Measured. Absolute.
"Sit down."
You turn sharply—
And there he is.
Colonel Caleb. Not your Caleb.
Not the man who kisses your forehead every morning. Not the man who makes you breakfast even when he’s running on two hours of sleep.
No.
This is the soldier. The commander. The man who could level entire cities with a single order.
And you are his captive.
Your jaw tightens. “Caleb, what the hell—”
"Sit. Down."
Your spine stiffens. “No.”
A flick of his fingers. The chair scrapes forward, slamming into the back of your knees.
You stumble, cursing—
But before you can react—a force clamps around you. G-forces shift. Gravity bends. The chair drags you back to the center of the room.
Then—weight locks around your limbs. You can’t stand. Can’t move. Your pulse spikes.
His face is unreadable. His eyes—stormy, dark, endless.
Like he hasn’t slept in six days.
A tablet activates in his hand.
Several floating screens appear around you, flickering with surveillance footage.
And then—his interrogation begins.
His voice is calm. Clinical. Devoid of warmth.
"In the hours before your disappearance, this man entered your building. Do you know him?"
You blink. “What—?”
He gestures at the screen. A blurry security cam shot.
You squint. “That’s—a fucking courier.”
"Interesting."
A swipe of his fingers. Another screen appears.
"You placed an order at a bookstore six days ago. Three books were delivered. For what purpose?"
You stare. “...For reading?”
His brows twitch.
"Curious. You spoke to the courier for over five minutes. What was discussed?"
Your hands clench into fists. “How the hell would I know?”
A beat of silence.
Then—softer now, dangerous in its evenness—
"You really expect me to believe you don’t remember?"
Your blood boils. “Are you seriously doing this right now?”
He swipes again. More footage. More records. More evidence that means nothing.
And you snap.
"You are losing your fucking mind."
His jaw tightens.
And then—
The gravity releases.
You lurch forward, finally able to move—
But before you can get up—
he’s already there.
A single step. One hand gripping the back of your chair, tilting it back—
His face is inches from yours. His gaze burns.
"Are you fucking someone else?"
Your breath catches. Your pulse thunders in your ears.
And then—
You laugh.
Sharp. Bitter. Furious.
You gesture at yourself—the dirt, the bruises, the blood still crusted on your sleeve.
“Look at me, Caleb.”
He doesn’t move.
“Does this look like a woman having an affair?”
His fingers twitch against the chair. His voice drops to a whisper.
"I’m on the edge of it."
Your chest tightens.
“I don’t doubt that, you psychopath.” You shove against his arm, but he doesn’t budge. “Now let me up so I can strangle you.”
His fingers loosen.
And then—
"Six days."
Your breath hitches. His hand moves. Curls around your jaw, firm but careful.
"Six days. Eight thousand six hundred forty minutes."
His thumb brushes over your cheekbone.
"I couldn't breathe without pain."
Your throat tightens. Your rage collapses into something else entirely.
“Caleb—”
"I searched. I traced every lead. I turned this country inside out."
His voice wavers.
And then—softer, rawer, almost desperate—
"If you hadn’t come back, I would have burned everything to the ground."
Your chest aches.
“…I had a mission. It was classified.”
His jaw twitches.
"Then tell me—" His voice turns sharp, edged with something almost pleading. "Tell me you weren’t running."
You exhale shakily.
“You’re so obsessed with losing me, Caleb—maybe that’s why you always do.”
Silence.
Something in his face breaks. He straightens. Turns away.
Leaves.
The door slams.
And you collapse to your knees. Your hands come up—cover your face—
And finally, finally, the tears fall.
But then—
A soft creak. A shift in the air. Warmth.
Arms wrapping around you, pulling you into a crushing embrace.
You freeze.
His voice is hoarse, quiet, trembling with something raw.
"You’re the only one who can destroy me without lifting a hand."
Your breath shudders. His grip tightens.
"One word from you," he murmurs, "and I’m gone."
You shake your head.
“Caleb…”
His forehead presses against your shoulder.
