I Want To Be Alone But I Don’t Want To Be Lonely

Don’t let yourself be used and walked on. If you’re feeling upset over something, tell the person. It’s important to communicate your feelings! Your feelings are not a burden! Your feelings matter! They are valid and talking about them openly is perfectly healthy.

“You will burn and you will burn out; you will be healed and come back again.”

— Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

Mary Oliver, Wild Geese

“Does God hang out in Greyhound bus stations? I’d like to find him. I’d like to make him cry.”

— Sara Sutterlin, from I Wanted to Be the Knife [Extended Edition]

my playlists (+ descriptions)

asparagus is in season: character playlist for francis abernathy from the secret history

dark academia but it’s girls: imagine the secret history, dead poets society, and if we were villains but all the male characters are replaced with female counterparts

donna tartt’s walkman: some music donna tartt probably listened to from her bennington days into her secret history days; also evokative of a sexually ambiguous classics student from a homoerotic dark academia novel

the holy trinity: florence, mitski, and hozier

prep school nostalgia: best of my effy stonem phase

scary girl fall: inspired by the gory girls from suspiria, midsommar, the vvitch, the moth diaries, and ginger snaps

turtleneck season: 'tis the season to become the pretentious protagonist of a modern greek tragedy (dark academia but it’s girls pt. 2)

slavic androgynous bette davis and the incongruous meathead: playlist for the goldfinch starring russian vampire and erudite sad boy

ode to the 2010s: music that shaped me in my formative years

ex·cel·si·or /eks-ˈkel-sē-ˌȯr/ adj. latin, meaning "ever upward" or “still higher”.

an instrumental mix made of film scores. for early morning productivity & hair down days. listen.

The Bolshoi dancer Nikolai Tsiskaridze being rehearsed by the 87-year old Galina Ulanova captured by photographer Mikhail Logvinov 

let these dark academia valentines do the talking for you