This THE MOST SWEET MESSAGE I EVER RECEIVED THIS HOE PUT ME ON TEARS I FUCKING LOVE HIM SO MUCH❤️❤️❤️❤️

Birthday Gift ( from me to me)

i hate this life....

To clarify the concept a bit whenever I pass through unpleasent series of events and shit, i get attached to a specific species of animals. I watch videos of them , i follow documentaries about how Man's actions are affecting their kind, and i daydream about them a lot and a lot and consequently get emotionally attached to them :)

at 7~10 years old i was heavily attracted to the brown 🐻 watched many documentaries about dem cuties on every available animals channels. And Now -since 2019- I am more attracted to Orcas, Intelligent animals with massive mind blowing lifestyles 🖤🤍.Moreover, 👀Myths say that they lead the lost ones to their homes.🧎🏻‍♀️🚶🏻‍♀️🏃🏻‍♀️

You know but the real reason behind this drawing is that i saw an old friend picture on facebook winning a writing award and her book will gett printed... I freezed cause i was a good native writer once . I used to get full marks on writing assigments and tests been callled "Gibran Khalil Gibran" among my friends,i was able to put alll my thoughts on papers without hestiation or fear. And now i am worthless looser that can scribbles and barely make decent works . I wanted to do something that i only will understand featuring the differences about my life when i was 10 years old and when i turned 20 today

I really want to write big paragraphs, but basically all what i wanna say is just how disaapointed i am from this life and from anyone who expects the best of me cause i have"pOtEntIal". I can't recall what life lessons i learnt from the passed years especially in this stressful year because of the thawra, the fires around my university, corona virus, quarintine, economic and electricity crisises and a lot of khara events... in short i lost my faith