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As a writer I need everyone to know that whenever I write "exchanged glances" my intent is this

You know what I really love?

How Inuyasha and Kaede are just like bros. Not even by the end. More like by the middle. Kaede gives him shit. He returns that shit. There's some vitriole in the beginning but at some point Kaede is fucking with him and he's in on the bit.

They commiserate on their common point of sadness. At the end when Kagome is gone for those three years he seems to actually be hanging out with and just chill with her. It's nice.

To Walk the Path of Death

Solas x Lavellan | Chapter 1/1 | 1.8k words

Summary: Lavellan receives a letter from Rook and reminisces on their prior conversation at the Cobbled Swan. (ao3 link here)

Tags: mutual pining, love & loss, slow burn, spoilers, grief/mourning, solavellan hell

Dear Inquisitor Lavellan,

I found the attached letter in the Lighthouse, in one of those secret rooms I told you about. I don’t know if Solas ever intended on sending it, or if it was another self-flagellation of his, but it was meant for you. I thought you ought to read it.

I met Mythal in the Crossroads like Morrigan suggested, or a piece of her. I wanted to know what she was like, beyond the bias of Solas’ regrets. She was exactly what I expected her to be, just as arrogant and righteous as the rest of these elven gods. Solas included - no offense. Cruelty comes in different forms. I’ve seen my fair share. Just because she isn’t a tyrant like Elgar’nan, or heartless like Ghilan'nain, doesn’t mean she isn’t cruel. I know Bellara and Emmrich have said that it’s only a fraction of her spirit, that the kinder, wiser part of her is what Morrigan holds. I know Bellara’s past is important to her, so I won’t say anything about it, but I think they’re both wrong; I think Mythal is exactly who we saw in that snowy field. She chose to rule above her own kind, just like the others. She branded them with the slave markings. Morrigan called her a spirit of Benevolence, but I don’t believe that for an instant. When faced with monsters like the Evanuris, it doesn’t take much to be considered kind.

I wish she faced reparations for her actions. I’m taking some satisfaction in knowing that she’s gone from the Crossroads, at least. I don’t like the idea of her in there. Who knows what she might plot. We’ll see if it was worth it to obtain a god shard, but at this point, I’ll take whatever I can get. I’ll let you know if I learn anything else.

Thanks for listening to me. Unless you ignored all of this, then thanks for at least letting me write it all out. You told me in a previous missive that it isn’t easy to carry burdens like ours, and the longer I’m in this position, the more I agree. I’m looking forward to the next time we can see each other.

Let me know how it’s going in the South.

Yrs,

Kione “Rook” Mercar

ㅤThe parchment is old. Its aged surface feels as soft as silk, and the center of it is well creased from when it had been folded and unfolded countless times. She knows she risks tearing it, but she can’t stop herself from smoothing it out once more, tracing her fingertips over the letters inked into the vellum. Solas had performed his ritual only four months ago, it shouldn’t be an antique; Rook hadn’t remarked upon it, but she can guess as to why the Fade has shaped it this way.

ㅤ“What I feel for you will never change.”

ㅤA sigh slips from her lips, the familiar taste of bitter regret sitting on her tongue, “Oh, Solas...”

ㅤFrom the corner of her vision, she sees shadows shift. The bulky figure silhouetted against the crackling fire pulls his legs down from the barrel they are using as a makeshift table, his ever-dancing voice mingling with the pop and snap of the wood.

ㅤ“Got another fan mail?”

ㅤShe feels her lips twitch, threatening to form a smile. Besides Dorian, he is the only one who gets those out of her these days, though they are rare and fleeting. She folds up Rook’s note, but kept Solas’ out, pinned under her hand.

ㅤ“Another message from Rook. No good news, I’m afraid, just a personal missive.”

ㅤShe gets a grunt in response, but Hawke doesn’t ask for the letter and she doesn’t hand it over. He leans back in his seat again and throws his arm over the edge of it, the metal tips of his glove glinting in the firelight.

ㅤ“Guess they’re going to need what they can get, all the way up there. The South might be struggling, but I don’t envy them, stuck all alone.”

