There’s A Lot Of Things That I Wish People Saw About Me But Don’t. I Wish People Saw Past My Few

there is nothing better than praying to my Gods. i thank them nearly every day but i want to especially thank them for the blessings and grace they have extended towards my life. may my prayers continue to be heard, and may they bless me with this opportunity tomorrow. i’m nervous, but i know that everything that happens does so for a reason.

blessed be everyone <3

TW: TALK OF SA AND SA FLASHBACKS

Untitled 9.12.23 (excerpt) - My head lolled against the cool glass of the SUV’s window, Bridgers blasting through air pods, the eternally grey world of Western Pennsylvania blurred by intermittent rain. I have the thought that my therapist is the only person on this planet who truly knows me. That she alone is whom I have laid my soul bare to and has been the only one to accept its abominable sin without falter. And even this yields to the fact that this is what she is trained to be. An artificial connection forged on the basis of years of schooling. No one will ever understand me just because they want to, nor just because they care.

michael and lucifer. the militant and the fallen.

i just want to be pretty. i want to be good and sweet. i hate being this way. i hate myself. i hate the world for turning me into this monster. i hate it all.

my heart hurts, everything hurts, i leave teeth marks in everything i’ve ever loved

i had a cat. through everything i had a cat. i don’t have the cat anymore, and everything sucks.

kinda tired fighting for a life i don’t even want