"I tried. Every day. Every second. I tried not to hold on too tight." He exhales shakily. "But I can’t."
Your heart clenches.
“Caleb, I always come back.”
He flinches.
You pull back just enough to cup his face. His eyes are stormy, desperate, flickering with pain.
"You have to trust me."
His lips part, but no sound comes out.
Then—barely above a whisper—
"I can't lose you."
Your fingers tighten against his jaw.
"You won’t."
Silence.
Then—
He kisses you.
It’s not gentle. It’s desperate. Devouring. Starved.
His hands tangle in your hair, holding you to him like he’ll die if you pull away.
A single tear escapes down his cheek. And you catch it with your lips.
“…I’m sorry,” you whisper. “Caleb, I’m so sorry.”
His breath shudders. He shakes his head.
“No.” His voice breaks. "You don’t apologize to me."
Your brows furrow. “Caleb—”
He swallows.
"If you’re better off without me—"
Your hand flies up, slaps over his mouth. He freezes. Tears well in your eyes.
“Don’t. Say. That.” His chest rises sharply. You lean in, press your forehead to his.
“…You are my universe,” you whisper.
His hands shake against your back.
“No matter what we do, no matter what happens—” You press your lips to his, slow, deep, endless. “I will always come back to you.”
His breath shudders against your lips.
And then—his voice drops, quiet but unshakable.
"You will never disappear on me again without warning. Not now. Not ever."
The door clicks shut behind you.
You barely take a step inside before a voice cuts through the air—
Calm. Measured. Unshakable.
"Ah." A quiet exhale. "Look who finally remembered they have a home."
You freeze.
Xavier is already there.
Sitting in the living room, one leg crossed over the other, a book balanced in his hand—like your sudden reappearance was nothing more than an interesting plot twist.
He doesn’t look up immediately. He finishes the sentence he’s reading first.
Then—calmly, unhurriedly—he turns the page.
And finally—his gaze lifts to yours.
Cold. Slow. Too calculating.
"Six days."
Your stomach tightens. "Xav—"
"Mm. No." He holds up a single finger.
The room falls silent. And somehow, that’s worse.
You watch as he closes the book. Carefully. Precisely. Then—without breaking eye contact—he sets it aside.
And then—a small smile.
Soft. Almost friendly.
Which means you’re in deep, deep trouble.
"You look tired," he murmurs, tilting his head. "Traveling, were you?"
You exhale. "Xavier—"
"Oh, no. Let me guess." His fingers tap idly against the armrest. "You were simply busy."
A pause.
"Too busy, in fact, to answer a single message."
Your jaw tightens. "It wasn’t—"
"Ah," he interrupts softly, as if realizing something.
His eyes flick over your torn sleeve, the faint bruises on your arms. Then, slowly—he smiles.
"Or," he murmurs, "did you lose your phone again?"
Your stomach drops. Because he knows.
You inhale sharply. "Xav—"
He shakes his head.
"No, it’s alright. I understand." He leans forward slightly, resting his chin against his knuckles. "I’m sure you had an excellent reason."
A beat of silence. Then—mild amusement, carefully laced with steel:
"Would you like to tell me what it was?"
You hesitate.
Because you were on a mission. A classified one.
Because he wasn’t supposed to know. Because you work together.
And yet—he knew nothing.
You try anyway.
"I had a—"
"A mission?" His brow lifts, a polite flicker of curiosity. "Fascinating."
His tone is smooth, unbothered. And that—that is when you know how angry he really is.
He gestures vaguely toward the stacks of reports on the table.
"Tell me, darling, which mission was it?"
You swallow hard. "I can’t—"
"Mm. Right. Classified."
Another small nod. A slow, deliberate blink.
"As are all major operations within the Association."
His fingers drum lightly against the armrest.
"And yet, strangely—" He tilts his head. "Not a single record of your assignment exists."
You say nothing.
Xavier exhales through his nose—almost disappointed.
"And here I thought," he murmurs, "we were supposed to trust each other."
You flinch.
His gaze softens. Not with kindness. But with something far worse.
