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Currently working on the next chapter right now but since everyone's been saying Bunny should just hit Rafe with her car already... ?
Well just imagine Bunny leaving the country club one day after work, and she's just not in the mood. She had get on her hands and knees to clean up baby vomit even though the family weren't even one of her tables and no matter how many times she washed her hands she feels like she can still smell the pungent scent on her skin. To add to that, Sofia wasn't in today so she ate lunch all by herself in the staff locker rooms.
Her feet ache, her uniform feels like itâs clinging to her skin in all the wrong places, and now all she wants is to go home, take a shower hot enough to melt her skin off, and pass out. But of course, because the universe hates her, she hears his voice.
âHey waitress!â
Her jaw clenches before she even looks up, her pace quickening as she weaves between the parked cars. Sheâs not in the mood for this. âMaybank!â Rafe calls again, his voice carrying easily over the pavement.
âHey! Iâm talking to you, Pogue!â
She exhales sharply through her nose. Ignore him. Heâll get bored.eventually. Well she hoped he will, but then there are footsteps, and she knows heâs coming closer still calling out her name, and before she can help it, she bites back at him.
âYeah I can hear your fucking nagging voice.â
Rafe just grins, clearly amused, and sheâs already regretting acknowledging him. She reaches her car, yanking the handle, but before she can climb in, Rafeâs hand slaps against the door, pushing it shut again and she just folds her arms staring at him unimpressed.
âWhere you goinâ?â
He asks, head tilting like he genuinely wants to know. But her best guess is he's wondering if she's going to the club- so he can follow after her and torment her there instead. Y/N lets out a slow breath through her nose before levelling him with a look.
âHome.â
She replies flatly, hand coming out to yank the door open harshly and he just takes a step back hands raising in mock defeat. Rafe just hums now, the corner of his mouth twitching like heâs fighting a smirk.
âWow. Moody much?â
Y/N slides into her car and slams the door shut, hands gripping the wheel so tightly her knuckles pale. She doesnât even look at him as she starts the engine, the low hum filling the silence between them. However, she can still hear him through the crack in her window.
âYou going to the club?â
She keeps her gaze ahead, jaw clenching. There it is. She didn't have to be a genius to know he was going to ask her that, after all she hadn't been at the club for a few days and she remembers getting a message from Bambi about how her 'boy toy is getting impatient' She lets out a small sigh, assuming he'll just let it go but of course, Rafe Cameron doesnât let stuff go.
âHey.â
A loud thud shakes her car as his palm slaps down on the roof. Y/N jumps slightly, brows furrowing in agitation as she whips her head toward him. He leans down just enough to look at her through the window.
âDonât ignore me when Iâm speaking to you.â
She scoffs, shaking her head as she shifts gears. Fuck this. Yet before she can even think about pulling out, Rafe is moving, stepping around the front of her car until heâs standing right in front of it. Her hands tighten around the wheel once more. Now he just stands there, arms crossed, looking at her with that smug little smirk like heâs got all the time in the world. Y/N stares back at him through the windshield in disbelief. Has he got nothing better to do? So now she rolls down her window, the mechanism groaning as she leans out slightly.
âMove"
Rafe doesnât even flinch. He shifts his weight slightly, arms still crossed over his chest as he tilts his head at her, a slow smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. âNah,â he drawls.
âI think Iâm pretty comfy here, actually.â
âRafe, Iâm not playing. Get out of my way, I swear to Godââ
Her glare is sharp enough to cut glass and her palms are getting sore from how hard she's holding onto the wheel. He cuts her off, stepping forward just enough that his hands rest on the hood of her car. âOr what, huh?â Heâs taunting her now, head tilted, gaze locked onto hers.
âYou gonna run me over?â
Y/Nâs nostrils flare. Sheâs this close to actually considering it. Instead, her lips press into a thin line before her hand slams down on the horn. The deafening sound screeches through the parking lot, a piercing, relentless noise that makes even her ears ring. A few birds scatter from a nearby tree. Some people turn their heads. Even Rafe's brows twitch up slightly in surprise.
But he doesnât move.
Of course, he doesnât fucking move.
Y/N inhales sharply through her nose, forcing herself to take a deep breath because she genuinely feels like she might pass out from sheer hatred. Her teeth grind against each other, eyes narrowing as she grips the gear shift and smoothly switches it into drive. She doesnât hesitate. The car lurches forward and Rafeâs body instinctively jerks back a step, his brows snapping together. He spits, his hands bracing against the hood now.
âThe fuck?!â
âFucking moveâ
She grits out, her patience hanging on by a thread. But heâs as stubborn as ever, stance firm, eyes narrowed right back at her.
âNo.â
Her fingers flex against the steering wheel, her heart hammering with irritation. Fine. He wants to be difficult? So be it. She jerks the car forward again, this time stopping just centimetres away from his knees. The movement is sharp, precise, and just reckless enough to have his eyes widening slightly.
âYouâre fucking insaneâ
He exclaims, finally stepping out of the way, hands held up to the car as if she might actually floor it. Y/N lets out a humorless laugh.
âOh yeah? You donât say.â
She doesnât even look at him as she drives right past him, her grip on the wheel now loosening. And as she passes, she lifts one hand, flicking her middle finger out of the open window directly at him. Behind her, Rafeâs voice rings out in an irritated yell,
âPsycho bitch!
She deffo would completely run him over if there were no witnesses đ€«
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summary: Harry gets the memory book you and James made for him to open on his 17th birthday, but he gets it a little sooner, and discovers things about the family he could have had. (angst/fluff) wc: 2.8k
Sirius didnât know if it was the time to give Harry the memory book. The gift youâd planned on building until Harry was 17, when youâd finally give it to him. At Jamesâs bachelor party â a small gathering between him, Sirius, Frank Longbottom and the Prewett twins (You had claimed Remus for your bachelorette), James had excitedly revealed what youâd told him. âShe said, I want to start collecting all our memories from when we started dating to make a memory book. A memory book that we can keep making until our future baby is an adult, and then weâll give it to him.â The boys had all cheered, giving James a few pats on the back. âSo apparently she wants us to have a son, and I know exactly what I want to name him.â He had joyfully laughed along with the others, refusing to reveal the name of his future boy, claiming that itâs somehow bad luck.
Now that Harry was actually here at Grimmauld Place, even at the age of 15, Sirius knew he had to give him the book. Sirius knew Harry was insecure, doubting that anyone loved him at all, and especially facing such dark times, he knew Harry could use the love of his parents, a love that had saved his life once before.
Harry was a wanderer, he couldnât sleep at night, so Sirius was not surprised to find him in his familyâs make shift library, scanning through all the outdated titles. Sirius made himself known by clearing his throat from where he stood in the doorway. Harry jumped, spinning around to look at Sirius, who held the memory book in his right hand. Harryâs godfather told him to follow him to a private room, one with a pensieve he hadnât seen before. âThis is from your parents. They wanted to give it to you when you became an adult, but given the circumstancesâŠâ Sirius averted his teary gaze as Harry took the book in his hands, flicking through the pages, his breath becoming heavier as he caught glimpses of moving images in the book.
âEach and every memory⊠Just donât forget to put them back.â And with that, a teary eyed Sirius left Harry alone. When Harry properly opened the first page of the photo book, he found small tubes with glimmering memories next to each photo. His breath shook. He looked at the first picture.
The first image of you and James had been taken from afar, as though someone had been spying on you. When he released the memory into the pensieve below, he quickly learned that Sirius and Remus had been the ones spying on you, on your first date. Harry had laughed, listening to Sirius constantly narrating everything to a muggle camera he held, watching as he and Remus quickly ran behind people to avoid being seen by you. Harry quickly learned through these memories that not every memory would make him laugh, and that he would actually shed a few more tears than intended.
This next memory was different than all the other celebrations â the anniversaries, the weddings â Harry realised, as he watched you nervously tuck your hair behind your ear. You were in the kitchen of the house you and James had just moved into. It wasnât decorated yet, with the exception of a single image of you and James on your wedding day. Your entire house was barely furnished, with James taking on all the building due to the growing baby in your belly. Harry jumped up on the counter to watch the scene in front of him unfold. You had a worried crease between your eyebrows, and you leaned back on the counter, staring at the warm batch of cookies you had baked. James walked in front of you with a smile, his arms sliding under your sweater to rest on your small bump â one Harry hadnât realised was present until James brought it to his attention. Harry hopped off the counter, taking slow steps towards you to admire your baby bump. He tried reaching out to touch it, but his hand went right through you.
âWhat if they say no James, what if they donât want to?â You asked worriedly, looking up at James. âBaby,â James started with a chuckle, âTheyâre going to be the most excited people on earth.â You huffed doubtfully, a small pout on your lips that James happily pressed his lips to. âJames.â You muttered, but before your new husband could reply, the front door slammed open. âHoney, Iâm home!â Sirius loudly called, causing you and James to laugh, though you had clear distress laced in your voice. âI really donât know why we keep apparating outside your front door when we just end up barging in anyway.â Sirius announced as he walked into the kitchen. âOh hey, cookies!ââI for one, suggested to knock.â Clarified Remus as he followed his boyfriend into the room. James moved from where he stood in front of you so that your best friends could see you.
James tutted, snatching the plate of freshly bakes cookies from the table just as Sirius reached out to take one, causing the boy to frown. âIn the living room.â The two boys went silent, Sirius running a hand through his hair as Remus nervously tugged on the sleeves of his sweater. James gestured to the door, letting the boys wander out so that he could wrap his free arm around your waist, tugging you close to his side to kiss your cheek.
Harry eagerly followed you all into the living room, which he noticed looked painfully bare. It looked like something that was becoming a familyâs first home, though it wasn't quite there yet. There were so many pictures laid out on the coffee table, empty picture frames stacked beside them. In a corner of the room, tools were scattered on the floor, wooden parts and instructions beside them. Harry theorised that it might be a crib in the making.
âOkay, sit down, have a cookie.â You said, hands clasped in front of you. You took in a deep breath as Remus and Sirius both cautiously reached for a cookie, watching as James hugged you from behind, his hands snaking around your waist to rest on your stomach. He glanced at you from the corner of his eye, and decided to take initiative when you opened and closed your mouth a couple of times. âSo you guys know weâre having a baby.â The two boys nodded, and Harry watched closely as Sirius put a hand on Remusâs thigh. âWe want you guys to be the godparents!â You squeaked loudly, physically cringing as you revealed the information.
âShut up!â Sirius screamed, immediately jumping up on his feet with a giant smile on his face as he ran up to hug you. James threw his hands up in the air jealously, watching his best friend hug his wife, and accepting the hug Remus offered him. âThis is what you baked cookies for?â Remus asked with a smile when he let go of James to wrap his arms around you tightly. You nodded, tears filling your eyes, and Remus pulled you close to his chest as you sniffled. âSo is that a yes?â Your question was immediately answered by the two boys, with Sirius saying âThis calls for drinks!â before apologising profusely as he immediately realised that you could, in fact, not drink. This time when you laughed at his words, it was genuine.
Harry was smiling widely, desperate to join in on the shared hugs when he took notice of the lump in his throat that made it hard to swallow. Not wanting to cry, the teenager left the memory, returning it to its glass tube before putting the next one in the pensieve.
This time, Harry is somewhere new. Somewhere heâs never been before. A warm house, with a similar atmosphere to the Burrow. Thereâs bustling energy, and a special kind of joy in the air. The only person Harry recognises in the room is Sirius, who leads a woman into the living room of the house with an arm familiarly thrown over her shoulder. The woman looks like someone he knows, but he canât tell who. Itâs only when the mysterious woman is led towards an unknown man that it clicks for Harry. His father is the spitting image of the man in front of him, and therefore, so is he. âOh Euphemia, I canât believe weâre meeting our grandbaby.â The man says, hugging his wife tightly. The pair doesnât look nearly old enough to have grandchildren, they barely look like theyâre in their 40s. Someone comes in from the garden door, saying âIâve picked the apples for you Mrs. Potter, is there anything else I can do?â But she only thanks Remus, who's wrapped in countless warm layers of clothing, asking him to put the apples in the kitchen.
Thereâs two soft knocks on the front door, and the entire room goes silent as Jamesâs parents rush to open the door. James shyly smiles at them, his arm protectively wrapped around your side. Euphemia immediately bursts into tears when her eyes land on you and your newborn baby, only a few days old. Fleamont wraps his arms around his son, who instantly begins crying like his mother, and Remus ushers you into the house, closing the door behind you to protect you from the chilly weather. Euphemia wants to hug you, but she's too busy wiping her tears away as she asks questions about your health and delivery, making sure youâre okay. You nudge your husbandâs side, and he happily takes Harry from your arms, showing him off to the other three men in the room.
Euphemia hugs you tightly before leading you to sit down and instantly handing you some tea. She lets the men rave over the little baby boy, but sheâs concerned for the new mother's health. It doesnât take long for James to come back to your side carrying Harry in his arms, and he takes his motherâs place next to you on the couch. He doesnât let anyone hold Harry, too happy to finally be able to hold him himself after you've spent nine months doing so. Present Harry walks across the room, between Sirius and his grandfather, over the gifts on the floor and past his beautiful grandmother to sit on the arm of the couch next to you. He looks at his young sleeping figure, only born days ago, and knows how much he is loved. By his parents, grandparents, godparents, and all your friends and family.
And he knows itâs too much. All Harry ever wanted was for his parents to be alive, and the thought of the life he could be living with them right now makes him feel as though his heart has been ripped out of his chest. He would do anything to be back in that position again: in his parentsâ arms, a joyful family around him. He didnât even need his grandparents there; you two would have been enough.
Harry needs to take a moment for himself when he finally breaks away from his memory. He leans on a table for support, taking in heaving breaths as he sobs and sobs, tears dripping on the ground. The small glass tube containing the memory rolls onto the floor and Harry dives to catch it, holding it close to his chest as pain runs through his entire body. These memories should have made him happy, he thinks, so why do they hurt so much? Harry gasps for oxygen, trying to urge his panic and sadness away, trying to turn it into happiness for the things he had, for the love he still has. Slowly, he pushes himself off the ground, moving all the way to the last page of your memory book and taking out the corresponding tube.
When Harry is sucked into the pensieve again, the atmosphere has completely changed. Heâs located back at home again, in Godricâs Hollow, where you and James had built your forever home. The sole sight of the homey and safe atmosphere has tears clouding Harryâs vision again, but his feet bring him further down the entryway and into the living room of your house. The first thing Harry does is take in the sight of the decorated house, made to look like his very own heaven. The lighting is warm, photos of family and friends hung up on the wall next to the fireplace. The room is filled with plants, and a small crib was placed next to an armchair. And here you are: sat there with James on the couch, sharing a passionate kiss. The moment is intimate, with your legs tangled up and Jamesâs hand cupping your jaw, but Harry canât bring himself to look away from you. âJames.â He hears you mumble in the kiss, eyes fluttering open as you let Jamesâs familiarity envelop you. âMy sweetheart.â James echoes, his eyes still shut as he immerses himself in the moment.
Harry gulps loudly, harshly wiping a tear off his cheek as he watches his dadâs eyes slowly open, a wide smile forming on his face when he finds your eyes already on him. You laugh softly as your husband kisses you again, but you instantly pull away from him, eyes going wide with alert. Harry frowns, his expression matching his fatherâs, and thatâs he he hears it: the soft padding of feet on the floor, and a quiet call of âMama?â Harryâs eyes are instantly glued to his younger self, appearing around the corner on wobbly feet.
Your body runs past him in a flash, travelling across the living room on quick feet to kneel in front of your son. Young Harry makes grabby hands at you, and you immediately scoop him up in your arms, speaking to him in a soft whisper. âWhatâs wrong sweetheart? You hungry?â You ask, cradling him in your arms. Young Harry makes an incomprehensible noise, and Harry laughs in adoration. He has to be a year or two in this memory. Harry glances back to where James now stands up, walking over to his family, where he wraps his arms around both of you, placing a gentle kiss on your forehead.
âThink heâs hungry.â You tell your husband, who hums, leading you to the couch to sit down. James helps you pull your jumper up just enough for baby Harry to latch on to your breast, humming in innocent satisfaction. You smile down at him, running a hand through his soft short hair. James carefully wraps an arm around your shoulder, letting you rest your head on his shoulder as you blink tiredly. Harry stares at the perfect image of the family in front of him, and soon enough, realises heâs not the only one crying. James is sniffling next to you, taking in shaky breaths in a poor attempt not to disturb you or baby Harry. You lift your head off your husbandâs shoulder to look up at him, and smile lovingly at him, a hand lifting off the back of Harryâs head to wipe at Jamesâs tears. âJames.â You whisper, and he instantly opens his mouth, voice breaking as he says âI love you both so, so much.â And his words have a sob wracking out of present Harryâs chest.
He floats out of the memory just as you bring James into a short kiss, the sight of him being loved by his parents the last thing he sees before finding himself standing at the foot of the pensieve again. Harry shuts the memory book, closing his eyes tightly â itâs enough for one lonesome night. But something catches his attention as his hand rests on the back of the book. An odd texture under his fingertips, forming crevices into the leather. Harryâs eyes flutter open, and he notices a gold engraving into the book. Engravings that form letters, words. A note.
Dear Harry,
Youâre finally an adult!!! You can do anything you ever wanted, even without our permission. And move out if weâre too annoying sometimes, though that feels wrong to write with you sitting in front of us as a little baby boy. We just wanted you to know that no matter where you are, or what youâre doing, weâll always support you and be here for you. And not just us, everyone in this book, everyone who forms your family.
We love you so much Harry, and even though youâre all grown now, youâll always be our baby, just like in these first memories.
Love,
Mum and Dad
To say the least, Harry doesn't sleep that night.
