YESSSS Im A Huge Sucker For Listening To Albums In Order! Especially With Artists That Have Cohesive

All I want is to move into a beautiful cottage in the country side

Frolic through fields wearing my historically accurate dresses to find Mr Darcy

Sipping on tea and taking my goats for walks

Is that too much to ask?

' I dream my painting and I paint my dream. '

―Vincent van Gogh

Insert an unoriginal joke about how I was the one who took these photos

the best advice i have for trying to figure out who you are outside of your mental illness is to try things. try anything that seems remotely interesting and try not to get too caught up in the consequences or whether you’re going to be good at it. of course, this is all within reason - don’t do anything dangerous or illegal, but trying new hobbies and places and ideas is such a good way to find out what you like outside of festering in front of netflix and crying in the shower.

sing off key, or buy a cheap instrument. draw haphazardly. buy books you’ve never heard of. go to a coffee shop and order a drink you’ve never had. try out that recipe you keep seeing online. buy that shirt that catches your eye immediately.

mental illness often takes away who we are and we can lose so much of what makes us us. you may never return to who you were before your illness, but you can become a new person. someone strong and someone you like. trying new things is a good way to build the foundations of that person. keep your head up, you’ll get there.

Hey, look at me. Look at me. I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again: you need to condition yourself to being okay with being inconvenienced by things. The first time I spoke about this I meant it in a mental health way- it is good to go out to the store and see people versus just ordering alone at home- but there is another more pressing societal issue you should be more concerned about as well.

Any service you rely on for convenience can be weaponized against you the moment you begin to rely on it. Streaming used to be a cheap and convenient way to see movies at home. It is now exorbitantly expensive, you need multiple accounts just to get what you want, and any of those movies can be taken from you at any time. And unless you have gotten used to going through the “inconvenience” of owning physical media, you can do nothing about it. Same goes for buying things on Amazon. Same goes for any service like DoorDash etc. These companies WANT you to be reliant on them for convenience so they can do whatever they want to you because, well, what else are you gonna do?

Same thing goes for the uptick in AI. If you train yourself to become reliant on AI for doing basic things, you will be taken advantage of. It is only a matter of a couple years before there are no free AI services. Not only that, but in the usage of AI’s case, it is robbing you of valuable skills that you need to curate that you will be helpless without the moment the AI companies drive in the knife the way they have done with streaming. Delivery. Cable. Internet. Etc. It will happen to AI too. And if you are not practicing skills such as. Writing. You are not only going to be at the mercy of AI companies in the digital world, but you are going to be extremely easy to take advantage of in real life too.

I am begging you to let go of learned helplessness. I am begging you to stop letting these companies TEACH you helplessness. Do something like learn to pirate. It is way more inconvenient at the beginning, but once you know how, it is one less way companies can take advantage of you. Garden. Go to the thrift store (older clothes hold up better anyway). These things take more time and effort, yes, but using time and effort are muscles you need to stretch to keep yourself from being flattened under the weight of our capitalist hellscape.

Inconvenience yourself. Please. Start with only the ways you are able. Do a little bit at a time. But do something.

Margarita Karapanou, tr. by Karen Emmerich, Rien ne va plus

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I relied on romantic maladaptive daydreaming for survival as a child, and have been love sick ever since