A Little Vent Piece

A little vent piece

I'm currently writing a new part for the Tom Gets Therapy series. This time it focuses solely on Tord's perspective, and I'm facing a problem.

See, when I first wrote TGT, I had the intent of just making it a one and done fic. So Tom's mannerisms in therapy were ones I frequently showed when I was in therapy with my better therapist. The scratching into the arm chair had been something that I did, the more erratic talking and the need for a break. All of that was how I was in therapy when I had a good therapist.

So writing Tord's therapy, I want to portray how drastically different his experience is with Tom's. Tom is comfortable in the office and with his therapist. Tord is not, he hates the office and while he can appreciate his psychotherapist's more blunt nature, she can be very pushy about the topics they'll be talking about. She is the one that is forcing him to talk about his old friends and he is uncomfortable the whole way through.

Naturally I dive into my own past experiences and use them like I did for Tom's situation right? Welllll I may have gone too deep. I went through several family therapists thanks to the divorce and custody battle with my mom and dad, so bad experience on top of bad experience... these therapists were chosen by my dad and anything I told them would be told to my father and then used against me, it built up so much mistrust and resentment when I should have just been given mental health care... so needless to say, this is going to take me a while and I think I need to go cry. This sucks, I thought I was over this shit.

I gotta get this outta my brain.

I keep imagining what could have been if like IDW Starscream, ruler of Cybertron, lost his leadership position earlier on and his sentencing was to join Megatron on the Lost Light. The idea from the new leadership on Cybertron is that Megatron would get rid of Starscream and so they could just kill two birds with one stone. Starscream lingers mostly to the more isolated parts of the ship, barely interacting with anyone, but somehow always being dragged to the brig for something going wrong on the ship. It gets to the point where Starscream doesn't even come out of the brig holding cells when it's offered to him, he just wants them to leave him there to rust. Of course that information is quick to make it back to Rodimus, Ultra Magnus, and Megatron. They're a mix of trying to figure out what to do in this situation. Rodimus I could see him either being a-ok with Starscream staying there or he could believe they need to work at Starscream since Megatron was just as bad as Starscream and he turned out okay, Ultra Magnus is more on the 'leave him there' side given Starscream's criminal record, but Megatron is mixed about what to do. Megatron doesn't enjoy Starscream being on the ship, being in the space that he managed to make for himself and finally begin to work on himself. But he also knows that he himself wasn't good to Starscream and feels a sense of deja-vu hit him when he hears from Ravage that Starscream is self-isolating and wasting away. Similar to all those years ago when Starscream led the Decepticons for 3 years only for the crew to resort to cannibalism. It's a chance for Megatron to do the same situation, but differently. To show Starscream that the ex-warlord has changed. So Megatron goes to the brig and decides to speak with Starscream alone. [Sorry but this idea became too big for a single post, I'll link the second part which is the little snippet I wrote for this.]

[Part 2]

A Little Vent Piece

A little vent piece

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I gotta get this outta my brain.