Bunny (P13)
Rafe Cameron x Maybank!Reader
summary: Struggling to keep her and JJâs home afloat, Y/N turns to the only option that guarantees fast cash- stripping at a club on the Cut. But when Rafe Cameron catches her in the act, he sees the perfect opportunity to tighten his grip around her life.
a/n: Sorry for the cliff hanger guys- but here's the next bit and besides its not like I would leave it on a cliff hanger again- or would I..... ? heh
warnings: angst angst angst, violent behaviour, emotional distress, mentions of past trauma, alcohol, sad!rafe and sad!bunny, luke (he deserves a warning)
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The house was quiet and peaceful in a way that felt rare lately. Steam still curled faintly from the cracked bathroom door as Y/N padded barefoot through the hallway, the cotton hem of her oversized t-shirt brushing the tops of her thighs. It clung slightly to the damp warmth of her skin, fresh from the shower, the scent of vanilla soap still lingering on her. The shirt, one of her oldest and most worn-in, read 'Thereâs no place like the OBX!' in faded, peeling letters. The image of a cartoon sunset beneath the text was barely visible now, rubbed off from years of wear, but it was still her comfort shirt.
The evening had been calm. A rare exhale. She knew it was the right choice, not going to the party, instead choosing to stay at home. No JJ, no Rafe, no tension. Just her alone in the stillness of the house. She yawned softly as she made her way into the kitchen, the tiles cool under her feet. Her hand reached for the cabinet, grabbing a glass, then filled it halfway from the tap, the sound of water the only thing cutting through the silence.
Buzz. Buzz.
Her phone, face-down on the counter buzzed again. She frowned a little, setting the glass down with a small clink and reaching for it. When she turned it over, the lock screen was full, message after message.
Rafe
Rafe : Y/N m s sorry
Rafe : It was a mistake I didn mean iit
Rafe : Im sosorry forgive me
Rafe : Please it was ana ccident
Rafe : drunk an angry it just slipedout
She just stood there, blinking, bare feet rooted to the floor. What? Her thumb hovered over the screen as she scrolled back through the weird messages littering her screen, heart creeping higher into her throat. He hadnât replied to her at all yesterday left her on read after she asked him the question which had been hanging over both of them for a while now. He'd ignored every message she sent and now this? What the hell was he talking about, it made no sense. Her brows knit as she stared at the screen, glass forgotten on the counter as she held the phone in two hands her thumbs typing out; What are you talk-
BANG
The sound of the front door slamming open ricocheted through the house like a shotgun blast. The walls trembled and the floor vibrated slightly beneath her bare feet. Her whole body joltedâglass on the counter rattling dangerously. Her blood ran cold. She'd not seen her dad in a few days and the possibility of his presence was in her mind, whispered in fear, a lifetime of instinct kicking in. But before panic could really settle, the door slammed shut again, the echo bouncing off every wall like a threat. She turned sharply, heart hammering in her chest and then there he was-
JJ?
Standing in the doorway, chest heaving, shoulders tense and strung tight like he could burst. His face was a mess- nose bloodied, dried and smeared to one side, his lip split, a red flush blooming across his cheek. His blond hair was sticking up in every direction under his crooked cap, disheveled like heâd just been through a war. His clothes hung raggedly on his body almost as though his t-shirt had been stretched out, and he was breathing heavy like he ran the whole way here. His eyes locked onto hers furious, hurt.
Betrayed
He stood there, breath ragged in his chest, eyes locked on her like he didnât recognise the girl in front of him. Y/N stared back at him, frozen for a moment in the quiet hum of the kitchen. Her phone, still glowing with Rafeâs frantic texts, slipped from her fingers and landed back onto the counter with a soft thud. The sound felt loud in the silence. This was JJ, her kid brother who used to cry when he scraped his knees and she'd bandage them up pressing soft kisses over the bandaids. The boy she taught how to sneak out of the house quietly, her best friend since they were in diapers. Now he looked like someone she didnât know- bloodied, breathless, and storm-eyed. She took a step around the kitchen island, slow and cautious, like she was approaching a wounded animal. She asked gently, her voice threading with worry, hand outstretched, ready to go to him,
âAre you okay- â
â-were you pregnant?â
But JJâs voice sliced through the air before she could take another step and she stopped dead in her tracks. Silence crashed between them. Her hand, still halfway out, dropped to her side like a weight and her stomach churned at the words passing his lips.
âWhat?â
Her voice was almost inaudible. Caught between panic and confusion, her breath hitched. JJâs face twisted, all disbelief and frustration, and he took a harsh step forward, his voice louder now.
"Did you fucking get pregnant?"
Y/N blinked, wide-eyed, her lips parting like the words might comeâbut nothing did. Her body language screamed shock, but inside she was cracking open. Splitting down the middle. Her heart was racing now, mouth suddenly dry. âN-no,â she stammered, voice too quick and certainly too fragile.
âWhat-? No!â
But JJ wasnât buying it. He whipped his cap off his head as he raked a hand through his hair, exhaling hard as he turned in a quick, agitated circle, the movement jerky with disbelief. His fingers clenched in his hair before he let them drop and he barked outâ
âDonât LIE to me!â
The words exploded out of JJ like a gunshot, and with it, his hand came down hard crack against the edge of the kitchen table. The slap of skin on wood echoed through the house like a warning sound. Y/N jumped, her breath catching violently in her chest. Her whole body flinched, jerking backward instinctively. Eyes wide, pupils blown and her shoulders curled in slightly, like she'd just taken a hit without being touched. Her heart was pounding so loud in her ears it almost drowned everything else out. She felt cold suddenly, like the warmth of her post-shower calm had been ripped from her body in an instant. The oversized shirt clung to her damp skin, sticking uncomfortably as her breathing turned sharp and uneven âPregnant?â she echoed, voice airy and brittle. It sounded wrong in the space between them. Like the word didnât belong to her. Like she was trying to believe she didnât understand- trying to sell a lie even she couldnât swallow.
âWho told you this?â
And JJ- he looked like he could rip the whole room apart with his bare hands. She already knew the answer he was going to give her. But she needed to hear it. Needed to pray and cling onto the hope for some other name, any name notâ
âRafe Cameronâ
JJ said, voice full of venom. His jaw was clenched so tight it trembled, eyes burning into hers. And then she froze, like a statue carved from ice. Her chest stilled and her hands hung at her sides. There wasnât a flicker of movement. Rafe? She couldnât even blink, couldnât breathe at the sound his name.
He promised
Her fingers curled slightly in toward her palms and she felt like someone had just reached into her chest and squeezed.JJ saw it happen- the way her entire body stiffened, how her lips parted but no sound came. The way her eyes went glassy for just a second.He saw it all and it broke something within him. His voice cracked, a bitter sound ripping from his throat, full of raw betrayal and heartbreak as he whispered,
âOh my fucking god-â
â-no! No I didnât get pregnantâ
Y/N gasped out, voice cracking like thin glass. She shook her head rapidly, hands lifting uselessly in the air like she could physically push the truth away. But her voice was too high, too shaky. Her eyes were darting everywhere but his, and JJ saw right through her.
âI didnâtâJJ. I-"
â-why are you LYING to me!â
He shouted cutting her off, his voice thundering off the walls as his hands flew into the air in exasperation, then slammed back down at his sides. His eyes were wild, glassy with a cocktail of rage and betrayal.
âWhy the are you lying to me?!â
âJay, please justââ
She rushed, taking a few tentative steps toward him, palms out like she could soothe him with touch alone. Her voice wavered, desperate and pleading. But JJ backed up- away from her. âYou didnât even tell me,â he said bitterly, as if the words physically hurt to say. He let out a strangled scoff, pacing now, stumbling back a step.
âAnd Iâm your brother. Iâm your fucking brother Y/N.â
Her eyes welled. Her lips trembled because it was happening. Exactly what sheâd feared- her worst nightmare made real in their own kitchen, beneath the harsh light, peeling tiles and abandoned glass of water. âPlease,â she whispered again, voice breaking down completely now.
âJJ pleaseââ
But he was already unraveling- crashing out. He paced along the kitchen, dragging a hand down his face, his cap was long abandoned on the kitchen island as he dug his fingers into his hair and tugging like he needed to physically hold himself together. His mouth was hidden behind his hand now, muffling a harsh, trembling breath. He was doing everything he could not to lose it. But then, his hand lashed out and swept everything off the corner of the kitchen island. Bills, letters, receipts, all of it went crashing to the floor in a loud flurry of paper and crumpled envelopes.
âYou went to Rafe?â
He yelled, voice splintered and feral as he rounded on her again, pointing nowâ accusingly. His entire face contorted with disbelief, âYou went to Rafe Cameron for help?! The same piece of shit whoâs tormented us for years- whoâs ruined our lives- what the fuck is wrong with you?!â
His finger stabbed the air in her direction, jaw clenched so tight his teeth couldâve cracked. His breathing was loud, heavy. He looked like he was barely staying inside his own skin and Y/N snapped suddenly,
âDonât raise your voice at meâ
She bit out, her voice cutting sharp and fast, almost instinctive. Her chest was heaving now, flushed with fury and panic. Her hands were curled into fists at her sides as her eyes locked with his, finally locked with his. âYou have no fucking idea what Iâve been going through JJ. None of it,â she seethed, her voice shaking just beneath the surface, laced with pain that was months in the making.
âYou donât know how hard itâs been trying to make a decision I never asked for in the first place!â
And just like that, the kitchen went still. The broken silence crackled in the air between them like electricity after a lightning strike- both of them breathing hard, standing in the wreckage of papers, secrets, and everything they haven't said to each other in the past months. JJâs voice cracked on the question,
âWhy didnât you tell me?â
It wasnât loud anymore. It wasnât angry. It just⊠broke. Like something inside him had split clean down the middle. His arms, once tensed at his sides, dropped uselessly as his shoulders sagged. Like all the fight had drained out of him in one breath. Y/N stood stiff on the other the island opposite him, the space between them feeling wider than the whole room. Her breath hitched as her eyes dropped to the floor, shoulders curling inward like she was bracing for impact.
âJJ, I donât know, I justââ
âDo you not trust me?â
He asked, suddenly, voice low but guarded. She looked up fast, her eyes wide, lashes still wet. Her lips parted like she was about to speak but forgot how. Like sheâd been caught somewhere between guilt and fear. She said, voice tight, chest rising with a shaky inhale,
âThatâs not what this is about.â
âYes. Yes, it is what this is aboutââ
âI DO trust you!â
She burst out, loud and raw, like she couldnât hold it in anymore. Her hands shot out as if reaching for something she couldnât quite grasp. She was breathing fast now, visibly trembling, like the admission had cost her something. JJ stepped forward a half-step, hands curling into frustrated fists at his sides. His jaw clenched hard, eyes narrowed, flickering with that familiar mix of hurt and fury.
âWell you donât act like itâ
He said, bitter, almost defeated. He threw his hands up like he was done trying to understand. âJesusâŠâ he breathed, taking two slow steps back. Y/N rubbed her face roughly, wiping away a tear with the heel of her palm, her fingers shaky. Her mouth opened- then shut again, her brows drawing together in a helpless knot. JJ let out a breath so heavy it sounded like it hurt. Then his hand dragged through his hair, gripping the back of his neck like he needed to ground himself. He looked her dead in the eye,
âWas it his?â
The question struck her like a slap. She went completely still. â...What?â she whispered, barely audible. The word trembled in her throat, her head jerking slightly like she couldnât believe heâd actually said it. JJâs eyes burned, his mouth twisted into something between a grimace and a sneer.
âWas it his, Y/N? Was it Rafeâs?â
Her mouth opened again, but no sound came out. Her legs carried her one step back, like the sheer weight of the question shoved her there. Her arms folded across her chest without her realising it, protective. Defensive.
âHow can you even ask me thatââ
âWhat else do you want me to think, huh?â JJâs voice climbed again, every word sharper than the last, âYou wonât fucking tell me anything! You kept this whole thing a secret from me like Iâm just some... some nobodyââ
âJJââ
âWas it his?â
He snapped again, louder, like saying it might finally make the pain in his chest make sense. His chest rose and fell, his breathing heavy and erratic. He looked like he was burning up from the inside.
âWas it his, and thatâs why you ran to him, why you told him before you told me?â
âStop-stop itâ how dare you even think thatââ
âWell youâre sure as hell not giving me a lot of reasons not to!â
The shout ripped from him like a gut punch. He slammed the heel of his palm down on the counter once more as the last word left his mouth, she flinched hard at the sound, instinctively taking a step back like it could steady her pulse.
BANG
The front door slammed against the wall with a hard thud, rattling the frame in its hinges as Luke stumbled inside, the scent of cheap bourbon clinging to him like a second skin. Both their heads whipped toward the entrance to the house, eyes wide. The air in the kitchen turned thick with silence, frozen with tension as JJ's chest heaved and Y/N didnât move. He blinked blearily at the two of them from the hallway, swaying just slightly, his jaw working unevenly as he tried to focus.
âWhatâs all this fuckinâ yelling?â
His voice was slurred, low and accusatory, slicing through the thick silence like a rusted blade. Y/Nâs body stiffened immediately. She stood there, frozen for half a second, then straightened up like someone had yanked her upright by a string. âNothing,â she said quickly, her jaw clenched so tight it ached. JJ didnât say a word. His arms were rigid at his sides, chest still heaving, that same fury boiling behind his eyes.
âNothing is going onâ
Y/N repeated, sharper this time. She wasnât even fully looking at Luke anymore- her gaze was fixed on JJ, like her words were meant for him just as much, like she was pleading with him. Her voice dropped slightly, nearly trembling:
âRight, JJ? Nothingâs happening here.â
There was a long pause. JJ looked at her- really looked at her- and her eyes silently begged, he knew exactly what she was saying in her mind. Donât say it- donât let him find out. JJâs nostrils flared, his whole body rigid, but his face hardened into stone. Then, slowly, almost in disbelief, he shook his head. His hand dragged over his mouth once more as he took a step back.
He didnât say a single word.
He just turned, snatching his cap of the kitchen counter and walked toward the door and left- slamming it shut behind him with a bang that made the windows shudder in their frames. Y/N flinched. Her chest caved as she dropped down into one of the wooden kitchen chairs like all the strength had just drained out of her. Her elbows hit the edge of the table, head falling into her hands, shoulders hunched. Behind her, Luke mumbled something unintelligible and stumbled down the hallway. The second he was gone, the dam broke, silent tears dripped through her fingers, landing in dark, wet splotches on the old wooden table beneath her.
bzzz bzzz bzzz
Her phone vibrated on the counter, loud in the quiet house. She turned around slowly, reaching for it her hand trembling as the screen lit up.
Rafe
She stared at it, heartbeat thudding in her throat. Her chest rose and fell unevenly. Her thumb hovered over the screen for a long moment and then a soft, broken sound left her lips. She placed the phone face down on the table, letting it buzz until the sound faded.
Until the silence was all that was left in the four walls of the house.
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The soft clatter of cutlery was the only sound in the back of the restaurant. Y/N stood at the long metal counter, back hunched slightly as she polished a fork with slow, repetitive movements. Her shoulders were pulled up tight- and the faded name tag on her polo was barely clinging on by its safety pin. The white cloth in her hand dragged in steady circles, silver catching the dim light overhead. By the doorway, Sofia leaned one shoulder against the frame. She didnât say anything at first- just watched her best friend, lips pressed into a thin, uncertain line. Y/N looked like she hadnât slept a wink. There were shadows under her eyes and a drained stillness in her face. Sofia quietly stepped into the room, picked up another cloth from the drawer, and reached for a fork. Y/N didnât look up, didnât say anything, just kept working, kept silent like she had for the past few days. Sofia offered gently,
âHeyâ
âHeyâ
Y/N murmured back, voice soft but distant, her eyes locked on the fork in her hand like it was the only thing tethering her. Sofia hesitated, cloth in one hand fork in the other, debating how to say what she needed to. Her fingers tightened slightly on the metal.
âI um heard what happened to JJâ
Y/Nâs hand paused, just for a second. Just long enough for the silence to crack a little but then she kept polishing.
âMmhmmâ
It was a quiet hum, the kind that meant I heard you, but please donât ask me to talk about it. Sofia exhaled slowly. She put her fork down, the soft clink echoing in the small room. âY/N⊠I haven't seen you for days,â she said, voice quieter now.
âPlease talk to me.â
The cloth slipped from Y/Nâs fingers. She gently set the fork down beside it, like even letting go of that was too much. Her hand lifted, trembling as she brushed it across her brow- trying to collect herself, to stay composed.
âI donât know what to do Sof...â
She said, voice breaking mid-sentence. The words hit the air like a wound. Her eyes welled up instantly, lashes soaked before she could even blink. Sofia was already there, wrapping her arms around her in a heartbeat, tugging her in close. Y/Nâs chin dropped to her shoulder, her breath hitching in her chest as she pressed her face against Sofiaâs polo shirt.
âItâs okay,â Sofia whispered, âItâs okay, Iâve got you.â
But it wasnât okay.
It wasnât okay.
Because Y/N felt like she was standing at the centre of a storm, everything torn apart. JJ wouldnât even look at her. Wouldnât speak to her. Her baby brother- her heart- had walked out and she hasn't seen him since then. And Rafe? Rafe had broken the one promise he swore to keep. Heâd hurt her in a way she didnât know how to come back from.
âWhat am I supposed to do?â
Sofiaâs arms stayed tight around her for a long moment, like she could shield her from the weight of it all- from the ache, from the choices, from the fear. Then, gently, she pulled back and brushed a tear from Y/Nâs cheek with the bottom of her polo which she'd tugged up. She said softly, tugging at her friendâs hand,
âCome hereâ
Y/N let herself be led, her limbs sluggish and almost reluctant. Sofia guided her to a small wooden stool tucked beneath one of the prep counters in the back room. She sat her down with careful hands, like setting a glass sculpture onto stone. Then she crouched in front of her, folding herself down so they were eye to eye. Her expression was open, gentle, patient. Sofia asked her voice low and kind,
âCan you tell me whatâs going on... ?â
Y/Nâs teeth sank into her bottom lip. Her eyes dropped to her lap where her hands were clenched into fists on top of her apron. For a moment, the silence between them stretched. Then Y/N gave a slow, exhaled surrender- and she told her.
