Im The Reason It Got This Bad.

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I went off on D perhaps a bit too hard but honestly I need to make choices for myself

And honestly, I don't need someone trying to make me promise not to talk to my friends ever again just because I made a mistake.

ngl idk why she even came back to me in the first place.

I guess she wanted to try messing someone else up.

Honestly, if i had kept her around things would probably have gotten worse.

the wings and horns hurt so bad someone please distract me from this feeling

Bleeding into unbroken shoes feels like a crime. Scraping arms against ledges I shouldn't climb. These are things I should have hidden too. Because all they did was get to you.

...I'm sorry.

So… I didn’t eat again today. I know I said I would but I genuinely didn’t have time this morning and I’m out of money to buy lunch.

I’ll eat something at dinner time I promise

God at this rate I’m gonna be more malnourished then that glowing russian twink/ref

i would’ve given you some food if i knew you didn’t have enough. i always have extra

i wouldn't have taken it. ive already taken enough from you.

i appreciate you wanting to help me but i encourage you to wait until you think i've gotten better to try helping.

theres no use in trying to help me if you don't think im changing

im sorry i couldnt face you at all today

I had a friend send me one of these guides recently. I guess they really do know me too well.

ah, thank you pinterest. I really needed this.

Nope nope nope nope nope nope

Yes, we used to be friends

NO, I am not getting with you no matter what you threaten, D

What makes you think I'd let myself make a mistake like that again?

You can go dig yourself that hole, I'm done listening.

I know what I want, and it's NOT a fake angel who wants me to abandon my friends for her.

You can go fuck off now, D

God im so selfish, maybe if i had stayed, if that coin flip had failed, both of them would be okay.

I could have stayed.

I've done it before

Staying for the greater good even though I was hurting.

I should have stayed, then I'd be the only one hurting. Nobody knew because I was masking.

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