I Got Sick Today. Feeling Weak And Just Wanting To Rest. Gonna Fall Off Behind With Sticktober Even More

I swear I WILL make this doc again because Im not rly happy with it yet. I want to organize in a better and more logical way, but that will take me a bit of time. Considering if to massively edit this very one, or if to make a second better one. This one got a bit of attention already so I'm thinking to edit this one hmmm

IT IS 4 AM BUT I'VE FINISHED AN ENTIRE UNPROFESSIONAL MESSY GOOGLE DOC CONTAINIG MOST OF WAHT I COULD FIND ABOU T BALLISTA'S LORE AND RELATED INFORMATION

Google Docs

Ballista lore n' stuff

Ballista Lore n’ stuff: Almost everything that I could find - compiled by Valenxizaw245 1. Intro: initial timeline of events Ballista. We lo

This doc is Long

Messy

Rushed

Cringe

Very cringe

Has every link ever

Could have probably definitely been shorter

Is also very obvious I run out of juice towards the end of the doc

Funny pixelated stickfigure guys I may have a problem

I should have definitely worked on my college stuff today but you know what? I don't care anymore. I wasn't gonna rest easy until I finished this ASAP

I've put every single link I could ever inside this doc, as well as waaaay too many screenshots to accompany most of the links. If you somehow actually care to read throughout all of this congratulations I was not expecting that. I don't even want to know the hell that must be reading this on mobile, highly recomend lecture on desktop if you're able to

In case you somehow couldn't tell, I've fallen into a Ballista-shaped rabbit hole. I cobbled this together in 1 day, but my research has been going on since late February and the entirety of March, I just pieced together what I found

There's this RSP person that I keep citing throughout the doc. I pretty much owe nearly all of my knowledge to them. If that guy happens to find this: I'm so sorry

Can you guys believe this is what I break my innactivity with

I told myself I wouldn't reblog more upsetting stuff but this is important

Eden @dedmemehehe and I made a deal that for every note this post gets, they will stay alive another day. Please help them realize that people love she care about them.

Day 5: Discovery

AvA Sticktober

Haven't been able to beat the drawing I did for day 3 yet, which is why this is late as well

Oh well

I didn't want to make myself present with a reblog on my main blog, just wanted to quietly dissappear but this is too important

Oookay

Hear me out!

This'll sound REALLY crazy BUUUUUT-

One note means that I don't cut my self for a day.

Really stupid, I know.

Why am I rebloging this?

Persona 5 For Beginners Sneak Peek

dealing with the worst case scenario

your condom breaks

you feel a lump on your breast

your friends are ignoring you

you’re stranded on an island 

you got rejected by a crush

you get into a car accident

you got stung by a bee/wasp

you got fired from your job

you’re in an earthquake

your tattoo gets infected

your house is on fire

you’re lost in the woods

you get arrested abroad

you get robbed

your partner cheated on you

you’re on a ship that’s sinking

you fall into ice

you’re stuck in an elevator

you hit a deer with your car

you have food poisoning

your pet passed away

you fall off of a horse

you or your friend has alcohol poisoning

you have toxic shock syndrome

your house has a gas leak

Been lazy-ing in the inktober stuff and got busy today but I do plan on catching up with it.

But maybe not today because I just came back from a party. I don't have feet anymore.

Update:

They think I have late stage Addison’s disease.

I have more testing I have to do.

I’m without words. This is terrifying.

I can’t even let myself grieve or relax because I don’t even have enough money to be diagnosed properly OR treated.

So please, please. If you have anything to spare.. I need it now more than ever ..

I appreciate any and ALL HELP!!!

If you’d like to immediately help me my PayPal is

https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage

I don’t want to die because I can’t afford to get treatment. I’ve come this far.. I’m desperate. I need my community now more than ever. Please don’t let me be forgotten

BOOST THIS

What did u mean by the "another one of these" on the post about angrynerdcat deserving to live? (Sorry if this is rude im just curious :P)

Oh I meant another post that says something like “for every note/reblog this person lives/doesn’t self harm for a day” or something like that I’ve come across those kind of posts a few times already, odly often, sorry if I came off as insensitive