Everything
She told Sofia about the second job â how sheâd been dancing at the strip club for months just to make ends meet. How the money had been good, but the shame had clung to her skin like an old perfume. She told her about Rafe, about the way heâd taunted her, messed with her head, haunted her space like a ghost that never left her alone. And then how that twisted thing between them had shifted after what happened to her in the parking lot. About the parking lot. How sheâd gotten pregnant, how she hadnât meant to involve him but had nowhere else to go. And how, when it counted, Rafe had helped her and it had turned into more. Secret late nights, quiet promises in dark corners, a fragile, forbidden thing which they nurtured in silence. And as a result it had all blown up. JJ had found out, the one person she'd always protected now looked at her like she was someone he didnât recognise. But even through the storm the rift between her and JJ had brought, all she could think about was Rafe.
Rafe, who said he wouldnât tell anyone.
Rafe, who would hold her in his car on late nights and whisper sweet nothings in her ear.
Rafe, who promised.
And he broke it.
Sofia didnât interrupt once. She stayed crouched there, one arm resting on her bent knee, nodding gently as each piece fell from Y/N like shattered glass. Her face remained steady and calm, but her eyes were soft with understanding. With heartbreak for her friend. When the story was done, Y/N swallowed thickly and glanced up at her with wet eyes.
âPlease donât judge meâ
She whispered, barely audible. Sofiaâs reaction was immediate â a sharp shake of the head. She said, gently but firmly.
âWhy would I judge you?â
âI donât know, I justâŠâ Y/Nâs voice cracked. She looked away again, blinking hard. Sofia leaned in a little closer, her brows furrowing with affection.
âWhy didnât you say something, mi corazĂłn?â
âI was just⊠embarrassed.â
Y/Nâs lips wobbled as she gave the smallest shrug and whispered. Without a word, Sofia reached out and laid a steadying hand on Y/Nâs knee, grounding her. She spoke her voice laced with quiet conviction.
âYou have nothing to be ashamed ofâ
Y/Nâs throat tightened instantly. Her chin dipped, tears slipping down once again. But when Sofia leaned forward and wrapped her into another hug, she folded into it without hesitation- burying her face in her friendâs shoulder, arms clutching around her tightly like she might disappear. âWeâll figure it out, okay?â Sofia whispered against her hair.
âWeâll figure it out together.â
âI love you Sofâ
Y/Nâs eyes fluttered shut. Her body sagged in relief at the promise â not that anything was fixed, but that she wasnât alone. Sofia just hugged her tighter.
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Y/N threw back the swinging door to the main bar with her hip, a full tray of used glasses balanced effortlessly in her hand. The low hum of muffled chatter greeted her like a familiar blanket, warm and a little suffocating. Her eyes adjusted to the dimness of the bar's lights as she stepped back behind the counter, dumping the tray beside the industrial sink with a heavy exhale. She hadnât realised how much she needed that talk with Sofia until now. Something about finally saying it out loud- all of it- had loosened the tightness in her chest. The weight of silence had been unbearable, and now, while the ache still lingered, she could breathe again. Just a little. But there wasnât time to dwell in her thoughts anyways, not tonight.
The bar was packed, voices raised, chairs scraping against floorboards, orders being placed and the occasional whistle. She adjusted the apron which was tied snug around her waist, as a guy asked from the far end of the bar, adding on the name of his tab.
âTwo shots of tequila, lime and salt on the sideâ
âOf courseâ
She replied without missing a beat, already grabbing the bottle and reaching for shot glasses. Her hands moved fast- pouring, shaking, stirring. She restocked bottles of liquor without thinking, cracked open a fresh case of beer, wiped condensation from the metal counter and replaced a handful of clean napkins. Someone ordered a mojito and she went to work muddling the mint, crushing ice with a practiced rhythm. It was muscle memory by now- she didnât have to think, which was exactly what she needed.
No room for thoughts, no room for Rafe, or JJ, or anything else eating her alive from the inside out.
The more she moved, the more she disappeared into the chaos. Her skin gleamed under the bar lights, sweat beading along the back of her neck as she reached overhead to tuck fresh tumblers onto the glass shelf. She barely heard the quiet jazz music anymore, just the beat of urgency thudding in her chest.
âAnother whiskey sourâ
Someone asked and she reached for the shaker, wipe, pour, shake, serve, repeat, but then something made her glance up and her hand stilled on the bottle. Across the bar, nestled deep into the shadows of the corner lounge area, sat Rafe. Not drinking, not talking.
Just watching her.
He was slouched back in a leather chair like he owned that corner of the room, legs spread comfortably, one arm draped over the armrest. The light barely caught his face, but she didnât need clarity to know the exact look he was wearing- that familiar unreadable expression, cold eyes fixed solely on her like she was something distant he couldnât quite reach. Her jaw clenched tight.
The nerve
The audacity?
Y/N quickly looked away, her lips thinning as she focused on the drink in her hands, finishing the sour and passing it across the bar without a second glance. She moved faster now, snatching empty glasses off tables as she passed, ducking into the back cooler for a new bottle of gin, keeping her head down. But every time she looked up- every time- he was still there, still watching. Like a storm cloud on the edge of the horizon, just waiting to roll in, god it made her blood boil.
Her shoulders tensed as she scrubbed a sticky ring off the bar top with more force than necessary. She refused to give him the satisfaction of looking back, refused to let him drag her under again, not tonight. Not while she was trying to hold it together with thin threads and old tape. She poured a round of rum and cokes for a rowdy group at table four, barely registering the guy who tried to flirt with her as she served them. All she could feel was the burn of Rafeâs stare pressing into the side of her face like a brand. The bar area was still pulsing around her, dim lights flickering like fireflies in the low haze, glasses clinking, a muffled jazz beat vibrating through the floorboards but Y/N had started to move on autopilot. Hands quick and precise, wiping down the counters, collecting empty tumblers, taking orders and mixing drinks. Sheâd just handed off a margarita, salted rim, top-shelf tequila, extra lime, 'the usual', to a woman with long red nails and a tipsy grin when something in her peripheral made her pause.
She looked over and there he was.
Standing just to her left now, not lounging anymore, but leaning forward against the bar- both arms resting casually on the glossy wooden top, the sleeves of his shirt pushed back to his elbows. His expression wasnât smug, wasnât cocky like usual. There was no lazy smirk or self-satisfied gleam in his eye. He looked tired, and she could see a faint bruise on his cheekbone. His voice was quieter than normal when he spoke â missing that usual confident drawl.
âCan I get a whiskey on ice?â
Y/N didnât respond. Not with words anyway, she turned, wordless, and reached for the bottle behind her. Her movements were mechanical and efficient. She pulled out a glass, dropped in the ice, and started pouring slow and steady, never once letting herself really look at him. But she couldn't help it and her eyes flickered up once. Just once. He was already watching her. His gaze was steady, fixed on her with a weight that made her skin prickle. Like he was searching for something in her face, something he couldnât quite reach, something he knew he might not be allowed to see anymore. Still, she didnât say a word. Didnât ask why he was here. Didnât ask what the hell he thought he was doing. Because truthfully? She didnât know what she wanted to say to him. There was too much in her mind and it was too loud- much too messy.
Her hand moved on instinct, finishing the pour, and he slid the glass across the bar on a coaster her fingers brushing the condensation as she pushed it toward him. Rafe took it, fingers curling around the glass, but he didnât drink. He just looked at her, lips pressing into a thin line like he was forcing himself not to say something he might regret. Finally, his voice broke the beat of the music again, soft but edged with something uncertain.
ââŠare you mad at me?â
Y/N didnât blink, is he fucking dumb? She didnât lift her eyes as she answered, her voice flat. Cold. Soaked in disappointment that ran deeper than fury.
âMad doesnât even cover it.â
And then she turned, already moving toward the next customer, leaving Rafe standing there, his untouched drink in hand. He didnât leave, not after that first drink, not after her next round of orders rolled in. Rafe stayed perched on a stool by the bar, watching her every move.
All night.
Eventually he returned to the same leather chair tucked into the farthest corner of the lounge, a space covered just enough in shadow that most people wouldnât notice him if they were looking. But Y/N did. Every time she turned around, every time she restocked the vodka, every time she handed someone a beer, she felt his eyes.
Waiting.
For what?âshe wasnât sure. A chance to speak to her? Forgiveness? Maybe just a single glance from her in his direction. She didnât give him that- not once. Not even when her arms began to ache from shaking drinks. Not even when her lower back pinched from bending to stock crates under the bar. She kept moving, kept working, pushing through the ache in her chest and the hot buzz behind her eyes because looking at him, acknowledging him, might just undo her right there behind the bar.
He didnât make it easy, he stayed there, that untouched whiskey glass still in front of him like he didnât even have the stomach to drink it. His elbows rested on the armrests of the chair, posture not lazy like usual was but tense. Stiff. Even Sofia noticed. The first time she passed by his corner delivering a round of beers, she glanced his wayâand didnât hide the icy look she shot him. Her brows furrowed in sharp judgment, eyes narrowing as she walked by without breaking her stride. The second time, she muttered something under her breath in Spanish that sounded suspiciously like a curse. The third time, Rafe shifted in his seat, clearly uncomfortable now. He rubbed the back of his neck, avoided looking at her directly. His fingers tapped restlessly against the side of his glass, but he didnât leave.
Y/N clocked it all from across the room.
How he didnât even try to defend himself under Sofiaâs glare. How he just sat there, letting himself stew in whatever guilt had driven him here in the first place. Despite every ounce of anger boiling in her chest, some part of her- a stupid, bruised part- still wondered why. Why he was there. Why he hadnât left. Why he did what he did in the first place.
But she didnât ask, she couldn't.
She just kept pretending she didnât feel his stare burning a hole through her ribs.
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Y/N shoved her apron deep into her bag, the fabric still damp from the shift. Her locker door clanged shut harder than necessary, echoing through the quiet staff room. Her fingers trembled slightly as she pulled the worn bag closed. Sofia leaned against the frame of the doorway, arms crossed, watching her closely.
âYou sure you donât want me to walk you to your car?â her voice soft, gentle, hesitant, "why don't you just come and stay with me for the night? You know my parents really wonât miââ
âIâm fineâ
Y/N cut her off with a half-hearted smile, already slinging her bag over her shoulder,
âReally- I'll be okâ
Sofia didnât push. She just nodded, a quiet understanding behind her brown eyes, and reached out to give her friendâs arm a warm rub, reassuring and grounding.
âText me when you get homeâ
She spoke out with a soft smile, and then turned returning back to serving, leaving Y/N alone with the dim hum of the locker room lights. Y/N let out a breath as the door swung shut behind her, then turned on her heel and started out, walking the familiar halls of the country club in silence. The floors echoed under her shoes, the once-buzzing energy now dulled down to a few scattered patrons still nursing their drinks at the bar. Her path was straight and certain; out the lobby, across the lot, into her car, and then home to her bedroom where she could finally fall apart all over again but that plan cracked the moment she heard his voice,
âI canât stand not talking to youâ
It stopped her mid-step. She turned, eyes narrowing as her gaze landed on him, standing just a few feet away near the archway that separated the main area from the corridor. His posture was rigid, jaw tight, eyes desperately locked on her like the sight of her physically hurt him.
âCornering me at work Rafe?â Her voice was sharp, cutting.
âSeriously?â
âPlease,â he said quickly, âit was a mistakeâ
Her laugh was dry and humourless as she took a step back, putting more space between them as she spoke out to him,
âWell I donât want to fucking see you. Okay?â
She turned sharply on her heel, her shoes hitting against the polished floor as she headed for the door to get as far away as she possibly could from him. He took a step after her calling out her name,
âY/Nââ
âI said Iâm doneâ
She snapped without looking back as her hand moved forward to press against the cool glass of the door but thatâs when his hand caught her wrist. Not hard- not even rough. Just a desperate, instinctual reach to stop her from walking away from him but it didnât matter.
She flinched- visibly.
Her body jolted back, her breath catching in her throat like someone had shoved her against a wall, and she harshly snatched her hand away from him. His hand was off her in an instant, eyes wide with horror.
âShit- I'm sorry. Iâm sorry, I didnât mean toââ
His voice was genuinely shaken, like he'd just realised something too late... it didn't take a genius for him to figure out why she'd reacted that way. They stood there, the air heavy and still. Her chest rising and falling in quiet breaths. Him, frozen in place like if he moved too fast heâd shatter the last piece of her that was still standing in front of him. Y/N finally looked up at him, her voice cracked,
âI trusted you.â
Rafeâs lips parted like he wanted to speak, but the words never came. Just the ache of guilt, swelling like a lump in his throat preventing him from speaking out to her. âOut of everyone on this island,â she said, each syllable slow, deliberate, trembling,
âI trusted you.â
And God, that look in her eyes when she looked away- betrayal, hurt- it gutted him. Because no one had ever trusted him like that before- and heâd thrown it away in a moment of reckless anger which was worthless to him now. She didnât need to see the look on his face to know it would upset her, but when she looked up to him again it almost stopped her in her tracks. Rafe was still standing there, just a few steps behind where she left him, eyes damp with unshed tears, his lower lip trembling like he was fighting it- like he was barely holding himself together. For a moment, she felt like she couldnât breathe- but she didnât have the space to carry his pain on top of hers. So she shook her head, a tiny, bitter movement- more to herself than to him- and turned away. She didnât wait to see if heâd call out again, she didnât want to hear anything else come out of his mouth. Y/N pushed through the exit doors into the still, quiet night.
The staff parking lot was nearly empty now. Sofiaâs little beat-up car was a few spots over from her own, the managerâs black SUV on the far side but that was it. Empty asphalt, dim overhead lights, and the sound of her own footsteps echoing with every step toward her car. She half-expected him to follow, but he didnât. Good, she thought to herself he didnât deserve to. As she approached her car, something caught her eye- a small, white rectangle tucked neatly beneath the wiper blade of her windshield. Her stomach twisted. She glanced around the lot on instinct, but saw no one. Carefully, she plucked the paper from under the wiper. It was a folded-up note card. And when she opened it, two crisp hundred-dollar bills fluttered to the pavement at her feet.
Her heart dropped as her eyes scanned the message.
" Sorry baby x "
She scoffed out loud, bitter and disbelieving, the sound catching in her throat like a laugh soaked in gasoline. She bent down slowly, picked up the bills, her fingers trembling. Was this a joke? Was this what he thought would make things better? Footsteps echoed behind her and she didnât even need to turn because she knew it was him. Hot rage snapped through her chest like a rubber band and before she could think twice, she whirled around and stormed back toward him, shoes slamming against the pavement. Her fist clutched the note and the cash tightly, nails biting into her palm. He was just a few yards away, hands stuffed in his pockets, walking slowly like he didnât know what the fuck he was doing- but when she closed the distance between them, he stopped dead in his tracks. Without hesitation, she shoved the paper and bills into his chest shoving him back, her voice shaking from fury.
âI donât want your fucking money Rafe!â
The bills nearly slipped from his hands as he reached up, fumbling to catch them. His brows furrowed, panicked and hurt.
âIâm just trying to help youââ
âIâm not a FUCKING CHARITY CASE!â
She snapped yelling out at him, voice rising, eyes glinting under the parking lot lights. The words hung between them like a slap and he stared at her like sheâd just knocked the wind out of him. She could see it now- the way his mouth opened, then shut again, how he couldnât look her in the eye, how the words on his tongue died before they ever reached his lips. Because he knew. Deep down, he knew this wasnât something a couple hundred bucks and a sorry would fix. But still⊠he reached for her. Not to touch, but to speak- his voice cracked, low.
âY/NâŠâ
She stepped back.
"Donât."
Her breath hitched, and she swallowed it down with every ounce of strength she had left. She looked at him, really looked at him- messy hair, tired eyes meeting that wounded expression on his face like he was the one who got hurt- and it made her sick. "You don't get to be upset," she whispered, voice trembling but sharp as glass.
"This is your fault."
She spoke out through gritted teeth and he just shook his head in response and he sighed out, his hand coming out and running over his hair before he could say another word to her, she turned and walked away she refused to listen to hi-
âI love youâ
His voice cuts through the space between them- soft and low, but it stopped her in her tracks like a bullet. Y/N froze, completely, her back still to him. Her hand comes up over her face, trembling as she tries to breathe through it, tries to swallow down everything rising in her throat. She feels like her knees are about to give out underneath her, chest heaving with the kind of pressure that builds until it becomes unbearable, the kind that threatens to spill out in hot, angry tears. What the fuck was he doing? Her hand drops slowly to her side, fingers twitching, keys clinking in her grip. She turns, slow and tired and sharp all at once, and lifts her chin just enough to meet his gaze. Her voice is tight, quiet, venom-laced and barely hanging on.
âDonât say shit like that.â
She takes a step back like his presence burns. He tilts his head slightly, eyes narrowing in confusion.
âWhy not?â
âBecauseââ she starts, then bites the word off, jaw clenching as she shakes her head, like she can just shake him out of her mind.
âJust donât.â
But Rafe- he stays rooted to the pavement, watching her like sheâs sand slipping through his fingers and he's desperate enough to fall to the floor and start picking up each grain individually. âPlease,â he says, voice rough with a pleading edge sheâs never heard from him.
âJust listen to what I have to sayâ
She shakes her head again, more frantic this time, her thumb jabbing the car key until she hears a beep, the headlights flashing like a warning. She storms toward the door, her breath hitching in her throat. âWell then talk to me,â Rafe tries again, following her now, steps echoing hers. Desperation claws into his voice.
âPlease Y/N- talk to me.â
âI donât want to talk to you, okay?â
She whirls around so fast he almost walks right into her, and with a sharpness that nearly cuts the air and she snaps, voice cracking in the middle, hand shaking around the keys.
