I Need Reblogs. I’m Ready To Stand Up. LGBT Announcement

I need reblogs. I’m ready to stand up. LGBT announcement

Ok,

So a few of you may know my story but for those who don’t, prepare yourselves. I’m a lesbian, but I prefer the term gay. I came out to my Mom in september, she was quiet and didn’t have much to say. Something went down in January that I never like to repeat, but then being gay came back up. I was in her room, we talked, I told her again and she said she didn’t want to talk about it but I said I did because if not we would never start to talk again. We yelled

Stuff was said

Christianity was brought up

I backed out of my religion, I no longer identify as Christian.

I cried

a lot

I was hurt

She took all of my passwords, has all of my accounts. I can no longer communicate with the trevorprojectawareness over this. I wasn’t able to communicate with certain people for a few months. She made me unfollow people like Tyler Oakley. I can no longer, however, find his tumblr so if anybody knows the official one then please link it on this post.

It was bad, my sexuality was destroying me. Not to mention going through a christian school where if they learned of me, I could be kicked out, wasn’t helping either. At one point right when I moved in with my dad, she sent me some….really upsetting text. She used my sexuality to her advantage, “Well this this this because basically I know about your sexuality and can use it to get away with stuff” She played that card too many times. She believes it’s a choice, always said, “You are not gay! You do not know what it means anyways! You think you’re joining in with the cool kids!”

A lot of hurtful stuff along with that I don’t want to say. It’s been 6 months now and once I’m 18 in September, this will be gone. But at times It feels so far away. Sometimes I don’t even think about it, sometimes I do.

During this period my anxiety started to act up, I would talk to friends then break down having a flashback about what happened. I believe my Mom could hear everything because she tracks my ip, has my passwords, everything.

My anxiety got to a level where I felt paranoid all the time.

Well I’m sure all of us know that supreme court legalized gay marriage in all 50 states Hooray!

I cheered!

I was happy!

Now of course to my christian friends on twitter I voiced my opinion, I explained that today wasn’t a day about just putting a ring on somebody’s finger, it was more than that. It was a victory.

My sexuality isn’t public on twitter, so everything I said was from a non-homophobic, heterosexual view from those who know nothing about me. I woke up today, going through twitter and felt rage because everything I said was deleted. Where somebody quoted me agreeing it said, “tweet no longer available”

And I knew exactly why. She deleted them.

This stuff has gone on for months. Every time I voice my opinion she’ll take it down, my tumblr has not been touched which I don’t know why but, ok, whatever. “Oh, Jordyn, get over it. Just a few tweets, whatever.”

It’s more than that. For the past 6 months I feel I have been gagged and unable to voice my opinion about anything like this. It’s always like, “Sssh, you’re still suppose to be a christian who’s straight and like boys. Shush you don’t know what’s going on.”

And that annoys me. I’m getting angry and want to put my foot down.

If this post gets deleted you know exactly why

So what I’m asking is for you to reblog this post and stand up for me. I will write down each url, screenshot this post, etc. Either on my 18th birthday or when I leave for college I will show her this and how many people (hopefully a lot) who stand up for me.

I’ve been pushed, broken, and hated like any other for my sexuality, I want to take a stand.

tl;dr

gay teen under a lot of restriction for sexuality and what not. Mom involved, unable to voice opinion anymore. Feeling broken, sad, I’m wanting to stand up.

Please, no matter how many times you see this please reblog. I need the help. The lgbtqa+ community is a loving community most of the time who rejoiced together over our victory, now let’s get back together and help each other again.

Both mine and your battle isn’t over yet.

Deer