Progress Report: In Truth No Beauty, In Lies No Refuge

Dye Their Flowers With My Blood - Make Mild a Rugged People

The night will keep your secrets when you lay your heart bare.

As one of the people who voted for Jin Guangyao - I want to make it very clear that this wasn't meant as a Nie Mingjue diss OR because I believe Jiggy is promiscuous. He's not. I re-read the passage where people said he was faithful while slavering for his blood only yesterday. (Which, considering he couldn't touch his wife, is saying something.) ((Shoutout to Wei Ying, who thinks - okay, knows - Jin Guangyao is guilty as sin as far as Nie Mingjue and their trip to the Burial Mounds is concerned, but STILL realises that this lynch mob dynamic is horrid and exactly what happened to him and STILL tries to keep this fair and Sect Leader Yao under control. I really adore all of those people, oh God. I mean, not all. Not Sect Leader Yao. He's a piece of work.)) I love Nie Mingjue and Jin Guangyao. I'd never be mean to them. But the previous tags include the words 'speech check' and now I can't help thinking about 3zun as some weirdly escalating DnD session and I think I need help.

So my verdict is as follows: Eventually, they'd all be really good at it, if we think of a universe where they pass these speech checks and end up together. They'd want each other to feel good, which is a good starting point, and they know each other well.

I think Jin Guangyao would have restraints. I don't see him calling someone names during sex, even if that person would want that. I think he's heard too much of that in a very bad way to do that and wouldn't be able to separate real demeaning behaviour from play.

I think Lan Xichen would take too much care of the others and too little of himself, meaning they have to make sure he gets what he needs. At least at first. I like to think he'd learn to be a little selfish and the other two would just LOVE it when that happens.

I think Nie Mingjue would be extremely careful. He's strong and he knows he's not mentally okay. He'd have a hard time relaxing and letting himself fall. When he does, he'd be very passionate and probably an incredible lover.

In essence, I think all three would be extremely good at providing the other two pleasure and borderline horrible at chasing their own.

I can't believe those are words I have typed.

Malding abt that 3zun sex poll again. Come the fuck on guys just bc JGY knows the most about sex does not mean he's the best in bed. Like sure he knows the most about the physical act but emotionally this means the opposite in his case. He grew up in a brothel with, textually, really terrible worker protections. One of his fundamental character traits is accepting the way violence trickles down in society as a fact of life. He's the most likely out of all of them to have a panic attack in the middle of the act. All of them have "sex is inherently exploitative" worms to some extent but JGY's worms are the most material and specific. Nielan are inexperienced and skittish jocks the biggest problem you will have is calming them down enough to get them to consider that they can perhaps ethically fuck and then getting LXC to communicate consistently enough. Sleeping with JGY is a Silent Hill boss fight every time. He's not even significantly more experienced than Nielan he is NOT sleeping around. Come the fuck on. JGY may understand the mechanics of the act but he's the lay that gives you mental illnesses

Okay, listen. I never read WiPs because I got invested in too many of them before they were discontinued. I have no idea what possessed me to open this one first BUT I AM SO GLAD I DID and you should, too.

This fic takes a somewhat different direction regarding what will happen with Shi Qingxuan after canon, and it's believable and brilliantly executed.

Go on. If you like Beefleaf and slow burn and HELL I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW THIS IS GOING TO END but I think it'll be fine because if it isn't I'll cry ... Anyway, if you like those things, then read it.

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Soon We'll Be Found - Chapter 1 - bluberryblurays - 天官赐福 - 墨香铜臭 | Tiān Guān Cì Fú - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù [Archive of Our Own]

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Dye Their Flowers With My Blood - From That Eternal Silence

Trust is not a prerequisite for an alliance.

I'm currently watching the MDZS donghua with my Mom - and yes, I'll make a list of her opinions again when we're done, but my schedule right now is crazy, so I don't get to sit down in peace as much as I'd like.

