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Okhmatdyt Children's Hospital in Kyiv, Ukraine after russian missile attack.

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keep seeing Temu ads on here so just to share cause idk if people are widely aware

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I've battled with my dysphoria for what feels like forever, but as someone who lives right around the poverty line, I've only been able to v

Hello, tumblr! I mentioned this in my stream last night with my friend and collaborator @lakemojave, but here is the official tumblr announcement: I've started a fundraiser to pay for GAS that I can't afford on my own.

I...try my best to appear pretty unflappable on this site, because my online persona relies on that. But about two years ago I was harassed by TE/RFs and no matter how much I tried to forget or get over it, there was a comment that a 17 year old made towards my appearance the has probably been the most devastating thing I've ever felt, and ever since that insult I've grown steadily and steadily more disgusted and anxious about my appearance--specifically my hair.

As an AMAB trans person, I'm of course going to experience male-pattern baldness. Even in cisgender men, more than 75% of them experience some form of heightened anxiety and dysphoria due to hair loss or fear of it. I don't know how those numbers change when talking about trans people, but I can't imagine it's not even higher.

In the interest of full transparency at the cost of, frankly, my pride: I have reached the point in my dysphoria where I am growing to be borderline suicidal. I've struggled with suicidal ideation since I was a young teenager, but this is the first time in over a decade that I've reached a level where I am terrified what will happen when it gets worse.

And so with all that said, I've started a fundraiser on PayPal to try and raise money for my gender-affirming care. Y'all might remember me from the Great Soy Sauce Conspiracy of late December of last year, and maybe also how I stopped working on the project due to mental health reasons. I remember how kind all of you were when I was struggling with living newly on my own trying to afford food and things like convection plates, and it's my hope that I could rely on you all to help me again.

With that said, I've made the decision that if I am able to fulfill this fundraiser's cost...I'm going to pick back up The Mysterious Appearance of Miss Appleton and finally finish it once and for all...in video essay format, because that feels most appropriate to me. I think I'm going to be ready for it this time.

If you've read this far, thank you so much. If you need it, though:

TLDR: I need to get myself gender-affirming surgery because i'm getting real close to suicidal over my dysphoria. I've made a fundraiser for it. If the fundraiser is successful, I'm going to finally finish the video essay for The Mysterious Appearance Of Miss Appleton. Thank you for your time and your help.

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I've battled with my dysphoria for what feels like forever, but as someone who lives right around the poverty line, I've only been able to v

If you see a syphilis lesion on your body please understand it is very very dangerous and seek help. Syphilis turns into Neurosyphilis.

if you feel like you have "jellobones" or "bird bones" you may very well have been born with syphilis in your bone marrow, eating your bones from the inside out. PLEASE SEEK HELP OR MEDICAL ADVICE.

Symptoms include 1 eye pointing out, uneven walking, lowered IQ and eventually very very dangerous painful life-ruining symptons as you can see in the information included here. Do your own research and stay safe, but please look into it ASAP if you have symptoms or your children/parents do !

This is Pele one of my ocs. I am taking questions and requests on Pele and any ocs that I will later show. Simple drawing requests are also welcome.

One of my favorite designs.

Me: *has intrusive thought*

Magic rock: Don't

Me: OK, fine.

you got a magic rock as a kid that was meant to teach you the “magic words” of please and thank you by reminding you whenever it’s appropriate. Now though it’s begun to recommend whole paragraphs whenever you’re in a sticky situation. The best part is following it’s advice always works out best

Wow. Talk about attention to detail.

Video here: https://twitter.com/javi_draws/status/965260617790738432?s=21