Posted My First Post On Twitter & Jenna Stoeber Retweeted It So I Think I Have Hit My Peak. I Will Be

to be clear this is not a joke i have the first half of a research paper written out. i just need to run the actual experiment.

these are things i do for fun.

i think i need to reevaluate my life choices

me: gosh im so busy. i can barely do things i enjoy because i have so much work to get done. i wish i could spend more time with my family, friends, and boyfriend.

me:

me: anyway, i’m going to go write a completely unprompted research paper on how playing video games while exercising affects performance, inspired by brian david gilbert

HOW TO USE YOUR EXTENSIVE LOVE OF THE ALTOGETHER TO SLEEP

i’m serious! so i suffer from ptsd and as a result get some pretty fun and funky fresh nightmares. i frequently have trouble falling asleep because i’m busy remembering last night’s Fucked Up Shit or wondering what new Fucked Up Shit my brain’s gonna give me tonight. i’m not saying this has cured me- my nightmares still exist, trust me- but it’s made it a lot easier to sleep

step 1. getchurself the entire silo album. it’s on spotify, apple play, and bandcamp! grab it real quick. make sure it’s not on shuffle. u got it? good

step 2. at your desired time play the album starting from decatur street. don’t worry if you’re not sleepy yet or if you’re restless.

step 3. use the first 3 songs to get grounded. pull the blanket over your shoulder so you don’t get cold. take a deep breath. get your cat to stop turning your desk chair into a fillet. remember that you forgot your retainer. if you’ve settled in and brown of gold isn’t over, focus on the background of the songs- jonah and brian and sierra are masterminds with layering. have you noticed the tambourine in ladybug yet? no? notice it.

step 4. use the next 6 songs to sleep. they’re quieter and calmer, and still have enough background that if your brain runs off with something, you can redirect your attention to focusing on every note in the alto line from follow through or the bassline in bigger sky. count along with the stupid slow 3/4 time in 10/31. if your brain works best with a goal (like mine does,) try to be asleep by the end of “must be a dream.” it helps me to convince myself to stay still and keep my eyes shut that way.

step 5. and hey, if you aren’t asleep by track 10, you’ll probably end up crying yourself to sleep with see the day anyway, so there’s always that! i’ve personally never made it that far and it’s been a week or so.

anyway the only downside of this i’ve found is that i’ve very quickly familiarized myself with tracks 1-7 while i still dont know all the words to newton’s first? but thats like. minor stuff. i have it on good authority this works with anxiety-related insomnia too (and maybe with regular insomnia? i dunno! go find out)

now good night, everyone, and i hope this helps!

Brian has a chaotic and terrifying new banner on his personal channel

I'm obsessed with it.

It displays almost all of my quarantine emotions! Someone on Twitter said play the tag yourself game with this pic and you know what? Yeah.

Tag yourself, I'm 3rd from left (really apprehensive anxiety smile).

im gonna say something controversial yet brave

bdg as shitty b knight

LISTEN based almost entirely on looks and a chaotic good, undercover genius energy you cannot tell me it wouldn’t make sense for him to play shitty in some sort of live action adaptation

me: gosh im so busy. i can barely do things i enjoy because i have so much work to get done. i wish i could spend more time with my family, friends, and boyfriend.

me:

me: anyway, i’m going to go write a completely unprompted research paper on how playing video games while exercising affects performance, inspired by brian david gilbert

brain: cyberpunk red ttrpg has lots of lore and if u continue writing pcpr fics u should read up on it

me: no i will make everything up completely

brain: okay valid

sometimes family isn’t two kids and a mom and a dad.

sometimes family is one (1) boy detective, the grim reaper who secretly is a massive dork, a cynical elf wizard who pretends he’s not soft for his whole family, a functional 30 year old man, the 30 year old’s dog army, an elderly beach-living dwarf who runs a summer camp, the beach dwarf’s son and daughter, a gnome pilot, a distressed and exhausted leader of a nonprofit on the moon, a grim reaper who wears blue jeans, his grim reaper wife with a penchant for fire spells, a dragonborn rogue who likes doing flips, her half orc wife who likes doing flips, the actual goddess of death, the actual goddess of fate, a random dude who worked on the moon and fired the 30 year old and the beach dwarf and the elf wizard out of a cannon, and two to three cats owned by the grim reaper dork and the elf wizard.

sometimes garfield shows up.

Hi Minty! I'd love to see Matt Murdock with D2 for the expression meme, if you're still taking suggestions :)

i love this man ;___;