~✧°+* 42/100 Days Of Doing Better*+°✧~

what studying literature feels like

child of the moon

today a fascist won an election for the first time since 1933. here, in germany.

i don't care if it's just one (out of 16) states. björn höcke is a fascist. a court decided not long ago that it's allowed to call him a nazi. bc he is one. not "far right" or "conservative" - he is a nazi.

here. in germany. and he just won an election.

it hasn't even been 100 years.

i am scared.

~✧°+* 28 & 29/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

31.08.2023 & 01.09.2023

The essay is done! I handed it in Thursday night and while it for sure wasn't my best work (the first 5 pages were alright, then it went downhill a lot) I am glad to have it off my desk. I don't care too mugh about the grade either, or at least I'm trying not to. It's for a module in which I already have one very good grade and the Hamilton grade will just be added on. So even if I don't do well, the final module grade should turn out alright.

Taking my meds again also helped getting being sick back in check. I'm not feeling great yet, but we are getting there! Nothing comparable to two days ago.

On Friday I didn't do much. I played Sims (got the new Sims 4 Growing Together expansion, which I really enjoy) and spent some time with family. I'll be taking the weekend off and get back to studying on Monday!

I also got the worst haircut I've had in years. I was really bummed about it, but I'm hoping it'll grow on me with time.

Positive things I did these past days:

finished the Hamilton essay

spent time with family

got a haircut

rested

Hours slept:  ~7hrs 45mins & ~7hrs Screentime: ~3hrs 15mins & ~7hrs Steps taken: ~600 & ~1.200

my whole life has been a play of obsessions and distractions. to be obsessed with something so it distracts me from the reality, to find another distraction cuz the obsession is destroying me.

Starry starry night 💫

08.08.2023

Trying really hard to get in the groove again. The anxiety and dread that comes with my approaching deadlines is not helping in that regard.

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

cooked a warm meal

went on a walk

literature research for one of my essays

continued reading All Quiet on the Western Front

Hours slept: ~8hrs Screentime: 3hrs Steps taken: ~5.700

for those of you who don't know "we should write a paper on this" is equivalent to "we should start a band" in academia