First Time In A Couple Years Trying Digital Art. I Made A Little Mob

That's why my man is out there saying shit like "I Don't really care about these people" and then fixing (destroying) every problem they ever encounter

Plausible deniability, if he didn't say he cared about them or even admitted it to himself, they wouldn't die (?

thinking about how everyone who ever cared about kim rok soo would disappear from his life

and how he started to keep a distance from the people who cared about him

perhaps, in the attempt, that they might stay

and the people who managed to crack open his shell

died in front of him

I left the fandom about two years ago, I did not read the second part but here's my grain of sand (also: I'm not a native speaker, clearly):

Lee Soo hyuk and Choi Jung Soo saw the void that they left on his heart. The deep fissure in his soul that was formed when they died. They broke the promise and the price was almost too high.

Looking at this barely recognizable man that is tired to the bone and full of despair. Fighting with the savage ferocity of a wounded animal; protecting the things that he loves with blood and tears. They feel nothing but grief for the young man that was shy but share the love freely with soft smiles ten years ago.

They ask themselves if someday they can compensate kill the light in Kim Roksoo's eyes. His love still there, enough for everyone he meets but is visible when he gives it the pain and resignation. He loves with the knowledge of the power that is giving for breaking his heart over and over again.

This man is gonna be my death

😭

everyone on this site

reading some cale quotes for fic purposes and i can't believe how much you can forget when you blitz through 1000+ chapters in less than two months.

like, cale curses so much. so much. i guess i didn't really internalize it since it was spread out over the whole novel, but he has such a dirty mouth and literally every time he mentions his enemies, he's cursing up a storm.

"i don't care if he's lived a thousand years or not, that shithead is a fucking bastard from now on." cale henituse, on the greatest threat of the whole part one of the novel. he's so eloquent.

i forgot how snarky his internal voice is. actually, maybe not forgot. just, kind of got used to it? until i stopped registering the absolutely sick burns he keeps dishing out on the regular.

it takes him until chapter 270 to realize that he should have just let choi han beat him up. that seems like a lot, but we've still barely reached the eastern continent. adin is still alive. cale doesn't even know who the white star is. the trouble hasn't even started.

also, at one point he actually admits to being raon, on and hong's parent??? out loud??? i can't believe i missed that, the whole dodori thing distracted me.

"raon. I’m someone who cannot forget. don't be like me." i didn't actually forget this one, but it feels like a gut punch every time i read it again.

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Cale says he is a bad person, a selfish, stone cold bastard because he spent at least 10 years believing the words he heard on his team funeral and after it.

And he had nobody to say the opposite, nobody who knew him, who cared about him. To prove them wrong, to insist that they are the actual bastards without heart for saying that to a mourning person.

He was alone, terrified of getting close to people again, and thinking that the deaths of his family was all his fault. Of course he thinks he is a bad person.

For him, people that don't protect their family are trash, so he is the worst human being that ever put a foot on the planet.

john winchester voice oh yes i love my son adam so much. and his brothers ummmm. looks at smudged writing on hand. Sad and Dead

I made this for you guys since you seem starving for more content about them (it's me, I'm the one who needs more about them)

They are so special to me

I have a type and it's Red. It you get it, you get it.

Give him to me because why is this man so hot? I'll give him cookies and incondicional love????

Idk what this is im sorry gilbert… i made all your friends gay and dipped