I've Been Going Through A Pretty Bad Art Block Due To Life Events But I'm Currently Working Through My

But how do you say goodbye when your heart still wants to hold on?

Spotify should let me annotate playlists. It's not enough to make a ship/character playlist, I need to explain every single song on there.

my vibe is that feeling you get when you hear the king of the hill intro start playing on adult swim at 4 in the morning.

it's me and my unhealthy sleeping schedule against the world

oc guy moodboard

Howdy I'm TheBastardHyena but you can just call me Scav or Scavenger. I'm 28 (he/him) and currently a graduate student finishing up my masters degree. In my spare time I like writing, drawing, video games and binging TV.

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I have to draw a lot of gold and metal for my work, but wasn't happy with any of the metal tutorials i could find around. I prefer really specific instruction, so after some research i put together what i think works as a generalist's guide/tutorial. Not perfectly accurate, but i hope it's helpful!

man I wish people understood how much it sucks ass to be neurodivergent and trying to find the middle ground where people like/tolerate you. like, I'm either "boring" (trying to wait my turn in conversations, holding space for other people, taking a back seat to let others get some spotlight) or "too much" (too loud/talking too much, getting excited to share, trying to participate in group conversations/activities). No one really talks about how much of being neurodivergent is just sort of trying to make yourself palatable.

I feel like so much of my life has been spent trying to find this effortless sort of middle ground everyone else seems to automatically already know, and I'm always swinging too far one way or the other. I'm lucky to have neurodivergent friends who grok me, but goddamn I wish that I could just like, exist without the constant background script in my brain that's like "you're being too loud. You're not talking enough. you're being self-centered. you're being boring. you're wrong, you're wrong, you're wrong." I feel like I'm back in high school trying to make friends but stuck as the eternal "weird kid"

it's just... lonely and sucks bad.

if you think addiction/substance abuse disorder or any other form of psychiatric disability is a moral failure or a choice get da hell off my blog