Orphic-studies - Orphic

Just starting to work on a large pile of pending work...

...while listening to this:-

in my richard papen era (failing academics, falling out with friends, living for the pretentious aesthetics of it all)

03/08/24

Played half an hour of chess

Read 123 pages of The Secret History

Studied Latin for an hour

While listening to:-

Anne Sexton, from a letter featured in Anne Sexton; A Self-Portrait In Letters

Just a tired old cliche…

I’m 23 years old and just waking up to the fact that I will never achieve what I thought I would. The person I am now is so vastly different from that smart and talented 16 year old with so much potential.

tumblr user @raenprabhaker // tumblr user @ritikajyala //Alias, Regret // Taylor Swift, “this is me trying” // Comment by Pinterest user Inatoli // Taylor Bickett, “Quarter Life Crisis” // Taylor Swift, “right where you left me” // my notes app diary // tumblr user @jb-blunk // Alias, Regret // Taylor Bickett, “Quarter Life Crisis” // tumblr user @ritikajyala

𝕸𝖚𝖗𝖉𝖊𝖗'𝖘 𝖆𝖘 𝖓𝖊𝖆𝖗 𝖙𝖔 𝖑𝖚𝖘𝖙 𝖆𝖘 𝖋𝖑𝖆𝖒𝖊 𝖙𝖔 𝖘𝖒𝖔𝖐𝖊.

"And you ask yourself: Where are your dreams? And you shake your head and say: How quickly do the years fly by! And again you ask yourself: What have you done with your years? Where have you buried your best days? Did you live or not?"

It has been a long week, a disappointing series of days. Yet... there is more incoming. Staying on to see the storm through.

from Simone Weil’s Pre-War Notebook

When I say I'm Henry Winter, I don't mean that I'm a murderer or a villain. I mean that I isolate myself by not answering the door sometimes, even when I'm home.