âI donât want to talk to you- my whole life is crumbling around me, and funnily enough, you seem to be the core of my problems.â
âNo, Iâm notââ
âYes you are!â
Y/N yells as she raises her hands in defeat, voice ringing out across the empty parking lot, echoing off metal and asphalt and silence. Sheâs standing there, chest rising and falling so hard it looks like she might collapse under the weight of it all. Her lip trembles as she stares at him- like heâs the storm and sheâs the goddamn wreckage.
âI seem to only be thinking about you!â
She chokes out, the words ragged. Real. They're out of her mouth before she can stop them and when they land, when the truth hangs heavy and cruel between them, her entire expression shifts. Like the worldâs been ripped from beneath her feet and sheâs the one who did it. Her lips press together, her shoulders sag, and her eyes flicker down like sheâs already trying to take it back.
But itâs too late.
Rafe just stares at her, a flicker of pain surging behind his eyes. No smirk, no cocky retort, no smug line like always. Just... stunned- like heâs been punched in the chest. She exhales shakily and reaches for the car door handle, gripping it so tight her knuckles go white. She tries to anchor herself to the cold metal but then his voice cuts through the silence, earnest.
â...I think about you too.â
She squeezes her eyes shut as though to block his voice out.
âAll the time I'm thinking about yo-â
âNo.âÂ
Her voice is barely a whisper now fractured and frightened.
âStop.â
âWhy?â Rafe asks, his tone is softer this time.
âWhat are you so afraid of?â
Her fingers tremble where they rest against the door, and she swallows hard, the lump in her throat too big to ignore now. âI canât-â she croaks, shaking her head like it physically hurts her to speak.
âI canât do this with you, Rafe. I just canât.â
âWhy?â
His voice is gentle- almost pleading- just a thread of sound in the night air. He steps closer, careful not to touch her, but close enough that she can feel the heat of him lingering like a ghost, like heâs haunting her just like everything else sheâs tried to bury. âY/N,â he says, his tone catching at the edges,
âyou know you want to. So why are you running away?â
She doesnât answer. She just stands there, shaking her head slowly, lips pressed tight like sheâs trying to hold herself together with sheer will alone. Because how is she supposed to explain it? How does she say out loud that love feels like a noose around her throat- that she's only ever known the kind that hurts. She hates it- hates that heâs asking the very question she keeps asking herself.
Why is she running?
The answer lodges in her chest, sharp and bitter: because sheâs scared. Scared of how much this means, scared of what it could take from her, scared of how much it already has. Sheâs never really been loved. Not the way people are supposed to be. Not by her father, who only ever saw her as a mirror of everything he hated. Not even- if sheâs being honest- by JJ, because JJ has the Pogues he has John B and the others and she⊠sheâs always felt like second place- like an afterthought, even when they swore they were all each other had. So yeah- sheâs scared. Because this? What she feels when Rafe looks at her, what stirs deep in her gut when he says her name like a prayer heâs never gonna stop saying, itâs terrifying.
Because she loves him.
She loves him.
More than she even knew she could and thatâs what terrifies her the most. Rafe sees the shift. The tear rolling down her cheek and his hands twitch at his sides- because he wants to reach out. Wants to tell her it's okay to be scared. That heâs scared too. But his voice breaks around the weight of it.
âY/N I lov-â
âPleaseâ
She whispers, eyes glossy as the salt water drips down the skin of her face, her voice raw and strained.
âJust let me go home.â
His jaw tenses hard enough it clicks, the muscle there jumping. His mind screams at him to keep her here, to talk it out until she's in his arm again but instead, he nods, jaw locked tight like heâs holding back something that might rip him in half if he lets it loose. He steps back and she can't meet his eyes. She just slips into her car like sheâs done a thousand times, hands shaking as she fumbles with the key, breath stuttering through her chest. The door shuts with a quiet thud that sounds final.
And then- sheâs gone. Taillights disappear down the dark road, red glow vanishing into the night. Rafe stands there for a second, not moving, just staring at where her car used to be. His chest rises and falls like heâs been running, but he hasnât moved at all. His hands lift to his hair, a groan tearing from his throat, guttural and helpless. He paces once, twice in rage and heartbreak and desperation tangling all over each other until he doesnât even know what to feel anymore.
Because fuck.
He knows that she loves him but heâs scared heâs already lost her anyway.
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The drive home is silent, except for the low hum of the engine and the occasional crunch of gravel beneath her tires. Her hands are loose on the wheel now, posture slumped like all the weight of the night has finally caught up to her. The headlights sweep over the front of her house as she pulls in, illuminating the weather-worn porch, the chipped paint on the steps.
She parks and cuts the engine.
For a moment, she doesnât move. Just rests her forehead gently against the steering wheel and closes her eyes quiet sniffles filling the car. She lets herself sink into the kind of stillness that feels like sinking into water- quiet, numbing, heavy. She sits there and thinks for a moment, she thinks how she wishes she could just start over. Somewhere far away, somewhere no one knows her name and no one knows what sheâs done. Somewhere she could exist without always feeling like she's on the edge of ruin. Like she's constantly holding everything together with nothing but her fingertips and good intentions. Her chest tightens as she breathes out a shaky sigh finally reaching for the door handle.
She steps out into the cool night, her shoes landing softly on the dried grass. The sky is thick and clouded, swallowing the stars whole, no moonlight shining through. As she approaches the porch, she notices just a faint flicker of light through the drawn shutter blinds. Her steps quiet as she doesnât want to make a sound. Y/N slides her keys into the lock carefully, twisting them with a gentle hand.
Click
The door eases open and she slips inside and shuts it behind herâsoftly, gently, like maybe if she moves quiet enough, nothing will break but as she turns around and stops cold. Dead in her tracks. Her breath catches in her throat, and her eyes lock onto the living room just a few feet ahead.
Her father is sitting on the couch.
Half his face lit by the dim glow of the table lamp beside him. The other half shrouded in darkness. His shoulders are hunched forward, one hand dangling off his knee, a glass of something clutched loose in his fingers. Whiskey maybe, or vodka, or whatever was cheapest this week. His eyes are open and staring straight at her. Itâs like the airâs been sucked out of the house. His expression unreadable beneath the haze of alcoholâand maybe something stronger. Sheâs still frozen there, heart pounding so loud she can feel it in her throat, her ears, her ribs. Like itâs trying to crawl out of her. But itâs not him that makes her stomach twist into knots and her lungs forget how to breathe. Itâs whatâs sitting on the table in front of him, laid out neatly on the small coffee table like some sort of offering.
A pair of her stripper heels.
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âââ SO HIGH SCHOOL
pairing: dean winchester x fem!reader
summary: As teenagers, you and Dean had a whirlwind romance before everything fell apart. Years later, you reuniteâand itâs like high school all over again.
contents! mutual pining, teenage love, soft, flirting and touching, stupid in love dean, mdni đ€ 18+
word count: 2.8k
đean masterlist !
Dean was the first and only real love you had.
Well, not exactly real. And maybe not exactly love.
He was the good part of your day. That person you knew would be there. The person who made school possible and tolerable.
Dean was always known for his charm, for his way with girls. For always having them. But the moment Dean joined your group of friends and you two became even remotely close, it was as if something, a connection, that you didn't know could exist, finally made itself present within you.
It wasn't something verbalized, something explicit. But as soon as you had your first kiss, there was no one else. No other girl in school had a chance with him. He wouldn't let you go, and much less took his eyes off you.
Everything felt so real. Even if it was just between the lines.
He was the best "relationship" you ever had. The best moments and the best treatment you had from a boy were with Dean Winchester.
And then just as it all began, suddenly he wasn't there anymore.
One night you two were together in the back seat of the car and the next morning he was gone from town, without any explanation.
And when you were seventeen, that was the last time you saw Dean.
You and Dean were sure you would never see each other again. You were teenagers, it was normal. People come and go from school all the time, it was common to meet people at school and then never see them again, never find out how they are.
This is what you and Dean thought things would be like. Just a memory that would fade in time. Never having to worry about looking each other in the eye again.
But when was anything ever simple in Dean Winchester's life?
A case never ended up being just a case.
The small town didnât exactly scream "monster hotspot," but something was definitely off. Three people had vanished without a trace in the past two months, all last seen at the same placeâa cozy little diner on Main Street that doubled as a bookstore. The place was old-school charming, the kind of spot with checkered floors, the scent of fresh coffee in the air, and a tiny bell over the door that jingled whenever a customer walked in. Nothing about it screamed "supernatural danger," but Dean had learned long ago that the worst things often hid in the most ordinary places.
âAlright, so we got three missing persons, no bodies, and a common location,â Sam said, flipping through his notes. âNo signs of struggle, no EMF spikes, no sulfur. If itâs something supernatural, itâs keeping a low profile.â
Dean tapped his fingers against the Impalaâs steering wheel, squinting at the diner across the street. âOr itâs just smart. Maybe a witch, maybe something we havenât seen before.â
Sam sighed. âSo, the usualâtalk to employees, check out security footage, dig through lore?â
Dean smirked. âAw, you're so smart, Sammy.â
With that, they climbed out of the car and crossed the street, the bell over the door announcing their arrival. The place was warm and inviting, filled with the quiet hum of conversation and the soft crackle of pages turning. Dean barely had time to take it all in before his gaze landed on someone behind the counter.
He recognized you instantly. There wouldn't be a day that he wouldn't.
You were busy jotting something down, focused on a customer, completely unaware of himâat first. Deanâs stomach tightened, his pulse kicking up. It had been years, but damn if you wasnât still the same girl he rememberedâjust sharper, more grown-up, but still you. The girl who had once snuck out of your house to meet him, who had laughed against his lips under the Friday night stadium lights, who had looked at him like he was worth somethingâuntil he left without saying goodbye.
When you lifted your head, ready to serve the new customers, thatâs when you saw him.
For a second, just a second, your eyes met, and he saw it: the flicker of recognition, the moment your heart probably dropped into your stomach the same way his had.
To this day, Dean always remembers the way you used to look at him. The sparkle in your eyes, the way they seemed to smile, emanating happiness and trust.
Just seeing you made him feel as if he were in high school again.
And now? Now you were standing behind the counter, your apron tied around your waist, a pen tucked behind your ear, looking at him like you werenât sure whether to punch him or pretend he didnât exist.
Dean opened his mouth, but for once in his life, words failed him.
âOh, you have got to be kidding me,â you finally muttered, eyes narrowing.
Sam cleared his throat. "Uh, Deanâ?"
âYeah, yeah, I got it, Sammy.â Dean snapped out of it, forcing a grin. âLong time, no see, sweetheart.â
"Didnât think Iâd ever see you again, Winchester.â Your voice was calm, even, but there was an edge to it, a quiet challenge. "Guess lifeâs full of surprises."
Dean exhaled through his nose, rubbing the back of his neck. "Yeah⊠guess it is."
Sam, ever the unfortunate third wheel, glanced between them and shifted uncomfortably. "Uh, weâre actually here about the disappearances. Weâreâ"
"FBI?" you cut in, lifting a brow. "Do you want me to believe that you two are FBI?"
Dean had to bite back a smirk. Of course you werenât buying their act. You had always been sharp. Always saw right through him.
Sam hesitated. "We just have a few questions."
You sighed, tapping your fingers against the counter before jerking your chin toward an empty booth in the corner. "Fine. Take a seat. Iâll be over in a minute."
Dean watched as you turned on your heel, disappearing into the back. Only when you were out of sight did he let out a slow breath, dragging a hand down his face.
âWell,â Sam muttered, âthat wasnât awkward at all.â
Dean ignored him, eyes still locked on the door you had just walked through.
Yeah. This case just got a hell of a lot more complicated.
Only to get better, when you return, you decided to act as if he didn't exist. There was no sign of recognition on your face. No lingering shock, no flicker of emotion. Just cool, effortless professionalism, like you didnât just have the wind knocked out of you moments ago.
A notebook is in your hand now, the pen twirling between your fingers as you slide into the seat across from them. Your eyes flick briefly to Samâacknowledging him first, like Dean isnât even there.
âSo,â you say, tone even. âWhat exactly do you want to know? If this is about the disappearances, let me say I donât know much. Just that they all came in here before they went missing. We gave their names to the cops alreadyâ
Dean leaned in, arms folding as he tilted his head slightly. âYou always this helpful, sweetheart?â
The nickname made your eye twitchâbarely.
You finally, finally glanced at him, and for a second, all he could see was the fire behind your gaze.
âI try my best, agent.â Your lips curled in something that wasnât quite a smile. âAnything else?â
Sam cleared his throat, glancing between the two of you, clearly picking up on the weird energy but too polite, more like too damn confused, to say anything. âUhâright. But anything else you mightâve noticed? Strange behavior? Anyone bothering them?â
You exhaled through your nose. âNot that I remember.â
Feeling that with all this tension he wasn't going to get anywhere, Sam decided to stop there. âAlright, I think thatâs all we need for now, then. If you remember anything else, let us know.â
With a nod, you began to rise from your seat, your body moving almost instinctively as you embraced the end of the conversation. âSure thing."
As Dean watched you walk back to the counter, he couldn't believe you acted as if he wasnât even there. However, if you thought that was the end of it, you were mistaken. Now that Dean had found you again, he wasnât planning to just walk away. Not this time.
âDude,â Sam muttered, voice low, snapping Dean out of his reverie. âWhat the hell was that?â
Dean exhaled through his nose, shaking his head. âItâs complicated.â
Sam frowned. âYeah, no kidding. You gonna fill me in?â
Dean didnât answer right away, just watched as you disappeared through the swinging door behind the counter.
He used to love watching you walk away. Now it just felt like he was losing you all over again.
After a beat, he pushed up from the booth. âIâll be back.â
Sam sighed. âDeanââ
But Dean was already moving.
The back door of the diner led to a narrow hallwayâone he knew youâd taken to get a breather. It was quieter back here, the hum of conversation fading into a dull murmur.
And sure enough, there you were.
Your hands braced on the edge of a small counter, eyes closed, breathing deep. He knew that look. Knew you were trying to steady yourself, get your walls up before he could knock them down.
Too late.
âStill not gonna look at me?â
Your shoulders tensed at his voice, but you didnât turn. âWhat do you want, Dean?â
He leaned against the doorframe, arms folding. âOh, I dunno. Maybe a little acknowledgment? A hey, Dean, long time no see. Thought you were dead or in jailââ
âWouldnât have been surprised.â
Dean let out a sharp breath, a humorless smirk twitching at his lips. âYeah, well. Didnât end up that way.â
Silence.
You reached up, rubbing your temple, like talking to him was physically painful.
And hell, maybe it was.
After a beat, you finally turned to face him, arms crossing. Your eyes were sharp, guarded. But there was something else beneath it. Something raw.
âWhy are you here, Dean?â
His chest ached at the way you said his name. Not like you used toâsoft, familiar, like it meant something. Now it just sounded⊠tired.
âJob brought us here,â he said, keeping it simple.
You studied him, unconvinced. âAnd what? You thought, hey, letâs stop by and ruin her day while weâre at it?â
Dean huffed a dry laugh, shaking his head. âYeah, because thatâs what I wanted. To see you look at me like Iâm a damn ghost.â
You flinched. It was quickâso quick he almost missed it. But he didnât.
And suddenly, the fight drained out of you. Your gaze dropped for the first time since this whole thing started, fingers tightening against your sleeves.
Deanâs throat worked.
He could push. Could try to get you to really talk, break down that wall you were building brick by brick.
But the way you looked right now? Like you were holding yourself together with nothing but sheer willâ
He couldnât do it.
Not yet.
Instead, he exhaled, running a hand down his face. âLook. I donât know how long weâll be in town. But I think weâre gonna be crossing paths whether you like it or not.â
You didnât move. Didnât answer.
Dean nodded, stepping back. âJust⊠donât pretend I was never here, alright?â
And with that, he walked away.
He didnât see the way your jaw clenched, the way your fingers curled into fists like you were stopping yourself from reaching outâ
Didnât hear the breath you let out, shaky and uneven, as soon as he was gone.
You knew this wasnât the endâcouldnât be. Deep down, you knew that your story with Dean Winchester was far from over. And you knew that the moment he decided to see you again, he would pull you close once more, weaving his way into your heart until you could never imagine leaving his side again.
Weeks passed.
Looking back, you werenât sure when exactly everything shifted.
Maybe it was after Dean came back to the diner and made you listen while he told you the truthâeven though at the time you were sure that the man you once loved was completely insane.
But maybe it was when you started helping with the case, and somewhat believing himânot because you wanted to be a hunter, but because you wanted to be with him.
Or maybe it was just inevitable. Like gravity pulling you back into his orbit, like you never really had a choice in the first place.
All you knew was that, suddenly, it felt like beforeâlike sneaking out past curfew, like warm summer air and stolen kisses in the Impala, like every love song that made your chest ache.
Only now, you werenât kids anymore.
And Dean Winchester had never been the kind of guy to love halfway.
Which was how you ended up here.
Sitting in a diner, trying to pretend like Deanâs hand wasnât sliding up your thigh under the table.
Across from you, Sam exhaled sharply through his nose. His patience was wearing thin.
âDude,â he gritted out, glaring at Dean. âCan you stop touching her for five seconds?â
Dean, the picture of innocence, took a sip of his coffee. âI have no idea what youâre talking about, Sammy.â
Samâs expression was pained.
You bit your lip to keep from laughing, but when Dean leaned inâhis lips brushing your ear when he definitely didnât need to be that closeâyou swatted at his chest.
âDean.â
âWhat?â He smirked, not even pretending to be sorry. âJust admiring my girl.â
Sam muttered something under his breath that sounded a lot like I hate this.
But it only got worse from there.
Dean was relentless.
His hands were always on youâan arm wrapped around your waist, fingers playing with the hem of your shirt, palm resting low on your back. He kissed your temple absentmindedly, whispered things that made you flush, smirked when he caught you looking at him like you still had a teenage crush on Dean Winchester.
