The Spideypool Soul Mark AU That Lives In My Head Lmao  

A Life Partner for Dean

Ugh, these two break my soul sometimes! Just thinking about what Dean's looking for in a love interest.  I think most of us can agree that love is a prominent theme currently and that there are a lot of indicators pointing to the fact that Dean is thinking about having someone in his life.  Someone to love. Personally, I feel that at this point in his life Dean is not looking for your typical love interest, especially after that episode where he attended the chastity group and said some pretty interesting things about his one night stands and always with the "adios." Dean has had a life time of sex and one night stands.  Sex was always one of his fun "go to" things to do.  Something he enjoyed, but now that he's older and after some poor experiences and the weight of always being alone after, sex doesn't seem that important to him at the moment.  There has been a distinct lack of it in the past few seasons to kind of support that. I feel that Dean is looking for not so much someone to just love....  I feel Dean is looking for a life partner. Literally, a partner in crime for life.   I think he is looking for someone who accepts him for who he is and who won’t back away, someone strong and who he trusts, someone who appreciates him and who he connects with, someone who understands him, even empathizes with him in some ways and won’t make him change, someone who wants to, can, and WILL spend the rest of their life with him.   I just see him wanting someone in his life who will ride off into the sunset with him, quietly in the passenger seat, enjoying each others' company while Baby plays some rock.  Someone who when he's done reading something, he goes to switch off the light next to him and glances over and someone is there, sleeping.  Someone who he can count on to be there with him for the remainder of their life. And I just can't help, but picture Cas in all of this.  :(  I just picture the two of them...   They'd be the kind of couple you meet on the street and you can instantly tell they're together and that they love each other on the deepest of levels, but they give no indication otherwise.  They don't look at each other, they don't touch each other.  They don't need to, but there just seems to be this unseen entity surrounding them, bonding them together profoundly and you just know.  And they know.   Ugh, sorry for my feels, they're just killing me!!!   As always, don't take anything I say to heart.  Just my ponderings, reflections, and feelings.  :)

I honestly have no idea what this movie would even be about, but Human Kite and the Coon in the Cupid Me movie :P  looks dramatic

LMAO  I just realized in the new Spiderman/Deadpool issue, Wade literally made them drive in a heart shaped loop on their road trip at some point.  It’s in the center of his map XD  This series is a treasure in so many ways

So I make very few posts, and I try to stay away from things that are hot topics because I dislike conflict, but this idea..... we have all these awesome headless statues hanging around the U.S. right now, Halloween is approaching, and I hate to be wasteful... anyone wanna put pumpkins on these fellows and just have a bunch of potential headless horseman statues instead? They can all be holding one of those sticks with the horse heads on it to ride on

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IF YOU SHOULD BEG by @xenovillain

I love the story and characterisation so much, very excited to see how this ends

This hit so perfect for me since I grew up on Godzilla, my dad introduced it to me and it's something we watch all the time. My family jokes that he kind of looks like Godzilla too (big, grouchy looking stare, inhumanly strong). When I came out as ftm, this is almost exactly what he did for me! This video is gonna hold a special spot in my heart <3

this is so sweet 🥺🥺🥺

Demon!Dean Brings Us Closer to Destiel!!!!! :D

So I see a lot of people are upset that Dean's a demon and that Destiel seems far away.     I personally feel like it's actually gotten closer, especially if you believe in the Dean/Cain parallels.   Dean wasn't a demon yet so he wasn't truly paralleling Cain.  Now that he's become a demon, we can actually have that parallel.   Now Cas is supposed to represent Collette in this parallel (I'd like to think we agree) and Collette loved Cain despite what he was.  We know that Cas has seen Dean at his worst in Hell, but I'm willing to bet that most casual watchers don't really remember that.  So having Dean actually as 100% demon is going to put him even further down than he was when Cas found him in Hell.   When Cas finds Dean and still accepts him and loves him even as a demon, then the audience will be reminded that Cas accepts Dean even at his worst, Cas' love for Dean will be even more epic, and when Cas breaks the MoC hold on Dean while he's FULLY demon and not just under the influence of the blade it's going to be SOOOOOOO much more powerful and undeniable.   I mean, we have a hard time dealing with their love as it is... Can you imagine if it just gets deeper?  It's going to make half the fandom just spontaneously combust in a gooey mess of feels.   I look forward to S10 :D

Am I just going to be feminine forever or something?

Hey all, I wrote some months ago about my concerns over lack of results while on testosterone. Giving an update here and to check back and see if anyone has any new input because I'm trying to stay patient and positive, but it's mega frustrating to be about 2 yrs on T and still be misgendered as female by the general public. :( Especially when I get referred to as "young lady" and my cis female coworkers get misgendered as "young boy." They don't look like boys at all, like they have long pretty hair and wear make up (they aren't very curvy or big chested but still), I don't get it. It sucks for all of us.

I have about 4 hairs on my chin and the barest of hints of fuzz on my upper lip. Granted, my brpther also has a hard time growing facial hair too so I'm not super surprised. My voice, while less chipmunk, is still very feminine. I still have a "soft" looking face and very feminine body (curvy with hips). My clit is still pretty tiny and I am STILL getting my period.

My endocrinologist has no idea why I'm still getting my period. Saw a gynocologist and she doesn't know. So now I have an IUD in to help with it, and while it helps with the amount of blood, I am STILL menstruating and I've had it in for almost half a year now. I've had tons of ultrasounds and they all come back normal. All of my bloodwork comes back low estrogen and high testosterone, but I'm not seeing hardly any effects.

I'm hopefully getting top surgery done within the next year so maybe that will help me not be misgendered so much... and then maybe I'll get around to finally ripping out my uterus and stuff.

So, consensus? Maybe I'm just always going to be feminine no matter what I do. I'll make peace with it if that's what it's going to be, but I really want to be at least recognizable...

Am I just being impatient? Is something wrong or is this just going to be who I am? Should I consult my endo about it some more? Anyone else have these results?

I'll stop whining/ranting now.

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