Thechaoticgentleman - No One, Yet.

The most heart warming thing just happened to me at 7/11. It was the usual heartwarming story of a person at 7/11 saying something nice or doing something nice. Infact, it was sort of the opposite. I was paying for my snacks and I don't have a rewards number and I will most likely never have one. Then the guy behind me put his number in. He said it was because there's money to be saved sometimes but I really didn't care if there was or wasn't. It just felt real. It wasnt some saint giving me an extra taquito, it was just real. It was just two guys in a 7/11. Maybe it was the frugalness, maybe it was that he reminded me of so many threadbare men who've been I fluencial in my life. I wish him all the best, I hope he has a good day.

I realize that nothing i do on tumblr is really “academic”, thats because im just someone who doesn’t like the current state of the world, likes finding out things; science, mythology, moral, and everything human. And enjoys the general ideal of a academic and chaotic lifestyle

do you think famous poets looked at what they wrote like an hour later and went, "yo this is kinda cringe-" or is that a new development in poetry?

Episode 4: A Friendly Push

That neurodivergent moment when youre not sure if you can leave

Like I'm not talking about when it's after a meeting and people are still hanging around and you don't know if it's rude or nah.

I HAD TO ASK TO LEAVE THE BATH

I would call my mom with the same sad wail a cat makes when you leave it in a room with the door closed and ask her if I could get out. I would stay in my room after being sent there for hours when my mom had said "go to your room for fifteen" and ask if I could go to the bathroom.

any one else see an ad,

fully acknowledge that it is, infact, an ad,

scroll past the ad,

and then go, "but what if that wasn't an ad"

To which you proceed to scroll back up skim the ad and just

"IT WAS AN AD! :D"

It's been a long couple of days from helping with a community project working events and spending time with family, today has been a well needed rest. I did some cleaning, made some houses on animal crossing, and practiced guitar :) I've been enjoying taking walks in the morning. The light rain today has been pleasant company paired with tea and cookies. I need to do some review over the rest of August for when school starts, I'm getting very excited (and equally nervous). I'm looking forward to what tomorrow has to share!

Where can I go to find hope?

The ticket is always blank

I feel as though life has been passing me by

It feels like I'm at a train station

Watching the trains pass

Wonder which one was mine

It's hearing a busker's guitar, calm peaceful

We stand their in our own melancholic solitude

Not daring to look up

Buried in our own self doubt

It's watching clouds roll over blue skies

It's watching the seconds tick

Waiting for the clock to fall

And my body to decay

It was laying in the grass

Trying to become a bug

It was standing in the rain

To become a puddle

I think of these things

These thoughts of death that plague my brain

I watch another train go by

The next one, I think,

I'll get on

I was working on a possible comic and-

He's still there

I erased him but..

He won't leave

He'll never leave.