Because you did.
You always had.
Later, at Bobbyâs, the three of you sprawled in the living roomâDean practically wrapped around you on the couch, arms snug around your waist, his breath warm against your neck.
Sam was across the room, doing some research on his laptop, eyes glued to the screen as if sheer focus could block out the absolute nonsense happening beside him.
Dean, completely unbothered, nosed at your temple. âYou cold?â
You werenât.
At all.
But you hummed innocently, just to see what heâd do.
Dean, ever the problem, tugged you closer, his hands sliding beneath the hem of your sweater, tracing slow, lazy circles against your skin.
You shivered.
He felt it.
And he smirked.
âYouâre shameless,â you whispered, biting your bottom lip to repress a smile.
Dean nipped at your jaw. âYeah?â His lips brushed your ear, and God, you felt it everywhere.
âHey.â His voice was quiet, meant just for you. âWanna know somethinâ?â
You swallowed. âWhat?â
Dean shifted, his mouth so close his breath fanned warm against your skin. âFirst time I saw you? When we were stupid teenagers?â His hands traced higher, fingers barely grazing the edge of your bra. âDamn near forgot how to breathe.â
Your stomach plummeted.
âDean.â
âMm?â
Your heart hammered, but you fought to keep your voice steady. âSam is right there.â
Dean pulled back just enough to glance at his brotherâwho was clearly tuning you out, laser-focused on not acknowledging this entire situation.
âIf he has a problem, he can get up and leave.â
You swatted at his chest, biting back a laugh, but when you turned to face him, his expression shiftedâno teasing, no smugness. Just him, looking at you like he was seeing you all over again.
His fingers brushed your jaw, tilting your chin up.
And just like that, you felt seventeen again.
God, what was it about him that made you feel like this?
That made you ache?
Deanâs lips parted, his gaze flickering down to your mouth.
Your breath caught.
He grinnedâslow, lazy, devastating. âYou gonna let me kiss you, sweetheart?â
You were sure your heartbeat was so loud.
Sam made a strangled noise in the background.
Dean groaned, dropping his head back against the couch. âJesus Christ, Sammy, just leave the damn room.â
âI'm living here too,â Sam deadpanned, not directing his gaze towards you.
Dean huffed, shaking his head before turning back to youâhis eyes darker now, filled with something deep and warm and completely unshakable.
You swallowed, fingers twisting in the fabric of his shirt.
This man knew what he wanted and, boy, he definitely got you.
But God, Dean Winchester was so much. And he had been from the start.
And you were so gone for him.
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lina's notes: I should have posted this a long time ago lol, but it didn't turn out exactly how I wanted and I was a little unsure but I hope you liked it <3
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a/n: inspired by this post from @rafesplaymate
rafe is lost in his own reflection.
the mirror across the room captures every inch of himâsweat-slicked muscles flexing, sharp jaw clenched, blue eyes dark with something dangerous. heâs watching himself more than heâs watching you. maybe he hasnât looked at you at all.
youâre beneath him, face down in the sheets, barely holding yourself up. your fingers fist the fabric, legs shaking from the relentless pace heâs set, but rafe barely acknowledges it. barely acknowledges you.
"fuck," he mutters under his breath, running a hand through his damp hair, pushing it back. his free hand grips your waist, keeping you in place, admiring the way your body takes himâlike you were made for this. for him.
but still, his eyes flicker back to the mirror.
heâs mesmerized. not by the way you tremble, not by the soft little whimpers spilling from your lips, but by himself. the way his biceps flex every time he moves, the way his abs tense, the way he looks on top of you, conquering, owning.
he smirks, licking his lips, shaking his head slightly like he canât believe how good he looks.
"shit, baby," he breathes, almost amused, gaze still locked on the mirror. "look at me."
you donât reactâtoo lost in the sensation, too dazed to process his words. and that? that wonât do.
rafe clicks his tongue, slowing just enough to flip you onto your back, manhandling you like you weigh nothing. you gasp, disoriented, barely able to blink before heâs caging you in, pressing you deep into the mattress.
his big hands cup your face, squeezing, fingers digging into your cheeksânot too rough, just enough to make sure youâre paying attention.
"look, baby," he coos, voice low, commanding. his thumb brushes over your lips before giving you a light pat on the cheek, tilting your chin toward the mirror. "watch."
your blurry gaze follows his, landing on the reflectionâthe two of you tangled in his sheets, your body soft, flushed, wrecked beneath him. but your eyes barely have time to take yourself in because rafe?
rafe is staring at himself.
his grip tightens on your face, squeezing your cheeks together, forcing your mouth to part. his smirk deepens, admiring the way you look like thisâhelpless, pliant, his.
"you see that?" he murmurs, voice dripping with satisfaction. "see how good i look fuckinâ you?"
his head tilts, studying himself, taking in the sharp angles of his face, the way his damp hair falls over his forehead, the way his hands own your face, your body, your everything.
another soft pat to your cheek, not enough to hurtâjust enough to remind you whoâs in control.
"bet you feel so lucky, huh?" he taunts, dragging his thumb down your lips, pressing it inside just enough to make you whimper. "havinâ me all to yourself?"
you nodâbecause what else can you do? you are lucky, arenât you? rafe tells you all the time. no one else would take care of you like this. no one else would want you like he does.
and fuck, he looks good doing it.
his hips snap forward, and he groans, watching the way his abs tighten, the way his muscles ripple, the way his body completely dominates yours. heâs so into himself, so lost in his own self-obsession that he almost forgets youâre even here.
his jaw clenches, grip bruising as he stares himself down in the mirror, gaze wild, completely enthralled.
"fuck, iâm good."
he says it like itâs a fact. like he needs you to understand just how lucky you are to be his.
and when he finally comes, breath shuddering, head tilting back in pleasure, he still never takes his eyes off the mirror.
because at the end of the day?
rafe cameron isnât making love to you.
heâs making love to himself.
summary. seeing you after so many years is harder than dean had ever expected.
pairing. dean winchester x reader ; angst
wordcount. 792
The Impala rumbles softly, the low growl of the engine almost soothing against the tense silence inside. Dean grips the wheel tightly, his knuckles white against the leather, his jaw clenched. Sam sits in the passenger seat, flipping through the case file with a furrowed brow, oblivious to his brotherâs quiet turmoil.
The brothers are heading into a small, sleepy town, the kind Dean swears is the perfect breeding ground for monsters. The sheriff called in a favor, and they agreed to take the hunt. It was supposed to be straightforwardâcheck out the bodies, track the thing, kill it. Dean didnât expect ghosts from his past to come creeping in.
But thatâs exactly what happens when you stop by the local diner.
Deanâs the first to spot you, sitting by the window. At first, he thinks his mindâs playing tricks on him. But then you laugh, and it hits him like a freight train. You look older, sure, but youâre still youâyour smile just as bright, your eyes just as full of life.
And youâre not alone.
Thereâs a man across from you, his hand resting on yours as you talk. A little girl, no older than six or seven, sits between you, giggling as she tugs on your sleeve to get your attention. You lean down to kiss her forehead, your hand brushing a strand of hair from her face.
Deanâs heart twists painfully in his chest.
âDean?â Samâs voice snaps him out of his daze. âYou okay?â
Dean doesnât answer right away. His eyes are glued to the scene in the diner, the way you look so⊠settled. So happy.
âYeah,â he says finally, his voice rough. âJust thought I saw someone I knew.â
Sam follows his gaze and frowns, glancing back at Dean. âDo you want toââ
âNo,â Dean cuts him off, shaking his head. âLetâs just⊠letâs just get to work.â
But itâs too late. Youâve spotted him, and your eyes widen in recognition. You excuse yourself from the table, walking toward the door, and before Dean can think of an escape plan, youâre standing in front of him.
âDean Winchester,â you say, your voice warm and familiar. âOf all the placesâŠâ
He forces a smile, shoving his hands in his pockets. âHey, sweetheart. Long time, no see.â
You laugh softly, the sound tugging at something deep inside him. âItâs been, what, ten years?â
âSomething like that,â he replies, his voice steady despite the storm raging inside him.
Your eyes soften as you study him, like youâre trying to piece together the years that have passed. âYou look good, Dean.â
âYou too,â he says, and he means it. You look more than goodâyou look radiant. But he doesnât say that.
You glance back at the table, where your husband is watching curiously. âI should get back. But⊠itâs good to see you. Really.â
Dean nods, his throat tight. âYeah. You too.â
As you walk away, he feels like the airâs been knocked out of him. Sam doesnât say anything, but Dean can feel his brotherâs eyes on him.
âShe looks happy,â Sam says quietly once youâre out of earshot.
Dean swallows hard, his jaw tightening. âYeah. She does.â
He doesnât add that it hurts like hell, that seeing you with a familyâa life heâll never haveâfeels like a knife twisting in his chest.
Later, after the case is done and youâre just a memory in the rearview mirror, Dean pulls over on the side of the road, claiming he needs a minute. Sam doesnât argue; he just waits in the car while Dean steps out into the cool night air.
Dean leans against the Impala, staring up at the stars. His hands are trembling, and he clenches them into fists, trying to steady himself.
For years, heâs carried the weight of what couldâve been. With Lisa, with you, with anyone who mightâve made him feel like he wasnât just a soldier in this endless war. But it never works out. Itâs always the job, always the life, always the damn apocalypse getting in the way.
And now, seeing you happyâtruly happyâmakes him wonder if he ever had a chance at that kind of peace.
When Sam joins him, neither of them speaks for a while. The silence stretches between them, heavy but comfortable, until Sam finally says, âYou okay?â
Dean doesnât look at him. âIâm fine, Sammy.â
Sam doesnât push, because they both know itâs a lie.
As they get back in the car and drive off into the night, Dean canât help but glance at the passenger seat, where you used to sit so many years ago, laughing and teasing him about his music choices.
Itâs just a memory now, but it still lingers, bittersweet and aching.
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god i love angst
tw: Cheating! (not on reader) Drug & Alchohol use! Descriptions of smut! Angst!
âThe other woman has time to manicure her nails
The other woman is perfect where her rival fails.â
Her arms feel like the sun on a breezy day. Shining on him and encasing him in warmth while the cool winds prickle at his skin. Her scent like a pheromone that was designed solely to attract him. Her skin like expensive silk under his fingertips, delicate and smooth. Her lips felt like satin, brushing and sponging against his skin, lips and body in a way that was entirely addictive. She was entirely addictive; she was his haven. The luxury between her legs only he had access too. Her arousal was a flavor that could never be matched and that he yearned for when she wasnât on his tongue. Slipping inside her felt like he had a taste of heaven, something he was entirely dedicated to worshipping. She was a deity he would willingly sacrifice his soul and life to.
âBaby⊠she keeps calling you.â Whispered out that voice that was like a sweet symphony to his ears and calmed down the ocean of complex emotions that dwelled in his heart. Rafe groaned into disappointment at his moment of peace being interrupted once more, burying his face deeper in the softness of her tummy while her manicured nails grazed his scalp. Feeling the soft pricks of hair under her smooth finger tips, touching him with a delicacy only she knew how to have. He sighed once more before bringing his head up and reaching a hand over to the incessant buzzing next to them in her satin sheets. Watching as Sofiaâs contact showed for the 5th time that hour.
Rafe canât exactly blame her, he promised her a nice dinner. Yet, he got to caught up in the girl who captivated his entire being and the one whose inner legs he finds solace in every night or day he can. Just seeing her glimmering smile or seductive gaze makes his knees buckle. Heâs entirely fascinated by her, like a diamond in the rough of people who inhabit the island they live on. Sheâs unlike anything or anyone heâs ever known, the way she maneuvers her body on stage and glimmers under the club lights. The way he was entirely bewitched by the siren she was. He wonât ever forget the night Topper and Kelce dragged him out to a club he had no interest in being at. Small, yet no conviction in his claims of, âI have a girl, bro.â Heâs so entirely grateful he went. Topperâs convincing of, âwhat she doesnât know wonât kill her, man. Trust thereâs this girl there that will drive you insane. Sheâs got me and Kelce hooked.â To which Rafe gave a small eye roll and scoff of, âany girl with her tits out has your attention.â Topper only laughed and Kelce along with him before biting back a, âbut hers are premium.â As they all toppled into his truck.
That night was fate, and he knew that any woman he met or has yet to meet will pale in comparison to the goddess whoâs enthralled his being and keeps him stuck in a perpetual state of desire for her and her alone. The moment he saw her glide across stage, in nothing but glimmering lingerie and wild hair. Her eyes packed on with glitter and pretty lips glossed so enticingly. Her body the kind of thing men carve into stone to keep as a recollection for life. The way she slithered across stage with her eyes set on him and only him. Singling him out while the cheers and hoots of his friends, other club goers and patrons faded into the background. Both of them fascinated with one another. The way she slung herself across his lap with her freed tits pressing into him and her intoxicating perfume swirling around him like an aphrodisiac.
âThe other woman enchants her clothes with French perfume.â
He paid for a lap dance that very night and let her help him escape in the private room under glaring, neon pink lights. Running his hands over every inch of her beautiful body as scraped her long nails against his skin and moved sensually across him. That night sealed their fate, and it didnât take much convincing to let him take her home to Tannyhill. Making out in the back of Topperâs truck while him and Kelce smirked as they watched through the rear-view mirror. Praising their friend and promising to seal their lips when they were dropped off. That night y/n and Rafe brought their bodies and souls together, all night long. Sweat sticking them together as her inner thighs dripped with their mixed arousal. Their lips not leaving any inch of each otherâs bodies undiscovered. He marked her that night with his possession and allowed her to rake her nails down his strong back, calculating in his mind how heâd hide it from Sofia.
After that night any thought of another woman aside from the one under him was gone, his girlfriend included. The unsaid energy bringing their souls together as if they were lovers destined to meet. He licked and snorted lines off her body as he rubbed the powdery substance against her gums. Pouring champagne on her as he licked it up and let it soak his sheets right next to her arousal. She was like an added substance he was quickly growing addicted to and he knew this was an addiction that would never end. He took her apart over the balcony under the stars of the night sky as she whined and whimpered into the warm air. He was king and she would be queen.
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Now months later their affair is still going strong, he more often than not finds himself entangled in her at her penthouse he put her into. Vowing to move her into his mansion next. Heâs yet find a way to end things with Sofia, he knows y/n is the one he wants to settle with. He wants everything with her. Aside from the passion that connects them physically itâs the understanding of their minds that really links them together. She understands him, she loves him in all his dark glory. Allowing him to be himself without feeling the need to try and fix him. Her understands her, in all her shady grandeur. Theyâre just as fucked up as one another; sheâs not ashamed of who he truly is. She doesnât keep him from changing either, she grows alongside him as the learn to love one another beautifully.
Rafe tells her about his dad, the pogues, even the yearning he has to reconcile with his sister. He cries to her and lets her hold him as he sobs into her naked chest, feeling her kiss his tears away. She always whispers soft, âlet it out, baby. itâs okay, Iâm here.â Consoling him with gentle caresses and kisses. He feels guilt, guilt for keeping her in the shadows of secrecy. Yet, heâs not ready for the universe theyâve built for themselves to come to an end. He doesnât want to share her with the world, heâs selfish and wants her all to himself. He keeps her locked away in the luxurious penthouse heâs granted her and has even taken her out of the club by providing for her. Sheâs his hidden gem, he knows it hurts her. It hurts him too.
He finds it difficult to end things with Sofia. Her softness and kindness to him never forgotten. Heâs still fond of the girl who was there for him when no one else was. Who listened to him cry and his grieving words as he spread his fatherâs ashes into the ocean. Sofia is familiar, sheâs routine. Sheâs comfortable in a different way and he doesnât want to let it go. He knows he deeply adores y/n, he loves her with every fiber of his being. But he loved Sofia first, sheâll always have a place in his heart for the kindness and love she granted him when he needed it most. Thatâs why he leaves y/n every morning to go back to her. He knows itâs cowardly; he knows itâs completely selfish. He can see the tears falling from her closed eyes as she pretends to be asleep while he softly walks around the bedroom as to not wake her when he leaves in the mornings. He always knows sheâs awake. Especially when he presses a kiss to her forehead as he softly strokes her hair. Promising with a whisper to her skin that heâll be back and that he loves her. Heâll always go back for her, heâll always go back to her.
When he greets Sofia, she looks at him with those pretty doe eyes that are so different yet just as beautiful as the ones heâs grown accustomed to love. Natural lashes in comparison to y/nâs pretty extensions he pays for. Theyâre both so beautiful, yet so different to him. Especially in the way they hold his gaze. When he kisses Sofia itâs not quite as intoxicating, yet he likes it nonetheless. Her scent not as addictive but he still finds himself burying his nose into her neck as he hugs her. While Sofia is all earthly beauty, y/n is pure glamour. Sofia is soft, meek, not a touch of makeup kisses her pretty face. Whereas y/n is more resilient, durable and she has to be in the line of work she succumbed to. With the way of life she lived. Her gorgeous face accentuated by flawlessly done makeup. He doesnât think she needs it, but he loves it nonetheless. Sofiaâs nails are always blunt and rarely polished, y/nâs nails always have a nicely perfected manicure. Sofia loves sandals and sneakers, y/n loves wedges and heels. Sofiaâs lips always moisturized with chapstick, y/n lips always glimmering with gloss. He likes how different they are from their personalities to their styles. Theyâre like day and night. Polar opposites so beautiful in their own right. Heâs a selfish, selfish man. He knows one day heâll have to choose, but for nowâŠ.he holds both hearts in the palm of his hand. Only one of them is feeling the stabbing pain of abandonment and pining the other has the pleasure of not being subjected too. He knows it, yet he canât help it. Sofia is pure routine, y/n is his passion. Being with her is like being inebriated. Like an adrenaline rush he always craves, that he loves. He lives for it.
âAnd when her old man comes to call
He finds her waiting like a lonesome queen.
