Rest In Peace Neil Perry. It’s Such A Shame You Never Got To Watch Perks Of Being A Wallflower. You

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Also similar to this, but does anyone have any reading recs on isolation, loneliness and paranoia that stems from it? Anything similar to how isolation breeds a rather burdening imagination, paranoia, further distance. Fiction, non fiction, articles, essays, poems; I'll take anything

I was listening to the audiobook of The Secret History and realised something: Lafourge says that Richard would be isolated from everyone from the campus once he joins Julian's class, which Richard dismisses. Despite him going to college parties and being acquaintances with Judy, he truly has no one but the classics group. This becomes incredibly evident in the winter he spends in Hampden, having no one to go to for shelter—the result of him choosing to be with the greek class. His isolation takes form of the cold he endured during that time because there is no one he can go to. In the end, it is Henry who saves him, pulling him back into the caverns of the group, and his alienation.

It reminds me of a house that teens would sneak into on a warm Autumn’s day

this blue house feels so cozy yet i have never been inside it

“Hindi, like Gaelic, is a colonised space. It is a language complete in itself, with its own history, literature, poetry and tradition. But more than sixty-five years after Indian independence, it has been surrounded and absorbed by English, so among the Indian middle classes it is no longer a prestige language. It is the vernacular, the language one speaks at home; one does not use it to write to the tax office, nor take one’s degree. So if it doesn’t matter if it’s not perfect – if it doesn’t matter if a noun is masculine or feminine; if a verb falls to be transitive in the past perfect; if you just use the English word, because who can remember the Hindi for mathematics or apartment or transubstantiation – then for all I wage my small battle, we’re losing the war. To speak our language perfectly – to choose to do so, despite decades of colonial influence – is another political act.”

— “A’ghailleann”, Iona Sharma. (via a-witches-brew)

art will save you, being unreasonably passionate about something niche will save you, letting past sources of joy show you the way back to yourself will save you, earnestness over composure will save you, the natural world will save you, caring for something bigger than yourself will save you, daring to be seen will save you, kindness not as a whim but a principle will save you, appreciation as a practice will save you, daring to try something new will save you, grounding will save you, love will save you, one good nights sleep will save you

Christa Wolf, from “Cassandra: A Novel and Four Essays”

Florence and The Machine, from “Cassandra”

was at the minster + saw a class of school children laying on the floor looking at all the architecture 💌

Some of my playlists ;)

funky songs- for when you feel like dancing with your friends after quarantine :)

melancholy - for lying on your bed and staring at the candlelight, with night slowly creeping its way into the sky

classical - classical music for your sad self

vivid - when you want to feel like you’re in a coming-of-age movie that’s slightly indie and slightly pop

surrealism- when you feel like you’re in an empty, nostalgic hotel sitting by the drained pool and wondering where you’re going next

suburban gothic - for when you want to drive to the desolate towns as an escape but take yourself into a dark underworld, attempting to unravel the knots of your past life. 

d/l academia - a mix of dark and light academia songs for when you want to feel like someone from a Donna Tartt novel yet more lighthearted and whimsical. 

songs I could listen to on repeat/my favorites- a mix of nostalgic songs from childhood and current songs

abstract- my take on Possibly in Michigan with a slight twist; more indie, rock

lofi- lofi songs

june bug- my take on cottagecore aesthetic; when you feel like you want to run away to the country and sit by the meadows

Gothic- songs that fit Victorian Era Gothic aesthetic; blood red curtains, splitting moonlight, ivory ballrooms, distant shadows

Vintage- old songs I really like

Jean Paul Gaultier spring/summer 1999

“But as fire engulfed the sacred site on Monday, Catholics across the world reacted in horror and disbelief, particularly when the cathedral’s iconic spire toppled amid the flames.” - CNN, 4/15/19