I Stg This Shit Is Just Big Puppy Disorder. Like Wag Wag Wag My Tail Over This New Friend, He Is So Nice

the urge to bleed out on the bathroom floor while music plays in the background

i literally haven’t been up this late in years. this is insane. i have read so much fanfiction it’s ridiculous. I JUST WANT TO SLEEP PLS !!!!

TW: brief mention of SA and physical assault

“‘She loves me like a dog’ but not in the soft, blindly loyal puppy way. She loves like a stray, mangy and flea ridden, hiding in the back of an alleyway or under the porch of the abandoned house next door.

She loves violently and ferally and wildly protective because she knows how it feels to be alone during the winter and she can’t go back to that, she can’t.

She loves with teeth and claws because those are the only body parts that have ever saved her, and she mistakes every hug for a chokehold.

She loves in a way that looks an awful lot like violence and feels an awful lot like desperation.”

-some random guy on my tiktok fyp at 3pm on a sunday

how do you cope with being everything you’ve ever feared?

call me crazy but i think nightly hypnotherapy might actually be helping?? like i notice i just wake up sm more pleasant when i do it vs when i don’t?? do i actually go find a real hypnotherapist now??

WOMP WOMP

(i took this pic to post and the app asked if i wanted to send my streak to someone LMFAO)

i hope everything gets easier soon. or at least funnier.