LITERALLY I LOVE THEM

on my rebirth replay i had the stellar idea to write down the loveless prelude and compare it to the "original" loveless poem. also it's color-coded.

later i'm gonna think harder about my big "explore differences" note. maybe on the airplane. i mean, what do you do on an airplane anyway? analyze fictional religious poetry.

it kills me when i get into a fandom and the my favorite ship doesn't have a ship name. i don't want to write a/b. i want to write some stupid insider thing that i don't even really get, y'know?

when cid returns with the enterprise to save everyone, he doesn't say a word to kain. he mostly talked to rosa and cecil, but he says *something* to rydia, addressing her presence. he says absolutely nothing to kain.

coincidence or not, cid sacrifices himself not a moment later with that bomb. coincidence or not, cid was their guardian- a consistent prescence in all three of the knight's lives. to avoid addressing kain at all? as if kain hadn't provided them with valuable information of the underworld at all, as if he hadn't shown his sorrow. as if kain hadn't repented enough for cid.

personally, i think that's part of why his mental barriers were weakened, and he couldn't repluse the "mind control" later on.

does anyone else get bored in class and just start doing anything they can think of to talk about their idiot blorbos. i've gotten so bored recently i made a list of their illnesses. i even seperated them as like, canon versus implied versus complete headcanon. making relationship charts. anything. tbh i would take ideas too atp. send HELP!!

rebirth hard mode update:

those adjudicators and yin and yang with JUST CAIT??? oh. my gosh. AAAAAAAAH. thank goodness for the fat moogle acting as another target 🙏🙏🙏

also i did NOT get the box throwing game my first playthrough... but i had much more luck this time, it only took me three tries :) not. that. bad!!

after taking a 4 month break after beating the story, i am back on my rebirth grind for the plat (i'm going to go insane but i like platinum trophies.)

now that i'm about halfway through dirge of cerberus, i went back and replayed remake intergrade, chapter 2...

the thing that stuck out to me the MOST is that the deepground lackeys or whatever the hell you wanna call them are totally outfitted for long range combat when they fight yuffie and sonon. i also remembered WAY more members actually being there- but in all actuality you probably only see 20 or so members, including the ones nero murders (out of boredom or for power? another day.)

but they're all equipped with their stupid like, range enhancing helmets that would fucking impossible to see out of at short range (hello security officer helmet, but at least that thing doesn't cover their whole head.) and they're all wearing pants, which begs the question. was it just a small sample size (~20 members) or did they change the deepground uniforms in the three years inbetween remake intergrade and dirge of cerberus? 'cause they're totally wearing different outfits depending on their gender in dirge of cerberus- their thighs are OUT if they're women. but all pants in intergrade. did we only fight men, or was there an outfit change...?

also nero has split pupils (cat pupils? idk the right word) like sephiroth... is that just a jenova thing? if so, why don't more SOLDIERs have eyes like that??

going back to the land of the feymarch is honestly really funny. every single npc there is just like "oh, hey rydia! nice to see you again!" or "rydia, is that you? who are all these losers you're with?" or "rydia, you're back! please don't leave!" or "rydia, rydia rydia".

except for like, two people, who told me "man, monsters are really acting out of turn in your world" to which i was like, "yeah, they really are, huh?" and the other person who was like "this is the library. maybe you should go study," to which i was like "DAMNNN that's CRAZY" but to be fair the king and queen were down there and i was looking for them so maybe that was some sort of code???

idk i'm mostly joking but i do think it's nice how rydia got to be a part of this community since cecil and kain kind of blew up her original one. like she gets all of these people to recognize her and be excited for her return to their village and whatnot.

thinking about final fantasy vii dads today...

cloud and tifa have a weird thing going with their parents, where cloud lost his dad very young/didn't grow up with his dad, only living with claudia, and tifa has the exact opposite, where her mom died when she was young (leading to the og nibelheim incident /hj) and she grew up mostly with brian, until both claudia and brian died in the (second) nibelheim incident.

brian lockhart was obviously very protective of tifa, not wanting her to go up mount nibel in the first place with sephiroth, zack, and cloud to check on the reactor. then he died in front of her up in the reactor a week later...

while barret doesn't talk about his parents, he is a dad, and he sure has complicated feelings about that!! what with dyne being his best friend, and myrna not being able to be there with him, caring for marlene through all that loss must be crazy.

aerith's dad literally helped create sephiroth. professor gast was a craaazy dude lowkey. and he's so irrelevant in her life it kills me a little. i hope we see gast in pt. 3. and tell him his daughter is fuckin' dead.

nanaki has a weird thing with seto, too, where he believed him to be a coward, just to learn that in all actuallity, seto sacrificed the life he could have had with his wife and nanaki to protect cosmo canyon, so nanaki wouldn't feel the need to make a similiar, self-sacrificing choice.

yuffie and godo... her anger at him in the remake trilogy has me hooked. sonon seemed to think he was a great guy, and yuffie adamantly argued the opposite. i cannot WAIT to see him in pt. 3. i cannot wait to find out what is going on. she hates him so much right now, for the sake of her country.

does cid have a dad thing? ...i don't think so. neither does reeve/cait sith... well. i didn't forget them. they're mentioned.

vincent and grimoire... another thing i hope they explore in pt. 3... or in a DoC remake (PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REMAKE IT.) the literal 4 minutes of grimoire screentime that explains absolutely nothing about their relationship, or grimoire's research, or... ANYTHING. i'm so. curious. he came in, flirted with lucrecia, and died. ARGH TELL ME MORE!!!

also, not a party member, but the whole "president shinra having multiple illegitimate sons" thing always makes me hate that guy a little more. lazard and evan i love you guys. rufus i love you too but your daddy issues are a different flavor.

doing homework while video game slots run in the background >>>