Sylviirose - ❤⁕Sylviiboo⁕❤

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failed my first math quiz, first exam is on Wednesday, second quiz is due on *Friday*, when I work. I'm such a goddamn dumbass. I'm so, so incredibly, unbelievably STUPID. I'm getting tutoring, I'm ASKING FOR HELP, this is my SECOND TIME LEARNING THE MATERIAL, I can't. I'm. I'm just gonna fail. I'm gonna try, I'm gonna try my absolute hardest, but it doesn't matter. trying hard doesn't change the fact that my STUPID BRAIN does.t can't fucking. ABSORB INFORMATION NORMALLY.

doesn't matter if I try. doesn't matter if I study. I'm gonna fail.

I hate it. I hate my stupid, stupid brain. I hate it.

the idea that your friends won't like you if you're too weird is wrong for example one time I told a friend whenever I was losing my mind I laid down on the floor under my desk and stared at it until I was better and next time she visited me she taped a bag of salami snacks to the underside of my desk with a message saying "going insane all by yourself, handsome?" which I only saw months later when I had a breakdown. that's friendship.

I often want to grab the nearest sharp object and bury it in my arm but I'm too scared to clean up after, so I'll just stick to biting my arms till they bruise.🙂

stamp dump ୭

SQUID GAME ◯ △ ☆ ☂

Sticking to drawing, Pinterest and music to express my like for alt culture cause I can't dress as alt as I'd like.

"Just thrift" WHERE??!!? Clothes from thrift stores are boring! The chances of finding something cool are so fucking low!!

"Just DIY" My DIY skills are ass/probably nonexistent and there aren't many things at home to work with. Not to mention I either don't have the time/ drive to sit down for over an hour DIYing stuff (I wish I could)

I also want to go overboard with my fashion, not just do simple stuff (IF ONLY I HAD ACCESSORIES) but I KNOW I'd stick out like and EXTRA EXTRA SORE THUMB OOZING WITH NEON COLOURS if I ever go outside like that, my social anxious self would never.