Me, doing mental math to figure out if it's IT, Stranger Things, I am Not Okay With This, or none of the above: Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yeessss
sitting in class and no one knows I'm thinking about gay boys from the 80s
"The fitness gram pacer test is-" but it's just me talking about birds for far too long.
When I say that I don't want to exist right now, that doesn't mean i want to die. Not to me it doesn't. All it means is I want to disconnect from myself. To not feel my own emotions, to not hear my brain rile on and on, to not feel my skin on my body, to not feel, to not hear, to not taste, to not smell, to not see but still observe. I don't want to be interacted with like a person when I wish to not exist. I wish to a narrator, a viewer, a camera-man. I wish that I could fast forward to when this was a memory. I know it may seem concerning, or maybe a bit outlandish, but it makes sense to me. I want to not be there but still be there. I want to not be acknowledged by anyone and to simply watch. Watch others experience what's happening. And I want to not experience it. I don't want it. I just want to sit in the corner and watch. But when someone's in the corner watching, someone has to whisper. Has to ask questions. Has to make me exist. I don't want that. I don't want to exist, but I don't want to die either. It does make sense to me, but not everyone is me. I don't mind that either. But I want to be able to say that I am not existing and for people to understand. For them to not be concerned about the kid in the corner. About the guy sitting in silence. About your suspiciously quiet friend. I am simply not for now, and I hope you can accept that.
I need this but I can't draw for shit (don't have the motivation) PLEAsE SOMEONE DRAW IT
Ostrich meme 1
sadly likes my own post in my despaired midnight state except it's not midnight.
the most "don't judge a book by it's cover" bitches ever are the ones with a resting bitch face but act like such a sunshine and/or richie tozier
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it's me. I'm bitches.
you just got press crow'd. reblog to instantly press crow your friends
don't worry abt me using no nicknames for literally no reason
They were supposed to last longer than Mat...
I'm mean, at least Ash hasn't... oh wait...
Just a peep doing what I want cuz that chaotic tumblr energy makes me feel sparkly! Call me Ozzy!
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