âCause to be by her side
It's such a change from old routine.â
Y/n waits, she always will. She knows heâll be back. Sheâs begged him to stay, but he never does. Just a quick promise of his awaited return as his fully clothed body steps to her naked one which is kneeling in the satin sheets. A representation of the vulnerability sheâs subjected herself to just for his approval. Her long lashes clumped with tears as her chin wobbles. He thinks she looks so beautiful like this; the dark part of him liking the way she longs and whines for him. He always gives her chin a quick pinch as he pulls away from their kiss and steps out of the bedroom. Y/n always falls back into the sheets as the tears that watered in her lash line fall down her smooth cheeks. Listening to his footsteps farthering and ultimately the front door closing shut as he leaves her once more.
She knows why, she knows what she is. A secret, a mistress. His side girl. She canât help it; the desire she has for him overcoming her self worth and respect for his girlfriend. She feels the grief that fills her body every time he leaves, only to disappear every time he returns. She canât bring herself to end it. Canât bring herself to leave him alone, or give him an ultimatum that itâs me or her. She knows itâs pathetic, yet she canât bring that thought to overcome the undying love sheâs developed for him. So she does as he wants, she waits for him. She always will. When her body lays back down, and sheâs sure heâs gone. Only then is when she lets the overwhelming hurt leave her body in sobs of pure anguish as she lets sleep overtake her body. Succumbing to the fatigue of a heart that is continually broken.
âThe other woman will always cry herself to sleep
The other woman will never have his love to keep.â
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a/n: was feeling angsty tn ugh. i hope you all enjoy, pls let me know your thoughts! muah!
Bunny (P12)
Rafe Cameron x Maybank!Reader
summary: Struggling to keep her and JJâs home afloat, Y/N turns to the only option that guarantees fast cash- stripping at a club on the Cut. But when Rafe Cameron catches her in the act, he sees the perfect opportunity to tighten his grip around her life.
a/n: well bazinga. here we are- I'm loving you guys all fangirling over rafe and bunny cause they're such cutie patooties. But happiness is not for free, so I'm really really sorry about this one- I hope ya'll can forgive me. (and rafe) (idk if I can)
warnings: angst :(, alcohol, smoking, weed, violence, fights, drunkenness, rafe being a little bitch
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The air is heavy with the lingering warmth of the day, the sky streaked with dying gold and violet as Y/N steps out the back exit of the country club. The low hum of insects fills the silence, broken only by the soft scrape of her boots against the pavement. Her shoulders are tired, the strap of her bag crumpled in one hand, and she taps her phone screen with the other, the glow casting light across her features, a new message flashing on the screen.
JJ : Lost my charger again
JJ. : Its okay tho cuz I took yours
JJ : I'll give it back
JJ : (I won't)
A laugh spills quietly from her lips, soft and genuine. That familiar feeling of warmth spreads through her chest at his messages. It'd been a few weeks since she'd come back from Charleston- since JJ had finally got a job. And she had to admit he was trying, really trying, so now their long awkward conversation which ended with deafening silence had eased in to sweet and stupid messages and playful banter which filled the walls of their bedrooms once more. Her fingers typed out a replyâ
Y/N : u better u loser
She places the phone into her pocket and glances up- and then stops dead in her tracks. Her carâs parked at the far end of the staff lot, right where she left it but what she didnât leave, was the sleek black Range Rover sitting beside it, the glossy paint catching the orange hues of the setting sun. She stiffens immediately, scanning the lot, no one around and her steps towards her car quicken. The driverâs side door opens, and Rafe steps out, tall and unbothered, his hands in the pockets of his dark jacket, and thereâs that stupid smirk playing on his lips. Her heart jumps straight into her throat. âRafeââ she hisses under her breath, marching toward him with panic in her eyes.
âWhat the hell are you doing here?!â
He lifts a shoulder in a casual shrug, voice low and smooth, âWhat? I canât come see you?â
âNot in the staff parking lot,â she snaps in a hushed whisper, âDo you want someone to see you? What if someone from inside walks outââ
âRelaxâ
He says gently, stepping forward and before she can argue more, his hands are at her hips, warm and familiar, tugging her closer until her body is brushing against his in the narrow space between the cars. The proximity knocks the air from her lungs. Her hands instinctively rest against his chest, palms flat over the material of his t-shirt where she can feel his heartbeat, steady and calm beneath her fingers.
Hers? Not so much.
âThereâs no one around...â
He murmurs, head tilted down as he looks at her, his voice softer now, velvety and coaxing and her breath catches. She should push him away. She should tell him this is reckless, stupid, dangerous. But his scent- musky and alluring- clouds her thoughts. And his touch, just the lightest press of fingertips against the small of her backâ is so familiar now, so comforting in its own twisted way. And she hates that itâs comforting. Her fingers twitch against his chest. She finally manages a whisper her words stubborn,
âYou shouldnât be here.â
âI know,â he says, and thereâs the smallest hint of a smile in his voice as he leans in just a fraction closer, breath ghosting against her temple.
âBut I wanted to be.â
She rolls her eyes with a long, exaggerated sigh, but her lips betray her- tugging upward at the corners, betraying the way heâs already wormed his way into her mood.
âWeâre gonna get caughtâ
She mutters under her breath, glancing toward the dark stretch of the staff lot like someone might materialise from the shadows. The words barely leave her lips, soft and hurried, like they know better than to draw attention. Rafe just smirks, tilting his head down slightly, his chin angling toward her as he closes the few inches left between them.
âNot if you kiss me quickâ
He says, voice low and roughened with amusement. Her eyes squint in a playful glare, head pulling back a fraction.
âYouâre so annoying.â
But her body leans in all the same.
Her fingers find the soft t-shirt, curling into the fabric without even thinking. She rises onto the balls of her feet, just barely, and presses a kiss to his lips. Itâs quick and lightâbarely a brush. Just a flicker of warmth, like a secret passed between two people in the dark. As she pulls away, his face follows hers- like his lips are trying to chase the kiss sheâs already taken back. He doesnât even think about it, just dips forward slightly, a greedy edge in his movement. She breathes out a small laugh, pushing against his chest with a single finger. âNope,â she says, her smile widening.
âI'm hungry.â
"Yeah well so am I"
He lets his hands slip from her hips with a groan thatâs more for show than anything, head rolling back as he leans against the hood of his car. She just shrugs, the inuendo lost on her ears as she adjusts the bag on her shoulder.
âYouâre such a tease Bunnyâ
He drawls and she snorts, already turning on her heel to head toward the trunk of her car.
âI donât know what you mean Cameron.â
Her fingers make quick work of the car key, popping the trunk. She grabs the rolled-up apron resting on top her bag and tosses it in alongside her worn-out tote bag, the whole thing collapsing into a pile on top of an old hoodie and a dented water bottle. The sound of the trunk slamming shut echoes across the empty lot. Spinning back around to face him, she crosses her arms and leans her weight into one hip, chin tilted up with that same little smile that drives him crazy.
âYou really wanna get caught by one of your little Kook friends out here with me?â she teases, cocking a brow. âHave to explain why youâve been slumming it with a Pogue?â
His smirk twitches- just a smidge. For the briefest moment, his expression shifts and something softer creeps into it. Something a little more sincere. His gaze lingers on her face longer than it should and then flickers back down to her lips before returning back up again.
âWouldnât care if they didâ
He says simply, a quiet shrug rolling off his shoulders as if he means it, as if it's the simplest answer in the world. It catches her off guard- freezes her for a beat. Her mouth opens, then closes again but she recovers quick, brushing it off with a scoff and a roll of her eyes.
âYouâre so full of shit.â
But even as the words leave her lips, thereâs a faint flicker of something else behind her voice- something almost moved. Something she doesnât want to name because itâs been a few weeks since that night.
A few weeks since she tilted her milkshake to her lips and he wiped the sweet drip from her skin with his thumb like it meant nothing. Since he kissed her like heâd been holding back for months and she melted into it like her body had been waiting on that exact moment to exhale. And since then? Itâs been a series of late-night meet ups that feel like a secret thread connecting them. Not the kind that spun in liesâbut the kind too delicate to speak aloud. The kind you carry with careful hands and quiet hearts in fear of it snapping. Every night, after her shift ends and the world turns quiet, she finds him waiting. Always parked in the back corner of some parking lotâheadlights off, music low and she slips into the passenger seat without a word, throws her bag in the back, kicks off her shoes, and leans over to kiss him like sheâs been holding her breath all day.
The kisses are slow at first. Always. A shared pause. But then they tip into something deeper, heavierâlike theyâre trying to memorise each other without crossing any lines they havenât drawn out loud- but it never goes further than that. His hands stay respectful, if not reverent- one cupping her jaw, the other braced on the back of her seat or tangled gently on her waist, on her hip, in her hair. Her fingers clutch the hem of his shirt like a tether, holding on but not pulling him in any closer than he already is.
Thereâs a quiet fire, always simmering, but neither of them dare feed it too much. Neither of them dare ask what they are. Itâs easier this way. Safer. They stay pressed into the quiet hum of those car rides, the warmth of shared fries, the heat of stolen kisses in the dark, and the steady, unspoken beat of something theyâve both grown addicted to but donât yet understand.
Rafe leaned against the top of her car, forearms braced over the roof like he had all the time in the world. The late golden hour sun dipped low, casting long shadows over the near-empty staff lot behind the country club. His eyes squinted slightly from the light, jaw sharp as ever, that casual grin tugging at the corner of his mouth âWhatâs your hurry today, huh?â he drawled lazily, peering down at her with a teasing glint.
âYou extra hungry or what?â
Y/N huffed, already halfway into the driverâs seat of her little beat-up car, one leg in, one out, âNo asshole- I just donât want anyone to spot us, okay?â
Rafe chuckled under his breath, the sound low and unbothered. He shrugged one shoulder and pushed off the car just enough to stretch lazily.
âItâs not a big deal.â
She snapped her head up to look at him, her tone sharper now, âYeah, actually Rafeâit is a big deal. Because if JJ finds outââ
âI knowâ
He cut in, dragging a hand over his jaw, irritation flashing in his eyes. âIf JJ finds out, heâll be mad. Whatever. I get it, okay? No need to tell me again.â
The words hung between them for a second, heavier than either wanted them to be. The silence wasnât angry- but it was tense. The same argument they hadnât quite had, bubbling beneath their stolen moments. He stood there now by her open car door, his figure blocking some of the sunlight, casting a soft shadow over her where she sat inside the car. From where she was, her eye level landed right at his belt. Her gaze softened a bit, guilt tugging at her gut. Then her hand came up, absent-minded and almost sheepish, her fingers catching on the loop of his jeans. She played with it lightly, tugging once. A peace offering. His eyes flicked down to her hand, then to her face, jaw still tight. She asked quietly, tilting her head up at him with a playful sort of pout, brows lifted just a touch.
âYou mad..?â
âNo,â he replied, voice low. âWhy would I be mad?â
She shrugged, still toying with the denim loop, âI dunno. I thoughtââ she cut herself off, shaking her head a little, âDoesnât matter.â
Rafe didnât press. He let it hang, then gave a soft hum, looking around the lot- empty still, save for their two cars and the rustle of wind through the nearby trees. âSo,â he drawled, rocking back slightly on his heels.
âWe going to get something to eat or what?â
Y/N brightened a little, grateful for the pivot. âIâm feelinggggâŠâ she stretched the word dramatically, âChinese?â
He smiled at that slightly, nodding, âChinese sounds good.â
âCool,â she said, pulling her legs fully into the car now, âIâll meet you there then?â
He gave a small nod, âYeah⊠yeah.â
But she could tell- by the way he paused before turning away, by the way his fingers twitched at his side- that he was still holding onto a bit of a grudge. He hadnât gotten his kiss, not a real one. And that wounded pride was showing, even if he tried to hide it behind his nonchalant façade. She rolled her eyes with a soft exhale- who would have thought Rafe Cameron was so needy?
Reaching up, she curled her fingers into the front of his T-shirt, tugging him gently back down toward her, guiding him until he bent slightly, face now level with hers. His breath hitched, eyelashes fluttering as he leaned into her touch. She kissed him then- firm, but warm. Just enough to melt that sulking tension in his brow. His lips moved against hers with a soft hum, his hand bracing on the edge of her door as he leaned in a fraction more, savouring it. When she pulled back, his eyes were still half-lidded, lips parted like he wanted to chase her mouth again.
âYou done now, you baby?â
She murmured with a crooked smile, eyes teasing but fond. Rafeâs smirk returned, slow and smug. âYeah,â he murmured, straightening up,
âIâm done now.â
And with that, he backed away from the car, hands in his jacket pockets like he hadnât just been melting under her touch. She watched him retreat toward his car, her heart doing that dumb little flutter it always did lately, it lingered in her chest. Just as his door swung open, he looked back over his shoulder, eyebrows raised.
âDonât forget the egg rolls.â
She rolled her eyes and started her car.
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The quiet hum of the radio filled the space between them, the soft crackle of music soothing after a long day. They sat there in the dim light of the car, the smell of Chinese food mingling with the fresh evening air that drafted in through the slightly cracked window. Y/N leaned back against the seat, her legs tucked up beneath her as she dug into her takeout container. Rafe sat beside her, elbow propped up on the door, his free hand reaching for his food, the sound of plastic utensils scraping against the containers faint in the otherwise still air. Rafe asked, his voice low as he finally broke the silence, his eyes flicking over to her as he stuffed a piece of chicken in his mouth.
âHow was work?â
âIt was⊠okayâ
Y/N muttered, chewing before she continued, eyes shifting away from him for a moment, âHad this asshole customer... one of your friends actually.â
âOne of my friends? Who?â
Rafeâs brow furrowed, his gaze narrowing slightly in curiosity as he put his food down. Y/N rolled her eyes as she leaned back, crossing her arms over her chest, her expression calm despite the frustration in her voice.
âThat guy Brett? The one you hang out with sometimes. Total jerk.â
âWhy, what did he do?â
Her expression tightened as she recounted the experience, âhe kept clicking his fingers in my face like I was some kind of dog, and whenever I went over to his table, he called me âwaitressâ like Iâm not even good to have a name? God he was so patronising.â
âHe really did that?â
He asked, disbelief creeping into his tone, jaw clenched. Y/N tilted her head toward him, not missing the change in his expression.Â
âYeah, why? You donât believe me?â
âNoâ He muttered, his voice hardening a little as he picked up his food again, his hand gripping the chopsticks tighter than necessary.
âI believe you.â
He took a bite, chewing slowly as he fought the frustration that was rising inside him. A small silence settled between them, the only sound the soft clinking of their chopsticks against the takeout containers. Rafe didnât like that she had to deal with people like that, didnât like it one bit.
âWhatâre you doing tomorrow?â
He asked, his voice casual, but something unreadable flickered in his eyes. Y/N turned her head slowly toward him, her expression soft but guarded as she mumbled,
âWorking.â
Rafe blinked raising an eyebrow, âItâs SaturdayâŠ?â
âYeah, and?â She shrugged, taking another bite of her food, her voice low and almost dismissive. âIâm broke, Rafe. Iâm always working.â
His eyes darkened again as he placed his food down with a soft clink, his fingers tapping against the lid of the container. He wasnât about to let this go- he hated it, and they both knew it. He took a sip of his drink, the cold liquid hitting his throat like a jolt, but it did nothing to cool the fire that was building in him. He put the cup back in the cup holder with a sigh, his voice quieter but still firm.
âI donât see why you canât just take a break. You donât always have to work.â
âWeâre not having this conversation again Rafe.â
Y/Nâs eyes flickered over to him, her face hardening slightly as she gave him a pointed look. He frowned, the words heavy in the air.
âLook, I get that maybe you think itâs embarrassing to accept myââ
âIf you keep talking about this,â she interrupted, her tone sharper now, âIâm getting out of your car.â
His eyes narrowed as he looked at her, taking in the shift in her expression- the quiet defensiveness there, the exhaustion she was trying to hide. He didnât want to push her too hard, but he couldnât stop himself from trying. He paused, the weight of her words sinking in, then gave a short, almost defeated nod, like he was choosing to back off of the subject for now. Y/N didnât say anything in response, her eyes softening as she turned back to her food, the brief tension hanging in the air like smoke. She had already given him her answer. She had already drawn the line before, and Rafe knew heâd have to respect itâfor now. The silence that settled between them wasnât heavy but it wasnât uncomfortable either. Just... quiet. Their takeout containers were nearly empty now, the scent of soy and spice lingering faintly in the car, blending with the low hum of music still playing in the background. Y/N had reclined her seat a bit, one leg tucked up under the other, the other stretched out, socked foot resting against the dashboard. Her shoes sat forgotten on the floor, and a soft breeze drifted in through the cracked window, brushing gently against her skin.
Rafe glanced over at her, his arm draped over the back of her seat, thumb idly brushing the seam of the leather. She looked content, even if a little tired- hair slightly messy from the day, lashes casting soft shadows across her cheekbones as she stared out at nothing in particular. He liked seeing her like this, unfiltered.
âThereâs a party tomorrow nightâ
He said suddenly, voice quiet but breaking the lull between them. He reached forward, placing his empty cup in the holder before leaning back again, tapping a slow rhythm on his thigh. She turned her head lazily, brows knitting together slightly.
âA party?â
He nodded, âOne of the beach houses on Figure Eight. Bunch of peopleâll be there.â He paused, then looked over at her, expression unreadable.
âYou should come.â
âMe?â
Her head lifted a little more now, blinking at him like she wasnât sure sheâd heard that right. âYeah.â He gave a slow shrug, feigning casual, but his eyes were locked on hers, watching closely.
âIâm gonna be there...â
âSince when do you want me showing up to a Kook party?â
Y/N sat up slightly in her seat, feet slipping from the dashboard and landing softly on the floor. He smirked lightly, but it didnât quite reach his eyes.
âSince now.â
There was a beat of silence, then another. Her gaze searched his face, trying to find the catchâbut there wasnât one. Just Rafe, looking at her like he didnât care if the whole island had something to say about her. She asked, voice lower now, almost testing him.
