97 Lmao I Am SO Basic And Vanilla I Guess

thought too much about sae-byeok and listened to a sad song and made myself cry

Someone will always write faster.

Someone will always have a bigger audience.

Someone will always seem better.

The only writer you need to be better than is past you.

hi.

whichever one of you fucks put my fic (vanish into you) into a public rating bookmark collection (and rated my fic 3/5 stars) can you please take it down right now.

i didn’t ask for you to rate my fic. you are unconsentedly rating shit i put HOURS into. HOURS I COULD BE USING STUDYING FOR FINALS. but sorry that i enjoy writing enough i guess??

hell, i dont even care if you rate it 5 stars, or 1 star, but i didnt ask for this, and im sure these others didnt either!! (there’s thousands of them)

this is genuinely upsetting me because as somebody who has a borderline anxiety attack before posting every chapter, it kinda sucks to get indirectly told your work is mediocre! i am insanely self conscious and this doesn’t help. so congrats i guess!

ao3 isn’t even meant to have a rating system. i’m sorry for getting so worked up over this but it is genuinely upsetting.

anyways. please and thank you.

sometimes you’re hit with a friendly realization that yes, life is good. you have your comfort characters and you have archive of our own. life is actually beautiful

still mad about se-mi dying because why do we have to kill the women? first sae-byeok and now se-mi? next thing i know jun-hee or hyun-ju are gonna die

my shayla....my shaylaaaa

I love that I’ve found my way into the world of SG fanfic writing because these characters are any writer’s dream to work with. They’re all so complex and have robust backstories and plenty of trauma to dig our hands into.

Seriously, I’ve never had a cast of characters I adore so much.

Gihun? Adore.

Sangwoo? Adore.

Saebyeok? Adore.

Inho? Adore.

Junho? Adore.

Noeul? Adore.

Even the side characters are delightful. The Salesman/the Recruiter, Hyunju, Thanos, Namgyu, Minyeo, Jungbae, Wooseok—they’re all parts of the rich tapestry that is this ensemble and I couldn’t love them more ngl

I have a hc that gi-hun lights a candle for each of them every year, since they died on the same day 🕯️🕯️

everyday I remember that sangwoo is not buried properly and was probably burned like the rest of the dead players,

everyday I remember that saebyeok is not buried properly and was probably burned like the rest of the dead players,

And everyday I remember that gihun can’t go to their graves and grieve them because they don’t have proper burials, no flowers no candles.

gihun, youre so strong, ily 😪😪

- you’re beautiful too, unnie.