I'm So Stupid Bc I'm 1 Month Near To Have 18 Years Old And I'm Still Thinking That My Mom Loves Me. She

Guidelines.

Frist of all, welcome!

Requests: Open.

Refer to me as: Abby, she/her pronouns.

Language: My first language is spanish, however in this blog I`ll only be writting in english, but that doesen`t mean that you can`t send a message in spanish <3

I won`t be tolerating ANYTHING related to homophobia, racisim, transphobia, xenophobia, islamophobia, antisemitism, misogyny, fatphobic, or any hate discurse.

I won`t writte:

Tropes: sad/unhappy endings, graphic sexual harassment, graphic rapes scenes, incest, mental illness or terminal disease.

Kinks: Non-con, piss kink, scat, age play, minor + adult, incest.

Fandoms + Characters that I write for:

Harry Potter:

Golden trio era: Draco Malfoy, Harry Potter, Hermione Granger, Luna Lovegood, Fred, George, Ron, Ginny, Bill, Charlie, Percy Weasley, Oliver Wood, Pansy Parkinson, Blaise Zabini, Theodore Nott, Cedric Diggory, Fleur Delacour; Viktor Krum, Cho Chang, Neville Longbottom and Nymphadora Tonks.

Marauders era: James Potter. Lily Evans, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, Regulus Black, Narcissa Black, Lucius Malfoy, Tom Riddle (idk if he goes here),

Next generation: Coming soon!

I won`t write: Bellatrix Black, Barty Crouch Jr, Dorcas Meadows, Marlene Mckinnon, Peter Pettigrew, Severus Snape and Andromeda Black.

if your character didn`t appear in any of the lists, you can ask <3

Narnia:

Peter Pevensie, Edmund Pevensie and Caspian X.

I stil won´t write for Susan and Lucy or any other character because I still can`t picture them into fan writtings, like idk, but maybe when i get more experience and after a read/watch the movies again. Like this is a "not yet".

Sherlock (bbc):

Sherlock Holmes, Mycroft Holmes, John Watson, Jim Moriarty, Greg Lestrade and Irene Adler.

I won`t writte for Molly, Mary or Sebastian, I`m sorry.

More coming soon!

You don't know how much your mommy/daddy issues affect you until you're on Tumblr bleeding out your traumas.

To my (stil don't know) best friend or ex best friend.

I need to know what's going on with me. What are the things that go through your head when you name me? How many times did my name appear between your lips in conversations in which I am not present? You love me? You hate me? You miss how we were before, do you want to go back to that? Because I didn't stop thinking about us and it takes me more and more breath to feel good about you.

I loved you so much for so long that if this is the end you would go through life with your soul and a piece of mine. I want our stars to become alienated again and if it's not possible, I want you to do as much force as you can to move them despite gravity and find us again. I miss seeing us coincide.

What happened to us? What happened to me? What happened to you?

My fire is getting tired to give so much wood to our fireplace, Where is your wood? Did you bother to go find it or did you spend your clothes looking for firewood for someone else? Did you only stay with me for the materials I was able to offer? I don't care about the rest of your builds, but don't abandon me.

The one thing that scratch my heart the most is that I don't know what happens. Are these your attempts to have a planet come between our stars so you can distance yourself as you please? Have I been bad company? Did something happen in your life where I couldn't help you? I need to know so I could be there as I should have been from the beginning, I don't want there to be stones in our way.

It tears me to think that if I truly loved myself I wouldn't be giving you as much as I give you. Because it doesn't even seem like you want to fix things with me. And if everything is fine and things are as before, why do I no longer feel that your affection warms me? Is it because they are lies or is there something else that is turning you off? I want to fix ourselves.

Talk to me, I can't keep the fire going in such a big fireplace by myself.

I can't stop noticing all the mistakes that we weren't able to improve in our past. Yours and mine. But I would give anything for you to hurt me again if we go back to what we did before. I miss seeing your bare feet in front of the blue sky.

I don't want things to be the same as before, I don't like mistakes, or that we hurt each other. But it seems that you don't even have the will to speak and I'm sick of pulling the string of your truth every time to know about you. It's going to be 10 years of construction for a great fireplace and a great road, please don't tell me I was with the wrong engineer.

Sorry if something doesn't makes sense, English it's not my first language and I just wanna vent in a place where nobody knows me in real life.

I'm sorry if you ever felt something like that, you didn't deserve it.

I don't care if you don't ship Drarry, Dramione, Deamus, Wolfstar, Linny, etc I really don't.

But if you go on the post about Drarry and comment "eeew", "I was going to like but then it was Drarry" I'm thinking that you were raised by Lucius Malfoy because the only person that though their opinion was so important that everyone want it to hear it was Draco Malfoy.

