I Was Having Such A Good Morning.

Ok so I have developed a new obsession and my lizard brain has drawn a connection between 4 unrelated characters and this paired them together.

They’re all

Skinny

Tall

Related to the color blue

And have some trauma

And I redrew each of em

We’ve got

2D from Gorillaz

Edd from Ed, Edd, and Eddy

Huggy Wuggy from Poppy Playtime

And

Megamind from, well Megamind

The way my brain rationalized these was that they should each be from a Different form of media such as a band, cartoon, video game, or movie.

And now I present you my favorite work I’ve created of these boys so far

Since I love Gorillaz

I'm so extremely serious when I say doctors should be put through an extremely extensive reliscensing process every 10 years. Doctors should have their knowledge scrutinized against current medical research and be de-barred at even the tiniest discrepancy. Too many old doctors absolutely refuse to stay up to date on research and dismiss patients because of their personal experiences. Too many people die every year because doctors don't take us seriously and refuse to listen to people who KNOW something is wrong. Too many people are told their problems are nothing and come back in a year or more with serious illnesses and doctors are just like "lol everyone makes mistakes" but doctors mistakes routinely cost people their lives! I'm tired of medical malpractice being swept away under the guise of "mistakes were made."

Would y’all be interested in a Suave and Cunning demisexual Villain x Himbo hero?

My heart hurts so to distract myself Imma tell you why vision tests are stupid.

Ok so I recently got my learners permit so I had to take a vision test but that one wasn’t bad. But it made me think about how much bullshit vision tests are.

When you take a vision test and they have you do your eyes separately but you have to read the same line?

Idk about other people but I already memorized what the line says because the doctor always makes me read with my dominant eye first, so I know what the line says even if I can’t see it clearly?!?

And I tried to convey this to my doctor and she was like well then you can read it, which no?!?

So now I have a lighter prescription than I used to and I can’t see well for shit.

It’s come to my attest that I should probably post some of the art for Demons &Drag since I can’t focus long enough to finish the last eat chapter currently so

Here

In order we have Jem, Surri and Anitri

What song would be playing on my pride float?

I...

I don’t know how to explain why other than I live this song and Robin is LGBTQ+.

Please someone ask me anything

I’m lonely

here’s weirder asks

who is/are your comfort character(s)?

lighter or matches?

do you leave the window open at night?

which cryptyd being do you believe in?

what color are your eyes?

why did you do that?

hair-ties or scrunchies?

how many water bottles are in your room right now?

which do you prefer, hot coffee or cold coffee?

would you slaughter the rich?

favorite extracurricular activity?

what kind of day is it?

when was the last time you ate?

do you love the smell of earth after it rains?

are you a parent? (all answers qualify)

can you drive?

are you farsighted or nearsighted?

what hair products do you use?

imagine we’re at a sleepover, would you paint my nails?

do you say soda or pop?

something you’ve kept since childhood?

what type of person are you?

how do you feel about chilly weather?

if we were together on a rooftop, what would we be doing?

perfume/body spray or lotion?

a scenario that you’ve replayed multiple times?

about how many hours of sleep did you get?

do you wear a mask?

how do you like your shower water?

is there dishes in your room?

what type of music keeps you grounded?

do you have a favorite towel?

the last adventure you’ve been on?

is there a song you know every word to by heart?

what’s your timezone?

how many times have you changed your url?

someone in your life, other than a relative, you’ve known for 10+ years?

a soap bar that smells good?

do you use lip balm?

did you have any snacks today?

how do you take your coffee?

an app you frequently use besides this godforsaken site?

what’s your take on spicy foods?

you get a free pass to kill anyone, who is it?

can you remember what happened yesterday?

favorite holiday film?

what was the last message you sent?

when did you first try an alcohol beverage?

can you skip rocks?

can i tag you in random stuff?

Idk if I've posted about this before, but the most important thing I've learned in 2022 (The Year Of Never Ending Doctors' Visits) is to leave every medical appointment with a clear-cut set of next steps. When you have a chronic health issue, it's not just as simple as telling the doctor what's wrong and letting them take it from there.

If you go in for an undiagnosed issue, your should leave with:

An investigative plan: Orders for labs, imaging, or specialist referrals to try and figure out what's causing the problem. If your doctor doesn't want to order tests, ask why. It could be an insurance issue (e.g. tests denied unless front line treatments have failed), or it could be a bias issue. If it's a bias issue, things get more complicated, but the first step towards adequate care is asking your doctor to note that you requested testing for the issue and they denied it on the basis of [whatever]. I have some tips for next steps in these situations, so feel free to shoot me a message.

A "what-if" follow up plan: Ask your doctor, "What if the labs/scans/etc. come back negative or inconclusive? What if this treatment plan is not effective after [preestablished length of time]? What's the next step?" and make sure the next steps are noted. This helps keep you on your doctors' radar until you have an effective care plan in place.

A symptom management plan: Really spell out the effect the symptoms are having on your daily life. Let the doctor know you're fully invested in long term recovery, but that you need something to help you live your life as "normally" as possible until the long term treatment plan can be established and take effect. This could be medication, assistive devices, FMLA or other documentation for work/school, etc.

If you go in for a diagnosed issue, swap out the investigative plan for a long-term treatment plan. The goal should be to reduce your symptoms or prevent progression, if possible. For some conditions, this looks pretty similar to symptom management.

This has been working pretty well for me lately. At the end of my appointments, I verbally summarize my understanding, like "Okay, so we're trying to figure out the cause of my [symptom], and you've ordered XYZ tests. If nothing comes back abnormal, you'll [order different tests, refer to specialist, etc.]. In the meantime, I can manage it with [medication, lifestyle change(s), adaptive device, etc.]. Is that a good summary of our plan?"

Rinse & repeat at any/all follow up visits.

When did I realize I wasn’t straight?

Well I suppose that’s a difficult question.

For the longest time I was convinced I would marry a man and have 5 kids. But as I learned more about the world I found terms that just felt better.

In 6th grade, I started out with saying I was bisexual because it was the first term I learned. I thought it was appropriate because I thought girls were really pretty which I thought meant I could fall in love with them. But I still never thought I could have sex with a women and I had kind just pushed out of my mind the fact that for kids I would “need” to have sex.

In the same year, I was introduced to romantic attraction terms and started going by Biromantic heterosexual. That lasted about three months when I was introduced to the term asexual.

I have identified as asexual since I was in middle school and have ever since.

I also started questioning my gender identity around this time but we’ll get back to that.

Now even though I had determined that I was ace, I still had it in my brain that I needed a romantic interest to appease the concept I grew up with.

So I jumped around between deciding who my “crush” would be. From a sweet femme person I admired to a girl that would become one of my best friends.

I tried as I might to love them the way they wanted me to. I tried so hard with putting romance behind every I love you.

But I just can’t.

I don’t feel that way.

I just don’t, no matter how I try.

And that’s okay. They accept me.

It was around the time I determined I was aro that I decided there was no point in denying that I didn’t feel like a girl.

I still don’t. I identified for awhile as androgyne because if my mom ever asked me about my gender it wouldn’t break her heart as much.

But recently I’ve determined I do like being associated with being a “girl”.

So I have decided to settle with the term Demiboy as of now.

He/they pronouns.