I SLEPG FOR 16 HOURD THROUGH THE LAST OF THE SPLATFEST AND MY TEAM WON INDIDNT EVEN GET TO RULER

GUYS

When i say i can't handle relationship angst, at least with bad ending, i mean I really really can't handle relationship angst. I'll start crying very easily. Sometimes over very small things. I made up a cheating scenario in my head and ended up having to stop myself from literally crying out in sorrow as i sobbed. More recently i read a smau that included Crocodile and the scenario was like "You wear his shirt" except Crocodile didn't like it and it was supposed to be comedic but it bummed me out, then i started to imagine it in my head and started to despair and i ended up crying sobbing again. To be fair i had stopped taking my meds again (i get lazy to refill the little day by day boxes things, refilled them again 2 days ago bc mood was starting to get really bad) but i know even if i was taking em i would've probably still cried a bit. So unless its platonic or familial angst (though something depressing enough will bum me out a lot) I cant handle it. Strangely enough, whump is an exception. I save whump especially for when im mad or upset, to which i read it and often calm down and can go to sleep.

I hate doflamingo *consumes media of him.*

He's such a shit person *Reads fics of him in character*

0 redeeming qualities at all *Sees him in other media*

*Staring at huge art of him* God i fucking hate looking at him

Sometimes ill be writing something and think "Am i giving the narration too much pazazz? Is this too comedic?" And then i realize how funny i am and my worries disappear. But what do you guys think? Usually when i write thinking of a specific character I'll change the narration voice to their personality for fun, if thats cool. Though my following isn't too close knit or interactive so people might not respond to this ;; prob my fault for not updating often so i won't really get upset if no one replies. I get overwhelmed by expectations kinda easy.

took my meds the first time again in like a month and a half and feel like this

No matter how much it pains me to say i dont think we're gonna get mom content on Luffy, atleast not much. The same way we havent for any character. I was reading the SBSes and i got so upset I forgot to SS but Oda was asked why there isnt any mom content of them being alive or even there and he answered with some shit like "That's because Mom is the opposite of fun." Im so tired of misogyny ruining stuff bro. Women are the ones that have to make the entire baby, organs and blood, inside their bodies; and birth them. That isnt to mention how much it changes their body and brain afterwards, yet theyre always the ones ignored and the dads get all the content. I just want to be able to watch an action anime and not have to worry about misogyny. Its such a mood killer leaving out half of the population in media or minizing them just because theyre considered not "interesting enough". So tired of it. I just wanna enjoy one piece and not have to be slapped in the face with the reminder that no matter how much i love the show and Oda that theres serious problems about him. He's much better than other creators of course, especially for being from an asian country, but its still bad. It bums me out. A lot. All the dads had to do was just have a little fun and women do the rest but theyre just not fun enough to write apparently. It doesnt even matter that hes a guy and maybe he'll do rough writing women. I would rather him try, he wrote robin and shes amazingly written so he has the potential he just doesnt use it. Usually animes will atleast mention the mothers but theres just such a huge abundance of mother erasure in OP its impossible to miss. Dont even get me started on the families oda introduces and then the mom just is already not there or considered. Like what. Is she just the birth giver and not even considered a part of the family to him. Just not important. Was he raised by a single father or something. Are they not human. 50% of the population guys. 50%

HIS HAIRCUT VHJJTSYDUFJF

His head looks both tall and short

ion even wanna write anything 😭 i might just finish the luffy thing and just pop in whenever i need to get writing thing off my chest

cant sleep because i keep thinking about all the things that ive been spoiled for and it pisses me off. I had a dream about it too. What i wouldnt gjve to have a way to erase my memory of thints. I dont even wanna write anything to do with shanks anymore. His character is ruined for me. I cant stop thinking about all the ways i wouldve been so happy and shocked at all the things about him that have been ruined. Fml

reminds me of this

I actually use this in my writing. With other characters I usually give them some internal dialogue with 'thought' but with Luffy if he's doing anything the narrator just explains what he's doing it for. If i ever do its for a story reason like he's actively trying to form words in his mind.

This is one of my favorite bits of SBS lore