Like seriously, what do people gain by commenting shitty things about the things that other people loves? Do you not see me trying to make this post about this thing™ so it's a safe place for people who likes this thing™? Shut up and go to the hate hashtags were your opinion matters.

Like saying that "Ginny Weasley is straight wtf💀" in a post about Linny just makes everyone uncomfortable, it doesn't make anyone to stop liking them, just makes them feel scared or defensive when they're about to post about them.

For not to mention the people who sends death threats to someone because they like Dramione because they are "romanticizing abusive relationships", as if by shipping them they encouraged people to be abusive with their partners. Literally makes me so mad, I miss the fandom before Dracotok era so fucking much.

Just stop like if I said "Remus never knew how to cook properly, but Sirius felt as free in the kitchen as if he never was a prisoner" is for people to comment "yes, but breakfast and tea were all made by Remus, I just can't imagine Sirius getting snacks, like Remus just would put them on his hand" not for you to go "lmaooo💀 Blackinon supremacy 🛐🛐" who made you feel as important? Why do you wanna comment that? It's your life so boring that you feel the need to comment passive agressive things? I can't imagine someone being like "Yeah, I feel great after pointing that out, now everyone would stop liking this".

Yes, I was very mad.

Yes, I love spitting facts

Once I solved everything about this show, the two things that bothered me the most were Ruby and Otis whole thing about not saying ILY back at moment... Like I know they needed a reason to break them up so Maeve and Otis could happen, but honestly is so shitty to really break up about that, it was rushed and I didn't feel it natural. And then Otis and Maeve are still "in love" with eachother after not talking for months, they didn't have a lot of scenes in this season and in most of them Otis shows the emotional intelligence of a child. Maeve was right, Otis don't understand her, he understands a lot of things but he doesn't understand her completely. Otis is super awkward everytime he's around Maeve, while with Ruby he talks a little more. She urges him to be more open, she might even have helped him with the whole "therapy" thing but Otis never discussed it with Ruby. They could have been everything but they need more development, they needed to grow up together.

The second thing is Hope, I liked her at first, but I think calling herself a feminist and then saying that her "body doesn't do the only thing they have to do" irks me a little too much. Because I know that could be within the whole infertility plot they gave her, all the frustration and pain. The subject makes me a bit emotional, but I like that they included it ... However, Hope had a strange fixation on Cal, probably because it's for the sake of the plot, but she locks them in an empty classroom because they was wearing their uniform wrong. It's a lot for something minor like that, she could have created penalties for students who misuse uniforms, or something like that.

I think her actions are over the top for Cal's situation, compared to Adam and Lily, wearing the uniform a couple of sizes larger is not such a terrible thing or that it is of great concern. Also, I don't think Cal is the only person we see wearing the wrong uniform, Ruby always rolled up her skirt and Adam was always polished, but no one ever said anything to them. And even if Cal was the only one wearing the larger size uniform, she would have 99% of her students in perfect shape, she could leave it as a minor inconvenience, give them penalties. It was too much for so little.

Also it bother me so much how pleased she was after Layla, the younger NB character, said that they(?) was going to the girls room for the sex ed class.

So all these actions sound a bit strange to me, because it is a repetitive behavior that can be connected to what she believes. And I don't like it, that could mean she's transphobic. And I think the writers didn't write her to be transphobic, they just put her together and didn't notice her repetitive behavior with respect to the body that has a uterus and then the different gender entities.

These tow things have that in common, that the writers didn't plan it, but we noticed.

The rest was good, clearly Adam was the one who had the best development. Some people say it was Ruby, but I don't think so, I think we saw things about her that we didn't know before but we don't really know if she matured. Eric and Otis friendship is beautiful as always, same with Maeve and Aimee. But we also see some Ola and Adam, Lily and Otis, Ruby and her friends, Viv and Jackson ... They did great with friendships.

Yes there were bad things, like Otis and Maeve kissing when Maeve was with Isaac, Eric cheating on Adam, Jean not knowing who the father of her daughter is ... A lot of infidelity plot for 8 chapters.

We don't talk enough about Bellatrix being the one who taught Draco oclumency.

Fred Weasley

* indicates smut.

Fred's sub tries to dominate him.*

I love Harry Potter bc all the characters have flaws and I have to rely on the canon to completely like them, it's like a whole new reality that is just like a normal reality + the books to zone out of that reality.

It's like a I zone out of the first reality, I fall into the canon world of Harry Potter and then I zone out of that other reality reading the books (fanfics) of that reality.

It makes me so sad think about how the adults, specially Sirius, in Harry Potter referred to Lily as a "wonderful woman" when she was a woman for such a short time. She was 21 when she was killed, that's super young, especially when you are aware that the life expectancy of wizards is 120 years.