ㅤA lock of her hair falls from her loose braid, brushing along her cheek. She tucks it back behind her ear and straightens up, casting a glance over the large, makeshift war-room that they have constructed in their tent. The layout changes ever-so-slightly each time they reconstruct it, but the furniture, and the stained cloth that envelopes her always remains the same. She is sick of eggshell white, sick of bloodstained mud and the rotten stench of decaying flesh. The Blight is another monster entirely from the lyrium-encased corpses she’d fought during her time with the Inquisition. It is senseless, unsleeping, ever-devouring, demanding her attention at all times, lest it slip past her watch and grow out of control. She’s been told time and again that this Blight is unlike the rest, that it behaves like a living being, but it is a cold comfort to know that they are faced with a far deadlier plague than ever before. It only means that they know very little, and have less resources.

ㅤShe hears Hawke shift in his seat again, a puff of steam clouding into the cold air from his exhale. Even with the fire, it is difficult to keep warm. They are approaching the unforgiving winter months of the South. Her gaze wanders to the massive map of Thedas that is spread out across the table, the corners of it brushing against her hand. Chess pieces are scattered across it, makeshift representations of sections of their army. Even with the devastation this Blight has brought, she is still amazed at how many have risen to the occasion. They have the numbers to withstand such an assault, but until the Archdemons are defeated, their efforts are in vain. They’d have a better chance at stopping the tide with their bare hands.

ㅤIf you had succeeded, vhenan, you would have flooded the world with demons. You would have brought just as much destruction. Is this what you wanted? Is your victory worth this suffering?

ㅤShe puts her hand to her heart, curling her fingers into the cotton as her chest constricts with pain. Every time she thinks she knows what to expect, she is dealt another blow. Even after ten years, each new cut feels as fresh and raw as the last. She’d sworn that she’d fight for this world until her last breath, but with each passing day, that vow weighs heavier on her bones. Rook’s remark to her, although meant as a jest, has become a ringing mantra in her ears.

ㅤ“You sound like, if you had the chance, you'd join him in that prison.”

ㅤShe’s spent so long chasing after Solas, down the dark and dangerous road that he was walking. She’d poured all of her efforts into protecting and preparing Thedas while she desperately searched for him, her heart and mind so consumed with what she could possibly say to him to make him listen. She hasn’t really thought about the ‘after’. ‘After’ implies that she’d be successful, and with the world in turmoil, she doesn’t know what that success would look like.

ㅤBut if she could be with him again...

ㅤHis long fingers tangle in her hair, the taste of tears on her lips as he kisses her like he is drowning and she is his air. The buzz of the Fade along her skin as she pulls him closer, the edges of her fraying with the knowledge that they can only have this in a dream, but craving this one night of surrender, nonetheless.

ㅤShe told Rook that she didn’t know what she would do. It hasn’t taken her long to make that decision, though, now that she’s returned to the South. If she has the chance to finally stand before him again, she will never let him out of her sight. If it means a lifetime in a prison built for gods, she will go there happily, as long as she is by his side. After years of walking with the ghosts of the elven’ past, she feels like little more than a shade herself, cold and empty, drifting in a world that rushes on without her. She knows she has loved ones who would miss her. Dorian would never let her hear the end of it.

ㅤBut she misses her heart.

ㅤThe sound of a trumpet drifts through the thick front flap of the tent, followed by muffled cheers. The chair creaks as Hawke twists around to look toward the disturbance; the light of the flame pools across his cheeks and darkens the bruised shadows under his eyes. Grief has aged him. It has aged her, too.

ㅤ“Sounds like General Tabris is back,” he says, “Good. It’s about time that we get this debrief started. I’d like to start the trip back to Kirkwall tonight, if I can.”

ㅤ“Are you sure that’s safe?”

ㅤ“It’s not, but I’m going to risk it. I don’t like leaving the city to itself for even a few days. You know how things can fall to shit when you’re not there.”

ㅤShe knows that all too well. She presses her lips together to keep herself from voicing further concerns and nods. Hawke rises from the chair and stretches his back, groaning softly as he worked out the kinks in his muscles.

ㅤ“I’ve got some advice for you, Amarel. Don’t get old. It’s a terrible fate.”

ㅤThere came a near-smile again, making her face feel stiff and foreign to her. She studies him as best as she can in the low light, glancing at the strands of silver that are threaded through his beard and the crows feet that now crinkle pleasantly whenever he makes jokes.

ㅤ“I’d hardly call you old. You’re in your prime. Aging like fine wine, one might say.”

ㅤHe snorts, but falls still, his gaze growing distant, “You sound like Varric.”

ㅤAnother blow to a fresh wound, another cut to her damaged heart. She has to swallow down the lump of sorrow that forms in her throat before she can speak.

