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this proud fatty link

show, don't tell:

anticipation - bouncing legs - darting eyes - breathing deeply - useless / mindless tasks - eyes on the clock - checking and re-checking

frustration - grumbling - heavy footsteps - hot flush - narrowed eyes - pointing fingers - pacing / stomping

sadness - eyes filling up with tears - blinking quickly - hiccuped breaths - face turned away - red / burning cheeks - short sentences with gulps

happiness - smiling / cheeks hurting - animated - chest hurts from laughing - rapid movements - eye contact - quick speaking

boredom - complaining - sighing - grumbling - pacing - leg bouncing - picking at nails

fear - quick heartbeat - shaking / clammy hands - pinching self - tuck away - closing eyes - clenched hands

disappointment - no eye contact - hard swallow - clenched hands - tears, occasionally - mhm-hmm

tiredness - spacing out - eyes closing - nodding head absently - long sighs - no eye contact - grim smile

confidence - prolonged eye contact - appreciates instead of apologizing - active listening - shoulders back - micro reactions

Oaktown!

#Oakland #BayArea #Hyphy #GoStupid #GoDumb #Oakland #California #415 #510

The murals in Oakland are legit.

I realize I missed NEDAW, by a long shot (Feb-Mar was a blur of stress and medical testing, forgive me). But I wanted to take some time and share that I'm a proud survivor. 🍽️

Those who have followed me for awhile may already know, but I lived through my teens and early 20's alongside A*orexia. I was surviving (if you can call it that) on 500-750 calories daily, and exercising past the point of exhaustion in attempt to shed the last stubborn bits of fat that clung to my hips while the rest of my body quite literally wasted away. Friends looked concerned when they hugged me, able to feel how little of me was under my shirts and baggy hoodies, but my mom said it was the best I'd ever looked. And my first adult relationships only saw me replacing these habits with ones that were easier to hide, so I could maintain the body those shallow men expected of me. I was miserable.

Transition aside, I don't even resemble the same person I was a decade ago. The pale, gaunt face in those photographs has been replaced with round cheeks with a healthy flush. Protruding collarbones have sunk beneath a soft layer of self-loving and the only thing that protrudes on this body anymore is a big, round belly. I lived in fear of fat, yet there isn't a single part of me that isn't covered in it now. And you know what else? I smile more too.

Feedism and fatness are not just part of a kink for me, they've been every bit as instrumental to my current body and gender euphoria as HRT and top surgery have been. It's helped me find love and acceptance in myself where before was only self loathing and disgust. In spite of the hardships and social stigma attached to my size, I'm happier (and probably healthier) than I ever was, and I've never felt so fucking attractive in my own skin.

Do autistic kids "grow out" of their autism? Why does it sometimes seem like there are so few autistic adults?

For Autism Acceptance Month, I covered this topic in this comic to help explain this disconnect! YouTube | TikTok | Instagram | Twitter

How to Animate the Making of Sandwiches: Part 3

Ups😽

Made sure the all you can eat was worth it 😮‍💨

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