HF: IN YOUR OWN WORDS WHO IS TRIXIE MATTEL

HF: IN YOUR OWN WORDS WHO IS TRIXIE MATTEL

i saw rocky horror when i was like 17 and it was about that sort of... Achieving power in a room by disrupting gender. At the time it was like a dog whistle to me.

i was like "I hear something that I don't think anybody else around me is hearing when I watch this."

And that made me think of the character[Trixie Mattel].Growing up poor in the country, my family's all Native American. The women in my life were all brown women who were like living below poverty.I guess to me, Trixie was invented to be my critique on Americanized Caucasian capitalism. She was ment to be this big boobs, tiny waist, blonde hair, blue eyes, tan, super long fingernails, stupid, rich, like kind of the worst qualities of an Americanized beauty standard.But I guess because it's attached to me,

what I liked exploring is that my real self was basically the opposit of everything of Trixie. And so the character to me was like the most fabricated version of myself I could think of .... like almost a game of opposities, right? I think of her as this little sixties, California by way of Wisconsin, beach bunny who, the way I try to do the character is that she doesn'treally know she's doing comedy. I like the idea that TRixie, like, thinks she's the best. She's not. I like that Trixie's like a B minus humanitarian, but she sees herself as Miss America.

I kind of think of her as the worst qualities of a person, but like hopefully assembled in like an endearing way. She's rude and she critiques capitalism while very transparently participating in it. In a lot of ways, she's my vericle to poke the bear of Americaniazed success and what it's perceived to be.

But I think what I actually aspire to feel now is being present in the moment and grateful on a very like cellular level of like. "Tonight's show will never happen again. All these people are here to see me. All these people have 40 hour a week jobs and they're spending money to puton a whole outfit and come just be with you in a world that you created - Your little traveling Disneyy World" And I mean, when you say it like that, it's completely cray to not be grateful. While you're in it all the time, it's really hard to feel it. It's hard to feel it always

HF: ARE YOU STILL WRITING A LOT?

TM: Oh yeah, during my sabbatical, I just had my little Gibson Dove. I was living in Kentucky during my sabbatical, and I played my guitar every day. Once a day, i would get an idea for a song. i would sit down, turn on my little microphone and play it through. I was burning out a song a day for a while. it was so free, so fluid.

I mean, I had such a difficult couple years, I feltlike I lost everything. I like had made more money than I'd ever made, and I had more success than I'd ever had. And all these TV shows on the air and stuff and my albums coming out and tours selling out all over the world. And I was more unhappy than I've ever been in my life. So suddenly my measures for success were like, so pointless. It really paved the way for me to sit down with my guitar and make music the way I did when I was like a teenager, there was no stakes. It doesn't matter. And then I was writting the best music I think I've ever been writing

the best trixie interview i’ve ever read