ㅤ“I wasn’t nearly as eloquent as him. It’d be impossible to imitate that.”

ㅤ“Yeah. It would be.”

ㅤHe exhales a quick, shaky breath, then flashes her a grim smile before he joins her at the table. The clank of metal and the heavy tread of armored boots is growing louder as the final leader of their fighting force approaches. Not wasting any time, as usual. With tender care, Amarel re-folds Solas’ note and tucks it into the inside, breast pocket of her jacket, as close to her heart as she can get it. It feels warm through her clothes, and she swears she catches the smell of pine and storm air. Tears prick the corners of her eyes, but she pushes them back.

ㅤVar lath vir suledin, vhenan. No matter what it takes, I will see you again. I will prove you wrong, one last time.

leave me alone, this is my comfort 4-hour YouTube deep-dive on a very obscure niche topic

Unless I missed something when I read them a decade or so ago (which is entirely possible), I second reading the Bartimaeus trilogy, it is a fantastic series

I feel like part of maturity as a 90s kid or whatever is admitting to yourself that for whatever Harry Potter might have given to you in your childhood it is a mid teir book at best to begin with and you are now older and more worldly to understand the more insidious messaging that was hidden in it. And yes, to be a mature adult, it is your responsibility to see and understand this.

You read the books and know what is in them and you have, hopefully, read about the AIDS epidemic since then and know that calling lycanthropy an AIDS stand in considering everything about Lupin and Greymane's storyline is, actually, horrific homophobia.

You have hopefully learned enough about antisemitism to recognize that the Goblins, esp bc they are bankers, are a horrible antisemitic dog whistle in the form of a fantasy race.

You have hopefully learned or experienced enough about/as a woman to understand that the entire storyline with Fleur makes the Weasley women assholes actually. That Pansy wasn't great to begin with but everything with the divination class, Lavendar, Cho and the Patil twins was not written by a "girl's girl". Even depictions of Luna Lovegood border on being kind of shitty. JKR definitely believes there is a wrong way to be a woman even if you are cis and she will not hesitate to belittle and go after you for not being the type of woman she thinks counts.

You may not understand the race politics of London specifically but perhaps you're an irish american and you've learned enough about your own history to pick up the fact that JKR is so racist that she's even racist against the white people in her area ala Seamus Finnegan's name which is every bit as bad a Cho Chang. Once you get there with Saemus and Cho you can also look at the names of every other implied nonwhite student and realize...Wow. That's kind of fucked up.

This doesn't take away your memories. It doesn't change the friendships you made over it. I understand bc I'm up there in that age range and I KNOW that Harry Potter leeched into fucking everything. It's okay. You've grown now though. You do not need it. You will not lose anything that is actually serving you now to put those memories, and maybe even your books and your existing memorabilia, in a memory box and read a better book.

I promise you there exists media that you can hyperfixate on to the enth degree that is deeper, better, more exciting and, most importantly, will not be funding an active hate group.

If you're stuck on kid shit set in London I heartily recommend the Bartimeaus trilogy.

If you're a creator and you needed to hear this today:

You have no idea how many people lurk on your work. No idea how many times people go back to revisit your work. How big they smile when they simply think about your work. How fast their heart beats, how excited they get when they see that you posted something.

People are shy with their feedback. Sometimes it’s because they’re simply shy. Other times it’s because they assume you already know how great and talented you are. Could be both.

My point is, even if you barely have any likes or reblogs, don’t get discouraged. You have a lot of silent fans, but they are still your fans. Keep on creating. Because there is always someone out there who will love what you have made.

It's really important when you're at work to go out there and really give it your 60%. Maybe 35%.

Keeping the original post's tags below because they are so fucking right

in my heart of hearts the mythal in the crossroads is 6 feet tall, horned, decked out in armor fitting a self-appointed goddess borne from primordial war and a giant fuck-you dramatic feathered cape. it hurts to look at her directly. out of the corner of your eye you swear the shadow she casts is in the shape of a dragon. she's been stewing in resentment for so long the air just always smells like a wildfire and lightning strikes. ya'll remember the fucking puzzles in her temple? you wouldn't be able to just walk up to her and start talking to her, idc how long it's been since she's had petitioners.

if you want me to believe in the "like holding a piece of the sun" line you have to do better than the pajama-wearing default character creator template num 9 that we actually got.