Does Anyone Know How To Stop The Yearning And Longing And Lingering And The Desire And Obsession. Please.

the dumbest smart person i know

[jan 2025]

my viktor arcane appreciation post

jv sketches... I'm figuring them out

man of progress

oh boy i wish someone would notice my cries for help! [someone actually notices] noooo i'm fine don't worry about me

Does anyone else feel lonesome?

Not lonely. Not alone. Just... lonesome. Like you don't feel connected to anyone. Like you never feel that you will find anyone that understands you, that will see you truly, let alone someone who will even like you. You see friends everywhere, but you don't see yourself in their place, like that is not for you, like you're not made for that and that's not made for you. You see people having fun and laughing and dancing and getting drunk and falling in love and you just... don't feel that for yourself. Like you're not supposed to have that, like you can't because it's not for you and you're not for it.

Like you're supposed to be seeing all these beautiful things in the world but not experience them yourself. Like you want to experience so much, experience everything, but be overwhelmed by it so you don't do any of it.

Like you want to be everywhere and do everything, but you don't belong anywhere and can't do anything. Like you're not supposed to be here. Not in a self-deprecating way but in an incongruous way. You want to live you want to be alive, but you feel you're not supposed to be. Not here at least, not like this. Just a presence in the world, not an active member of it. Even your body doesn't feel like home, your face isn't a face you recognise, like you're not supposed to have either. Like you're just supposed to be.

Like you're supposed to observe, but not experience.

People who drive small cars in the US have balls of steel. (Here'a my car compared to the sort of pickups I see every day) (website is carsized.com)

The American method to car safety really is My Car is Bigger So It Wins The Crash.

And people drive these things like fucking maniacs. Every time I get behind the wheel I need to get into the headspace that literally everyone on the road is out to kill me. The lack of airbags combined with the fact everyone's driving fucking tanks at 60mph means I can kiss the world goodbye if I get into a wreck. If I disappear, assume I was plowed by Brad in his Ram 2500 while he was distracted stuffing a burger in his face.

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