âYou serious?â
âYeah- I am.â
He leaned a little closer, one arm still draped along the back of her seat. Y/N pulled her bottom lip between her teeth, watching him, chewing over the offer in her mind. The idea of being in that world with no responsibilities- even just for a night- felt risky. Foreign. But something in the way he was looking at her made it hard to say no.
âI don't know Rafe... Iâd stick out like a sore thumb besides people will talk-â
"-people always talkâ
He shot back cutting her off slightly, amused as she frowned slightly, arms crossing tighter as she shook her head a little.
âThis is different. You know it is.â
Rafe tilted his head thinking deeply, but didnât press her just yet, âYour friendâs gonna be there,â he said instead, voice smooth as ever.
âMyâwhat? Who?â
âSofia, right?â
He squinted slightly and Y/N straightened a little, her mouth dropping open at the mention of the girls name.
âSofiaâs going?â
âYeah.â He was smirking now. âThat guy sheâs been seeing? The new Kook on the island? Heâs the one throwing it.â
âShe hasnât told me that,â Y/N muttered, staring at him.
âWell.â He turned more toward her, resting his elbow against the console and tapping the edge of her thigh with his fingers playfully.
âLooks like youâre not the only one with a dirty little secret.â
She let out a shocked laugh, eyes widening at the words passing his lips before narrowing her gaze at him as she shoved his shoulder back, playful but not gentle,
âYouâre such a dick, Cameron.â
He only grinned, letting her shove him- indulging in the feeling of her touch even if momentary. Y/N gave a little scoff and turned away, but her smile lingered. A beat of silence passed over them before she spoke out, âFine,â she said, like it pained her to admit it.
âI guess I can⊠think about it.â
âThink about it?â Rafe echoed with mock offense, sitting up straighter, âSeriously?â
âMhm.â
She didnât look at him this time, just smirked and reached down to close her container, the sound of clicking plastic filling the car. She then bent over placing it down on the floor, and as she sat back up Rafe leaned in closer again, slower this time, the tip of his nose brushing her jaw before his lips followed. He kissed the curve beneath her ear, then slowly worked his lips down the side of her neck.
"Maybe I can persuade you to come hmm...?"
âYouâre such a pervâ
She mumbled through a grin, her hand finding his chest and giving him a half-hearted push. He pulled back slightly, lips acting from her skin as he muttered,
âSo⊠still a no?â
âFine... Iâll come.â
She rolled her eyes, biting back a smile that betrayed her. Rafe sat back accomplished as he spoke out, âKnew you'd give in.â
âBut,â she added, wagging a finger at him. âYouâre not glued to me all night, okay? Or people will notice.â
âRelax. Weâll keep it lowkey.â
He gave her that cocky, lopsided grin again and before she could snark back another smart-assed comment, he hit the button on the side of his seat. With a low mechanical whir, his chair reclined all the way back, and he stretched out like a king- arms behind his head, t-shirt rising just enough to show a sliver of his toned stomach. Then he patted his thigh, smirking.
âSo⊠where were we?â
Y/N shook her head, heat prickling her cheeks as she shifted toward him again, âYouâre ridiculous,â she muttered, but her knees were already crawling across the seat.
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The sun had long dipped below the tree line now, and the soft golden wash of string lights gave the Chateau its usual hazy, warm glow. A lazy summer night settled in with the gentle hum of cicadas in the distance and the low bass of music crackling from the old speaker propped up on a makeshift crate. Everyone was sprawled out in their usual places- Cleo had her legs kicked up on the railing, passing a blunt between her fingers, while Pope leaned back in one of the rickety lawn chairs, letting the smoke curl from his mouth toward the night sky. JJ was stretched across the hammock, shirtless of course, balancing a beer on his chest while making some offhand joke that had Kiara snorting into her drink. John B sat on the edge of the porch, Sarah curled comfortably in his lap, her fingers absentmindedly threading through his messy hair as she hummed along to the music. Then, like she suddenly remembered something juicy, Sarahâs voice piped up.
âOh! I almost forgot to tell you guys.â
Everyoneâs eyes flicked toward her lazily, half-baked or halfway drunk. JJ raised an eyebrow, already skeptical. âThereâs this party tomorrow night. One of the beach houses on Figure Eight â some rich kidâs throwing it. But I got the invite,â she emphasized with a little smirk, twirling a lock of her blonde hair,
âwhich means you guys can come too!â
There was a collective beat of silence, then came the chaos.
âA kook party?â Pope made a face. âNah, Iâm good.â
âHard passâ
Kiara chimed in, swirling what was left in her cup. JJ sat up a bit in the hammock, giving Sarah a look of exaggerated offence, âSarah â my best friendâs dearest girlfriend â why the hell would I willingly put myself in a room full of kooks with their Vineyard Vines shirts and trust funds?â
âKook fest? I don't think so- rude boy's got a point."
Cleo added, completely unfazed. Sarah groaned dramatically, tossing her head back against John Bâs shoulder, âGuys, everyone on the islandâs been invited. Literally everyone. You want to miss the one time we can sneak in and drink their expensive-ass booze and pretend to be civilised?â
John B scratched the back of his neck, âI mean⊠Sare, are you sure this is a good idea? These things usually end in someone getting arrested or beat up.â
âThatâs what makes it fun,â she shot back smiling up at him, âCome on, baby...â
JJ shook his head with a mock sigh, âI do love chaos, but I also love not getting decked by some pastel-wearing rich boy with a superiority complex.â
âCâmonnn,â Sarah pleaded, eyes bouncing between them all. âFree booze. Loud music. Rich kids being embarrassing. You telling me you wanna miss that?â JJ glanced around, took a swig of his beer, then shrugged like he was warming up to the idea.
âFree booze, huh?â
âLike actually freeâ
Sarah said, perking up as she nodded her head. Kiara sighed before adding to the ongoing debate. âOkay I guess if we go in a group, itâs not like they can kick us all out.â
Pope laughed, âThatâs comforting.â
âSo itâs decided then?â
Sarah asked, clapping her hands and JJ leaned back with a smirk.
âEh why the hell not.Â
The chatter faded back into that familiar haze- the music a little louder now, the clinking of glass bottles, occasional bursts of laughter echoing under the soft glow of the porch lights. JJ had flopped dramatically back into the hammock, tossing a peanut at Pope, who swatted it away with a sharp âcut that outâ, but he was grinning as he said it. Kiara and Cleo were side by side, passing the blunt like it was a baton in the slowest relay race known to man, and Sarah was still curled into John B, nose buried in his neck as she murmured something that made him laugh under his breath. Then the crunch of gravel under tires caught their ears- a car rolling up toward the end of the drive, headlights slicing through the trees. Everyone instinctively turned to look, and when the engine cut and the door swung open, a familiar silhouette stepped out.
âY/N!â
Sarah called out instantly, lifting her hand in a wave. JJ was already in motion. He practically leapt out of the hammock with a lopsided grin on his face, his movements loose and full of that buzzed joy that lived in him when he was around his people. He jogged toward her, arms wide like he was about to tackle her. Y/N had barely rounded her door when JJ crashed into her, arms circling tight around her waist and lifting her a few inches off the ground in a twirling hug. She let out a breathless laugh, one arm instinctively hooking around his shoulder.
âJay, are you drunk?â
âYes maâamâ
He said proudly, nuzzling his nose against her cheek like a sleepy golden retriever. John B called out from the porch, raising his beer in salute.
âAnd high!â
âWow what a responsible crowd Iâve joined.â
She looked past JJ and shook her head smiling, JJ grinned and still half-latched to her side laced his fingers between hers and started tugging her toward the group.
âWelcome, my dear sister, to the finest motive on the island.â
âYeah, it looks so litâ
Y/N snorted as she said dryly, eyeing the half-deflated pool float on the lawn and Kiara using a stick to fish a beer bottle cap out of the fire pit. Pope looked up and offered her a beer, cracking open another one.
âYou want?â
âNah, Iâm driving.â
She shook her head, raising a hand politely. JJ was still practically glued to her back, and now his chin came to rest on her shoulder, his head leaning sleepily against hers like gravity had chosen her specifically. She glanced sideways, her voice softening.
âYou okay, mister?â
âRight as rainâ
He murmured, words muffled against the collar of her white work polo. Y/N smiled to herself and brought one hand up to gently pat his cheek, a small fondness in her eyes. She dropped down onto the worn-out quilt Pope had stretched across the grass, tucking her legs beneath her and setting her keys in a little pile beside the cooler. The smell of bonfire smoke and salty air clung to everything, and the mellow strum of a guitar looped in the background from someoneâs Bluetooth speaker. The Chateau felt hazy with summer warmth and low buzzed laughter, like time didnât really exist here.
âY'missed blondie trying to backflip off the porch railingâ
Cleo said, raising her eyebrows at the girl, a grin tugging at the corner of her mouth as she handed her a cold bottle of water. Pope snorted from where he sat beside her,
âMore like he tripped, flailed, and then landed face-first into the lawn chair. Truly a work of art.â
âSounds about right.â
Y/N laughed, tilting her head back slightly as she wiped sweat from her brow with the back of her hand. âY/N!â Sarah suddenly perked up from where she was comfortably curled up on John Bâs lap, her legs stretched out across the blanket and her fingers idly threading through his curls.
âI almost forgot to tell you- weâre all going to a party tomorrow night. You have to comeâ
âOhâuhâŠâ
Y/N hesitated for a split second. Shit. Rafe had already invited her out tomorrow- there was no way she could show up two places at the same time. She furrowed her brows thinking of a quick excuse, âI donât think I can,â she said slowly.
âSofia asked me to cover her shift tomorrow night. Late shift.â
The groans came instantly.
âNooooâ Kiara moaned out in disappointment. âAgain?â Cleo frowned as she spoke, âGirl, youâre always working.â JJ leaned up, pulling a dramatic face as he sat up behind her, one hand propped on the ground and the other pointing accusingly.
âY/N- my sweet, overachieving sister. You never go out.â
âI do go out!â
âWhen?!â JJ countered, hand waving wildly, âName one time that we went out that didnât involve grocery shopping or pretending not to cry while pumping gas for my bike cause you can't afford it.â
âJJ, please,â she groaned, rubbing at her forehead the others watching the small sibling quarrel, âSofia never gets nights off. I have to fill in for her.â
But even as she said it, her mind was moving. What if I go to Rafeâs first? Just for a bit. Then come late, no one would know, they're on different sides of the island. She knew it was risky but- it was worth the risk if it meant getting her brother off her back. She sighed, trying to keep it casual.
âWhere is it anyway... maybe I can stop by before it ends.â
Sarah perked up instantly at the question, âNew guy just moved into this insane house on Figure 8- Iâm technically on the guest list, so by extension, that means all of you get to come.â
Y/N froze.
Her stomach sank, itâs the same party. Her chest tightened like a fist was forming right behind her ribs. The same one Rafe is going to and now⊠JJ would be there. All of them would be there. She forced a tight smile, heart beating a little faster and her throat closed up slightly. She canât go. She canât risk itâJJ seeing her with Rafe? No. Absolutely not. That would ruin everything. Heâd lose it. Heâd probably have a fit and if he didnât, the look in his eyes would be worse. She felt herself retreat inward for a split second- like her body was still sitting there on the blanket, but her mind was miles away, spiralling in panic. Then- she forced it back. Forced her lips into a smile, stretched just wide enough to pass as real. She said, voice smooth,
âIâll see if I can make itâ
âYeah?â
JJ looked over at her, suspiciously squinting, she nodded without hesitation.
âMaybe just for a bit.â
Even as the lie came out of her mouth, her brain was already racing. Y/N cleared her throat softly, still gripping the now half-empty water bottle in her hand. Her eyes swept across the group lounging lazily on the worn blankets and cushions sprawled out on the overgrown lawn.
âI actually think Iâm gonna head back nowâ
She said, standing up slowly and brushing the bits of grass and twigs from her shorts, âJust came to check up on you guys.â
JJ looked up from where he was sitting cross-legged now on a faded beach towel, lips wrapped around the neck of his beer bottle, and gave her a lazy, crooked smile. He winked, blonde hair a windswept mess.
âMission accomplished sis.â
She rolled her eyes at him, amusement flickering behind her lashes, and bent to grab her keys from the little crate theyâd been using as a table.
âYou coming back or staying the night?â
She asked, giving him a look as she nodded toward the house, her tone light but a little pointed the role of big sister coming naturally. Before JJ could even open his mouth to respond, John B was already groaning dramatically from the other side of the blanket. âTake him,â he said, flopping his head back against the tree behind him.
âPlease. I donât want him here. He eats everything and he talks in his sleep.â
Sarah burst into laughter in his lap, her whole body shaking with it as she nearly spilled the beer in her hand. âHe really does! The other night he mumbled something about raccoons with spatulas.â
âThat was one time!â
JJ threw his hands up like he was being framed for a crime. Y/N just bit back a laugh, fighting back a grin watching the chaos unfold with fondness. JJ tilted his head, smirking toward her. âAnd just because of that,â he said smug as hell,
âI shall be staying the night here. With Mr. John Booker Routledge.â
A round of exaggerated groans erupted from the rest of the group. Y/N laughed under her breath, her fingers still gripping her keys as she shook her head fondly at them. âAlright, alright,â she said,
âHave fun then... donât get too smashed.â
âNo promises!â Kiara called out with a wide smile, raising her can in salute.
âSpeak for yourself,â Pope muttered. âI have dignity unlike some.â
That earned another laugh from the group.
Y/N smiled again, softer this time, eyes briefly flicking back to her brother. He caught her gaze and shot her a lopsided grin, one that still looked more boyish than he probably intended. It made something ache a little in her chest- an affection threaded with worry sheâd never admit out loud.
âNight Jayâ
She murmured before reaching over to ruffle his hair messily. He smiled her lazily before flopping back onto the blanket like a man who had no thoughts, no responsibilities, and no idea that his sister was walking a tightrope he couldnât see. Y/N turned, the noise behind her fading into the hum of summer insects and music humming from the portable speaker, and walked back to her car,
The car door creaked softly as Y/N pulled it open, the familiar weight of it grounding her just a little. She slid into the driverâs seat and shut the door behind her with a muted thunk, the quiet inside the car swallowing up the laughter still drifting from the Chateau. The engine wasnât running yet, and the warm evening air clung to her skin like a second layer. It smelled like sun-warmed leather and pine needles.
For a moment, she just sat there. Her fingers hovered over her bag before she reached in and pulled out her phone, the screen lighting up as soon as her thumb brushed the side. No new messages. Just the same old wallpaper of a blurry sunset and the faint glint of her own reflection staring back. She hesitated and her thumb hovered over the screen for another beat- then tapped into her messages.
Rafe
The name alone made her chest tighten a little. She bit down on her lower lip, chewing at the soft skin absently. Her other hand reached up to pull her hair away from her face, then fell limply against her lap. The inside of the car felt like it was shrinking. âShit,â she muttered under her breath, a sharp whisper into the quiet. She tapped the messages open. Leaning her head back, she let it fall gently against the headrest, eyes blinking up at the roof of the car as she let out a long, tired sigh. Her fingers rested against the phone in her lap, before tapping her fingers against the screen.
She started typing. Hey, change of plans. I might notâ Backspace. No. Too vague so she tried again. Something came upâ Backspace. Her heart thudded in her chest, slow and heavy. Then she typed with more finality this time:
Bunny : I'm sorry but I can't do tmr
She stared at it. Read it once. Then twice. Then, with a small exhale that she couldnât quite tell was relief or regret, she hit send. The text shot off into the thread, disappearing into that blue bubble like a stone dropped into deep water. She locked her phone again, let her head fall back against the seat, eyes fluttering closed. Her lips pressed into a line. Maybe thatâs for the best, she told herself. Maybe-
Buzz.
Her eyes snapped open. The screen lit up and she unlocked it quickly, thumb tapping into the thread without thinking.
Rafe : what why not
Short and blunt. Her stomach twisted, that anxious little knot curling a bit tighter as her thumbs moved again.
Bunny : Your sisterâs going to be there which means JJâs gonna be there
She sat there, holding her breath like itâd keep her heart from thudding so hard. The typing bubble appeared instantly, three dots bouncing like they knew what they were about to say was going to matter more than it should.
Rafe : so what?
Of course, she thought bitterly, jaw tightening. But before she could respond, another message popped up. She blinked, stunned by how he could sound so calm about something that made her whole chest tighten.
Rafe : Why is that a problem
Bunny : Itâs a problem cause heâll see us
Her fingers tapped harder this time and her hand trembled slightly as she held the phone. She hated thisâhow tense it made her. How she had to think of all the possible consequences when Rafe didnât even seem to care.
Rafe : are you serious
Bunny : Yes Iâm serious wtf do u mean???
Her reply came before she could even second-guess herself but then⊠nothing. No bubble, no typing dots and her eyes flicked to the corner of the screen at the bottom. Read. That was it? He read it and then disappeared. A dry laugh escaped her lips, more disbelieving than amused. She pushed her palm against her forehead, trying to will away the creeping frustration crawling beneath her skin.
Rafe : Youâre really gonna let your brother control us
Bunny : Heâs not controlling us
Rafe : Well heâs controlling this.
Her teeth sunk into her lip again, harder this time as the message made her fingers still. She stared at the words, something bitter blooming behind her ribs. Then she typed, slowly, like the question had been sitting on her tongue for a while- because it had.
Bunny : What is this
Bunny : What even is 'this' Rafe?
Read
The air in the car felt heavy now. Thick with silence and words that would never be spoken aloud. She watched the screen for a beat. Then two. Then five. The beats turned into a minute but still there was no response from him so her fingers moved again of their own accord.
Bunny : seriously
Bunny : Leaving me on read are you being for real
Bunny : Hello?
Still.
No answer.
