The Inherent Shame Of Beginning… Dont Look At Me While I Learn

exactly how are people supposed to end a conversation? i just ended a zoom call by saying “welp. looks like Death is calling on me again. gotta go my dudes. see y’all in hell” and ended the meeting with peace signs and finger guns but something tells me that was The Wrong Way.

was bored and decided to make a pjo boys misogyny scale

OOP THERE IT IS

it’s a harmful “every man for himself” kind of mentality. we’re shown that even if we ask for help we won’t be given it. like - for example - it took how long did it take to get a covid relief package???

The U.S. adores the concept of “individual responsibility” so long as it excuses society from taking any responsibility for the individual

Taylor Swift and Fall Out Boy both have said "you are what you love", and it's such a strange lyric to me.

Taylor Swift said it in "Daylight", where she sings

I wanna be defined by the things that I love

Not the things I hate

Not the things that I'm afraid of, I'm afraid of

Not the things that haunt me in the middle of the night

I, I just think that

You are what you love

Fall Out Boy has it in the middle of their song "Save Rock at Roll"

You are what you love

Not who loves you

In a world full of the word 'yes'

I'm here to scream

I think this lyric is so wierd. I didn't understand it the first time I heard it (on the FOB song, circa 2014). I'd defined so much of my existence around being loved by other people. I thought that was what normal people wanted. Why wouldn't they? Being loved by others is a fulfilling high. An emotional rush or endorphins. The ultimate goal. Right?

But these songs both reject that attitude. They both touch the story of someone who "trouble seems to follow". This is a person who has been in the dark and has now found the light. For FOB, I think the "light" comes from music, hence the chorus and title "Save Rock and Roll". But for Swift, the "light" comes from loving someone whose love for her is "golden".

That seems like character growth for both, but not completely. FOB went on hiatus for a number of reasons, but musical differences were a part of it. They nearly broke up because of the music, but they got back together because of it too. Swift was hurt by who she loved in the past, and became jaded as a result. But this new "golden" love could prove to be just as flawed over time.

So we are what we love. Swift is a romantic. FOB are musicians. Despite how those things have hurt them in the past, they can't help it. It's who they are. It doesn't matter if those things fade away for a time, they'll always find their way back. It took me 7 years to figure that out.

You are what you love, too. So what are you?

i cant wait to be old for one reason and one reason only: young people adopting me :D

current ko-fi goal is "Taking My Grandma Out For A Nice Dinner As A Thank You For All She Does For Me"

(there's no punchline, I just really like my grandma)

something as beau as this only comes around once in a life time. savor it

may i add

- "I'm two quarters and a heart down, and I don't want to forget how your voice sounds."

Fall Out Boy lyrics that make me feel things(part 1):

- "I don't know where you're going, but to you got room for one more troubled soul?"

- "'Til tonight do us part"

- "They say quitters never win, but we walked the plank on a sinking ship"

- "And all my thoughts of you, they could heat or cool the room"

- "The best way to make it through with hearts and wrists intact is to realize two out of three ain't bad"

- "I confessed to you riding shotgun underneath the purple skies"

- " Just off the key of reason I thought I loved you, but it's just how you looked in the light"

- "I'm a stitch away from making it, and a scar away from falling apart "

- "The glow of the cities below lead us back to the places that we never should have left"

- "We only do it for the scars and stories, not the fame"

- "Did you ever love her, do you know? Or did you never want to be alone?"

genderqueer problems #2

getting so used to misgendering yourself around people you aren’t out to that you start to do it with people are out to