Pity.
"You must have had your reasons, of course," he muses.
A small sigh, like he’s humoring a child.
"I imagine you thought it was necessary. Sensible, even."
His fingers lace together.
"Just as I found it necessary to send out a search party on day three."
Your breath catches.
"You what?"
He hums.
"By day four, I expanded my resources. You'd be surprised how quickly information spreads when you know where to look."
Your hands clench.
"Xavier—"
"Day five, I began considering alternative outcomes. Some of them, admittedly, rather unpleasant."
A flicker of something colder in his expression.
"Ever been forced to sit in a room full of people trying to convince you that your partner is dead?"
Your stomach turns.
"Xavier, I wasn’t—"
He clicks his tongue.
"Day six, I received word that you had finally resurfaced."
He leans back. Folds his arms. And then—a soft chuckle, utterly humorless.
"Imagine my relief."
Silence.
You exhale sharply. "Xav, I—"
"Did you know," he interrupts, voice light, conversational, detached, "that people tend to avoid looking a grieving man in the eye?"
Your throat tightens.
"Not that I was grieving, of course." He taps a finger against his chin. "I don’t make a habit of mourning people until I see a body."
He tilts his head slightly, studying you.
"But I imagine it must have been quite the inconvenience, being dead for six days."
Your chest tightens.
"You think I wanted to—"
"Oh, I know," he murmurs. "You didn’t want to disappear."
His voice lowers.
"But you still did."
And for the first time—he is no longer smirking. His blue eyes bore into yours, steady, sharp.
"You made a decision that left me in the dark."
A long, slow breath.
"And I need to know," he says softly, "if you would do it again."
Silence.
You don’t have an answer. You don’t think there is one.
He exhales.
Finally, he leans back. Gazes at you for a moment longer.
Then, calmly—he stands. Smooth. Effortless. Precise. And then—he walks past you.
Your heart slams against your ribs.
"Xavier—"
He doesn’t stop. You push to your feet.
"Xavier, you’re coming back, right?"
Finally—he pauses. Turns his head, just slightly.
And then—
"Ask me again in six days."
The door closes behind him. And this time—you’re the one left behind.
You are exhausted.
Every part of you aches. Your body demands sleep, warmth, peace.
Instead—
You come home to chaos.
Loud music. Laughter. The scent of wine, perfume, candle wax, and indulgence.
And then—the sight of him.
Rafayel.
Lounging near the pool, half-leaning against an ornate chair, a glass of red wine dangling lazily between his fingers.
His shirt is unbuttoned just enough to hint at toned muscle beneath, his sleeves rolled up, his perfectly tousled hair falling over his forehead in an effortlessly careless way.
And surrounding him—beautiful women.
Drinking, laughing, leaning toward him like he’s some fallen deity of temptation and excess.
Your stomach twists. A tight, burning rage coils in your chest.
And then—
He sees you. His eyes widen—just slightly. And then—a slow, almost lazy smirk.
"Ah." He lifts his glass dramatically, tone dripping with sarcasm. "Look who's finally returned!"
You tense.
He rises to his feet, arms spread as if welcoming royalty.
"My muse. My inspiration."
His voice carries over the music, over the murmurs of people starting to notice the tension.
"The very heart of my art!"
A sweeping gesture.
And then—
He motions toward the canvas-lined walls.
Your breath catches. Because they’re all of you. Dozens of paintings.
But—ruined.
Slashes through the canvas.
Paint smeared and splattered over your likeness like an artist in rage, in agony, in heartbreak.
The fury in you erupts. Your voice cuts through the music.
"What the actual fuck is this?!"
He gasps, mock scandalized.
"Oh, you don’t like them? What a tragedy!"
He downs the rest of his wine in one smooth gulp, tossing the glass aside with a careless flick of his wrist.
Then—he grins.
Crooked. Reckless. Infuriating.
"And here I was, drowning in sorrow, channeling my unbearable suffering into art."
A sigh.
"But alas." He shrugs dramatically. "Seems the muse herself has returned."
