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It pains me that only 14,000 people can honestly reblog this

dam…….. that website “you feel like shit” (it’s like a questionnaire / troubleshooting guide for when you feel like shit) really works………………….. im not even all the way thru it and i even half-assed a lot of the suggestions and i already feel loads better

As someone recently diagnosed with ADHD as an adult, one thing that’s been helping me grapple with the intense shame I have over all my “wasted potential” is accepting that potential doesn’t exist and never did.

This sounds so harsh, but please bare with me.

I procrastinated a lot growing up. I still procrastinate today, but less so. And yet, I got good grades. I could write an A+ paper that “knocked [my professor]’s socks off” in the hour before class and print it with sweat running down my face.

I was so used to hearing from teachers and family that if I just didn’t procrastinate and worked all the time, I could do anything! I had all this potential I wasn’t living up to!

And that’s true, as far as it goes, but that’s like saying if Usain Bolt just kept going he could be the fastest marathon runner in the world. Why does he stop at the end of the race??

If ANYONE could make their top speed/most productive setting the one they used all the time, anyone could do anything. But you can’t. Your top speed is not a speed you’re able to sustain.

Now, I’ve found that I do need to work on not procrastinating. Not because the product is better, even, but because it’s better for my mental health and physical health to not have a full, sweating, panicked breakdown over every task even if the task itself turns out excellently. It’s a shitty way to live! You feel bad ALL the time! And I don’t deserve to live like that anymore.

So all of this to say, I’m not wasting a ton of potential. I don’t have an ocean of productivity and accomplishments inside of me that I could easily, effortlessly access if I just sat down 8 hours a day and worked. There’s no fucking way. That’s not real. It’s an illusion. It’s fine not to live up to an illusion.

And if you have ADHD, I mean this from the bottom of my heart: you do not have limitless potential confounded by your laziness. You have the good potential of a good person, and you can access it with practice and work, but do not accept the story that you are choosing not to be all that you are or can be. You are just a human person.

They say that small towns hide the darkest secrets. At least that’s what your mother always said about this one. You thought she meant how Father Simmons has a well-known drinking problem, how Mrs. Gladstone’s son looks more like his uncle than his father or that the mayor has been in power for 15 years because of voting fraud. Things everyone knows. Human Things.

But now as partially eaten bodies have been left in alarmingly rates all over this small town the world has no record of, you now know she meant something else.

Play as peculiar and disturbed individual surnamed Crown after the very town your ancestor founded, returning after a traumatic event two years prior that landed you in a psychiatric hospital. As your comeback coincides with a rapid increase of disappearances you find yourself in-broiled in a town conspiracy, a past that’s more alive than ever and the ever shifting self interested motives of those who claim to be your allies.

Who can you trust? What’s the truth behind your family? What are things that you see in the dark?

Sometimes it’s hard to tell what shapes monsters come in.

Customize your MC from looks to gender

Reveal your sister’s disappearance

Rely on a group of complimentary polar opposites to find out the mystery and save your life

Befriend or romance a choice of three from enemies to lovers, childhood friends or an eternal admirer

Rating: 18+

Imre Duran

Quintessential good-boy-next-door. The most most-liked teenager in town. As son of the mayor and pageant queen, Imre has an image cultivated by him and maintained through his status which is why his back door activities are his cherished secrets. He is rather eager to help you… isn’t he?

Nia Mir

In the very real and present high school hierarchy Nia would be one of the nobles. As a wannabe doctor with a loathed father and an absent mother her dream is to leave behind this backwater town and all it’s weird phenomena that she doesn’t care to know more of. She liked you, once.

Lorcan Stark

Every town needs its bad boy and so Lorcan has aimed to be as every bit worthy of that title. The shunned son of a murderer and his victim, he is not really thought of as having a future beyond prison and petty crime especially in a town like this. You don’t remember a time when he didn’t hate you.

Salvatore Crown

Your brother. The heir to whatever fortune your family has left and the only one of the family who seems to like you.

Orla Crown

Your sister. No one ever knew what she thinking, a closed box full of unknowns. You knew she kept things, especially from you.

Mayor Duran

Seems like every other politician. Oddly enough no one ever really sees him, an entity watching over the town.

Mother

She never acted like one to any of her children. She’s never sober anymore.

Mrs. Mir

Disappeared years ago without a trance. No one remembers her first name. Was thought to have been clinically insane.

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Do you have any favourite ifs at the moment, or any you’re excited for?

helloooo <3 as a matter of fact, i do have a couple of those!

infamous @infamous-if (as we all know) because amy is such a wonderful writer, she makes me FEEL feel (yes, i shed tears reading chapter two). the characters feel so real. always a pleasure to make edits for this if! also looking forward to @bodydoublegame.

anything mila writes, truly. i always have a hard time picking an ro because they all are amazing in their own way. also not a big sports fan but i love her stories so much i'm actually super excited for her latest if @beyondthegame. check out my fave: golden!! @milaswriting, and don't forget before dusk sets in @celestialdusks.

the exile @exilethegame i'm obsessed, i've read this one so many times!!!!! the plot is so so so good, you just have to see for yourself. the relationships between the characters (the family dynamics most of all???)

attollo @attollogame the worldbuilding, the writing, the characters??? has the best villains imo, the complexity, wow 10/10

merry crisis @merrycrisis-if this one will also have you drowning in your feelings <3

when twilight strikes @evertidings i feel like i keep repeating myself (and i am) but once again the writing? the characters? you won't be able to stop once you start reading! you're welcome <3

apartment 502 has to be my most anticipated if (@apt502-if) i saw new girl, i clicked so fast! and you should too if you haven't already <3 the demo is not out and i already have 3 mcs, that's how excited i am!!!

book two of the golden rose @anathemafiction i know i don't talk about it enough (or at all) on here but check out the first book, i can't recommend it enough!!

@disenchantedif can't wait to read from the beginning with the next update, i feel like it has the potential to become another favorite of mine + i've heard so many good things about it from a couple people with great taste!

i feel like i'm forgetting so many but these will have to do for now <3 there are other projects i'm following but i haven't had time to check out the demos so i might reblog this post in the future to update the list. <3