Literally Obsessed With Him..like Holy Jesus He’s So Pretty And Sweet And Hot And I Just Wanna Kidnap

so much meaning in one little action. if he knew me at all he would know that i go to sleep at about 11 every night since my meds knock me out. this has been happening for a year. we live together.

my self discovery journey is off to like the most insane start?? the universe has really decided that now is the time i finally get my shit together and be the person i only wished i could be. the coincidences are starting to feel more like fate. i want to talk to the Gods quickly on the subject and make sure that i am on my highest path,, but i think i’m really doing it guys. i just read the most empowering book about the universe and power of belief. i have the will, i just have to start to believe.

like the random compliments i’ve been giving are coming easier, enjoying my days and finding the good is still tough but i’m getting there, the last step is realizing that i am not what my father thinks i am- which will hopefully come faster than i could ever expect.

my heart hurts, everything hurts, i leave teeth marks in everything i’ve ever loved

bpd is a bitch.

i forgot how fucking delulu i get over this specific person. i need to just be fucking shot.

8.7.24 excerpt-

“and a large part of me is dead too, lying there with your ashes in the mahogany box”

TW for SA and R*pe

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Ευσέβεια, Efsevia. Piety. Showing honor and veneration to the gods and daimones, praising them and thanking them for what they do. Living a pious life.

Συγγένεια. Syngeneia. Kinship. It is through the city gods and gods of the Oikos (home, community) that we have friends, family, and neighbors. Honor the good men amongst them, bring protection and support to them, and be good to them.

Δικαιοσύνη. Dikaiosyne. Justice. Ruled by mighty Titan Themis, Justice is respecting the laws of nature, the gods, and the land. Without Justice, Law, and Order, we have Injustice, Impiety, and Chaos.

Ευδαιμονία. Evdaimonia. Happiness. Happiness is the gift of the bacchic gods Dionysos and many others, the kindly gods. Through good health and practices and piety and Justice and kinship, we find joy in our lives.

Αρετή. Aretē. Excellence and Virtue. To neglect the potential of excellence is to neglect the theurgical sciences the gods have given us. Do your best to self-better and become stronger and healthy as to be excellent for the gods.

Ξένια. Xenia. Hospitality. The highest and most honored tenet of our religion and the forefathers and he Zeus Xenios the hospitable. Welcoming Xenos, foreigners, in culture, tongue, religion, affiliation, into our life and practices and cities is the highest honor of Zeus Xenios and Athena Pallas of the City.

Χάρης. Kharis. Reciprocity and Favor. The gods and daimones give when we give and we give so they give. Honor the gods and cal to them in times of want and need, give good offerings and libations and praise them so they may speak your name and wishes.

Μέτρον. Metron. Moderation. No things In excess for they poison the mind, body, and soul. Practice moderation in exercise, consumption, alcohol, health, sciences, and arts and all other things.

Κάθαρσης. Katharsis. Purity. To pray to the gods impure and pour libations of sweet wine to them, they will not hear your prayers but spit them back at you. Never disrespect the gods with the impurities of daily life and miasma.

Σοφία. Sophia. Wisdom. Be wise in all things and trust Athena the wise to guide you, Apollon the light to shine the way for you, Hekate the torch bearer to make the dark to be walkable, and Hermes the guide to lead you to good things.

every time i make a mistake im like theyre going to put me down like a sick dog

i think i just need a different favorite person because this one is just not the fucking move