You march toward him. He tilts his head.
"Careful, cutie. You seem upset."
"You’re a fucking disaster."
He laughs.
"You’re six days late to that realization."
You grab his wrist, yanking him toward the exit.
“We’re talking. Now.”
His body moves, but his feet don’t follow. Instead—he pulls against your grip.
His smile widens.
"Oh?" His voice drips with amusement. "Dragging me away already? Jealous, cutie?"
Your jaw clenches.
"This is pathetic."
Another laugh, lighter this time.
"Ah, but it was all I had!" He places a hand over his heart. Theatrical. Overdramatic. Perfectly insufferable.
You snap.
And shove him into the pool.
He barely has time to react—water crashes around him, drenching his white shirt, dragging him under.
And for a brief, glorious second—silence.
Until—
His hand grabs your wrist. You yelp, but it’s too late.
He pulls you down with him.
Cold water engulfs you, shocking your senses.
When you resurface, gasping, furious, he’s already brushing his hair back, blinking at you through wet lashes.
And suddenly—
The playfulness is gone. The crowd has vanished. Thomas made sure of it.
And now—it’s just you and him.
And for the first time tonight—he’s quiet. His voice is lower, slower.
"You storm into my house. Onto my estate. Into my party. And then..."
He gestures lazily toward the water.
"You throw me in my own fucking pool?"
You pant, teeth gritted. “Your—house? Great! I’ll leave you in your fucking house—”
You turn to climb out—
And he grabs you again. A firm grip. Unshaking.
His eyes—darker now. Sharper. Focused.
"Make another move, cutie." His voice is dangerously low.
"And we’ll have problems."
You glare. "Let. Go."
He doesn’t. Instead—he pulls you closer.
“You’re not walking away from this.”
Your pulse spikes.
"Rafayel—"
"Do it," he whispers. "Say it to my face."
Your breath catches.
"You want to leave?" His hand slides to your waist, pulling you closer, forcing you to feel the heat radiating from his soaked body.
"Then say it."
Your hands shake. You flick water into his face, desperate to break the tension.
He doesn’t even blink. Instead—his eyes drop.
To your clothes.
Soaked. Clinging. Revealing everything.
His pupils darken. And then—his jaw tightens.
"You left me for six days," he murmurs.
Your breath stutters.
"I left for work, not you, you hysterical maniac."
He tilts his head.
"That’s the same thing. And your phone?"
"A Wanderer shattered it!"
He lets out a sharp, bitter laugh.
"Ah, yes. And I suppose you were also too busy fighting for your life to send me one. Single. Fucking. Message?"
You exhale sharply. "Raf, you’re insufferable. A party? Seriously?"
"How else am I supposed to handle soul-crushing heartbreak?"
His voice drops.
"Tell me, cutie." His fingers skim your waist, trailing fire in their wake. "How else was I supposed to drown my suffering?"
He leans in, breath hot against your lips.
And then—
He kisses you. Desperate. Possessive.
Your legs wrap around his waist, instinct taking over.
His grip tightens.
"You threw me in a pool," he whispers against your lips.
"You deserved it."
His fingers dig into your hips.
"You waltz in after six days and just—throw me?"
"Maybe I should throw you again."
He grins against your skin.
"I should make you pay for that."
"Raf—"
"Mm. Shh."
His hands travel lower, pressing you harder against him.
Your breathing turns shallow.
"Your paintings," you murmur.
"I’ll paint more."
"You hated me for six days."
"Endlessly." He kisses your throat, voice dropping further.
"You didn’t want to see me again?"
He grins against your collarbone.
"Try leaving me again, cutie."
His grip tightens, unshakable.
His breath is hot against your ear.
"And I promise—"
His hips press forward, slow and deliberate, sending a sharp jolt of heat through you.
"You won’t be able to walk for a week."
my babyyyy! 😣 look at him sulking and pouting😭🤍
full credit to artist: @fishbone0306 on X!
loyal to my man ~Xavier .... Life is delulu at this point and other fixations
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