tw vent
i'm so fucking angry. it's not even like i can help it. i don't have my phone, my old stuff got deleted, and i literally only have the time that i'm doing SCHOOL to be online. i can't talk to my friends bcs of time zones and shit or bcs they're busy too
it feels like shit. everything does. i'm exercising, i'm eating, i'm journaling, and it still feels like shit.
i can't use tech unless i ask, and every time i do i'm just bracing for a "Why? You're just going to use it wrongly" kinda response. every. single. fucking time. i can't rp, i can't chat i can't do my art the way i want to.
i love my parents i do, but their protectiveness makes me want to peel my skin back.
i want to dye my hair, to cut it, to go out to a park, i want to meet up with friends irl, i want to do things
i can't even just go anywhere- i can't drive, i don't know how to ride a bike, i don't have anyone i trust irl that i can go to
and there aren't teachers or school clubs bcs i'm fucking homeschooled
i don't have any online games and those that i do are severly monitored
i just want to exist and feel like a teen, like an actual teenager.
it ends up going 30 percent study/70 percent doodle🥲
Drowning the emotions and thoughts in music so i can study
No Longer Human by Dazai Osamu (still reading it lol)
I'm Your Man by Mitski
Coral Island
Red or teal, maybe purple
K-12 (the Melanie Martinez one)
Bungou Stray Dogs
Dazai, Atsushi, Giyuu, Dick Grayson, Damian Wayne, Shouto, Bakugo, Fuyumi Todoroki (UNDERRATED), Dabi...
@insufferablewhore @grayson-on-the-chandelier @thegremlininyourcloset @dogskahara @mast3rsw0rdr @ all my moots
favorite book:
favorite song:
favorite game:
favorite color:
favorite movie:
favorite tv show:
comfort character(s):
I’ll go first:
Hell followed with us by andrew joseph white
Body of years - mother mother
Slay the princess
Dark purple
legally blonde
gravity falls
blue diamond, kaito, cherry blossom
@chernobylcatfish09 @i-eat-asphalt @c0nstantlyscreaming @frenchfriesmotherfucker
@finleyforevermore @lord-enchantress @seraphinfestedqueer @whoops-all-neurodivergency @derangedcrowstuff @mast3rsw0rd @marigoldisinsane @anonymous-badger-238 @isthisadhdorautism
"Kill yourself" is basic. "I hope your fandom gets a new installment that is objectively a great work but also tonally dissonant from the previous ones in a way that generates a huge newbie boom of people uninterested and hostile towards the history of the franchise" is smart. It's possible. It's terrifying. It's happening right now.
you have it much harder-
when you need to make a google account but can't:
omg yesyseyse-
OOC Credits in the video
@cookiesnotd3ad this was the vid I was talking bout, I'm HOOKED.
The worst part of tumblr communities are the fUCKING PORN BOTS OH MY FUCKING GOD I’VE HAD TO REPORT LIKE TWELVE OF THEM MY FUCKING EYES I NEED BRAIN BLEACH
ahem. I got a little too silly….
i am now curious why
"Schrödinger's Zelda" is possibly the best thing ive said today