It’s Really Weird To Me That My Life Is MY Life. Like, It Could Have Been Someone Else’s Life, But

I had been speaking to my coworker, and then I had to leave, but she called my name and I turned and was like “What?” and she just smiled and happily said “Love you”

does she know how much she melted my heart with that? It was so pure??? and wholesome??? and just so out of the blue like sweetie honey are you really out here making me happy with just two words?? I keep thinking about it because it really was just the cutest thing. And I’m not even that close to her. She’s my friend but I never thought I meant that much to her and then she’s just out here casually dropping affection and I’m just

anyways

My friend wasn’t texting me back for three days when she usually only takes two hours at most, so I was getting worried about her and kind of low-key figured well maybe she got tired of you, but then she got in touch and told me that her phone wasn’t working and that she didn’t want me to worry, and then she said that she missed me because she wasn’t able to respond to my texts, and that just made me smile a lot.

Edit: It turns out she wasn’t getting my texts at all, BUT THE POINT STILL STANDS SHE WAS STILL MISSING ME AND I STARTED MISSING HER TOO

Miss Privet is such a savage, Dame Devin asked her for a proper introduction and all she said was “Students, Dame Devin” and walked off. What a queen.

I finished Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo at one this morning, and wow, what a ride. That money was well spent. I will have to bide my time before I can go raid another bookstore.

The one time I ever got caught passing notes in class left me very confused, because it had been reading time and the teacher always let us do our own thing as long as we were quiet, so while she was reading, I gave the girl next to me a note saying that I liked her drawing. She wrote back with another compliment, and we just exchanged them back and forth a few times before the teacher suddenly snapped up the paper and read it. She often read notes out loud to the class, but she didn’t that time, and then she told us to not write notes again. Excuse me, miss, this is READING TIME AND YOU ARE INTERRUPTING THE CLASS BY STOPPING A COMPLIMENT EXCHANGE

I always think of Dazai whenever I hear “Demolition Lovers” by My Chemical Romance, because, y’know, yeah

My ultimate romantic fantasy: being accepted flaws and all

Not because of them, not despite them, just an acknowledgement that yeah, they exist, and that doesn’t stop commitment.

My ex best friend literally thought it was “cute” that her boyfriend got jealous when she talked to her guy friends, and when she first told me that, I immediately told her that was a red flag. Well guess why they broke up? Because of his jealousy. And then they decided to get back together three days later even though he was moving away in a month and they wouldn’t be trying long distance. Her whole identity and self-confidence hinged on that relationship and I honestly found it all so pathetic.

This is why I don’t trust straight relationships.

“good 4 u” by Olivia Rodrigo but platonically, because I’m still mad at my ex-best friend.

This Valentine’s Day we all need an inspiring rival who we share values and insane competitive tension with. There should be services for acquiring a nice glamorous nemesis, just saying. I am deprived.