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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Malevolent (Podcast) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: John/Arthur Lester Characters: John (Malevolent), Arthur Lester, Kayne (Malevolent) Additional Tags: Post Separation, Post canon, set sometime after Season 5, so season five spoilers, idk assume that they find the stone and Kayne actually keeps his end of the deal, DemiAroAce Arthur, He has feelings about that, complicated feelings, He struggles with it, John (Malevolent) Has His Own Body, John has sensory issues, and yearning issues, romantic Jarthur, we get to it eventually, Mutual Pining, other tags to be added as i think about it, please Harlan never find this Series: Part 1 of To Be Loved By You Is A Holy Thing Summary:

Kayne actually goes through with his end of the deal and gives John his own body. However, he not only leaves them stranded in the Dreamlands, but they also gives each of them issues to deal with when it comes to their bodies. Now they have to deal with being separated while they once again try to navigate back to Earth. Arthur struggles with his feelings toward John, not understanding what they are. (He wouldn't have had the language to define Demi-romantic) John struggled with... just about everything.

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His thoughts turned to John; it felt incredibly lonely in this room- in this body- without him, even though he was just in the other room. There had once been a point when he'd wished for this; craved being alone more than he could say.

So why did it feel like hell now?

He should be grateful. John had his own body, his own autonomy outside of Arthur now- Arthur had his autonomy back. He should be happy for his friend, happy that he could interact with the world now; that he could interact with him now. And interact he did. He couldn't seem to keep his hands off him.

Sorry for the long wait, but it's finally done! It's not my best work but I wanted you guys to at least have an ending!

Eeeeeeeee! This is co cutesy!

A scene from @starswhisperwritershear chapter 4

I've fixed it!!!!! I can now finish chapter 9! It's the new windows update that's killing me. Hopefully I can get this done soon

Guys,

The universe (windows defender) is keeping me from finishing this next chapter. For some god awful reason the anti-virus software is taking up more than 50% of my computer's memory and I can't keep my document tabs open for more than thirty seconds at a time to write.

I have tried searching for this problem literally everywhere it's even typed "reddit" at the end of my search and have tried everything I found. Nothing is working. I won't be able to finish the chapter until I can get my computer to work.

If anyone has struggled with antimalware service executable like this, id love some help.

Why does writing a chapter take longer than I remember it. I swear I used to be able to knock out a 8k chapter in less than four hours and it's been a week and I'm only on the second draft of the first chapter for this one.

And I need more words for people moving in conversation. I've used the word turned 13 times now

We english speakers need more words for Laugh that have different emotional connotations. I can feel the authors of the past shaming me from the great beyond as I attach adverbs to every he laughed. Cause He laighed shyly, he laighed sadly, and he laughed softly, are all different vibes and there's too many adverbs everywhere but I have no alternatives that work for the situation!

The best comedy bit I've ever seen in a show (from a personal perspective) is in fact, Mr. Lancer swearing in classical literature titles. It's always so perfect for the situation and makes me cackle every time. Whoever thought of that deserves an award.

Sometimes I read things from an author and I'm like "wow you're characters are really disturbed and horny how'd you think of that?" Cause like as an ace person, I don't have those thoughts often at all. But then I'll be editing (rewriting) a chapter and the characters thoughts just hit me like a truck and I'm like "oh okay, so when were you going to tell me you were also a freak?"

googledocs you are getting awfully uppity for something that can’t differentiate between “its” and “it’s” correctly

"I hate pronouns!" I scream into the void.

Little do you know that I'm not some Maga conservative hating on gay people.

Quite the opposite.

I'm sitting here writing the gayest shit you'll ever see and i have to keep finding creative ways to make sure we know who's doing what when the sentence is:

He tugged his lips with his teeth as he pulled away.

You'll never know which he is character a and which one is character b. But try writing that a different way that doesn't seem clunky.

Anyway, be gay and do crime or whatever