Ah my mind is too much for me right now so let’s see, what should I ramble about? Ah I can’t think of anything at the moment so this is gonna be one of those existential crises posts. This will include topics that may trigger readers so please do not read if you think this will affect you. This is your final warning, please do not continue reading as this deals with mature topics and sad feelings.
Okay. Here I go. How do people live knowing they will one day die? It took me a while to fully understand that I wanted to live and now I’m scared of death. I really hope there is an afterlife. If there isn’t I guess the point of life is the experience itself. We’re all headed to the same place in the end. I guess one thing that helps is that I won’t be alone in facing it as this is something we all will face. I don’t know how to deal with this viewpoint. When I go out I just see the ending making it hard to enjoy the present. And I guess the ending scares me. But I shouldn’t let that stop me from enjoying myself. Life is beautiful. If there is nothing after the end that would honestly be a damn shame. Experience can be overloading, good, bad, it’s just a whole mess. But I love it, I love being able to feel, to connect, and be with other beings. So I guess I pray to whichever entity I believe in that they do exist. Cause I don’t want this to be the end.
Ah okay I guess this helped me get rid of some thoughts. Have a wonderful day/night.
Apologies for bothering but I just realized I have two more shows to offer up. Though idk if you’d like them. It’s The Good Bad Mother and Move to Heaven. They’re both kdramas and really good in my opinion. The first is about a mother who ends up having to take care of her son after he was in a car crash. The second is about trauma cleaners. Both have really good found family vibes.
I promise you are not bothering me at all, especially not with things like this!
I’m adding these both to my watchlist right now.
Are you ever too busy monologuing a story in your head that you realize you didn’t actually pay attention to the scene that just played out in the show? You just kinda go off on a side story or tangent with the characters and then are just like, ah damn what’d I miss?
Do you see my vision?
Okay okay I just watch Color Rush 2 and (spoilers included) hear me out.
Poly. That’s all I really want to say. What if, all three of them just start going out. I think it’d be fun. But also, I just, I don’t think the way they see colors would be like that. I don’t think seeing colors would automatically be euphoria or anything, like yes I enjoy colors but hearing about colors would probably make them sound fantasy like with how others would stress over how much better it is but it’s not like seeing in grayscale is bad. Like okay I’m sorry but I think it’d be way more overwhelming and headache inducing to suddenly see more colors. It’d be interesting but something someone has to get used to, and there’d be a disconnect for a while. Anyway, sorry I have a lot of thoughts about how the shock of being bombarded with differing visuals would take a toll (listen I know he faints the first few times but also like I don’t think seeing colors would automatically be magical. I think it’d be more nauseating for a while there.) ahem, okay yeah still love it I just, lots of what-ifs, you know (and it’s super interesting to me, these aspects)? Anyway yeah poly, I think it’d be cute. Do I think they’d all get along? No. I think they’d need to get used to it first but I would love to see how they would interact with each other. Yo I’m just imagining so many different scenarios. Clearly the first things that happens when (I don’t remember any of their names) the guy (the probe? one) shows back up without a mask and both the others faint. I just, man I think it’d fun. Okay I’m done rambling for now. I’ve got sooo much shit to do but this makes me feel happy so yeah. Have a good day/night!
Guess who’s sick and feels like shit!
I may have just binge watched this show and I freaking love it. It is incredibly difficult for me to find gifs of it unfortunately.
Got Jirayu as Race in BAD GUYS (2022)
Okay so I’m watching Circle: Two Worlds Connected and oh my goodness I love this freaking show. It is soooo much all the time. The fucking mystery and the way the story is layer out ajdjdhdjdidndjdkdkdj. It’s so freaking good and whenever I figure something out before it happens I’m just like yes! I did it but also noooooo fuck no please don’t be that. Gah I fucking love it it’s so fucking painful I just wanna know everything already. Anyway uh it’s just a really good show, highly recommend. I’m currently on episode 8 so uh, gonna get back to it. Have a wonderful day/night!
Do we submit reasons for the poll characters here? If not then sorry for the long character spiel.
I know there’s hardly any time left for this but I just wanted to send this in to protect one of my comfort characters. Guo Changcheng. For the greenest flag category. So he’s basically just a literal puppy. Thrown to the wolves on his first day of work, he tries hard to connect and help out his coworkers. Clumsy and a bit lost most times, he will do his best to cheer anyone up. Constantly taking notes so that he can be of better help and being the one who always comforts others. He tries his absolute hardest to learn so that he can protect his friends, so much so that it can be detrimental to himself. Has literally pushed through death defying experiences and injuries just to give strangers comfort. (Next part could spoil but only if one knows the show. I don’t think it spoils anything with the way it’s written but just want to write this just in case.) He won’t let you die alone, even if it kills him.
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Sometimes I’ll get feedback on a piece of work but the way it’s said feels like a diss. So eventually I take it as a challenge. Either a by heeding the advice or challenging it completely. Too childish? Too simple? Does that make it wrong? How does that affect the piece? Does it invalidate the piece? Can it add to the message? Essentially fuck you professor I’ll find a way to make it work and simultaneously piss you off.
I happen to like my professors it’s just sometimes I wonder why something is deemed wrong and want to find a workaround. I know they don’t mean it to be rude but anger is a motivation and I will find a way to make this work. Too simple? I’ll remake the piece but does simplicity make the original work bad? Or is it not realistic enough for this specific assignment? Just somethings I think about.
My rambles about My Golden Blood episode 1.
Im sorry but you can’t get me to believe that he never so much as scraped his knee as a kid or got a paper cut. Dude. Ain’t no way.
I don’t think the way they went about trying to keep him safe would work. Especially not on a kid.
Oh ok then. I guess if there are healing abilities then that could help but you still can’t tell me he never got a paper cut. Paper can be so evil.
Ah yes, the door wide open is magically closed when Nakan comes upstairs.
I fucking love it man. So so much. If it seems like I’m criticizing, I’m not. I just highly enjoy teasing people and I just think it’s fun to think about stuff. Especially world building, but like very brief world building I do not go that deeply just whatever brings me joy in the moment.
Aaaaaaaahhh I can’t wait into the next episode. Love vampires.
But also, what show did I watch where one of the main characters had the same medical condition that Tong was told he had? Ah that’s it. I remember now. Legends of Tomorrow. That’s how I know it.
Random thoughts:
How do people recognize others? I rely heavily on hairstyles. I rely on hair a lot. After a while I’ll start to recognize faces but mainly it’s hair. I watched Scott Pilgrim versus the world the other day and it took me a good few minutes to recognize the ex’s boyfriend as the same actor as Adam from legends of tomorrow. Ah let me give another example, last twilight and vice versa have the same leading actors. I watched last twilight and then vice versa but I didn’t recognize either actor until a good way through the first episode. During the pandemic, if someone changed their hair I would have no idea who they were. For one, masks so I can’t even try to recognize facial features and for two, if the hair changes I don’t recognize them. I know facial blindness and other stuff exists. I wonder what all other stuff there is though. The more I see a person the easier it is to recognize them but still, the hair comes first in recognition and then the facial structure. Well that’s just what my brains thinking about tonight. Have a wonderful day/night!