This isn't about that. This is about me warning her that I'll sit her through The Untamed, eventually. (Assuming I'll survive this. Every time Jin Guangyao shows up on the screen a beam at him, actually whooped in his first scene because it's so, so late in the donghua and WHAT AN ENTRANCE THEY GAVE MY LITTLE GUY, and I've said I adore that man. She's going flay me alive because she's not going to feel the same way.) She's all for it, but I warned her that the special effects are ... ahem. Not it.

Her response: Is it phallactite-level bad?

Me, trying to process this question for a minute and failing: WHAT-level bad?!

Her giving me a huge grin: You know, pallactite. Like the one from Kirk.

It took another hot minute for me to get what she meant, but then I told her that I knew she was okay with the horrible effects and props from Star Trek, but it's one thing in a no-budget 60s show and another in a modern one so I wanted to warn her. I also said the props and costumes and what not are good and SOME of the effects are, too, but she shouldn't think too much about how physics work most of the time.

(Look up the scene in 'What Are Little Girls Made Of' with a stalactite. Or just look for Kirk and stalactite. The scene is about a minute. If you find a still of Kirk holding a huge, unfortunately shaped prop - yes, that is, in fact, a real still.)

Now keep your fingers crossed that I live long enough to do this.

CBR

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Couples like Ash and Eiji from Banana Fish and No. 6's Nezumi and Shion showcase the best examples of LGBTQ+ relationships in anime.

Look who's first! Come on, they deserve more than 12 episodes at a time where they couldn't even show their kiss without an arm getting in the way.

Avenge the Living, Heal the Dead

New Chapter:

Shi Qingxuan wants to go back to his investigation, and since he can't stop him without sitting on him, He Xuan does his best to be helpful.

If anyone ever wonders why I left the Abramamitic religions behind me in favour of some weird form agnostic omnism with strong pagan leanings, read the answers to that one. So much earnestness for what can't be proven, so much fervour for old story books. Oh boy. With someone who hasn't done this entire Catholic thing any more for almost two decades, this is bizarre.

I mean. I did consider myself Catholic, I even considered joining a convent, but it NEVER occurred to me to call pagans satanic or any such things. This is the kind of attitude that turned me off the whole thing. (Apart from the bits that say 'I am the only god' and 'I am jealous of all the other gods that TOOOOTALLY don't exist' thing that makes ZERO sense and is toxic af. I don't want anything to do with jealous people, human or otherwise, they can stay the hell away from me. I ain't doing this.)

That the person in question is not even Christian doesn't matter. All three are the same thing to me. Same sky daddy, same arbitrary rules that made some sense back in the day and none now, same fervour in the followers that gobble up what they're fed by the higher-ups in their particular brand of the 'I love you but if you step a toe out of line I'll destroy you even beyond death' cult. They were when I liked them and they are when I'm glad to be out.

Boy. I really don't like them any more it seems.

Edit: I mean, it's poetic, in a way. I used to wear a gold chain with a small cross, Star of David, and crescent to signify that they have the same value and worth, and then I started, little by little, to resent all three. That process took many years. And then, one day, my chain broke. I was really sad and decided to have it fixed. I noticed in time and didn't lose any of the pendants. I never had it fixed. I know now I never will. The broken chain is a symbol in itself. I am lost to them and they are to me.

really recommend getting a partner with a different religion than you and very little knowledge of your religion because the opportunities for explaining things to each other are just exquisite

Dye Their Flowers With My Blood

A solar eclipse, a curse, and the age-old question: Why are we here? Having died twice already adds a certain urgency to that one.

(I have reached the half-way mark in my YOI project, and I needed a moment to collect myself. This one has been a long time coming.)

Yeah this is gonna be something I'll reblog any time it shows up in my feed because it's so wholesome. I love them.

happy valentines day! have some happy 3zun, based on a lovely moment from the Good Mornin'! sequence in Singin In The Rain :)