reading into irl ichiyo higuchi and dwelling on the statement that ichiyo was bound by the structure of acceptable writing for female writers at the time — having to recreate a performance of feminity which contradicted and moved around the actual way women spoke, & which notably did not come naturally to her — but managed to make it her own + express assertiveness within it nonetheless.
anyway this is all just to say that i'm so fond of the bsd higuchi-centric chapter which says she's not naturally suited the port mafia, but that she stays and tries anyway. the way she gains respect via throwing herself into a fight she expects to lose from the motivation of her love/loyalty for akutagawa. thinking primarily of ch.77 where tachihara's suitability to the mafia is defined in his recklessness, passion, and bravery— there is something to me there about how she makes those traits her own.
I hope y'all don't have Pediophobia!
I made these dolls and I can't tell if they are creepy or cute but they hold hands. 😭😭 I love them so much but they took forever to make. Sorry about the doll stands I have a blue and a red one but I can't access them at the moment.
attempt at coloring
something that confuses me in tadc is that no one feels pain in the digital circus right? (except for getting touched by abstra monster thingies or turning one yourself) SO WHY DID ZOOBLE'S HAND HURT IN THAT SCENE IN EP 4 WHEN THEY USED THEIR HAND AS A SPATULA??? so what, do they get hurt but not die? ragatha literally got stabbed with knives and thrown in a deep fryer and was fine like she did find it inconvenient tho, so I guess now that I think about it I guess that's what zooble felt too?? not exactly painful, but just inconvenient, maybe 'pain' there by objects just feel like little electric shocks
is NOBODY going to talk about how mitsuba was one of kou’s desires in the red house. mitsuba. and kou acknowledged this house gives him what he wants before he found mitsuba. you cant make this shit up. this is canon. this should be grounds enough for at MINIMUM “implied feelings on kou’s side” on the shipping wiki
if you think you're being awkward when you greet someone you haven't seen in ages, just know that I atleast appreciate it and I hope the person you greeted does too. Today, some girl at my old school that I wasn't exactly friends with; tho we were groupmates in a project once, greeted me. I was wearing a hat and my hair was a mess but she still somehow recognized me, and I realized that maybe people do somehow know me, somehow.
@kmhnweek day 3: sunrise/admiration
it was SUPPOSED to be sunrise but i goofed the colors up way too much. anyway. its a rainy sunrise. enjoy
me when I'm being haunted by my past literally and figuratively
omg so many people are interacting with my posts😱😱 (13 activity) and I've mostly just talked abt tadc and dhmis but thats bc those are what im consuming rn but im actually pretty multifandom, I could list it all down but I'm afraid we'd be here all day and I'm not very keen at the thought of typing a lot. so just wait and see for my other fandom ramblings soon.
Eyes blue, like the Atlantic
Imagine if Kunikida helped Atsushi and maybe Dazai to get their GEDs. Atsushi sure as hell didn’t get a high school education, and we can pretty much assume that Dazai didn’t either. Sure, they’d only need that to get a job, which they already have at the agency, but it’s nice to have to fall back on
Dazai annoys Kunikida by being smart as hell and putting in minimal effort (he ends up acing the exam). Atsushi earnestly tries, but he still struggles a fair bit. Kunikida, being the former teacher that he is, tries to patiently tutor him through it.
Even though he doesn’t show it, Kunikida couldn’t be more proud when they both pass