Her mouth twisted into a scoff, this one sharper. Less disbelief and more hurt. She leaned her head back against the seat, her knuckles white where she clutched the phone. She could feel it bubbling now- not anger, not really. Just⊠disappointment. That familiar ache that curled into her chest when something started to crack and she knew she couldnât fix it. Her lips pressed into a thin line and she typed one last time.
Bunny : Grow up Rafe
Then she dropped the phone into the empty cup holder with a soft clack and her hands came up, pressing into her face, covering her eyes. She let out a breath- long and slow and quiet. She didnât even know what this was anymore, or what she wanted it to be.
All she knew was that it hurt.
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The bass was thumping hard enough to make the floorboards vibrate. Music roared from massive speakers set up on the back patio of the mansion, spilling into every corner of the sprawling beach house like a pulse. The crowd was thickâKooks and Pogues alike stood packed shoulder to shoulder, laughing, grinding, shouting over the noise. Red solo cups littered the deck, the grass, the kitchen counters. Half-empty bottles of liquor sat abandoned on tables, the scent of alcohol and sweat clinging to the humid air. Inside, the lighting was low and tinted gold, shadows dancing as bodies moved through the house, more people flooded through the front door- new arrivals, drawn in by the promise of booze and the thrill of recklessness that always hung thick in the air.
Rafe was in the middle of it, standing near the table on the backyard patio where a lineup of liquor bottles had turned into a makeshift bar. His button-down was half undone, sleeves rolled up to his forearms, collar a little askew. He reached for another shot, his fingers curled tight around the glass rim as he knocked it back, throat bobbing as the burn slid down. âBro,â Kelce said, squinting as he leaned forward, voice slurred with the edge of tipsy concern.
âI never do this but- maybe slow down a littleâ
âThatâs like, your seventhâ Topper added from where he was slouched against the couch, a beer dangling between his fingers.
âYou good man?â
âIâm fineâ
Rafe muttered, his voice low, gruff, and not even remotely convincing. His jaw flexed as he ran a hand through his hair, pushing it back from his damp forehead. He didnât look at either of them as he spoke but he wasnât fine. Not even close. His head was heavy, the alcohol catching up to him in a sluggish crawl through his limbs. He could feel it in his slow, unsteady blink. In the weight of his shoulders, in the way the music felt a little too loud, a little too sharp.
She wasnât here- Y/N wasnât here.
And he hated that it mattered. Hated that he kept glancing toward the front door every time someone new walked in- just in case she'd changed her mind. Hated that he could hear her voice in the back of his mind. âI canât go, your sisterâs going to be thereâ ... âJJ will be thereâ ... âHeâll see us.â His jaw tightened as he swallowed hard, the burn of the liquor lingering in his chest. She was always so damn concerned about JJ, about keeping him in the dark- about keeping them in the dark.
Like this is all some secret she needs to protect.
Topper was saying something again, laughing about a girl heâd hooked up with last weekend, but Rafe didnât hear it. He was staring at the countertop, where drops of clear liquor beaded on the marble surface. His hand was still fisted around the empty shot glass. He looked like a storm waiting to happen- cheeks a little flushed, eyes shadowed and distant, lip twitching at the corner in a scowl. But under it all, he was sulking. Quietly. Bitterly. Like a kid who didnât get what he wanted.
And all he wanted was her.
The rumble of the Twinkie pulling up was swallowed by the thump of music echoing off the walls of the massive house. Lights flashing inside spilled through the tall windows in bursts that lit up the manicured lawn and the stretch of cars already jammed up along the curb. The Pogues piled out- John B leading the charge in his usual messy curls with Sarah right on his heels, her blonde hair catching the light like a halo. JJ slammed the passenger door shut with his hip, shoving his hands into the pockets of his loose cargo shorts, eyes flicking over the crowd on the lawn before following- Pope, Kiara and Cleo werenât far behind.
The house was huge. Open floor plan, high ceilings, the kind of kitchen you only saw on cooking shows. People were everywhereâon the stairs, pressed against walls, spilling onto balconies. It smelled like weed and citrus vodka, and someone in the hallway was definitely already throwing up. âDamn,â John B muttered as they walked in, eyebrows raised.
âThis place is nice.â
âNo shitâ
Pope said, already eyeing the built-in speakers in the ceiling. Cleo let out a low whistle and made a beeline for the massive kitchen island, where liquor bottles and mixers lined the counters like a buffet. She said with a grin, snatching a bottle of rum and starting to pour,
âThe free alcohol is even nicerâ
âNow this is why I dragged you guys here..â.â
Sarah laughed, reaching over to help herself to a half-mixed drink and Kiara grabbed a couple of plastic cups, handing them around. The music rattled the cabinets, the floor under their shoes vibrating faintly in time with the beat. People were dancing in the next room, someone yelling something about beer pong from the backyard, but the Pogues took a moment to regroup in the kitchen. JJ stood a bit apart from the group, back braced against the counter, swirling whatever was in his cup without really drinking it. His hat was pulled low, hair curling beneath the brim, and there was a little pinch between his brows that hadnât faded since they arrived. Kiara noticed first. She nudged him gently with her elbow, tilting her head toward him.
âSheâs not coming then?â
JJ blinked, not catching the question right away over the music.
âHuh?â
âY/N- sheâs not coming?â
Sarah repeated, louder this time, looking up from her drink. JJâs expression tightened for a split second, and he looked down into his cup like it suddenly had answers. âNah,â he said, voice clipped.
âSheâs not.â
There was something in the way he said it in a short and flat tone, a little irritated like he didnât want to care, but he did. Kiara gave a small nod and didnât press. Instead, she reached out, rubbed his arm gently with her hand before stepping away to help Pope crack open a bottle of something suspiciously blue. No one said anything else. But in the middle of the crowd, under the flashing lights and the pounding bass, JJ stood a little stiller than the rest. Eyes drifting toward the front door they'd came through like maybe- just maybe- sheâd still show.
Rafe shoved his way through the backyard, the lights and thumping music cutting through the cool air like a heavy pulse. He could feel the tension in his chest, the tightness that hadnât loosened since their texts earlier... "What is this"... That question had been eating at him ever since because he didn't know what it was. But that didn't change the fact that his mind kept circling back to her. The way she made him feel, how easy it was to talk to her, how easy it was to just be around her- it wasnât like anything he'd ever experienced. And it scared him. Because he wasnât the kind of guy to get tangled up in feelings, he didnât do that. But Y/N, she was different- it unsettled him. He couldnât admit that to her, though. Couldnât let her know that she was getting under his skin, into his bloodstream like a drug, that she was getting too close.
By the time he made it through the crowd and into the kitchen, he was ready for another drink, maybe more than one. The sound of glass bottles clinking and people chatting loudly barely registered in his mind as he reached the counter, eyes scanning the chaos for what he needed. He was almost there, his hand reaching for the first bottle of vodka, when he collided with someone.
Thud
He didnât even flinch, just kept moving forward until he heard a sharp, annoyed voice.
âExcuse me?â
Rafeâs shoulder had shoved into Sarah, causing her to stumble back just a little. She glared up at him, her eyes narrowing with irritation. He didnât care and he certainly wasnât in the mood for small talk with her.
âYouâre excusedâ
He muttered back, not even bothering to meet her eyes as he grabbed the bottle and twisted the cap off.
âAssholeâ
Sarah muttered under her breath, clearly unamused, but Rafe wasnât listening. He poured the liquor into his cup with a steady hand, watching the clear liquid slosh into the glass. The burn in his throat mightâve been the only thing that could numb the frustration gnawing at him. He downed it in one go, feeling it course through his body. Rafe stood near the edge of the kitchen, the alcohol still burning in his stomach as he surveyed the crowd. The noise was becoming a dull roar in the background, a blur of laughter and shouting, but his mind was still running on autopilot. He tried to focus on his drink, twisting the glass in his hand, but then something caught his ear.
JJ
He was talking to John B, and it didnât take long for Rafe to hear the frustration in his voice. JJâs words carried across the room, loud enough for Rafe to pick up on.
âI donât get it broâ
JJ was saying, his voice edged with something close to bitterness already lightly slurred from the alcohol he consumed since they arrived, âY/Nâs always working. Always dude. Itâs like- I literally got a job so she could work less? And she still canât make time for anything. Not for me. Not for us. She's always got some lame ass excuse.â
Rafeâs jaw tightened at the sound of JJâs voice, and he instinctively stepped closer to the conversation, the growing frustration in his chest gnawing at him. He watched as JJâs face twisted, anger bubbling up in his expression.
âSheâs never around anymore. Like, sheâs always somewhere else, doing something else. Itâs like she doesn't care- You know what? Maybe itâs just me she doesnât want to spend time with maybe Iâm just a fucking inconvenience to her.â
John B shifted on his feet, clearly uncomfortable, but he didnât know how to respond. He just nodded slowly, not really agreeing or disagreeing as he brought his beer bottle to his lips. Rafeâs pulse spiked. His chest felt tight, and for a moment, the room seemed to narrow around him. His fingers tightened around the glass until his knuckles went white.
He was angry.
No, he was beyond angry.
He could feel the heat rising in his body, but it wasnât just because of JJâs words. It was the way he was talking about Y/N, so dismissively, so coldly. The kitchen was still a chaotic blend of chatter and clinking glass, the music vibrating through the floor, and the air thick with alcohol. But his mind wasnât on the drink anymore. It was on herâon Y/N. On the way she would slave away all day in her shitty job only to go home to a brother who wasn't even grateful? He could hear JJâs voice cutting through the noise of the house, loud and full of venom. Rafe turned, just in time to catch the words.
âActing like sheâs such a good fuckinâ sister,â JJ spat, his words as he gestured around. âWhen she canât even take the time out of her day to talk to me. Itâs a fuckinâ jok, man..â
John B was still next to him, leaning against the counter, his eyes tired, clearly not wanting to get involved in the growing tension. But he let out a soft sigh and said,
âCome on, man. Youâre being a little harsh she does a lot for you-â
â-No. Iâm not,â
But JJ wasnât having it. His face twisted into a mix of frustration and bitterness. âShe doesn't give a damn about anyone but herself," he snapped, his voice louder now.
"Sheâs a shitty fuckinâ sister.â
Rafe could feel the anger bubbling up in his chest. He was barely holding it together at this point. His hand clenched around his glass, and without thinking, he pushed himself away from where he was and made his way towards the blonde haired pogue,âHey-â Rafeâs voice was rough, his jaw tightening,
âWatch your fuckinâ mouth.â
JJ didnât even hesitate as his brow furrowed, his head snapping toward Rafe, his eyes narrowing. The smirk on his face was all cocky arrogance, like he wasnât the least bit intimidated. Rafe stood in front of JJ, his fists clenched so tightly around the edge of the counter that his knuckles were turning white. His chest rose and fell with each breath, the alcohol in his system only amplifying the frustration that had been simmering for hours.
"You really think you know your sister?"
Rafe's voice cut through the tension like a blade, each word laced with disbelief and a deepening anger. His gaze was intense, narrowing as he stared down at JJ, his stance aggressive and unsteady from the booze. JJ didnât flinch, instead, he scoffed, the sound dripping with disdain.
âYeah, well, what the fuck do you know about her?â
The words were laced with spite, his eyes flashing as he shot back, barely holding back his irritation. He was drunk, way too much to back down. The space between them was closing, both of them leaning in slightly, their bodies tense as if they were about to collide. Rafeâs jaw tightened, his lips pressing into a thin line as his eyes flickered between JJâs face and the rest of the room. John B was already sighing, rubbing his hand over his face, clearly feeling the impending collision. His tone was a little exasperated.
âAlright, guys... let's not do this tonight.â
But his words were barely a whisper in the whirlwind of tension between JJ and Rafe. They didn't take their eyes off each other. Rafe stood his ground, every inch of his body radiating the anger and frustration heâd been holding back all night. His expression twisted into something cold, nasty, as his voice came out low, almost a growl.
"A lot more than you"
He spat, the words dripping with contempt. JJâs eyes flared with fury, and before anyone fully processed the insult, his body reacted. Without thinking, he shoved Rafe, a rough, sudden motion that sent the air between them crackling.
âWhat the fuck is that supposed to mean?â
His words were sharp, cutting through the already tense atmosphere like a knife. The crowd around them seemed to gather and the only thing that mattered now seemed to be this confrontation, the two of them standing face to face, inches away from an explosion. Rafeâs jaw clenched, his teeth gritting as he stumbled back just a half-step from the shove. But he didnât let it slide, his eyes burned with rage, and with a brutal shove of his own, he sent JJ stumbling back.
âGet off me, you dirty fucking pogueâ
He snarled, his voice a low rasp. John B and Pope, sensing the situation spiraling, rushed in to intervene, but their voices only seemed to intensify the already-fueled fire.
âHey, heyâalright JJ stop."
âCâmon manâ
John B called out, his tone a mix of frustration and concern, his hand on JJâs arm trying to pull him back. But JJ, his face red with anger, ignored them, shoving them off as if they were nothing. His eyes were locked on Rafe, his fists trembling with barely contained rage. Sarah, standing nearby, caught sight of the escalating tension and turned to Rafe with an incredulous expression.
âWhat is your problem?â
She spoke out her voice sharp as he brows drew down into a concerned frown, but Rafe didnât even glance at her. His attention was fully on JJ, the hate between them palpable. The room seemed to hold its breath, the entire kitchen watching in stunned interest as the two guys stood their postures defiant, aggressive. JJ, unable to take the weight of the situation anymore, spun on his heel and began to turn away, his anger boiling over, his fists still clenched with popes hand on his arm leading him away. But Rafeâs voice, cutting through the tense silence, sliced through the air like a final verdict.
âI pity her for having a brother like youâ
He said, the words slow and deliberate, aimed to sting. The room went deathly quiet apart from a few low mutters, and for a split second and the words hung in the air like a curse. JJ froze, his back to Rafe, the words hitting him like a punch to the gut. His body went rigid, the hurt flashing in his eyes as he clenched his jaw tighter. Kiaraâs voice came through softly, but it was too late.
âJJ donâtâ
She pleaded, but JJ had already turned and with a motion of pure, unfiltered anger, he threw a punch, his fist flying straight at Rafeâs face with all the pent-up rage heâd been holding back. The force behind it was hard enough to knock Rafe off balance, and in that moment, the air around them seemed to explode. Everything that had been building up, the tension, the anger, the frustration- finally came to a head.
And just like that, the fight erupted.
The air was thick with the sounds of punches landing, grunts of pain, and the occasional slap of skin against skin. People's previous murmuring had turned to excited yells and cheers, phones being raised as they recorded the ordeal. JJâs vision was red, every inch of his body screamed as he threw wild punches, each one landing with force, but Rafe was no slouch- he met every hit with a violent shove or a retaliatory strike of his own. JJ's jaw was clenched tight as he pushed against Rafe, throwing a punch that caught him square in the ribs, causing the other man to grunt in pain. Rafe staggered but didnât fall, instead grabbing JJâs shirt and yanking him forward with a growl. Their faces were inches apart, both of them breathing heavily, sweat and blood mixing, the scent of alcohol clouding the air. Rafeâs eyes were wild, his face contorted with anger as he bit out the words through gritted teeth, each syllable harsh and slurred.
âIf you love your sister so much, why is she always running to me when sheâs got problems, huh?â
His grip tightened on JJâs shirt, pulling him in closer, their faces just inches from one another. His words were cold, bitter. JJ blinked, his mind struggling to process what Rafe just said. His nostrils flared as his nose dripped blood, a line of crimson streaking down his face. JJâs voice was a low growl, disoriented, the anger still there but replaced by confusion.
âWhat?â
âThatâs what I thoughtâ
Rafe sneered, a harsh laugh falling from his lips, his bloodshot eyes alight with a murderous glint. JJâs fury surged again, his face lit with rage as his eyes narrowed, locking onto Rafeâs smug expression. Without warning, he launched himself forward, his head connecting with Rafeâs face in a brutal headbutt. The impact was sickening- Rafeâs head snapped back violently, and a grunt escaped him. He staggered back a step, dazed, blood oozing from his busted lip.
Rafe didnât back down, he shoved JJ with both hands, sending him stumbling back a few steps. The two of them were back at it in an instant, their bodies crashing together, fists flying in every direction. JJâs elbow connected with Rafeâs stomach, knocking the wind out of him. Rafe faltered this time, falling backward, his balance compromised. He hit the ground hard, the floor beneath him rattling. For a split second, the fight paused. Rafe lay there, stunned, his chest rising and falling rapidly, trying to catch his breath. But JJ was already on him, a feral grunt escaping his throat as he scrambled to pin Rafe down. He grabbed Rafeâs polo top, yanking him up to his face, his grip like iron. His chest was heaving, his breath coming out in harsh, ragged gasps as he leaned in close, his face twisted in disgust.
âDonât fucking talk about my sister like you know her- you don't know anything about her- you don't know her like I do.â
JJ snarled, his voice low and seething. His words were laced with every ounce of hurt, frustration, and protective anger he could muster. Rafeâs head lolled back for a moment, his eyes glazed and unfocused from the blows. He let out a drunken, mocking scoff, a bitter chuckle escaping from his busted lips. His mouth was smeared with blood, but the sneer on his face was unmistakable, even through the haze of intoxication. He muttered so only the blonde boy could hear, the words sharp, but somehow quieter than before.
âYou didnât even know she was pregnantâ
The entire world seemed to stop in that instant.
JJ's grip slackened, his fingers loosening around Rafeâs shirt and his chest tightened as the words hit him like a punch to the gut, knocking the wind out of him in an instant. John B and Pope, who had been trying to pull the two apart for the last few moments, finally managed to tear JJ off Rafe. JJ didnât resist this time, his body felt stiff like stone, his mind struggling to catch up with what he just heard. Rafe lay on the floor, barely able to lift his head, but his voice, now quieter and almost hollow, drifted through the space between them. âYeah,â he said, his words slow and deliberate,
âShe didnât tell you, JJ. She came to me.â
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